September Limbo

[eskavon]

Hi Ladies
So glad to see you all here - although i wish every single one of us had our dream.
Jeni - what a rough roller coaster you've been on - my heart goes out to you - you also inspire us all with your PMA - so heres a huge HUG to you.
Nicola - I can understand how you don't know whta to do now - but give it a couple of weeks and it may be clearer. Hug to you too.
Very big welcome to all newcomers
Sorry I've not been about the last few days - been bedridden with the most awful sickness bug , just starting to eat today and will hopefully put on some of the weight I've lost, not good but on the mend now.
Take care all
xxx

[gailp]

Sorry to hear you havent been well Escavon. Whats your next step on this rollercoaster

Indiana ive just read your thread on the introductions board, im so sorry that your unable to adopt. Hope your appointment arrives soon before you scare the postman too much

Nicola hope your ok, dont see much of you on here at the moment, hope your spending quality time with your DH.

Hi to all the other Limbo's

[LittleP]

Penny

Big hugs sweetie - you take care of yourself and eat a few extras when you feel up to it.

Hope you are all doing ok - Nicola, Gail, etc sending loads of PMA and hugs to you

Little P

[gailp]

How are you LittleP, I havent seen a picture yet of you on the IVFgroup

[NickiMark]

sorry, I cant indiana. Im miles form cornwall....

anyway, I saw my GP today had a long chat about everything, I am still not ready to go again but feeling heaps better for the chat, got it off my chest. I reckon we try in the next 6 months though....... so I am gonna be limboing for a while yet....every one else ok???

[Jeni Babes]

Hello limbo Ladies !
Hi to you all...Eskavon, Yvee, Nicki, Kagome, Gail, Ellie, Indiana, org1 and our preggie support Smita and little P


Eskavon- Sorry to hear you have beeen poorly. are you feeling any better? Hope you take time to recover and don't rush back to normal living too soon.
Also Thanks for the support my friend...I still feel whacked by it all and don't know if I am coming or going. Sometimes I feel that it will be okay and I'll regulate... I keep thinking I have had no other symptoms (i am 28 days regular was pregnant natually this time last year) so i can't understand it. THEN....other times I feel resigned to it ( the first stages of grief and loss are denial). And that fact hurts, thinking i will never be a mum. Adam doesn't want to go for donor eggs and I understand why. We were told that family or friends was the best bet as there is such a shortage of donors and eggs here. I couldn't ask anyone to go through an egg collection for me I feel it's too much to ask.

To keep busy i am packing and organising the motorhome for our holiday...countdown is on we leave in 11 days. It is keeping my mind active, but i still keep breaking down in tears every so often. But i feel that some time away ( a whole fantastic month) will help heal some of the wounds. and come the 14th of Oct we will find out for sure what is going on, and if we are finished with our chance at IVF. And then maybe talk through our next steps of maybe another chance @ IVF ... or of adoption????

Whatever happens I can only say to myself...'it could be worse '
think of how Kylie Minogue is battle-ing against cancer...
We are the same age, wanting the same thing a child of our own, but that poor woman has to go through cancer before waiting for her chances at
IVF. Puts my stuff inperspective.

To everyone I hope I have not all brought you down...if so am sorry i just needed to let some of this go..thanks for listening and I will talk to you all soon.

By the way,I still have PMA PMA PMA, cause it's
11 days to H-O-L-I-D-A-Y-S

Love
Jen
xxx

[gailp]

Jen so sorry to hear what your going through at the moment. A month away will definately do you the world of good, relax and enjoy it and im sure you will come back ready for whatever life throws at you. I know what you mean about Kylie, im the same age as her to.

Nicola im glad you are feeling a bit better after to your talk with your Doctor. You are strong and a big support to everyone on here, we couldnt manage without your PMA, so keep some back for yourself. How are work being with you at the moment?

I hate being in Limbo, im so impatient. Its not that I dont enjoy all of your company

[eskavon]

Gail I know exactly what you mean - its hell being in limbo.
My next step on this rollercoaster is waiting for AF to arrive at end of sept and then hopefeully starting trmt after 3 weeks on bcp - fingers crossed.
Jeni best of luck for Oct when you find out about future trmt.
Huge HUG to all other limboers ... each day is one day closer (gosh don't you just hate cliches !! )
Feeling loads better today
xxx

[Smita]

Hi all you lovely ladies,
I'm wishing away the time for all of you..
Hoping your turns come real sooon!
Jeni,
Just caught up with your news- Its must be really hard going thru all this, but we're all around for support..I personally feel that your FSH is one of those fluctuating ones, so hopefully, within a month it should be within range required by the clinic..
You go have a blast of a holiday!!
And all the R&R will help you come back refreshed!

smita

[Jeni Babes]

Thanks Smita, gail and eskavon your support, it is really helping me.

Love
Jen
xxx

[NickiMark]

It's a drag waiting, I am so in limbo i dont know what to think..... I am so mixed up!

Gail, I am happy that u think that u me, I am a very laid back easy going person. But this 2nd fail has made me feel so scared. I am mixed up trying to be full of PMA but equally feeling so negative too!!!

Arghh!!!!

[eskavon]

I wish I could wave a magic wand for you Nicola ... how about thinking about how much you're gonna enjoy your 30th birthday and all those pressies

[Jeni Babes]

Nicki

I Want to send you some BIG ((((((( HUGS ))))))))).

Could you not try some relaxing therapy, I would send you some if I could!!!...It helped me so much after my losses. It helps the body relieve itself of stress tension and extra hormones. It might help get you back to your usual Full of PMA self. Doing something for you helps the healing process.

I hope you don't mind me saying all this, as it's from the heart...I know you are having a hard time but could you not, go for :
acupuncture, reflexology, massage, osteopathy, SHEN, Reiki, get your nails done, pedicure, treat yourself to a weekend away with DH....whatever.... DO something...for just YOU...

Since i joined the site. I've noticed that you were always one who had so much PMA to give to others... How about giving some loving to yourself... You deserve it. You have had a very stressful few months (and the rest) and you were very unlucky this time...I know you are hurting so much...but please give yourself a wee break...

HUGS and PMA

Jen
xxx
P.S. I hope i haven't offended you by saying all this I just wanted to help

[NickiMark]

Hi Jen, my main issue after ttc is work.... thats stressing more and more each day. I am bored and stuck in a rut and my boss is a *~**#&£$%"!&***!!!!
I am looking into a career change.....but truly want a baby first....But a baby may never come so i dont want to still sitting here when i am 60 saying i wish i had done that or what ever......

Hi Gail and eskavon. How r u too? Eskavon you are so close now dear. You can do it x x

[gailp]

Nicola I know exactly what you mean about your job, Im bored stiff in mine. Its a job not a career and I want a career somewere else, however I want a baby much much more than I want a career, but Will it ever happen. What I really need is a crystal ball