Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[Jen1d]

So how are my favourate girls getting on today??

Loops, how you doing babe, hope your feeling a bit stronger??

I'm feeling fine--- actually very calm, its scares me
Whenever i think i feel something i try to wipe it out of my head so i dont get distracted with thoughts about what if it works, what if it doesnt--again.

Its always the second week i find scary but cant tell you how much better it is now i take the pessaries right through to test date as this stops the bleeding and takes away the panic of toilet visits, in the past it was horrendous-----so will just plod on until the 11th trying to be calm

Been cooking lasagne (healthy one) and salad for tea and now away to chill and do my nails.

Back at work tomorrow and not looking forward to it as the kids are being brats apparently and i've got into the habit of being at home-------hey ho, got to earn the pennies

Love Jen x

[lolajones]

Howdy amigas

Jen your calmness is perfect for the zen, under the wire bfp you're going to get. Digging the tranquilo vibes, dude. At least the whole pant-checking hoo hah is a thing of the past. Well, until you get your bfp that is, believe me, you and your gussets are going to get very bored of eachother.If you know what I mean......

Littles thanks for all the news! So, instant family! A boy and a girl - how cool! So, have you thought of names yet? Remember Steph was sooo organised and had them all picked out for young Faith. Your SIL sounds exactly like mine.... see? you can't chose your family my sweet.

Steph my worker bee. How are you going to cope with 2 weeks away from Faith??? I'm still waiting for a response on the whole Child 2 question btw....

Walsheroo - donde esta??

Ho hum, I'm sorry to inform the sisterhood that today was not a good one- where's my happy gone?? I am blaming the hormones for a black cloud that descended, boo hoo lola you tremendous ass . Stimms tomorrow but suddenly this seems like its taking forever. Def the hormones - evil chemicals of misery! Hoorah for stimms - man, I remember my last fresh cycle when I had mid-stimm day of overdramatic hysteria - bring it on!!!
I also still have a little tiny bit of bleeding which I'm sure is going on a lot longer than it should - y'see!! the cycle is doomed!!!!! AARRGGHHH.

OK enough already! Time out. I'm off to contemplate a life without coffee and alcohol. Oh, and children.

Laters chicas

Lola xxxxxxxxx

[Jen1d]

Loops

Bring on the stimms so hopefully you can feel a bit better.

As Littles said, drop me your mobile via email if you want some extra PMA.



Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

This is a fast one as dh needs food so its an emergency

Feel fine so far, not feeling much but might be different in the next day or so as af would arrive then---just waiting

Had the social worker over re adoption and its all go. We have forms to fill out then she will visit next Wed and give us a date for the classes and our Adoption Panel. Glad its all moving forward but had to lie about ivf being finished----got a prob if we have a pos result this time but bring it on

Loops - Hugs babe, hope you ok, let me know as i'm a bit worried about you

Steph - Working to much hope your ok

Walshy - Get back here now

Littles - How you doing babe, is your belly nice a big already. Your so tiny it must be strange?

Love to you all

Jen x

[Inhale, Exhale]

Hi Plummys!!!

How are ma girlies?

Loops- you dream sounds downright horrifying! I hate dreams like that, soooo real and stay with you and leave feelings of dread. But, as you said, it ended fine. Just a sign that you are set for a happily ever after fairytale ending and one day you will sitting around telling the triplets, Loops, Lo-la-la-la and Loopy, how hard you worked to get them and how worth it it all was. Did you start the good time drugs yet?

Jens- wow.. adoption process is moving along goody time. although it will all turn out to be unnnecessary, it will keep your mind focused on positives! and you are bound to Positive-ville. Many detours along the way, but I hear the resturants are fab and there is a Starbucks on every corner.. decaf of course.

Littles- Keep the good news coming... when you said one was a boy and one was a girl... that was just what you think right? not an actuality yet? still too early to tell? I mean, the beans know what they are, but the tiny bits are too tiny bits to hold a sign that says "me boy" "me girl"

Walshy- I sooooo miss you!!! I wish you didn't feel sad when you checked in... take care hugs

As for me... my kodak software on my work computer is being finicky.. which means it will be a little while before I get you a pic of Faithy. she is so beautiful, so it will be worth the wait! and as far as baby number 2.. well, of course we would be over the moon to find out we were pregnant, and ofcourse we are not preventing.. but I can't seem to commit to "trying" again.. as you know it comes with monthly heartbreak, tons of emotional moments, worries.. that are all sooooo very worth it.. but not a place I am willing to go right now. I want to concentrate on the miracle I was given right now. If it happens again naturally and surprisingly, Fabulous!! if not.. we will think about that later... I don't think hubs ever wants to go back to IVF etc. He will do it if we need to and if I really want to.. but he is content to have little Faithy and if anothr doesn't follow, that is fine with him. I haven't quite worked that out yet in my mind. I think I will also be willing to just let what happens, happen. BUT, I AM a control freak..... I guess that is why I stick around here.. you girls understand all of those crzy thoughts and feelings, without my explanation. AND it hasn't been that long since I have been where you are and it just plain sticks and you all DESERVE all the support and spankys you can take!!!

Back to work.. and I am traveling the next two days.. so you likely won't hear from me on the computer... but that little voice in your head that whispers that everything is fine and your dreams will come true... that's me!

Steph

[Jen1d]

AND STEPH--------FOR STICKING ROUND TO HELP US GET THE JOY YOU HAVE, THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT AND FRIENDSHIP

LOVE JEN X

[Jen1d]

AND STEPH--------FOR STICKING ROUND TO HELP US GET THE JOY YOU HAVE, THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT AND FRIENDSHIP

LOVE JEN X

[Jen1d]

Am ok, feeling nothing but usually get af feelings in the tum during the last few days in all the other cycles so just hoping that stays away.
I have a bit of a hope in the back of my head that it will be a pos but am trying to focus on the adoption as i am just waiting for the next bfn---------why would i get lucky this time???

More waiting i suppose

Loops - Hope your ok and the spotting has stopped

Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

Hi

I'm getting the debug problem everytime i submit a post and couldnt send a few of my messages. Anyone else having the problem?

Loops -Hope your ok, here is a hug to keep you going


So how is everyone else???

Am fine so far. Still feeling nothing but think today/tomorrow might get the af feelings i normally get a couple of days before test date. If they stay away then i might feel really postive ???

Got our dates through for adoption classes yesterday----makes me laugh really. People have no experience with kids, push it out in the hospital and then go home 2 days later and have to learn what to do-----i have worked with kids all my life and am a trained nursery nurse and i have to attend classes Anyway at least its all moving forward.

Ok will pop in later as i'm off work for 2 days yyyiiipppeeeee

Love Jen x

[camilla]

Hello girls,
I haven't checked in for ages, partly because I couldn't bear to hear about Littles until I thought it was safe! The first 12 weeks can be nerve racking. And now I can't help smiling and thinking of you and your little babies (and one of each!). I know you've been through the mill but now you have to enjoy the results and although you'll never forget the journey take pleasure in the here and now, you deserve it.

Lola - Thinking of you, stimming. I know it's emotional but I always thought of the injections as a means to an end and in a weired way looked forward to doing them in the evening because each day felt a little closer!

Jen - Thinking of you too and will come back to see how you are doing. Not long.

Steph and Walshy - Hi you two, at separate ends of the world!

I sometimes try to picture all of us in our homes waving to each other. You're all amazing!

Lots of love
Camilla xxxxx

[camilla]

Hello girls

B****R! I've given up swearing for Lent but that doesn't count! I just rattled off a message to you all and then it didn't post! Have to remember my witty and wonderful remarks now but probably can't.

Littles - I haven't checked in for ages because part of me couldn't bear to hear anything other than good news but now the 12 weeks (and more!) are over I feel safe. I am smiling now and thinking of you and your babies (one of each!). I know you have had a real journey which you'll never forget but I hope you can enjoy the fruits of your labour and soak up every experience.

Lola - I know stimming is emotional but I thought of the drugs as a means to an end and in a weird way looked forward to my evening injections because I was a day closer.

Jen - Hi, I can see I shall have to come back very soon! Not long, thinking of you.

Steph and Walshy - Hello you two at the other ends of the world.

I sometimes try to picture us all at home waving to each other. You're all amazing.

Lots of love.
Camilla xxxxx

[camilla]

Hi girls

Grrhhh and B****R! (Have given up swearing for Lent but that doesn't count!) Just rattled off a message and it didn't post. Shall have to remember my witty and wonderful words again!

This is a test to see if it works and if it does I can do it properly again!
Camilla xxxxx

[camilla]

And me again!

What is going on?! Those messages were from last night! A bug error thingy kept appearing saying messages were'nt sent. Thought I'd try again today and don't need to!

Anyway hope you are all ok.

Bella is asleep (very good at that), had my lunch in front of the telly and have some spare time! We went to a music group this morning and she was spinning, clapping and stomping her feet, so sweet, she loves music and will move to the radio or music on telly. Sometimes I can't believe she is here and other times it's as if I've known here forever. As you know I'm a full-time mum so my week revolves around home (which I love) but is not always terribly interesting for anyone else so that's why I don't write a lot.

Hope you're ok Jen, have everything crossed for you darling.

Lots of love
Camilla xxxxx

[Jen1d]

Hey Camilla good to hear from you and glad your getting on ok.

Just wanted to say hi, thinking of you all and not much to report.

Had police interview today and all fine----easy after i had been through it in London with the Met, much harder there. Anyway dont know if i will be successful, nothing to do with me but they feel my job might be 'a conflict of interests'. They think i might have problems with the yp if i have to be called to the unit, or see them outside. Tried to fight my corner and tell them how i would manage it but ????????????? More waiting to see if i pass but you know what, not really that concerned at this moment in time. If i can pass everything with the Met and they wanted me and the crappy Specials cant pass me, well its their loss

BUT the shock of the day is that still no af feelings????????? Not looking into anything though

You wait and see would be my luck to have adoption pass, police pass and get a bfp----but come on, i wouldnt be that lucky---would i

Hope everyone is doing ok.

Working all weekend so will log on when i can.

Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

Hi gang

Loops - Please pop in and let me know your ok????

The dh and i had our adoption medical done, it was all fine---but i do feel bad telling the social worker that our ivf is all finished. I didnt want to lie to here, just get the process moving

BUT shock still no af feelings????????? Not looking into anything though but usually i have af signs everywhere at this stage???

Working all weekend so will log on when i can.

Take care

Love Jen x