welshgirl im glad you havent givin up i know how hard it is we did it 7x. we got lucky and always concieved but lost all but 2. i undertand the not knowing marriage without it we got married in november and started in december yrs ago. I was pregnate or trying our whole marriage now we have two kids and im sometimes finding myself going to the drawer in the am for my meds. there were plenty of times fetitilty almost lost me my sanity and marriage. I know the money thing to. We have somany medical bills its not even funny. I dont know how or when we will ever be debt free but i know it was worth it.. Iam sending you LOTS OF BABY DUST!