September/October Cycling Friends!

[mharrell]

OK...as I sit here and write this it is 4:30 am CST. Can't sleep. My husband is out of town deer hunting, however, he will come home tonight to me my progesterone shot. As I told my mother in law last night...no one can ever say we didn't want our child...I know you ladies are with me on that one!

Well, here's why I cannot sleep...I got up to pee (again) around 4 am...I haven't done this consistently for a week since I was pregnant with Casen, so I'm hopeful. My bloodwork to confirm a pregnancy (is that what you refer to as a Beta????) is not until Tuesday! TUESDAY!! How do they expect us to wait so long...LOL. So, I did what many of you guys do...I POAS.

Results...I had two lines....but the test line was very faint. I'm hoping that it is because I tested early...although I don't really feel as though it should be a false +++ because it's been over two weeks since I took the HCG shot (either Sept 29th or 30th...I don't have my calendar with me). Soooo, I've already called the doctor's office (and left a message...remember it's 4 am here) to see if they could possibly squeeze me in for bloodwork first thing this morning. If anyone else happens to be up and reading this, please pray for me. I'm so emotional as I write this because I'm so scared it's all in my head...and I don't have my hubby to tell me his opinion. I've taken several pictures of the stick (hehehe) and hope to show it to someone soon...I don't care who , I just want a second opinion on whether or not I'm seeing things! Again, the line is really faint, but it appears to be there and hanging around so I'm trying to stay up beat!

sancap14 - The only reason I POAS was because of something I read yesterday on this board that suggested I might be far enough along to pick up the HCG (I think this AM I am 15dpo, or 10dpt). Thank you so much for your kind words. I don't have a lot of people to confide in....my family loves us but doesn't understand why we are going through so much...I think they believe it will happen on its own if we give it time since the doctors can't tell us why we're not conceiving (although they've never said that; just a feeling), and most of my friends just "think" about getting pregnant and poof...they are. Many of them have two and three kids already. I really appreciate your kindness and pray for you and your family to be extended very soon.

Lots of baby luck and sticky dust to you all...God is in control ladies...chins up!

Misty

[kala0704]

miyaya-so glad you are sticking with us. it sounds like your RE as a great plan for you. Good Luck!!!

Katie and J&C-im praying for BBB for you!!! Baby dust to you!

Karen-yay for your totsicles!!!! GL with the FET!!! YOull have a BFP before you know it!

Bei-hang in there!!! YOu never know what time is the charm...youll get your bfp. just dont give up!

Lisa-im praying your frosties thaw beautifully!!

jlp-welocome!!! Yay for your 12 follies! I hope you have a great fert report! Hang in there with the cramping. We are allowed to take tylenol if that would help you.

iamhopeful-yay...11..that is wonderful!!! Im so excited for you! Good luck with the ET!!!

claud-wow! that is crazy. I am hopting for the best and you can get an IUI out of all this! GL!

mharrell-congrats on your lilttle beautiful boy! dont worry you wont lose all your eggs. 8 embiess...that is great!!! Your normal or 2ww. We are all super gasy and have some dull pain too. My dh actually asked me if I good feel out embies digging in..lol! Good luck on Tuesday!!! a FAINT line thats great! That is how it all starts too! Patience dust to you!

mili-miracles can happen...im prayng for you!!!! RISE BETA RISE!!!

AFM-I had a huge meltdown last night. My DH has litterally been home like two hours in the last 5 days. I got really fed up with sitting by myself all the time. He has been trying to fundraise since he skis for Serbia and his income relys on his contacts and supports here. So i have been trying to be patient. His aunt who doesnt speak english has come to just bring me food every few hours. I feel like a prisoner with no one to talk to. So, I got mad and screamed and cried and through things...he apoligized and I felt bad. I just pray that my tantrum didnt affect my embies. I get to go home in 2 days!!!!! Woo hoo!!!!!!!!!

[Karling]

I have POAS twice now. On tuesday when I was 6dp5dt and it was positive (digital) and today. I didn't belive the first one because I thought it was too early but I am starting to belive todays positive! My beta isn't till Monday though. Ahhhhhhhh I dont want to wait!!!

[prayin4BFP]

Karling...wow thats awesome...congrats.

Claud...good luck if you are able to do IUI...I agree about not wasting the cycle.

mili...I am praying your beta rises ALOT!

Kala...I understand completely. I couldnt stop crying this morning. I feel like I am a prisoner in my own house because of the OHSS. Even thought the weather here is crappy I wish I could just go outside. But I cant. I gained 2.5 pounds overnight so I am on strict bedrest.

AFM...I am feeling so sad today. I dont think it worked and I just want to stop everything and give up. Rationally I know I am being unreasonable but emotionally I cant stop. I know its too early to POAS..I am 6dp5dt. I am dreading monday because I am just thinking it will be a negative Beta.

[katie99]

Hi girls -

Well I went for my beta this morning, now waiting for the call. I still have a tiny glimmer of hope, but have already decided NO MOPING around is allowed. I'm expecting a neg. but have realized that starting the next cycle will take some time. I'll miss you guys! I've done back to back cycles since June, when i found you all. Maybe its time to start a new "Waiting" thread? I'm sure there are others in the same boat. Although i'm pretty sure the posts will all be similar -"I hate waiting!" and "Why is ivf sooo expensive?" but it beats waiting alone. I also wanted to thank all of you for your support, advice, & PMA. This journey would be unbearable without you guys! OK with the mushy stuff, I'm tearing up here
and thats not like me!

michele -How are you holding up hon? I need to get on the lose weight ride too. How are you liking the Wii?

jaydent -thanks for the PMA! How are you feeling?

sancap -How goes it mama?

lisa -wishing you good thawing vibes for tomorrow!

j & c - Crossed for you darlin!

karen -Thats wonderful! I hope it all goes drama free at your clinic from now on!

gi -thanks! how goes your pregnancy? I see you still spend alot of your work day on the boards! And we're glad you do! LOL - hugs to you!

miyaya -thanks! it really sounds like your RE is on the ball. I'm excited for your upcoming cycle!

claud -thats totally crazy! so will it be IUI then?

misty / mili27 -Crossed for both your betas!! Good luck!

kala -I know this has been rough on you. just think, in 2 more days, you'll be home!! sending you some patience dust!

karling -wishing the weekend passes quickly for you!!

prayin -I know you've really had a rough few months recently, but try to stay positive. i know, easier said than done! wishing you loads of PMA!! theres no way around it the 2ww is hard!! hugs!

hugs & prayers to us all!! - xoxo

[J&C]

It's a negative for us. I had another -HPT this morning, so I was expecting it. We have 4 frosties left, but we'll need to save money for the FET, I'm hoping for sometime in April. I hate waiting that long, but that's where we are.

I'm really sad.

[katie99]

j & c - I'm so sorry. Theres no other way to put it, it just sucks.
Big Hugs to you & DH. Take some healing time for yourself. It does get a bit easier in time. xoxo

[washingtonda]

Katie99 - Good luck on your beta today. I see you are in your 40s as am I. Are you paying for these procedures out of pocket? If so, how are you paying for this. We have plenty in retirement plans but we are so scared to touch it. We also have alot of equity in our home and are scared to touch that because we do want to retire. I know if we start this IVF road again we won't stop until we get a baby and that's the scary part.

[malya324]

sorry to be such a downer and so quick..... today we found out our fetus is not longer growing. I am stopping all my meds and we will see if I m/c on my own or if we will do a D&C next Thursday. I can't stop sobbing so hard I make myself sick. I'm going to bed now, good luck to all of you I hope you never have to go thru this.

[sancap14]

malya324- Awe I am soooo sorry. I know exactly how you feel and it brings tears to my eyes reading your post. This is such a tough loss...all I can say is I am so sorry. It will get better with time, I promise you. lots of hugs to you and DH in these horrible times, hang in there.

[jaydentd]

Malya- So sorry, you are in my prayers.
Katie- I have my fingers cross for you and I'm doing good just going crazy waiting
praying- Hope you get better soon and sending you tons of PMA
Karling- congrats girl
Mili-Sending you PMA and a high beta.
Sancap- How the MAMA doing? When is your u/s?
Shelby- Where are you? we miss you here.

[sancap14]

katie99- I'm glad you've decided to settle on the NO MOPING method but I have hope still for you too babes. Wishing for a BBB in just a few minutes for you. For me...it's goin...slowly, but it's goin. I have my next beta on tuesday then hopefully my 1st u/s on the 28th. I am borderline twins numbers so I'm hoping that I can make up for the one I lost 1.5 years ago. I still have a longs ways to go though so please keep me in your prayers, I feel like anything could happen still so still a little scared.

J&C- I'm so sorry. This just sucks royally. Hopefully you can try and forget about things until April, enjoy your holidays, and start fresh in April. Thank God for frosties! GL on your FET, your time is coming.

prayin4BFP- I went through a couple of those sad days too during my 2ww, it's like you're preparing yourself for the worst. There are so many ups and dows its crazy. I'm prayin for a BFP for you too honey! PMA! PMA! Your BFP is coming soon!

Karling- Woohooooooooo for 2 +HPT's!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Prayin for a BBB for you Monday!!!!

Kala- 'm so sorry you are lonely and can't wait for you to get back to home sweet home. I'm sure your little embies are fine, their going to be tough little cookies just like their mommy!

mili27- You are pregnant and i'm sending you some stickyand growing embie dust and hoping for a BBB for you today! Please keep us posted!

AFM- Sooooooooooooo busy at work today so I better get back to it! I have to work tomorrow too...ich but I shouldn't complain, at least I am lucky enough to have a job right. GL to everyone through the weekend

[lisa10]

Karling Yeah for the +! Some one else had a fait line too. Yeah to you also!

Kala Girl, hang in there. I can't even imagine all you are going throuhg now. You have all the right in the world to throw a tantrum!

Praying Just hang in there!!!

Katie Nothing is over yet. Just hold on. Those HPT's are c**p!

J&C So sorry to hear your news. At least you have some frosties. It is so much easier doing a FET.

Michelle It's good to see you on here. I have been praying for you and DH.

Malya I am so, so sorry. That brought tears to my eyes. You are in my prayers.

[sancap14]

jaydentd- Oh I'm doing good, just sad we are getting so much bad news lately on here. My u/s is on the 28tha little less than 2 wks away and I have another beta tuesday. I am really excited to hear what shelby's u/s turns out to be on monday though cuz our beta numbers are very similar!! Are you hanging in there...2ww is excruciating huh? Any thoughts of POASing? What dpt are you?

[lisa10]

Had to go last time...

I am having my FET tomorrow at 8:10. I feel like I have been waiting forever. Then I get to wait some more. 13 days, but who's counting right?

I spoke the the embryologist about which one we are thawing. It is a 5BB grade. Pretty good, but not perfect. He says it all depends on how they thaw more then grade.

I am so excited!