The Sisterhood of the Blue Stilettos

[FionaA]

Bloody Hell I'm knackered I'm not sure I can keep up this working lark. Was in court all morning and am now so tired I can hardly string a sentence together....

Nickster, I still can't believe what a rollercoaster you are on. I so hope that your HCG is going up and your twins are fighting on... I will keep you in my thoughts for sure.

Thanks Tina for our photobucket thingo. I will try to post something soon, not promising anything during the week though I am just a zombie. You are looking very glam in your pics well done! I am hardly managing to brush my hair these days, I have a large dreadlock thing growing at the back of my head, nice. Please feel free to fly over and boot my boss in the ass.

Angie, six kilos is absolutely fine, I put on more than that in the first trimester. I also hit the chocolate hard and blamed the baby. I managed to produce a real sweetie though so keep eating and hopefully you will have one too. As for the tracksuit pants well enjoy them while they last cos even those won't last the distance if you are anything like me. My gut was out of control towards the end and no pants could contain it.

Sassy sorry to hear that your plumbing has taken a beating lately but glad to hear of your miracle drug. And your pic is amazing absolutely amazing. So glad to hear that little runt is doing well. I had a feeling he was a tough one. No wonder you are exhausted, the first tri was bad enough for me with one baby let alone five. So what is the peri saying, do you need to eat heaps extra, take extra vitamins etc???

Well It's home time and I'm off, feeling revived becasue I get to see my little cutie soon....

Fee

[nickster]

Sassy~ Wow that is an amazing picture! Looks like it's gonna get pretty crowded in there!!! Glad to hear all the heartbeats are still there and runt is still hanging on!

Fee~ We would be happy to come and take care of some business for you. Should we all come together so they don't even know what hit em? Our girl's got dread locks for God sakes...this is getting serious!

Angie~ Glad to hear you found some comfy clothes to wear. And sounds like you'll be well accessorized too!

Tina~ We need to plan our "vacation" to take care of some business for our girl Fee!

Well my us is actually not until Thursday afternoon. Today I was supposed to get my hcg drawn but I'm not sure if I am going to do it. Dh and I kind of decided that it just seemed to bring us some un-necessary ups and downs last week so I think we will just wait til Thursday. What do you girls think? I even thought about getting it drawn and not finding out what it was but I don't know if I could stand that!

[nickster]

OK so we did another hcg today because my dr wanted to do it. Of course I couldn't stand not to know, so it is 4100 (which it was 4800 last week). This is slowly killing me! We don't know what to think anymore!
So we go for the us on Thursday and hopefully that will tell us more.

[FionaA]

Geez Nickster I just don't know what to think??? I can't imagine how hard all this uncertainty is for you. I will anxiously await your US results....any chance you could have it sooner, you seem to have marvellous medical contacts....and while you're waiting by all means come over and boot my boss. I will charter a plane, I may borrow Tom Cruises one, organise a US shuttle run to pick up the sisters, drop in to Melb to collect Angie (don't worry, chocolate will be served on board) and then land somewhere in the vicinty of my office. You can all then set upon my boss any which way you like.

Fee

[meg12]

Save me a seat on that plane, Fee. I need to get away and Tom Cruise's plane is perfect. And if I have to commit a violent act in order to get this vacation, well that's fine. Bring on the bossman!

Nickster--Man, those numbers are slowly killing us all. Hang in there and let's see what this us says. Tomorrow, right? Gaaaaaaaaa

Sassy--Yeah, runt! Hang in there, little baby.

Angie--Good job on the shopping trip. It's so weird that our seasons our opposite. It's hard for me to really grasp the fact that you're that far away. We're soooooo ready for summer here. I'm desperate for nice weather. I'd even take hot weather at this point!

We're doing okay here. DH got home from hospital on Monday and is slowly getting better. He's not supposed to lift Lucy, so I've been sort of a single parent the last few days. I don't know how single parents do it! Lucy is doing great--she had swimming lessons last night. It was her second week and she just flipping loves it. She's the youngest one in the class by about 6 months, but she has no fear. She even lets the instructor take her down the slide. It's hilarious. I have me a water baby! Well, off to make lunch for me and my fish.

[nickster]

Well I'm afraid it's bad news.....AGAIN.
One of the babies doesn't have a heart beat anymore at all and the other has dropped the heart rate from 98 to 62. We are once again devastated. It just seems like we just keep getting strung along. So the dr (this is the perinatologist) asked if we wanted a d&c now or to wait. We told him we realize this is bad and pretty much know it won't get better but we were going in for a d&c last week thinking there was no heart beats at all. So we told him for our sake we really do need the closure and need to know things are for sure finshed, not that we want to wait any longer! So I guess unless things happen on there own beforehand we will have a us next Wed and probably go ahead with a d&c right after that.
Thank you guys again for all your support and prayers.

[tinaO]

Oh Nickster, I am so so sorry. I just logged in hoping you would have good news. I just don't know what to say. This has been the worst roller coaster for you and I can't imagine what you are feeling. It is bad enough when things don't work out with IVF...but this has to be 10 times worse. I got tears in my eyes when I read you post. My heart goes out to you and your husband. It is just so unexplainable...which makes it worse. What words of hope did they offer you? I mean, I look at this thread and there are so many success stories....esp after 4,5,+ tries! I always found that to be pretty amazing. Look at Sassy! I don't know. It just doesn't make it easier right now, I know. Please know we are all here for you. You are one hell of a strong woman and I know you will come out on top...with a baby in your arms one day. I tell ya - this group of women in this group are all with kids or having kids that will probably be the most loved in the world considering what we go through.


Tina

[jenn]

Hey girls~

Just logged on and saw Nickster's news. I am so sorry to hear it, I was hoping it would turn out good in the end as I was reading all of the posts. Sounds like you have been through the ringer. I will be praying for you.

Tina thank you for setting us up in photobucket. As soon as I have time to get our Easter pics off of the camera I will upload some for ya'll to see. You looked great in your pics by the way! You won't see many of me I seem to have stalled on the weight loss thing. I am now gaining. I think getting up every couple hours 24/7 is taking a toll on my eating habits! I just grab and go!

Sassy glad to see runt is hanging in there with his/her brothers and sisters. I'm sorry the sickness is bad. I would imagine with 5 in there it would be unbearable. Are you doing the dissolve on your tongue kind of medicine? I have a friend that couldn't keep the pill down so she had to take the dissolving kind and then it got to the point where if she put it on her tongue she started to gag! I was lucky and didn't have it that bad!

Meg, glad to hear your dh is doing good. I know what you mean about the single parenting thing. I often wonder what I would do if I was taking care of Anna alone. I might have collapsed by now!!

Angie sounds like you had quite the shopping trip! I loved to shop for clothes even if they were maternity. Now that I am supposed to be skinny, I'm not lovin the shopping trips so much!

Fee- sorry you are so tired! Try not to work too hard. I am waiting to see pics of the nogs... It is very easy to upload them. If I could figure it out anyone can!

Ok gotta run. I'm in the middle of cooking dinner. We are having Zuppa Tuscana. My favorite soup. Too bad it is 80 degrees here! Not exactly soup weather, but if I waited for that I would never get soup!

[meg12]

Nickster, I'm so f'ing sorry.

[FionaA]

Nickster, I was so hoping for better news for you. I really feel for you and DH and wish things could have been different. I'm not sure where you are in your IVF journey but like Tina said, there are so many eventual success stories for women who have had heartbreak along the way. I hope you can get some encouragement from that. Take care. Fee

[tinaO]

Just wanted you all to know - we are having a BOY! A very healthy baby boy!

[nickster]

CONGRATS Tina!!!
So we have a Noah...and I was wrong!

Thank you guys all again for your thoughts. Today is a bad day and I think it's because once again here we are to SIT & WAIT! I can't stand this. We can't even start to get over this until it's actually finished, and when will that be?? This is just horrible. I am definitely at the "anger" stage. I told dh if I get one more phone call, or hear one more person say "At least you know you can get pregnant" or "I know what you're going through" (people that of course have never been through IVF and have a bunch of kids!) I am seriously going to hurt them! So today I have chosen not to answer the phone just so that poor unlucky, unsuspecting person doesn't get the brunt of it! They'll appreciate it later!

Hey Fee...I think now would be a mighty fine time to take that vacation and have a talk with old boss man, don't you!!!! Nothing like an angry sista!!!

[Angie65]

Nickster - I am so sorry for your news - this "limbo" stage must be awful - I hope you get some closure soon and then I definitely think you and DH deserve a holiday. Go somewhere special and make sure you pamper yourselves.

Tina - congrats on your boy - I knew it would be a boy for you. Perhaps he and the boy you predicted for me can be mates across the world! Actually, I am not now sure I am having a boy - a few weeks ago I thought it was definitely a boy, now the last few days I am thinking it might be a girl ! I am enjoying the suspense anyway!

Meg - hope DH is recovering well.
Jenn, Fee, Sassy - hope you are enjoying your weekends.

Quick update from me - had the glucose test yesterday - must be the only lady in the world who actually liked the sweet sugary drink - it tasted like lucozade which I used to have when I was little and when I was sick. Have to wait a few days for the result - am hoping I haven't passed on my sweet tooth and chocco addiction to the wombat!

Well I have obviously moaned about the heat too much coz now it has gone cold and grey and keeps raining. Wanted to go for a walk but don't fancy getting drenched - oh well at least I can finally wear my trackies!

[FionaA]

Nickster I'm so sorry you are having to go through this. I can't imagine how hard it is. I hope things resolve for you quickly so you can begin some sort of recovery. And, thanks for offering to use your anger to spear head my working from home campaign. I am quite happy to put you in the front line of the battle so to speak. I wouldn't be surprised if you took out all four of the partners at my firm in your current frame of mind....goody.

Let us know how you are going with everything....

Tina congrats on your little boy...I can't remember what I predicted I'm pretty dippy these days... you must be thrilled.

Angie, I also found that drink quite tasty...love me a sweet sweet fizzy drink, good luck on the GT test, I'm sure you will be fine you sound like you are right on track healthwise (well at least weight wise) you are doing good...

Well I'd better be off. DH has turned out to be quite a good house husband and has just baked an Apple pie...

Fee

[jenn]

Nickster~ I'm so sorry you are going through this. The waiting around must be horrible. I agree- you get a vacation. Some time to relax a little.

Fee- did you save me a peice of apple pie?

Tina~ congrats on your boy!!

Well gotta go. The out laws are visiting and I can't stay back here in the office all day!