Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[Sunshine1576]

We,
I am stopping by to check on you tonight, please do try to get some rest. You have a wonderful team of support here. We're all pulling for you and praying Tuesday will bring you such good news. Remember too it's not over so we must remain strong! I truly believe God has such BIG plans for you and dh, sometimes we may face challenges that make absolutely no sense but we have to continue to have faith and put everything into His hands. Keeping you in my prayers, Christy

[Sunshine1576]

Today has been melancholy...Had a rough day at work with trying to shoot for the moon in making a ridulous sales plan and we end up having a HUGE internet return that literally killed us! I called my middle brother tonight to tell him I'm not able to his son's first birthday/Thanksgiving due to work and my appts. I have never been self-centered before, I'm one to always try putting others first before my life seriously ALWAYS and maybe that's why I feel so guilty tonight. I want to come home for the holidays, yet it's a 14 hour round trip, takes a day getting there and literally a day back so a weekend OFF from work wouldn't be enough in the first place. Second we're invisible with both sides of our family having kids of their very own so even though I LOVE them it's so depressing. Therefore I decided tonight we aren't coming home this year and I'm telling family now so theres NOT any surprises or last second guilt trips. Besides why does the holidays have to be all about drama can we not have family visits anytime throughout the year? Anyway, my brother and I are so close...him and his wife went through IVF to get their son. I tell them everything and they must somewhat understand that I changed jobs to have better flexibility with working weekends and some night shifts making it possible for my appointments. I just wish I could find a way to make everything work. Only a moment after I typed all of this...my older brother calls to tell me my 91 yr old grandmother is in the nursing home and the family is going through her house sorting things out...She doesn't know this and it breaks my heart because I know how bad she wants to come home. But because of her health she isn't able to and her daughter doesn't want to see the house deteroriate (msp) and also thinking it would help cut down the power bill to shut everything off. She's not telling my grandmother because she's fragile and couldn't handle the news. Why again do I have to live so far away, it's insane!

[Gina1976]

Sunshine- I know what you mean! My family and I are very close and wish I could be there for every little thing but we just can't. They are all in GA and I'm in Germany. It's darn expensive flying back to the states. We can take Space A flights but we are trying to save cause we'd still need a rental and all of that stuff plus DH isn't taking any more leave days until he retires so we have a nice long vacation before the "real world" hits us! lol

It's like my Mom doesn't understand. She won't fly at all so if I want to see her we have to go there. This summer we said it was our last trip there. My Dad came over to bring my son back because he stayed after us to visit longer. So we can't do this every time. Wish it were different because I love being "home".

You are right though, visiting family doesn't always have to be Holidays. It can be anytime of the year. Do what you need to for you and your DH.

[Tess69]

We - my goodness me! I think you've had your fair share of IVF rollercoasters. I'm so hoping that you get to turn this whole nightmare into a happy tale. Stay strong...I'll be thinking of you tomorrow.

Ninde - sometimes other women's stories really strike a chord and are very humbling. It must be incredibly hard for you coping with DH having MS and also going through IVF. You are obviously an amazingly strong woman.

Sunshine - you are so clever. I love the dress. When i was little, i was really close to my neighbour. I used to pop over almost every evening to keep her company and watch Coronation Street!

Bodie - a huge congrats to you. Well done you!

Lauren - I'm with you on the fat thing. I can't believe how much weight I've put on. Every time I hop on the scales I am shocked! I think it's a mixture of the hormones and the stress. I can't stop eating. I had dinner about half an hour ago and I'm already thinking about what to eat next.

Leora - DH and I have also been going to relationship counselling and having some life coach sessions. This year has really taken it's toll on us as a couple. We're making a real effort to plan and do things that we enjoy together. Take some time out, work on balance and perspective as a couple, and I'm sure everything will fall into place.

Anton - you win the POSITIVE PERSON AWARD hands down. You are incredible and you should always remember that. With some time and space, I'm sure DH will come around. You sound like you have such a gorgeous, caring relationship.

Tuffy - man, I'd like a friend who could do sneaky scans too Great news on the twinnies.

Kamina - I'm so sorry about your BFN. Any plans on where to from here or are taking some time out?

Neffi - i can't remember whether you were the person who was about to try traditional chinese medicine. I've got my first consultation on Weds. The person I'm seeing specialises in fertility treatment and uses a number of different techniques so should be interesting. She was highly recommended.

Kala - long-distance IVF. Isn't it amazing that we import and export livestock genetics all around the world and still your little tank of goodies gets questioned!

AFM - had an interesting dinner tonight. My SIL cooked pork tongue and it was delicious. That was a first for sure. Apologies to all those that don't eat little piggies.

I'm feeling a bit jaded today as New Zealand played the Australians last night as part of the RUgby World Cup. I think the whole nation stayed up late! We won...so next week is the final against France. I'm not much of a rugby head but this is getting pretty exciting.

Anyway lovely ladies, time for an early night. Sleep tight...or at least try to!

[Gina1976]

Thinking/Praying for all of you today.

[WeHaveHope]

Dear friends,
Here are a few inspirational quotes for this week. Remember, don't ever give up on your dreams. Please feel free to share your favorite quote today and everyday. We all need a little, sometimes alot, of inspiration, motivation, and encouragement. Sending you all much love. I hope you enjoy this weeks' quotes.

     

"Sometimes in tragedy we find our life's purpose - the eye sheds a tear to find its focus"-Robert Brault

"My God is my rock, in whom I take refuge,
He is my stronghold, my refuge and my savior"-2 Samuel 22:3

"A bend in the road is not the end of the road... unless you fail to make the turn".-Author Unknown

[tuffy4u]

Hello everyone, just checking in before I leave for my trip. Good luck to everyone this week. I'll be thinking of you all even though I wont be posting, (I can read the board just can't post).

We- thanks for the quotes, and take care of yourself. Will continue to pray for you and DH.

Kat

[Lauren319]

Ultrasound showed 2 follies on the left and 4 on the right, but it's still early. I'm hopeful that this one will work!!! The last canceled cycle I only had something like 2 at this point. Staying positive!

[Julia73]

Hi all. My name is julia and I'm new to ivf and to these boards in general. I had a tl 11 years ago, met the love of my life who had no children and wanted one DESPERATELY. I did not want to have the tl but at the time it was necessary as my life was a mess. DH is 51 with a vas. and we began this journey last august. I am currently on fsh day 3, DH had mesa on 10/3. Our suppression check was a nightmare for me, on the way home we received a call from one of the ivf nurses saying my est. level was 70 and needed to be under 50. I hadn't even considered that it would not work out. But God had His hand on us and the next day was able to start fsh when AF came along. Never thought id be happy about AF in my whole life! I was ecstatic. I have alot if concerns and fears about this whole thing. I'm such a wimp when it comes to pain! I'm getting better at the injections but am almost afraid to move in fear of ovarian torsion. I'm not complaining,i promise. I am more than greatly blessed to even have this opportunity and I recognize that. Just wondering if anyone out there has advice for a newbie. Gl to all, and God bless!

[WeHaveHope]

It's all over.  I wasn't feeling well and went to the ER.  Gestational Sac is now gone and Hcg level went from over 4200 yesterday to about 1,700 today.  I don't understand any of this.  I really don't.

[leorira11]

oh Maria -- I'm so so so sorry....

[Lauren319]

We- I'm so sorry, hun. I wish I had the right words to say. Cry, scream, do whatever needs to be done. I'll be here checking in on you. Are you in pain? Can you take anything? I personally crawl in bed and sleep through those days, but I don't know how much of a help that is. Wish I could give you a hug.

Leora - you're posting! I missed you. How's the food poisoning? Feeling better? Did you get anywhere in your discussions with DH? I have to agree with the girls when they told you that DH doesn't really have a right to tell you where to get your support. I understand if talking about the boards is driving him crazy, but then he can request you not talk about it as often, but not that you cut it out.

[LauraN]

Maria- I am so very sorry! I was MIA all weekend, but just got caught up on everything. I don't understand it either, everything seemed to be working so well. I know there is some plan for you, but geez, I wish for you that you knew it upfront so that you could deal with it all easier. I really don't know what to say, there are no words that can make you feel better. The only thing to do is feel the emotion that you are feeling, let it out, cry it out, do whatever you need to. Again, I am so sorry! I am praying for you and your DH for clarity and peace.

Love,
Laura

[Ninde]

Hello ladies

Oh We: im so so sorry. I dont understand it either and you sound totally numb. Are you in pain? Is your dh with you? I dont know what to say to you because im afraid that anything I say is going to sound trite. But please know I am thinking of you and my heart is with you x

Sunshine1576: yesterday sounds like it was really tough. You also sound to be someone who deeply cares about others and that you rarely put yourself first. Im sorry that its been hard on you in terms of work and also saying to your family that you wont be there. But I really do think that you must do what's right for you, its a hell of a long trip for you and you have such a busy work life. I hope they understand your decision but if they dont then leave it with them.

Tess69; thank you so much for your kind words. Great win for the all blacks. We in ireland are massive rugby fans and have been watching it all despite the time difference.

Lauren319: how are the termites? Oh that's so great about the follies

Tuffi: have a great trip


Julia73: welcome. This is a great bunch of women so ask any questions you have

I hope I havnt missed anyone. Im sorry if I did.

Afm: I've spent most of today working on my workshop for tomorrow around happiness as an essential tool in self care for social workers and social care workers and therapists, etc. Its about working with our strengths and also building joy and resiliance and spirituality, connection and courage and compassion into our lives. There is no question that all of the women on this board are wonderful epitomes of that.

Ninde

[Gina1976]

We- I am so sorry! HUGS! My hear aches for you. You and your DH will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Take this time to do what you need and we'll be here if you need us.