Well got throught another night but didn't sleep so well
No AF yet and the pessaries seem to be doing their job but am now scared i will get to Friday and it still wont work I wanted to take the pessaries right the way through so i didnt bleed but now i dont know if i should have stopped them and AF would have arrived if it has not worked. I am so full of mixed emotions and terrified to do the test incase its neg
I dont seem to have much twinges as the moment so feel a bit neg today
Am in work this afternoon then tomorrow morning as long as everything is ok. Will catch you Thursday night---i will be climbing the wall by then.
Love to you all, am in a dash
Love Jen x
me 38 dh 38, ttc for 6yrs,
HSG - Tubes Damaged
Bilateral Salpingectomy, 16th Aug 06,
Hysteroscopy - 30th Oct 07
4 IVF - BFN, 3 ED - BFN
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GOOD LUCK SWEET BUTTERBEAN for tommorrow!!!!!!!!!!!
how are you feeling.... wait, let me tell you.. you are feeling oh so positive that this is your time for a big, fat BFP! Yep, I rolled myself into a pretzel for extra luck for ya.. all crossable parts in twisty bendy position.
LUCK, LUCK, LUCK!!!!!
let us know ASAP! can't wait to smile over delightful news!
Loops and Littles- how goes it with your trek through muck-a-muck cycles?
as for me.. work is craps! unfortunately boss did not have total head transplant while I was off.. was really hoping for a miracle. Faith is adjusting to daycare- alot better than I am! she has basically slept through the night all week. She is being really nice to mommy on her first week back.. whatta good girl. OF course never had any doubts about that as she is an Octo babes!
Well another day nearly over, thank god and it looks like i will get to my test date for the very first time (shouldnt speak to soon). I must say i have been more relaxed on this 2ww and felt happier as i have been taking the pessaries right through. Now i'm worried that they are stopping me bleeding so will still get a neg never happy eh?
I'm hoping all the twinges and bloated tum last week was my AF passing and now i'm on the way to lovely pregersVille but somehow i just feel very negative today---think thats what your body does to prepare you for the ineviatable
Loops - How you feeling now your on the 2ww. Hope everything went well with ET today?
Littles - How you doing bunny? I'm praying we all get BFP's soon.
Steph - Bosses aarrhhhh. glad Faith is doing well. With my experience of children its usually the kids who are fine with nursery etc and the parents are wrecks. Bet you dream all week for the weekend to come round.
Walsh - Hugs to you bud.
Will let you know the info as soon as i get the courage to do the hpt tomorrow. Thank you all for your support, your the best
Love Jen x
me 38 dh 38, ttc for 6yrs,
HSG - Tubes Damaged
Bilateral Salpingectomy, 16th Aug 06,
Hysteroscopy - 30th Oct 07
4 IVF - BFN, 3 ED - BFN
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Jen - man oh man! 1 day to go!!!! Please please please let Jen get her BFP!!! What time will you do the test?? Will do my nightly chants for you sweetie and check in first thing to see the good news!!
Littles - how did your ET go? Was thinking of you.
Walsher - sending you lots of love
camilla - hope you'll be back tomorrow to see Jens BFP???
Steph - Faith is a charm! Work is ass though, maybe you should go part time?? I would love that.
Well, had my ET. they thawed 3, 1 didn't make it, the other 2 (Eric and Kyle) were good and average. I'm a bit perturbed, y'know the last 2 ET's have been deeply unpleasant and serious affairs? So this time I decided to just have a laugh and was much better but.... now step in and tell me I'm worrying too much at any time......the girl doing the transfer couldn't get the catheter in first of all, said there was a "narrowing" an she was prodding about and fiddling with the speculum, then she had a go with an empty catheter and a stylet which was competely fine, then she did the real thing. Never had any problem before. Now I'm worried that her meddling will ruin it. I know that success rates are affected by transfer problems and trauma. Feeling pretty negative. Need perspective. Any takers?
Anyways - the bad ass twosome are back on board and my test date is 10th April. Now bring on the 2ww!!! Woo hoooooo
You poor thing. I always dread the dreaded speculum.
Although the nurse had probs i think as long as you were not biting the bed handles too hard and mega tense, which you probably were i'm sure everything wil be fine. Lets face it, its luck once they put these two embies back in. Love your names, thought Eric was funny
So 10th April, wow you deserve a BFP bud
I am getting a bit anxious now and dh looks sick but will do the test when i get up at about 7-8. Might sleep in until next Friday though
Love Jen x
me 38 dh 38, ttc for 6yrs,
HSG - Tubes Damaged
Bilateral Salpingectomy, 16th Aug 06,
Hysteroscopy - 30th Oct 07
4 IVF - BFN, 3 ED - BFN
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Oh Jen, I'm so so sorry. Its so unfair.
I can't believe this. Jemla sweetie, hope dh is there with you.
Sending you a massive cuddle.
If you need to talk or just rage at the unfairness you know where I am.
Jen,
I'm so sorry dear- been having an eye on your cycle- but have you gotten this result as a result of bloods or as a result of hpts?
Considering AF hasnt shown up yet, can you ask ur hosp for bloods?
love,
smita
me-32, dh 40
ttc 4+ years
4 failed IUI's
1st ICSI +ve 17/6/05:)
Baby girl Dhruvaa born on 14/02/06
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Girls thank you for all your help and support.
We are devastated but to make things worse my dh spoke to the Doc yesterday and she said i can NEVER have my own child now as i am not responding to the medication or getting enough eggs. I am distraught especially for my dh, don't know how i get over this guilt and can't seem to pick myself up. Our only hope of a baby is by donor or adoption but i just keep thinking, its not my baby then. Plus i don't know how to find out about it all or where to go. I just dont have the energy and cant get motivated to get going again. I dont even want to talk or see people, which has never happened before.
Sorry to bring the mood down, i will pop in to see how Loops and Littles are getting on but its just too painful to be here all the time just now.
Love Jen x
me 38 dh 38, ttc for 6yrs,
HSG - Tubes Damaged
Bilateral Salpingectomy, 16th Aug 06,
Hysteroscopy - 30th Oct 07
4 IVF - BFN, 3 ED - BFN
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Jen - how're you today?
I know you must feel raw and empty right now. Hope you and dh and ok. This pain is almost unbearable and I know it can feel unending, bottomless but it isn't. You've been through such a lot of dark days and things always get easier. one foot in front of the other is the only way to get past this.
You dont want to hear this right now but there are still lots of options. Don't make any decisions now, you need to recover before you can think straight. Wait for your follow up with doc. And don't feel guilty!!!
I know its hard visiting these boards sometimes but we're all here if you need to talk.
Well Octos - all hands on deck!
We have to rally round and send Jemla the bueno-vibes!
Why does our persecution continue?? Littles - is up to you now to change the tide of crapness. How did your transfer go?? When is your test date??
Steph - go put on the spanky pants you have a lot of cheering to do!
Sound the battle horn!
Jen- Sweety, I am so, so very sorry for the BFN... seems especially bitter pill when doc tells you to give up with efforts. There is nothing to say to take away that sting. But, other feelings can be addressed- PLEASE do not feel guilty. This is not in your control, you have done everything possible in your control. The other issue of worrying about feeling like it will not be your baby if you use a donor or adoption... it will be your baby! Motherhood is NOT about an egg or carrying the baby. It IS about 2am feedings, diaper changes, cuddling to calm, the first smile and cooing, giggles.... you will be the mother in every way that matters. You will be that babys favorite person... mommy! If being a mother is your dream, do it no matter how it happens. It will be worth it all, I promise! When you see that baby.. it will be yours. please don't give up... but I agree with Lola, give yourself time to process first.. then make those very important decisions. We luv you! talk to us, complain, cry on our shoulders.. whatever you need.
Loos- don't go borrowing trouble... or whatever that saying is.. forget that ninny nurse! all is great and the boys are nestling in for the long haul! spanky pants are on and I added neon blinking lights for extra flair! Gooooo Loooops! April 10 is the day this group starts with good news all around! coincidentally, it is also the day I have spanky pants programmed to play Baby Got Back in celebration, followed by Ice, Ice Baby and the Humpty Dance...
Littles- any word from little gRRRRRR?
Walsh- anything? we could really use a peek from you muffin.
hi gang
BFN