Beautiful Babies Due in 2011 (Combined Group)

[mellow4]

Wehavehope~ It is possible for it to go down and it still be a viable pregnancy. When you transfer more than one embryo, you can miscarry one and the other still be fine, which would make your beta go down. I don't want to give you false hope, but this is entirely possible...it happened to me. Hang in there, I know it's hard.

[WeHaveHope]

I feel so absolutely devastated. My RE said that since we transferred two that there is a possibility that both implanted and that one was lost but the other one is still viable. I van tell you that I am trying really hard yo dig up just a little bit of hope but I have none. I feel like all has been lost and don't understand why we would be given this glimmer of hope to have it disappear. I guess I will never understand. I have another Beta tomorrow. Don't even know what for. Going to cry myself to sleep now. Please know that I am so grateful for each and everyone one you. Sending you my love.

[lou71]

Wehavehope -- Your first two betas were quite strong. I'm holding out hope that you had two implanted and lost one of the two and that's why it went down. Happens more frequently than you think with IVF on this board. Your doubling time was much quicker than 48 hrs which strongly points to twins. It would be unusual, I think, to lose them both at the same instance. Did your RE check your progesterone level? If that was good, then I would think losing both would be unlikely. At my clinic, you only get TWO betas, then an u/s at 6.5-7 weeks. By that time there's a heartbeat and if there was a "lost twin" you wouldn't know (unless in the case of bleeding). Hang in there... I'm praying for your beta tomorrow to go up. Any increase at this point is a positive sign that there's something viable growing in there. I think you should hold out some hope for another day at least for your little bean's sake.

Kat -- Congrats on getting confirmation that you're having a little boy!

Bunny -- Brooke is adorable! 5 weeks already??? Seriously??? Wow... that went fast...lol.

Ryann -- So sorry about your fever and soreness. You poor thing. I hope it resolves soon.

Leora -- Great to hear from you. I agree with the others that you should seek a second opinion for a TAC. You've lost twins due to PROM and now PTL.... if that's not enough to consider you for the procedure then I don't know what is. Though I'm not sure a TAC would protect you from PROM?? Karenthescorpio still went into labor at 34 weeks with her little girl and I read a post from her that she is considering a gestational carrier for #2 even though she's got a TAC. Have you thought about that at all? I pray you get your "rainbow baby" on your next try.

AFM -- Started taking Ferralet 90 supplement with iron for low Hgb/Hct. Even with insurance it was $30 for a month supply. WTH?

[riogirl71]

One more quick tip - a blow dryer! Great for drying the parts you can't reach while very pregnant and after c-sec great for drying scar without a towel to pat dry!!!

Leora I have been thinking of you and am glad that you are looking into the future and thinking about TTC again, my OB had said to wait 6 mos after a c-sec to try and do IVF again. THe scar needs to heal from the inside before you put pressure on it from being pregnant again. I very much think you should get a 2nd opinion on TAC and weekly scans YES! I am sorry and I am sure your OB is great but I don't like his wait and see approach at all. I know it is painful for you to come here but we all love you and worry about you and appreciate you updating us.

Kat - I was smiling the other day when you had a shower at the place on Plymouth, I have been there with my borther and sister in law and love it!

Happy Bunny - brooke is gorgeous and I am with you on it being hard to post lately! I have gotten her naked and tickled her silly and she still gets sleepy cozy!!!

We have hope - I am hoping you have a healthy bean in there still!

Mellow - yeay for canula being out!!!!!!!! Over 5 lbs awesome!!! I am so happy for you and Marlo!

Sonya - where are you?

Amanda - how is your sweet girl doing? How is the bfeeding going?

Blair - that blizzard sounds great!!! Need a bump pic!

Kjm I mentioned yesterday that Glamourmom tops for nursing are awesome, today I saw them on sale at my favorite site http://www.zulily.com/invite/arenny748 hurry up and grab one since they are not cheap but they rock because the bra is so supportive and it is very discrete!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My nipples are about to fall off!!!!!!!!!!!!

[rypell1985]

I'm sitting at the OB office right now because my right boob is purple today! Yikes!!! Had to leave my little ones with grandma so I didn't have to drag them out feeling so yucky! From what I've read online it sounds like mastasis, so I'm hoping it's an easy fix. I need this fever to go away!

On top of that I think my little man is colic. He and I did not sleep a wink last night or the night before. He just screams. I'm going to stop and pick up Colic Calm on the way home and pray that helps. He does fine when he's on his tummy on my chest...I wish there wasn't so much negativity about a baby sleeping on their tummy. He's so much happier that way

Barbara-Brooke is so beautiful!!

Leora-so glad you checked in with us. I will be watching to cheer you on when you try again!

Sorry for no more personals-I can't go back on my iPhone and look at the posts again!

[WeHaveHope]

Hello,
Thank you do much for all of yout posts. I just spoke to my RE again. The first time I was not able to contain the crying so I realy wasn't able to ask the questions I wanted to ask. Nothing has changed. The plan is still to have the Bea drawn again tomorrow. If there is a dramatic drop than it's all over. If there is a very slight decline, it kind of remains the same as today, or rises slightly then another Beta on Monday. I realy just wish we did not have to wait to know. The wait and the small amount of hope is driving me insane. I will be going in to work tomorrow. I cant spend another day at home stating at the walls waiting for the phonecall. It won't change anything anyways. Praying for a miracle but expecting the worst. It won't be easy. After trying to remain so realistic I had gotton my hopes up. Now I feel like all my hopes have been crushed.
We still have friaries but emotionally, I don't know what going to be next for us.

[LYD10]

Leora, I am so glad you are onwards and forwards! Please do check with another doc or two about TAC. What's the downside of TAC exactly?

And one more thought i had - i believe your babies weighted about 2-2.3 lbs collectively when they were born. so what makes your doc think that this wont happen with a singleton pregnancy when that single baby reaches 2lbs? i would be careful and get more opinions. god forbid this happens again when you get pregnant. some dactors tend to be very opinionated and dont doubt themselves enough. you've got to be your own best advocate.

[MamaBoo]

Sorry I have not posted in a while, I have been keeping an eye on everyone everyday.

Leora: I am heartbroken over how things turned out for you. Words cannot express my sympathy. I think I would definately get another opinion on the TAC. Good luck in the future. Hoping the best for you.

Wehavehope: there is hope that you lost a twin. I do understand where you are at right now. I had a m/c and had to wait 10 days to find out whether or not I had lost the pregnancy. I hope your outcome is better than mine was at that time.

I spend my time reading, surfing the net and watching tv. On bedrest for remainder of pregnancy. My first goal is to reach 28 weeks. I am about 23 1/2 weeks now. Have another MFM appt tomorrow. I am doing ok emotionally usually. However, this is stressful.

[WeHaveHope]

My dearest friends,
The last 24 hours have been the the darkest for me. My DH finally came home from work at about 5:45pm and we both laid down in our bed and cried together. Not to diminish the pain I went through with the last two BFN's but this has been so much more difficult for me. I guess, after the 1st BFN I made a subconscious decision to not get to emotionally involved. Very difficult I know but with the most recent BFN I was so disappointed but I was able to pick myself up quickly and jump right back in. I was disapointed but I don't think I cried like I did with the 1st BFN. I think I had mentally prepared myself just in case. This time I did the same. Even after the multiple positive HPT's I was in complete denial. I did not want to get overly attached to the idea. Then came the positive Beta and with such a strong number. I was actually more concerned with multiples than the possibility of loosing the pregnancy. Then the second Beta seemed to more than double. I think at this point I let the walls down and I became emotionally involved. I had been physically involved of course and I was so happy with the idea of our miracle or miracles that I could not imagine this feeling ever coming to an end. Yesterday was horrifying for me. When I saw the blood I didn't even know what to think. Then I got home and saw these two clots being expelled and in my heart I knew it was all over. I know my RE is hopeful, I know that my DH is hopeful, I know that others on this board are hopeful, and I know that others have experienced the same and now have a baby. But I felt pregnant yesterday, I felt pregnant last week, I don't feel pregnant today. I know it's strange at only 4 1/2 weeks to have felt pregnant but I did. I can't imagine not trying again with 6 frosties waiting for me and at the same time I can't imagine feeling this pain ever again. I know God has a plan. I have faith in that. I haven't lost my faith I am just so hurt and feel so out of control. But i know I never had control. I know that there has to be a reason for what has happened and I know I will probably never know what that reason is. And I know I have only gone through 3 cycles and what about those even on this board that are still trying after 6, 7, or 8 cycles. Or those that have MC much later. I shouldn't complain and I should see that my situation could be so much worse. And I am. I am grateful for what i have and realize that things could be worse. I am grateful and blessed for the wonderful, loving, and strong husband God has blessed me with. I am grateful and blessed to have known motherhood with my 12 1/2 year old son who is my life. And to have been blessed with a wonderful step-daughter and step-son. I know I am blessed. I just wanted to also be blessed with a tiny miracle or two that was a little part me and a little part my DH. In the end I know that us having or not having a baby does not define us or our relationship. In the end my DH and I are each others bestfriends and we will make it through this as we have everything else. In the end our faith and love will guide us an keep us together.
Thank you all for your kind posts, your words of wisdom, and hope. And most of all thank you all for your friendship. Even though we don't know each other in person I do consider each and everyone of you my friend and you all hold a very special place in my heart. I wish all of you the best am pray that all of your dreams come true.

[HopeIsAllIHave]

WeHaveHope - I am so sorry to hear about your latest scare. I've been down that road before when my first beta came up as 133. I was ecstatic! ..until 2 days later when my beta dropped to 125. I cried and cried and cried until there were no more tears remaining. I was told to stop taking my meds and that they'd draw another beta in 2 days. The third beta surprisingly came up to 256. I stayed cautiously optimistic, but a part of me still believed that I had lost the baby up until they did the 4th beta which came up to 667. That's when I really started to believe that maybe initially both the embryos took, but my first beta was already going down when I had it drawn for it to be 8 pts lower in the next two days. I really, really hope that your case is similar and that you still have a viable pregnancy going with a singleton. I know how difficult it is to remain optimistic in such situation having gone through the same emotions in the past, but I'm praying so hard for you. I really hope you receive some good news tomorrow.

Leora - thanks for the update. I'm with the rest.. I would definitely request for a second opinion. You really do have to be your own advocate in such cases. To physicians, it's just another case to learn from. For you, it's your life and much more! Keeping you in my thoughts.

Kat - congrats on team blue!!

Rio and Ryann - sorry to hear about all the difficulties with breastfeeding and nipple soreness! Rio - I hope your c-sec scar heals soon. Unfortunately, you just came out of a major surgery, so it will take some time to heal. Ryann, If Colic Calm doesn't work, try gripe water. It worked wonders for both my niece and nephew.

Barbara - Brooke is gorgeous!

Lou - how low was your hgb/hct? Mine was borderline low, so I was told to take Slow FE, which is off the counter. $30 does sound a bit expensive even after insurance. At least you have less than 3 months to go now!

Sorry if I missed anyone. The website won't allow for me to scroll down any further to catch up. But I'm thinking about you all.

Anna - You are next! Congrats on making it to August; what a milestone! I can't wait to see pics of baby Paul when you go into labor!

AFM - Had OB appt today. They gave me an induction date for Oct. 16th, but I told them I did not want to be induced. I was told that after 40 weeks, the baby is at risk for low amniotic fluid levels and what not, so they schedule the inductions not for their convenience, but ours. I refuse to believe that and told them that I wanted to go into spontaneous labor. If deemed medically necessary toward the end of my pregnancy, I'd be open to induction, but for now, I asked my OB to take me off the schedule for the 16th. Everything else looks good. I've gained 19 lbs. so far, so in order for me to not go beyond 30 lbs., I can only gain a lb a week for the rest of my pregnancy. I seem to gain at least a lb and half per week at the rate that I'm going. I really need to either reduce the amount of food I eat or just make healthier choices. DH was able to find me some organic chocolate ice cream bars and fruit bars today along with some healthy organic chocolate brownie bars. It was super expensive, but he'd rather spend more money on organic food (even junk food) than have me eat crappy preservatives, antibiotics, or growth hormones. Our grocery bill came out to $211 for just the 2 of us which will only last us a week. It pinches, but it's our baby's health that's most important. Oh, also started childbirth classes as of last night. It's pretty interactive so it's kind of fun taking a class with DH. Scheduled my 3D scan for Aug. 23rd, when I'll be 31 and half weeks. I was hoping for sooner, but was told that I'll be able to make out the baby's features far more by that time because of the baby fat that's currently in the making. I'm excited!

[blairwh58]

Not the best pic because DH used my phone and has shaky hands but I promised to post a new bump pic at 20 wks so here it is.

[LYD10]

Hope - i also didnt want to be induced because i've heard that labor is more difficult post induction. but i didnt want to go into week 41/42 because at that point the placenta starts to disintegrate and the baby is not getting proper nutrients. so what i did is at week 40.5 i went to see an accupuncturist and she did a treatment to help induce labor. right there on the table i felt a strong urge to go #2 (bathroom) because its similar energy downward flow. anyway when teh accupuncturist heard that she told me i will be in labor in teh next few days - i started having contractions that night! so the accu really worked for me to induce labor. consider it as an option for yourself.
my accu is a fertility specialist - so she knows what she is doing. she also used a little electrical stimilation together with teh needles. which doesnt hurt at all .

[WeHaveHope]

Good morning my dear friends,
First, thank you for all of you support, kind words, and prayers. I feel ever so slightly better today. At the very least I haven't started to cry yet so u guess that is a step in the right direction. I am scheduled to have another Beta today at 8am EST. One again I will have to wait until 2pm or 2:30pm for the dreaded call. The wait is awful. I am going to go in yo work today. Staying home is not goin to help me or change any results. I ask that you please say a small prayer for us. A prayer for a small miricle an if the miricle I'd not possible then strength yo move forward. I love you all and I am praying for each and everyone one of you. Tha k you again for everything.

[to_have_fun08]

Wehavehope - Hoping for the best today.. I know this has to be the hardest few days of your life.. Hang in there.

[Happy Bunny]

Ashley: I was induced at exactly 40 weeks... My induction was really smooth and not at all what I feared. Having to do it again, I would prefer it go exactly as it did.

Edit: My doctor warned me about Brooke the possibility of Brooke not doing good after 40 weeks. I was really comfortable getting her out when I knew that she was fat and healthy rather than waiting... I was kinda scared of something happening to her - like a cord incident or whatever.

Also, having a scheduled induction was kinda nice because they scheduled me when the ward was low on inductions and scheduled C-sections. I got lots of attention from the nurses and no long wait for the epidural. Hours later, after I was holding our baby, 11 people showed up in various states of labor and issues - I was already done and happy.