thanks everyone for your support.
I'm not that strong, little p... i'm just pretending.

what works for me when i'm down is to force myself to smile and laugh, even when i feel like howling like a banshee and sooner or later, the smiles are not so forced anymore. See..
yesterday was such a rough day.. poor dh got the brunt of it last night when he called. But it just got on my nerves so much when he tried to console me. I mean, i know we can try again but do you realise how much drugs go in my body? and do u realise how my hormones are just going bonkers? AND do you know I haven't had a glass of wine or coffee in two months??!!
poor guy! i called him back later to apologize tho.
wish one of yous lived in this city so we could go on the piss. If you were waiting to start treatment that is.
Chitra, scooby and sharajade.. all the best for today. I feel anxious and excited for you all. I hope to hear some good news later on... when the happy faces appear on the list, it just gives me that much more hope that i'll see a smiley nxt to my name one day. Hope it's sooner than later.
hugs to all,
xx quasi
p.s. do the double smileys on the list mean that they are having twins?