Hey guys,
Boy, I found this place in just the nick of time

I feel like I'm losing my mind! I have been TTC for three years now. 32 y/o Unexplained fertility after 3 unsuccessful IUI's and Clomid. Wonderful levels always for me. One questionable test about the morphology of my husband's sperm (he's 37 y/o), but every test after that has been awesome. First cycle of IVF started yesterday 09/03 and will start Bravelle and Menopur on 09/05. Currently on Lupron and pills Dexamethasone and folic acid. No side effects. Retrieval scheduled for 09/14 with transfer on 09/17 or 09/19.
Anyway, having a pretty hard time right now. So many of you seem to have such a good attitude. It seems wonderful to be excited about all of this, but the last couple of days, my attitude has taken a digger. I was pretty positive about everything until the realization of what may or may not happen has set in. Like so many others, my excellent federal insurance doesn't pay a damn thing for this procedure

Shelling out about 17,000 for this little deal. Of course money doesn't matter if it works, but not sure what to do if it doesn't. It's so funny how people who are able to have children naturally look at you like you are such an a**hole if you mention the money. When you have a 40% failure rate, it kind of seemed like an important point to me. However, I would pay all kinds of money to make this happen. I've been a mommy in my heart for a long long time.
On a hopeful and happy note, I am so glad there are several of you going through this right now! I finally don't feel alone! I will be going down to Littleton CO for my treatment over the next couple of weeks, but the hotel has a computer so I can stay in touch.
For those of you starting the injectibles prior to retrieval, can you share with us how you are feeling? I'm not sure how it feels to have your ovaries swell so much. How are the hormones affecting your mood?
I wish you other girls all the luck in the world! Take care of your wee little selves.