Thanks, Melo. Good luck with your 2ww!
I totally understand what you mean about feeling less deserving and about mentioning number one. I remember it being hard for me to deal with kids and pregnant women and I want to be sensitive to other women going through that.
You deserve to have as many babies as you have love to give to. (That goes for all of you.

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Brandy - I can believe that you forgot how you felt with #1. I think I was in a daze and I couldn't believe it was real until I had a big ol' belly. Good luck with everything.
I'll confess that I was nervous when I found out I was pregnant. I was so happy, but I was worried what kind of mother I'd be -- worried if I'd enjoy it -- worried if it would change my relationship with DH. DD is 20 months now and I'm so happy. In some ways I think I want another baby even more. I know what I'm getting into and I know it's what I want.
When IVF #2 didn't work I took it really hard. I really thought it would work since #1 did. I'm more nervous to start #3 because I really want it to work and I'm worried it won't. I'm having a hard time getting excited about it.
I only get coverage for one more cycle, whether it's fresh or frozen. DH and I were thinking we'd maximize our chances for our covered cycle -- plus have more chances for FETs which won't be covered. I've hear FET are cheaper than fresh cycles. Anybody have a ballpark idea how much cheaper?
Wow, I can really ramble. Thanks so much for listening. BTW, I love reading other's rants, too.
Yes, let's keep this thread going.
Yel