OCT / NOV / DEC 2008 Buddies

[karenvancouverisland]

kas. that's very funny- ate the fountain! or i guess, it's not funny for you. anyways, no i've not had any bloating or weight gain at all. sorry that you have...could it be something other than the DHEA? in my research i haven't come across that as a common side effect, but i guess some things are still unknown. my dr.-friend-colleague looked into DHEA for me and said that many women take 200-300 mg daily for other health issues and tolerate it well, he advised me to check out the mayo clinic website to see this for myself (i didn't- just took his word). he also reviewed the research by the NYC clinic and said it looked legit and could see why i'd want to take it.

well i just got back from having coffee with an old friend..broke through that isolation that i've had for years with IF..and although i cried talking to him about all this, it is good to make one more step towards not being held hostage by IF. i need my friends. he's going thru a divorce, so i (sadly) felt like we were kinda 'even'. i'm not sure if i could meet an old friend with a 'perfect' life right now.

if it's ok with everyone, i'll do some more work on our update board as more specifics come in. i'm assuming clustering us in like a chronolgocical order of 'stims to come' would be good. let me know otherwise. love you all, karen

[ajdec]

ugh...I'm tired of shots. I so have my fingers crossed that tomorrow is my last stimming shot!

[karenvancouverisland]

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October Stims:
ajdec - started stimming 9/26- ALMOST AT ER!

Melo_P -start stimms around Monday Oct 6th
gina1234 - planning ER/ET around 10/29
NY4thtry -Lupron 10/3 - start stims 10/20
karenvanc.island -flare stims around oct 20, gonalF,DHEA
keesha2008 - start end of Oct
mally - start end of Oct
Much Hope-Donor Egg. ER around 10/27

November Stims:
mrscutter -start bcp's 10/5 - stims around 10/31
sol2009 - Nov cycle
cocosmomma - FET Nov
Foreverlove - Begin BCP's soon, planning ER/ET week of Thanksgiving
to_have_fun08- starting BCP's around Oct 8th.
not hopless yet - Waiting for AF around Oct 20th to begin BCP's

December stims:
babyhope1 - surgery to remove polyp - cycle Nov/Dec
Kas101 - currenlty taking DHEA - bcps early Nov, stims early Dec
JenLB25 - Tube removal Oct 8 - cycle Nov/Dec
chenry413 -?
JDC- cycle late nov/dec


2WW --- PUPO

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[karenvancouverisland]

ok..i rearranged some things on our update board (i had no idea what i was getting myself into when i started that!). chris- i hope it's ok that i changed some things. after i started grouping us in chronological order..i got trapped! anyways. hope everyone's well and that what i've done with the update board is helpful.

i was back at the gym again today..so if i don't get PG and big and fat, at least i'll be in good shape ... it's definately helping with my stress level. i got my gonal F delivered the other day and will likely start stims oct 20th-ish. today- i'm not terrified about that. today i'm in good spirits. love to all, karen

[NY4thtry]

Hi Gals

Last BCP tomorrow thank god they make me crazy. DH was away came home last night and i was a shrew... partially because he has not been very supportive....but part was BCPs make me psychotic!!!!!

the reality is he doesnt neccesarily want a baby.. on our anniversary i had to tell him it was me with a baby or not with me .. so he is on the program
we went shopping today tried on the most gorgeous dress i had ever seen.. although my normal size is now already tight.. so i wuoldnt spend that kind of money..

I promised DH i would get my pre body back afetr all this was over... he said he didnt think that would be possible.. I almost lost it.. explained that even if he thought i couldnt he should be supportive..

but in a way i cant blame him.. when we got married a year ago i was 124 lbs and ripped.. now i am 134 and a blob..

i want htis sooo much i just hope i will get there and all will have been worth it...

Sorry for the rant needed to vent.....

[foreverlove]

Hi Ladies,

I was checking on everyone to see how they are doing. Has anyone read the book Inconceivable by Julia Indichova? I had heard about it on another board so I went to the library and picked it up. I just started reading it on my break this morning so I am not sure how good it is yet. Just wondering what others thought about it. I have been obsessed lately with Bringing Home Baby on TLC - I set my DVR to record it while I am at work and I watch it as soon as I get home. I just cant wait for it to be us!!! I just couldn't imagine how some of these people do it with coming home and having tons of people visiting the same day, that would be crazy.

Well I just wanted to check in and see how everyone was - it looks like under two weeks for AF to come and then I call my doctor to get my protocol - I cant wait. I can honestly say I have never wanted AF to come before now.

[to_have_fun08]

NY4thtry --- Sorry DH isn't being very supportive. IVF is hard enough but when you don't have support that makes it a lot harder. Hopefully, DH will come to his senses. My cousin just had to make a decision on her marriage. She wants kids and he doesn't so they are getting a divorce. She will be 40 in December so I guess she finally realized her clock isn't going to tick for too much longer.

Foreverlove - I just finished reading that book last week. It isn't very long and it is pretty good. Gives you faith that things can work out even when the odds are against you.

Well, AF is here and I got my official OK to start BCP's on Wednesday. YEAH!!!! I will then start lupron on Oct 24 and go in for baseline testing on Nov 5th. Only one more month till stims. Hope everyone else is doing good.


Chris

[foreverlove]

NY4thtry - I am also sorry that DH isn't being supportive. That would be very hard to deal with when having to deal with all the emotions of having IVF.

to_have_fun08 that is too bad that your cousin is going thru a divorce because of wanting children. My niece is about to get married at the end of Oct. and she has one child already that is 5 and she was adamant that she does not want more children, well he wants a kid of his own. When she got engaged I told her she better tell him that she doesnt want anymore children because it could break a marriage apart. She then said oh well I guess I am not 100% against it, but I know her and I know she still is. I just hope that she isn't setting him up for a fall with not coming clean about the way she feels.

How awesome that you will be starting your BCP on Wed - things are going to happen very quickly for you - YEAH!!!

[not hopeless yet]

NY4thtry-
First of all gaining 10pds doesn't make you a blob... when I met dh over 10 years ago I, too, was in my 120's... By the time we got married I was in 130's. Over the next 5 years I gained 40 pds! Now THAT was what I call "out of control" but dh is supposed to love you always. Doesn't mean he wasn't losing attraction - hell, I hated my body, so why wouldn't he? But I started weight watchers at the same time I started IF treatment nearly 4 years ago. And I'm back to high 130's. I'm active and feel great.

On another note, I read your post and feel like I"m going through something similar with dh not totally wanting a baby. I can't decide if its the IF treatment getting to him or if he's just selfish (wants full nights sleep, wants to go out with friends at minute-notice, wants to go on lots of vacations... all of which will change with a child.) He had the nerve to tell me this on our drive home from talking to doctor about IVF cycle starting later this month! It always ends in a fight after we leave the clinic - without a doubt. And I was like "i wouldn't have married you if you told me you didn't want kids." But to make a long story short my dh is on board as well.

This rollercoaster sucks on so many levels... we wouldn't even be having these discussions if (a) we got pregnant by accident like all our friends or (b) treatment had worked already. I know he'll love our baby I just think all we've been through is getting to be too much for him (though he isn't the one going through the shots or monitoring or IUIs).

[to_have_fun08]

My DH is on board with me but I kind of always got the feeling he wasn't as excited as I was. Then when we had ER and ET last time I felt he was getting on board a little more and getting excited about the whole baby thing. I think that sometimes men just don't get as excited while TTC. Once the baby is conceived I think most start realizing what is going on and then after the baby is born they are amazed that they have a child with their genes. As far as not wanting a baby, I know my DH does but even sometimes I have second thoughts especially since going through all this trouble. I mean it would be great to be lazy around the house, sleep late, go out with friends on a whim all the time. The stuff we wouldn't be able to do with kids. Though I also look at the other side of things like what new and wonderful things that a child might bring into my world and see myself with never having children, so I dredge on and on to try and have one.

[not hopeless yet]

Finally, someone verbalizes what I've been feeling all along... and feeling guilty about it by the way. Of course I want a child or I wouldn't be putting myself and my marriage through this rigamorole. But since it didn't just "happen" for us, it really gets you thinking... how will I handle sleepless nights, being a working mom, not seeing friends as often, not going on trips or shopping sprees anymore... it sounds selfish and that's why I feel bad for even doubting that I want a child. But the bottom line is I can't picture my life without kids and that's what keeps me going.

[to_have_fun08]

not hopeless yet -- Those thoughts come into my head all the time. The other day I was just thinking if I do not have kids then I can pay off all my debts and retire early. Sounds like a plan, but then I started of thinking how lonely life would be in retirement if I don't have any kids which would also mean no future grandkids. It has just been me an my husband for so many years so it is easy to be selfish. I don't feel quality about thinking of life without kids because I know deep down that I do want kids and seeing all the effort that I am putting into having one, I don't think anyone would doubt my desire to have a child of my own.


Chris

[to_have_fun08]

This is for all the DH's that can drive us so batty sometimes.

[sloan88]

Hello All --!
I'm new at this... Just about to start my FIRST ivf on Friday (I think... depending on when AF comes). A little nervous about all the injections. This will be my first fertility treatment with drugs as I'm skipping directly to IVF.... As I'm completely unexplained --- I'm hoping to at least get some answers - but nervous at the same time.... Trying to stay optimistic...

Can't help but wish wish that I would just get a BFP tomorrow and wouldn't have to start on this roller coaster.

Is it okay to just buy the drugs the day before? It seems so...

thanks!
Sloan

[JennLB25]

For those of you who don't know, my DH and I have been TTC for 11 years.

I few years ago, I belonged to another IF board and was given a link to a video to share with friends and family so they could better understand how my DH and I were hurting and feeling.

So, for those of you who have never seen it, I pass this amazing video on to you. It is called "Empty Arms". HAVE TISSUES READY, and here it is:

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http://www.tearsandhope.com/emptyarms_video.html

Love yall. Have a great day!

Jenn