Heart’s Desire – Finding Strength and Direction from God

[sonu911]

Hey Dearies,

Praise Lord, I have reached my destination safely and met my doc. He wasn't happy with my lining so he has planned my FET for the next month. I am fine with it and I have no reasons to question it, after all he knows the best. Well, he said, IT HAS TO WORK THIS TIME!!! Sounds like some divine message Also the problems that my DH was facing is being sorted out, THANK YOU LORD FOR EVERYTHING.

Also ladies, I just can't thankyou enough for being there giving you unconditional support and prayers. I will continue looking forward to it.

Welcome alisha and hrobinson...you have come at the right place.

MP, Chriss and Kildean, BFP is just a blink away!!
Indieblue, it will sound like cliche' but just hang in there. If HE wants it you will get what you desired for.
Hope, my heart goes out for you and indeed we all are very fortunate to have you on our board.
Nic, I was just thinking we will be cycling together, next week i meet my doc again, then i will know about my exact protocol. Most probably, it will happen approx 14-15 March. I have 5 snowbabies and i alos forgot the ratings.. I am so happy to know that we can refreeze our unused snowbabies, hoping for the best.
Cathann, all the best with those shots.
For all my other sisters, my prayers are with all of you, may we all succeed in this journey of attainment of motherhood and our proximity with our LORD increases day by day as we all approach our decisive and important days. I pray to LORD that he instills in all my dear sisters strength through this amazing journey of IVF.
Love you all.

[chriss]

Welcome alisha & hrobinson. Glad you are here.

Good to hear form you sonu. Glad that things with DH are working out. You have a very positive attitude. Thanks, it inspires.

Nicaliw, hello. Yes, prayer is very important. I need to remind myself as well. You asked about my clotting disorder and yes, they believe that is was the cause of my miscarriage last year. I am now on baby aspirin and WHEN I am pregnant, I will be on injectible blood thinners. I am happy that we discovered it so that the next time will be a success. thanks for asking. How did it impact the woman that you mentioned?

Hi Kildean, My BFP is set for MOnday the 18th.
How's the 2ww going for you?

Hi Mia!!!!! Hang in there baby. You are getting closer.

Hi Indie, thinking of you.

You too HOPE!

I'm thinking of you all and praying for our happiness. Thanks for your kind words, support and prayers. It does wonders. -chriss

[cathann]

mia ~ hang in there girl....you are SOOO close! I probably would have done 10 tests by now. You are very strong! Two more days until your BFP!!!

sonu ~ I'm glad you have peace about your doctor's decision. I think it's better to wait than to not have an optimal situation.....harder to have to wait though. Hang in there...prayers that your endo shapes up soon!

Welcome to the new folks! Best of luck and prayers for you all!

Cathann

[kildean23]

chriss: The 2ww is going fine other than that I ready to test now. I've been having cramps on and off and achy thighs. Have you felt any of this? I'm not sure what pregnancy symptoms are because I've never been pregnant.

[nicaliw]

chriss....the woman I took care of was at full term and had been injecting with heparin through her pregnancy. The baby had IUGR (Intra Uterine growth retardation) but there is no way to know if that is directly related to the clotting disorder. The baby did just fine and they went home after a few days of just watching the baby closely. I'm sure you'll be just fine now they know to keep an eye on your PT/PTT (blood clotting rate) and keep up with the blood thinners.

[IndieBlue]

Well, my husband is just such the special man that he is. He called me today while I was taking the kids to Science Class and said he didn't want to do this tomorrow (meeting with RE for IVF trial/study cycle). Great...I'm in a public place so I can't break down now can I. He said he just thinks we have enough kids....and that he knew it would ruin our anniversary for him telling me (our 14 year anniversary is on the 14th) but he wanted to tell me so I wouldn't think he was getting off to take me tomorrow!

So now I have a ruined Anniversary, and there are 100 other things that have went wrong this week so needless to say I'm an emotional wreck and just want to climb back in bed for the remainder of my life.

Well, have to go deal with dd....pitching a fit She's obviously playing off my mood today!

Thanks for the prayers ladies....I'll continue to pray but it looks like I'm at a loss here I don't know why God would put such a HUGE desire on my heart only to break me.

[waitingforMia]

Indie: Sorry girl. I know this has been a back and forth struggle for you and that you feel like this study is the only opportunity you will get. But I believe that if God wills it you will have another opportunity at a time when your dh is supportive (no matter your age). I know that doesn't help at all, but I am praying for you. Don't let this ruin your anniversary. You married him not a babymaker (that is what my dh tells me all the time ) Maybe God allowed this desire to grow in your heart as a trial to strengthen your character. Don't allow Satan to use this as a division between you and your dh.

Kildean: Yes I am so tempted too to POAS. But I just want to wait for the phone call on vday achy thighs can be from the PIO shots. I have been peeing like a race horse (what does that saying mean??) but that is the only symptom for me! And you can make it till the beta - YOU MUST!! lol! Just think the hpts are so unreliable. It will be so much easier to get a def. answer!!!

Cathann: yeah it hasn't been an easy wait . I was doing fine until last night I need to distract myself a bit!

Chriss; So your BFP is set for the 18th?? That is the PMA I have been waiting for!!! I think Kildean is just a day later than yours!

Sonu: Glad to hear from you. Sorry you have to wait a bit more - but like you said better to be patient and have the best conditions!! Thank you for your prayers!

Nic: Umm I think I am more excited about my pt... lol! Sorry you have to be on meds.. I was hoping FET was more like an IUI!! And thanks for the reminder. I have been sooo distracted lately I have not spent enough time before the Lord in prayer!! Isn't it easy to get so focused on the medical side?? PRaying for focus on Him for all of us!!

Hope: You there???

Thanks again girls for the blessing each of you are to me! :0)

MP

[chriss]

Indie, so sorry to hear your sadness and distress. Wish I could make it all better for you. Wish I had answers. Thinking of you.

Nicaliw, thanks for the response.

Kildean, I've had some on/off cramping but that could be PMS. My thighs do not ache at all. Pregnancy symptoms are different for everyone. When do you test?

[hrobinson]

Thank you ladies for the warm welcome. I am so excited to have people all over the world praying for me and God's will.

MP- I too am from Texas. Where are in Texas are you? Would it not be amazing if our "circles" had actually crossed?
When is your test date? I am very proud of you for not POAS!!! The temptation is so har to resist. However, you know you are PUPO!
I have never heard of sore thighs as a symptom, but you are so right that all pregnant women seem to have different symptoms.

Indie- Oh, I was so hurt for you. I can only imagine what you are going through. I take for grante how supportive my dh is.
Continue praying for God's will to be done. God has so many plans for us, and he may not be closing this window for you, but he may just be putting a little crack in it. I will pray that you and your husband are able to join forces on whatever it is that God has planned for you.

Nicaliw- Yes, our paths did cross earlier. I must be honest, and say that I just started the book yesterday.
I put it on my eliptical to read as I work out....well, needless to say I have been able to find excuses for not working out. So, yesterday I said enough is enough. I just finished the 2nd chapter. It is quite an entertaining book. So true as to what I know I have felt through this whole process.
I am glad to see that it is almost time for you to start your FET. I just know that this will work for you.
I think it helps when we #1 turn it all over to God, and #2 realize how many people are praying for us.

Ladies- Thank you so much for making me feel so welcome here. I too will be praying for each and everyone of you. god brought us together for a reason, and I am so excited about that
I must go comfort my dd. She has been sick and is having a tough time falling asleep.

may God bless each and every one of you.

[kildean23]

Well ladies, I couldn't stand to wait. I know I am bad. I took an HPT and it is definitely positive. I had a trigger shot of 5000 so I would think that would be out of my system by now It is 15dp the trigger. Please pray for a strong beta on the 19th. The Lord is so good!!!!!!!!!!!

[waitingforMia]

KILDEAN CONGRATS!!!!! WOOHOO! PRAISE GOD!!! I am just thrilled for you!! How did dh react?? This is the best news I have hear all day!!! Thank you Jesus that you are still in the business of making miracles!!!!

[apdean23]

Hey sis (kildean), I am so excited to be an auntie!!!!, Lord willing it will work for me. Kisha this is going to be so fun! I am sitting at work and just cannot stop praising God! Well I'll talk to you later. I'm praying for all of you ladies! God can do all things!

Alisha

[nicaliw]

YAY Klidean!!!! Thats fantastic news!!!!!!!!! Another BFP for us, woo-hoo!



hrobinson...that funny that you started working out yesterday. I have been putting it off and outting it off for months now. I actually quit the gym before my first IVF because they put up my memebership fee without telling me and I wasn't going as much. There was a time I would go every other day. Yesterday I decided to do a little somthing at home to start to break back into it. It was SO pathetic, my heart was racing and my legs were like jello after about 20 minutes! Yikes, its gonna be harder to get back in shape than I thought. No worries about the book, its for you to read whenver you find time, just enjoy!

MP.......oh man, how much longer???? You going to POAS? I was a POASaholic. I had bought a big bag of HPT's before my cycle from ebay cause I know how I am and I didn't want to have to break the bank. I did get my first BFP on a HPT at 8dp5dt. I don't know how others can resist.

Nothing else new here excpet I'm feeling crampy. Not sure why. I should be ovulating any day now and do always feel some pelvic heaviness/mild pain when I do but not crampy feelings like this. I talked to DH about this and he said he thinks it hardly suprising things feell different now after everything I put my body through.
Oh another wonderful thing. My DH is a smoker and he drinks a few beers every night. Not somthing I like at all, kind of a problem. I was watching some things on TV about how alcohol and smoking affect sperm and how if a man mokes the woman has a higher chance of miscarriage (and of course I did have one). My DH said last night that if I have to do another fresh cycle because the FET doesn't work, he will stop smoking and drinking all together and make any other lifestlye/diet changes that will help our chances. I am really happy but a bit weary of this promise, too, he has tried to quit smoking before. As an ex smoker I know how hard it is to get over that hump, but now the thought of smoking disgusts me, so it IS possible.

[IndieBlue]

Well, here I am again Good morning ladies.

Congrats to Kildean....I'm so happy for you! I don't blame you for the HPT....I would be that way too LOL

Mia....you're not going to cave to the HPT? LOL

Well, my situation is just the same. He called me yesterday saying that he wasn't going to do it so of course I crawled under a rock. I was so disappointed that he'd tell me that way.....and after he'd said he'd drive me...etc. So irritating! I just wish men had more tact for discussing things and didn't just call you at the worst possible time and blurt it out.

This morning he must be feeling my wrath (just joking....I've not done anything to him..LOL) but he called and said that he'd be home at 1 to drive me tonight for the meeting. HUH? I of course said don't worry about it....I'm not going to have a baby if only one of us has their heart in it. But why even bring it back up.....stop PLAYING with my mind!!!!!

Not to mention that I'm PMS'ing, our taxes are delayed because of some stupid issues, and we're still waiting for a reimbursement check that we turned in expenses for in November....hello!!! Today people!

Oh well, I'm sure as time goes on I'll feel better.....praying for that

[cathann]

indie ~ Bless you, bless you. I could just cry for you. I pray that your situation will improve soon.

kildean ~ YEA!!!!!! Congratulations!!

Prayers for you all!
Cathann