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meg12 · Post by **meg12** » Mon Nov 06, 2006 11:57 pm

I'm so sorry to hear that. Isn't this whole thing just the most frustrating ever? I can't imagine how you're feeling--try to do something to make yourself feel better. It sounds like you deserve to do something really self-indulgent!

Serena Anne · Post by **Serena Anne** » Tue Nov 07, 2006 12:27 am

I'm sorry that they won't let you stim. When will you get another chance? I know it's disappointing. I had to postpone an IUI for the same reason and I remember just crying afterwards. Hang in there.

I also went in today for my ultrasound and bloodwork. Luckily, I had no cyst this time. The nurse taught me how to do my injection of Menopur and Bravelle. I was relieved to discover that the two meds can be combined in one shot. It's not as bad as I thought. I am to continue my Synarel which is a nasal spray version of Lupron. I go back on Friday for another ultrasound and more bloodwork. They are expecting R on next Tuesday and implantaion on Friday. My DH and I also had to see a social worker today for required counseling basically making sure that everyone is on the same page regarding freezing the embryos, how many to implant, feelings regarding deselection, etc...

meg12 · Post by **meg12** » Tue Nov 07, 2006 5:21 am

Wow, I'm impressed that you're giving yourself the shots. My DH does mine for me--I don't think there's any way I could do it myself. I'm on my 2nd day of repronex and I'm looking at er next Tuesday as well if everything stays on schedule. My poor tushy is so sore already after only 2 days that I can't imagine what it's going to be like by next week. Oh the sacrafices we make, huh?
They don't make us see a counselor here, although it probably isn't a horrible idea. I suppose there is plenty to talk about on this topic!

Serena Anne · Post by **Serena Anne** » Tue Nov 07, 2006 6:42 pm

I have no choice but to give my shots to myself. My husband works out of town. These are not bad. They are in the stomach. What will be bad is the projesterone shots since they are intramuscular and they will be in the tushy. My husband will give them to me when he is home, but I am having my mother trained also for the rest of the days. It isn't going to be any fun having to run to her house every day. I'm worried about snow days and not being able to get to someone who can give them to me. They said that if I get pregnant, that the shots can last up to six weeks.

meg12 · Post by **meg12** » Wed Nov 08, 2006 5:07 am

I think it's great that your mom is helping you and try not to worry too much about stuff you can't control like the weather--you have enough on your mind as is!
How are you feeling so far with the extra hormones? I don't feel too different--just a little more tired maybe. Anyway, I go in tomorrow morning to get an ultrasound and bw so hopefully things are progressing well! I'm nervous

WISCONSINGAL · Post by **WISCONSINGAL** » Wed Nov 08, 2006 5:07 pm

HI SERENNA, HI MEG

THIS IS MY 1ST IVF TOO....I CAN RELATE TO ALL YOUR QUESTIONS....SEEMS LIKE I'M ABOUT A WEEK AHEAD OF YOU GUYS. I JUST HAD MY ER YESTERDAY, STAYED HOME AND RESTED, AND TODAY IT FEELS LIKE SOMEONE PUNCHED MY GUTTS OUT. IT HURTS TO SNEEZE... I THINK A LOT OF THIS HAS TO DO WITH MY AGE THOUGH, I'M 40. WISH YOU GUYS THE BEST OF LUCK!

meg12 · Post by **meg12** » Wed Nov 08, 2006 6:37 pm

Wisconsingal, Sorry that you're hurting. It's hard on the body going through all of this, huh? How did the ER go? Were they able to get lots of nice follicles?
I just had my first us and bw since starting the stims and there were 10 pretty good sized follicles. Is that good? The doctor seemed happy with it--she even cut down my dosage for today and then back to normal tomorrow but I'm nervous. I guess it only takes one, but I want as many as I can get. She's also going to have me do antagon shots starting tomorrow to hold off ovulation so that's great--love the shots!
Serena, how are you doing? Shots going okay? Let us know!

WISCONSINGAL · Post by **WISCONSINGAL** » Wed Nov 08, 2006 7:32 pm

GOD, TALK ABOUT GETTING DEPRESSED. MY DOC JUST CALLED.....NONE OF THE 4 THEY THOUGHT WERE GOOD MADE IT. HE HAS NO REASONS WHY......SPERM WAS GOOD, 4 EGGS WERE GOOD......??? NOW WHAT???? ANYONE ELSE GOING THROUGH THIS? WE JUST SPENT OVER $15,000.00 FOR TO HEAR THE WORDS "WE DON'T KNOW WHY" AND DIDN'T EVEN GET A TRANSFER......

meg12 · Post by **meg12** » Wed Nov 08, 2006 8:18 pm

Oh, I am so so sorry. I can't imagine. The money alone is enough to make you sick and then add the pain of wanting a child. I honestly don't know what to say except that there are so many of us going through this that please know you are not alone! What exactly did the doctor say? Did he have any ideas to make future attempts work? Oh, geez I wish I had something to say that could make you feel better. If I were there I would let you cry on my shoulder!

Serena Anne · Post by **Serena Anne** » Wed Nov 08, 2006 8:40 pm

I'm sorry to hear that Wisconsin. I know that has to be the worst news. Especially not knowing why. Please keep us informed of what you will be doing next.

Serena Anne · Post by **Serena Anne** » Wed Nov 08, 2006 8:49 pm

Meg, in response to your question, I'm doing good so far. I gave myself my first shot on my own last night. It wasn't bad at all. Of course it's just subcutaneous and a small needle. I haven't felt any different either. I thought that I could feel some starting discomfort in my left ovary this morning but may just be paranoid. When is your next appt? I go on Friday for my next ultrasound and BW. They may reduce my Bravelle at that time if needed.

What has been the hardest about this is trying to juggle work and this. I have had to schedule light at my office since I'm never sure about when the appointments will be and I also want to keep my stress down. I have a crazy day scheduled the day after my R and will be testing kids hearing all day. After reading Wisconsins side effects, I'm not sure that it is a good idea to work the day after. The good thing is that my employer is good about letting us have needed days off and doesn't even ask why. I would hate to have to explain everything to him. He knows that we are seeing a fertility specialist but not details.

Keep me informed how your doing.

meg12 · Post by **meg12** » Thu Nov 09, 2006 4:58 am

I'm going in Saturday morning for my next us and bw, so two more days of shots before then! I feel like my belly grew three inches today, so hopefully that's a good sign.
I'm anxious about the work thing, too. I've blabbed to pretty much everyone at my office about it though. I just can't seem to keep my mouth shut. I'm so excited/anxious/every other emotion about it that it's pretty much all that's on my mind. It might be good that you'll be busy the day after R so that you're mind won't dwell on the results of the fertilization. Maybe you won't have any side effects--everyone's body reacts so differently!
I hope the shots keep going well for you!

Serena Anne · Post by **Serena Anne** » Thu Nov 09, 2006 8:21 pm

You sound like me! I have told everyone or anyone who will listen, with the exception of my boss. It doesn't bother me. I'm excited too! My husband on the other hand is private and his parents don't know at what stage of fertility treatment we are at.

My feelings of no side effects changed to a strong sensation as of yesterday evening. I had bad lower back pains yesterday afternoon and more cramping around my left ovary. My right is still quiet. I hope that doesn't mean it isn't doing anything. I have not been this excited though about trying to get pregnant for a long time. I have lots of hope for all of us too. Good luck with your appt. I let you know how mine is tomorrow.

meg12 · Post by **meg12** » Fri Nov 10, 2006 4:58 pm

I know what you mean about the excitement--it does feel good to finally be doing something about it instead of just worrying and then being sad each month when AF arrives. I'm also having moments of doubt, though, when I really worry that this won't work. Trying to stay positive but not delusionally so is hard

I think the emotions and the hormones finally caught up to me--I'm kind of a wreck today. Crying at the drop of the hat and feeling blah. Yuck.

Is today your appointment? Let me know how it goes..hope there's lots of follies and that they are huge

Serena Anne · Post by **Serena Anne** » Sat Nov 11, 2006 6:52 pm

Yesterday started off bad before I went to my appointment. I have to drive 3 hrs to my docs office and I locked my keys in the house. Luckily, I had a bedroom window unlocked and was able to crawl through it. Then, at the appointment, I was dehydrated and they could barely get a vein for the BW. They had to use a butterfly needle. I told the doc that I was ready for some good news. I had 4 good follicles on my left ovary and 2 on my right and several little ones. The largest was 12. My estrodial levels are good so he is keeping me on the same dosage of meds. I go back on Monday for another ultrasound.

My husband and I have been doing something that we have done in a few years. We both, without telling each other initially, have been thinking of baby names. I'm trying to stay grounded as well, but I can't help but feel that this is going to work. My main worry at the moment is PCOS. I feel so crampy and bloated. I guess it is normal.

I hope your appointment went well today Meg. I can't wait to hear.

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