Embaressed or getting the point across?

[Tessa]

Hi again,

Thanks for all the info No, I'm not actually on any injections, just tablets on days 2-6. Those 5 days are my most emosional, so I've put it down to chlomid...... it would never be me.... now would it
I know my problem it trusting the docs, it isn't good going in and questioning everything My dr is very good and nice, he also talks very openly, so I hope he realises why I am so untrusting. He keeps reasuring me that what happened last year won't happen again and they keeping a close eye on me........ 'your next app. is 4 months!!!!' Yea right, a close eye!
I just feel I would prefer them to look a little further. My dh has had 4 sperm checks, 2 were brilliant and 2 were so bad we used ICSI? I can't help question if the ICSI was for extra money since the tests that were done at another clinic were fine But I also can't help wonder if that is why I am just not getting pg 4.5 years is a long time to just say, 'we back to square 1'.

Thanks for all your help.... I feel like I've rambled on a bit.....
Cheers
Tessa

[Leanne]

Hi again Tessa,

If you have any doubts what so ever then you have a RIGHT to be heard. It's all very well trusting your doctor but trust your own body also. If something doesn't feel right say so. I would ask why you have wait 4 months in between treatment, I believed that it is better to go as soon as possible because the drugs stay in the system??????

If i were you, I would consider giving yourself a realistic time limit to chlomid. If it hadn't worked in 3 attempts then I would ask for more tests, e.g laporoscopy or the blue dye test to check your tubes and I would also look at the difference between DH results. Can you think of any reasons why they would be so different - stress, diet, exercise, sexual activity. If you can not see any differences then ask for another test done. I don't know if it is the same for men, but you know how some women may only be fertile a couple of months of the year.

Just ask, ask and ask again until you are happy with your answer. You have been trying a long time to go back to square one and if you do ( hopefully not) have to go to ivf you will have to start with all the waiting lists and test etc. Is it possible for you to get on a waiting list while you try chlomid, that way you are covering both options, you are giving chlomid a fair chance and you are working your way up the list.

Hopefully it won't come to any of this xxxxxxxxx

[AliasR]

Tessa

it seems you've really been through some bad times and it may seem very confusing but i agree with Leanne - keep asking until you're satisfied with the answers.

If you want or have time to do some research yourself, there are a lot of trustworthy information on the web, just a click away!
It made me feel more confident when we got our first app. and it pretty much matched what the doctors had to say.

Take a deep breath, cheer up and go for it!

Take care
Rita

[Tessa]

I can't thank you guys enough I feel I have been ureasonable nagging, but at least now I feel I have every right to nag.....
Part of me wants to go private again, but it was the private clinic that gave me the OHS and the hospital I am now back with, who sorted me out. I know there was a lot of agro between the two and I can't help but feel endebted (excuse spelling) to them for helping me out..... I know if it went to IVF again, I'm not sure I will be given the option on NHS (I'm too 'risky' after the last OHS)

As all the woman on this board, I sometimes feel I just don't have the energy to fight anymore I have decided to sit this month out (with fingers crossed) and contact the clinic again next month.... ask to speak to someone and request (to put it nicely) an appointment.... I have nothing to lose..... I've lost everything so far

Thank you so much againxxxx
Tessa

[AliasR]

Hi Tessa, very glad to see you more optimistic!

AS far as losing everything so far... not sure i agree with you. Think of all the things you've learned, all the people you've met, all that you have gone through and you've made it!!!! you're here!!! That's gotta count for sthing!?!?

When the time comes you'll feel all the energy you'll need so i think you're being very clever sitting the month out. Spoil yourself, enjoy the little things that make you happy each day, as simple as they may seem. Anything to put a smile on your face. Cause those are the ones that keep you going:

Take good care and keep in touch

Rita