Fall 2010 Cycle Group

[annashope]

Tammy I am so sorry sweety. (((((Hugs))))) this process is so unfair

[rypell1985]

Tammy... the least I could do after you have always beenthere for me is read your entire post....so I guess I'll eat a chocolate chip cookie when I get home I'm so sorry that you are dealing with all of this on top of a BFN. You are such a strong woman and know that you can rant here any time with NO judgement. Biiiiiiiiiiiiig hugs.

[klinger13]

Hi ladies,

Ive actually talked to a couple of you in PM but have read about all of you for a long while now and thought Id join. I had 2 polyps removed and a D&C done on Tuesday 11/9. Im waiting on AF, not really sure how long thats supposed to take following my surgery as I was due to start my regular period on 11/19. Im doing a FET in the coming weeks. I did my first IVF in July 2009 and got pregnant with my DD that I had at 25 1/2 weeks gestation January 12, 2010 due to PROM. Unfortunately she died May 29,2010 from complications of CMV that I contracted somehow somewhere during pregnancy.
Its been almost 6 months since my DD died and Ive been going to alot of different specialists to try to prevent what happened last time. I have one blast grade 4 AB to transfer. I know for my age Im sure thats not enough but worth a shot anyways. I know that every situation is different but we all want the outcome to be the same. Im glad to have found a group that is so open to talk about everything and anything. What a blessing you all are! My prayers and best wishes to you all!

~~ Heather~~

Heather - I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your daughter. How heartbreaking to hear that. But I'm really glad you joined the group and you'll find lots of information and support here! Definitely keep us posted as you move through the process and we'll be cheering you on.

[Lauren]

Tammy-RANT all you want!!!! I am sorry you even have to deal with an ass brother like that. He should really consider his sister while going thru such tough times! jerk!!!! Tell him to get over himself and consider other people and there feelings. Hope that wine is good...and im gonna have me a chocolate chip cookie Were here to listen.....anytime

[klinger13]

Tammy - I agree with Lauren!! That definitely deserves a rant or two (or ten!) Talk about ridiculous!! I'm sorry you have to deal with that shit on top of your BFN. UGH!!

[leorira11]

Tammy - wow. I'm so sorry.

Heather - I lost my twins at 22 weeks after pPROM. It's so awful that even after IVF we can lose our babies is such horrific ways...

AFM - I took my last does of progesterone this morning! I should get my period in the next few days! With an 18mm lining, I'm preparing for a freakin' flood. Bring it on, AF! I'm soooo beyond ready to start this damned FET. I should be 18 weeks pregnant, instead I'm starting again... damned pregnancy loss....

[Karian]

Tammy: I'm so sorry about your BFN. We are here to listen.... I'm going to go get me a Chocolate chip cookie!..

[x0Heather0x]

leorira- I had PROM at 22 1/2 weeks with no contractions but was able to keep her in for another 3 and made it to 25 1/2 weeks. They gave me steroids and antibiotics but due to infection they had to take her at 25 1/2 weeks via c-section. We were in the NICU for 99 days and then took her home. 2 weeks later we had to bring her back to the hospital because she got psudomonis (sp). They helicoptered her to Atlanta and put her on ECMO. She died 17 days later due to fluid retention and kidney failure or complications to CMV.

I know they preach to mothers to get to 24/25 weeks as if its some kind of magic number but all babies and situations are different. There are babies that lived that were smaller and sicker than my daughter. But she is where she suffers no more and for that we are thankful. It doesnt make it any easier when a doctor tells you all the what if's, ands, and buts.
Im sorry for your losses. I know its not easy and its scary. But with every cycle you do, its a huge leap of faith and closer to a dream come true. Its so hard to hear of women getting pregnant just thinking about it, or just starting to try. Its hard for me to understand why women on drugs have no problems having them and then turn around and take their little lives. Im an angry person but grounded. I dont understand why the ones that want children the most cant have them. It just makes no sense! So I understand all of your rants of anger and disgust!

[TammyS]

Heather and Leorira....Here I sit ranting and raving and having my own pity party...when you girls have both been through soooo much. I am truely sorry for your losses. Forgive me for being so inconsiderate. Great big hugs to you both.

Ryann...you will be 13dpo on your anniversary. Go for it. You should definitely know by then. Heck, poas the day before...so you can plan a special anniversary surprise for him.

My neighbor and 2 more mommies on my mommies board just announced their pregnancies today, too. That makes approx 40 people I know who are pregnant...maybe more...no kidding. Open wound insert salt. Sorry...I'm really done now.

[moorebaby]

I AM SUPRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Holy moly I cannot even begin to express my excitement over that phone call!!!!!!!!!! I go for a lining check on 11/29 for a transfer date of 12/3. I am thanking my lucky stars!!!!!!!!!!!!

congrats ryann!!! that is great news!

[moorebaby]

AFM: I know my body well. Beta = 1.0...which is very negative. First, I ripped off 3 bandaids since they had to poke me 3 x's for blood today! Grrr!!! Then, I ripped off my estrogen patches. And, now I am enjoying a glass of wine.

POAS may not be for everyone, but for me...it slowly over 3 days...got me in the right mindset for the bad news. I dont regret it one bit. Had I waited till Tuesday to hear the nurse say, "I'm sorry"...it would have been much much worse for me.

On to my next cycle. AF will be here Tuesday. Please move me back to "Waiting for AF"...Thanks Amanda.

oh no, i'm so sorry tammy! you're such a strong woman! have a glass of wine for me

[kynlee]

Lauren- Sorry that you have ohss, I had that when I had ER in Aug, they had to cancel my ET cause it was so bad... But I rested and drank lots of gatorade and it really helped... rest as much as possible... I know alot of the ladies mention salty food, I would try that anything to get comfortable...

Rypell1985- CONGRATS SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

Riogirl/Klinger- Talked to the nurse today about my little pain and she said it couldnt be my ovaries since i had a fet that made me feel so much better but still doesnt tell me if something is wrong, I am guessing maybe I pulled a muscle without realizing it...

Tammy- So sorry about your neg.. But glad you are jumping right back in... You are such a strong person and so supportive to each of us.. So sorry your Brother is being a jerk... Enjoy a glass of wine for me too And that chocolate chip cookie sounds good to bad I dont have any at home at the moment, going to have to send dh to the store lol

Karian- Great Fert report.. everthing will be ok

Dandme- Your a very strong person and very knowledgeable I know you have so many thoughts on your mind, but everything will work out I will be saying a prayer for you You deserve to have a great pregnancy with no worries (hugs)

Klinger- Glad they figured what the rash was, must feel wonderful to have gotten a ointment that made the itch leave...

riogirl- sorry about the one embie that didnt make it (hugs) but i know the other 3 will get you a BFP soon

Renee- Congrats on your twins...

Heather welcome.. So sorry about your DD...

AFM- I feel like I am getting sick Feeling hot nausea and miserable Still have a slight cramp( but as the nurse said not my ovaries so that is good news) tuesday will be here before I know it. thinking of poas, when can I do that since Beta is Tuesday? Sunday? Nervous if I dont see aline but kinda want to know either way...

[NancyB]

Tammy -- I'm so very sorry about your BFN and the other junk going on as well. Hang in there. It's hard when so many ppl around you are pregnant. I have to give a baby shower on Sunday for my brother and his wife. I'm thrilled for them. The timing of it just sucks with my BFN only 1 week old, you know.

Amanda -- glad you have an answer for all that itching and rash.

Renee -- congrats on your twins!!!!!

Heather -- I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I can only imagine how very painful and difficult all of that has been. Like you I have on embryo remaining. I go in for my post IVF on 11/24 and we'll get plan together then for the FET. I, too, am worried about only having one remaining. I don't even know the grade of my one. I do know it was frozen on day 6 but that's all I know.

Nancy

[karin1]

Tammy.....Gosh girl......so sorry about your bfn and your ass brother. it sucks to deal with him when you're having such a bad day already. You know what they say....u can choose your friends....you're stuck with family. People and even more so, men that have kids of their own really don't understand how difficult and emotional it can be. Have a glass of wine. I'll be having some too later.((((HUGS))))

[TammyS]

Thanks girls. I cant believe that I completely forgot to tell you all the kicker of it all. I am expected to give the baby shower...her family sucks ass. It was me who gave her ...her bridal shower, too...BUT she had to make her crazy sister the maid of honor.

On top of that...I am expected to give her all of my baby stuff, too. If I dont, I will never hear the end of it from anyone in our family. She generously gave us some old dirty smokey toys and clothes from the 80's...handed down 10 times over....so my brand new GAP/Gymboree/Janie and Jack clothes and higher end brand new barely used baby furniture/things will be handed down, rather than sold to regain 1/2 of the cost or more...since everything is in perfect condition. We only bought the good stuff ...so it would last through 2 kids and we would still be able to recoup some cost as well. She told me a couple of weeks ago that she will give me everything back to sell when she is done. No thanks...my asshole brother is a smoker. I wont be able to get $10 for my travel system at that point.

(So as to not hurt her feelings...I took all the stuff she gave me last year and stored it in the garage...then Bill loaded the truck last week and dropped it all back off at her house).

So, I HAVE to get pregnant next time...it is our last time for sure. I do NOT want to have to give her everything...yeah, I'm a beotch....and I dont care.

Ok, seriously....I'm done now.