Dec/Jan 08 Cycle Buddies

[wunnam]

Hi Everyone,
I went b/w this morning and the nurse foned me to say my treatment has been cancelled. How devasting? all odds seem to be against me. She didn't explain why but booked appointment for me to see the consultant. i couldn't ask her any question because i burst into tears and my voice was shaking. now i have got to wait for next year to what it holds for me.

Pumma- am happy to hear you had 12 follies

for everyone retrieving this week good luck hope you get good news

wunnam

[Neffi211]

Wunnam--what the heck...they didnt tell you anything? I'm so sorry to hear that your cycle was canceled! That sucks! Let us know whats going on???

[esperanza]

Hello my ladies!

Wunnam--I'm so, so, so sorry hun. We go through so much and we have such high expectations to get canceled like that. I am wondering why not explanation? that sounds a bit cruel to me. I certainly hope you get to heal from this and get excited about doing this again in a near future. Keep us posted.

Neffi--Good to hear AF arrived

schel67--welcome dear! I think I've read some of your postings in other threads. I'm sending lots of positive vibes your way so you can get the Christmas present your are wishing for. BFP! BFP!

Angie--watup gilr?!

hellokitty --trigger shot...sweet! Great to hear about your E2. I'm telling ya, great things happen when you least expect them

Pumma--glad you're back!! I'm here praying for you and your ET on Friday. Yes! it is going to work this time...Take care of you.

Tali --I hope work gets to slow down soon.

Michele --great news. I'm so happy for you hun. Grow embies, GROW!

As for me: I'm going for my injections class tomorrow morning, and I should receive my big box of medications in the mail tomorrow as well

I'll start the Lupron shots on Saturday I'm nervous and excited at the same time.

Let's keep at it friends

[esperanza]

ER

LB -- Dec 11th

Boo1-- ER Dec 9 or 10

Angel505— Dec 12-14

Hellokitty—Dec 14th

FaithHopeLove ER approx. Dec 17th

Neffi211— Jan 18

Amy2410—Thyroid test after holidays

PrincessB— Jan 4th

Tracy S—start shots Jan 6th

Tali— Week Jan 7th

ICSI Girl—week of Jan 7th

Higgins237 – week of Jan 7th

Washingtonda—Jan 9 ET

Esperanza – January 10th

Jomae—mid January

Colesmom—Jan 21st

Laglenik—Jan 23-25

MLB—pending on cyst development

Wunnam—Unfortunately canceled Crying or Very sad ...for now.

WaitingforMia ???

ET

CT_Michelle Dec 14th

Pumma Dec 14 or 16

LB ????

Branbree –week of Jan 15th



TEST DAY (2 WW)

Schel--Dec 21st

CT_Michelle Dec 24th

Pumma Dec 24th or 26th

LB ????

Boo1-- ??


ALL looking forward to BFPs!!

Sticky baby dust to all!

[summerbaby]

thinking of everyone having er/et this week! wishing you all lots of luck, good fert. reports and smooth transfers and plenty of sticky baby dust! Think about your embies snuggling in and growing because I'm looking forward to reading about lots of BFP's before the end of the year! during the 2ww, remember that you are pregnant until proven otherwise! PUPO!

to wunny - so sorry to hear about your cancelled cycle. can't believe the nurse didn't give you an explanation. Do hope you get some answers at your upcoming consult meeting and won't have to wait a whole year before you can begin again. ...I'm waiting already 5 months and counting. It hasn't always been easy, but I'm positive when the time is right, I'll get my BFP.
lots of luck to you.

to esperanza - thanks for the great list!! you are sure to be a great mother if you can juggle so many things so successfully at once. best of luck on finishing up your papers and exams this semester. hope you can take the time you need for yourself during your tmt. best of luck with the first shots this weekend.

xx Amy

[LB]

Michele and Pumma - so happy for you that things went well and am thinking good thoughts for your ETs.

I wish I had better news - I will keep this short to prevent another breakdown. I had over 30 follicles going in, but for some reason they only got one egg. Needless to say I was a wreck at RE's office and spent the remainder of the day in tears. RE thinks I have an egg issue but not sure what it is - may require another laparascopy (I had one in October where they discovered my tubes were irreparably blocked). I am not looking forward to another surgery but don't know if another IVF cycle will work. Will have to wait until we meet with him - very rough day for DH and I. I just feel like every time we go it is bad news.

The one egg was a good one, and they did ICSI and I will find out this morning if it fertilized, but I am having trouble staying positive at this point. They didn't have me start progesterone last night so I don't think anyone is too hopeful as I literally have only one shot that everything will go all right and that they can do ET.

Sorry to be a downer, just been an emotional time.

[tali]

LB - Girl, don't give up hope yet! You had one good egg - Remember, That is all it takes. You are lucky that your RE went ahead with the ICSI. Some just cancel. I know it may be hard to stay positive, but remember that our subconscious has so much to do with our reality! Stay positive and have hope. You never know right????? My thoughts are with you and I am crossing everything for luck

Wunny - I am sorry your cycle got cancelled. My first cycle was converted to an iui and it was devastating, but I managed to live through it and now going through it again with lots of hope. I hope they give you options for moving forward when you go to meet with your RE. Hang in there and remember we are all thinking of you.

To those who expect ET next week - Lots of sticky baby vibes coming your way.

I think I am coming down with a cold - Yuk and work is still crazy and it is way below freezing here today. Wish I could just curl up with a good book and my puppy, but alas, here I am at work.

Thinking of all my girls.

xoxo

[colesmom]

LB, My heart goes out to you. I pray that one egg is the good one. Keep us posted..

Wunnan, So So Sorry to hear your cycle was canceled I hope they give you some info. today.

Neffi, Glad you got AF!

Michele, Great news hope to see that BFP!

Pumma, 12 Follies WONDERFUL! Grow embies

Esperanza, I think were close in cycle. I`m still waiting on AF

As for me I am just waiting on AF. I don`t think she wants to let me get this show on the road here.

BfP to all! Baby Dust and Prayers to all who need them at this time!!
Theresa

[colesmom]

Neffi, Just wondering if your using a clinic in PA? I am also in PA and I`m using a clinic in Allentown. Just curious..
Theresa

[esperanza]

LB: My heart goes out to you. I'm sending you BIG HUGS and healing thoughts. I can only imagine how devastated you and dh must feel. However, I agree with Tali...all you need is one! I'm rooting for you here.


Colesmom: let's do the same thing we did for Neffi...come AF, COME!!!

Tali: I hope you get a chance to curl up with your puppy sometime later today. Take care of yourself and that cold. We are expecting LOTS of snow here today so I know what you mean. They're closing my university at noon today, so I am about to leave...yeepeee, I love snow days.

I just came back from my injections' class. Wow! a lot to remember, but I'm excited Hopefully the big box of medicine will be waiting for me at home. Now I have to teach dh

Ok lovelies. BFP BFP BFP...

[wunnam]

Thanks everyone for your Support and Encouragement. This Buddy is a strong shoulder to lean on and I was so lucky to find myself among you lot. But unfortunately I have to hang by with drop of tears in my eyes to read your posts without an expereince from my side to share.

I wish and pray that what has happen to me doen't happen to anyone else. It is heartaching the journey many of us have taken to get to where we are. Obviously our expectation are so high and we don't expect any turbulant at this stage of the journey but that is the order of life, we have no control over these things. I have taken it on the chin and still Optimistic Though.

I phoned the clinic today and she said, my scan was fine as i had many follies which had grown to the size expected but when the b/w came through the notce the hormone ostridiol has gone down to 800 and they were expecting 5000. she was of the view that if they carry on and take me to theatre they might end with 1 or 2 eggs which is not good for treatment hence the decision to cancel. Now they will start again in march by which many of you would about four pregnant. there is still hope.

My question is, is there a success chance for me when i start again or i am more likely to encounter this horrible experience again. Your inputs would be very much appreciated.

Wishing you follie grow with good eggs, BFPs and Baby Dust

Wunnam

[hellokitty]

wunnam - Sweetie I am so sorry that your cycle was cancelled. I had TWO cancelled. My E2 level would soar and my RE would have to back me off my meds and then the E2 would fall very low. This time they started me off high and then slowly adjusted my meds. I was monitored quite a bit this time for that reason. I know it is like rolling a ball up the hill and knowing it should be smooth sailing once you get to the top. Instead, we get pushed back down the hill. But please don't give up hope. Your RE needs to find the right cocktail for you.

LB - My heart is breaking for you as well. I may be facing the same thing due to my PCOS. But you have still have a chance with that 1 beautiful embie. ASK for your PIO shots and why you haven't started them. I'm rooting for you!!

[ICSI GIRL]

lisa ------- ALL IT TAKES IS ONE

wun ---- sorry sweet pea while i've not personally experienced a canceled cycle, i can imagine how crushing it must be.....this whole process - i've said it before, i'll say it again --- is the MOST emotionally draining thing i've EVER experienced in my lifetime..... the highs are SO high and vice-versa.....is tough - there's no doubt about it.....but on a bright note --- i've always thought that round was more of an experiment anyway......docs figuring out what works or not with YOUR body..... and w/ the NEXT round ---- the hope is higher that there will be better success cuz in theory, your med protocol should change and life should be good!! ((((((((((HUGS))))))))))

esperanza ---- HOW EXCITING!!! Injection class time!!! my dh went w/ me to mine.....but in hindsight --- wouldn't have been necessary..... oh YEAH!!!! getting your meds --- SO fun! this is definately by far one of the BEST parts of the whole ivf process!!! it's the excitement, the anticipation, the pending BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (gotta love the snowdays!!!)

colesmom ------- where's the beeaaatch when you want her to make a timely arrival??? bah-humbug!!! BRING IT ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tali -- you get yourself better girl.....is not fun going thru this being all sick lots of liquids.....chix noodle soup......you know - all the good stuff that mom used to give when you were a kid!

pumma --- did i miss your fertilization report???????? or have we not heard from you?????????? hope all is well hun ---- thinkin' of ya

to all you other lovely ladies -------- HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

did i tell you guys about my meds??? will try to make it short/sweet.... as you may/may not know - this is round #2 for me.....round #1, my doc's office recommended "freedom fertility", after doing some research, decided they were cheap as anybody and got ALL our meds thru them -- my meds for round 1 = $3,500......... SO, for round #2, after having been thru it all once, had a better idea of how all this stuff worked... got the name of an int'l pharmacy (located in london --- int'l to us gals that are stateside) from a trusted source, checked them out, and their prices and atleast for my menopur ----- it is a SIGNIFICANT cost savings cuz they also have a GENERIC form available over there - which we do not here (price here for amount i need = $1,200....compared to $455 over there).....so i check my docs office - they say is legit, had other patients use them, had good luck, nothing but good to say about them, but as doc's office, cannot "legally" endorse/encourage use of int'l pharmacy --- but will write me the script which i can then use ANYWHERE i want!!! (including faxing it to this london pharmacy).......SO - i ordered my menopur from them!!! while i haven't yet rec'd it --- its scheduled to arrive on monday........if anybody is interested, the web address is "ivfmeds.com".........so i'm kinda piece/parting together what i need..... cuz i still had a couple things left from my round #1.....that being said - my box of meds shouldn't be the massive size it was last time!!! ha, ha! long story short ----- we are cash paying patients and i was THRILLED when i happend across this pharmacy!!

gotta run........talk to you lovely ladies later!!! (togue twister eh??? )

[Pummalaemma]

hello my dear friends,
this will be another short notice, hope i can come back tonight and write more, but i wanted to let everybody know that tomorrow will be my transfer date. thank you so much for all your encouragement.

lisa: as angie said, all it takes is ONE, it will, it has to work out .....

wun: i am so, so sorry. hang in there, we are all here for you.

michelle: good luck tomorrow.

i hug all of you, but i have to go. so sorry.

Pumma

[schel67]

Pumma,
Baby dust and sticky vibes to you. You will be in my prayers for a smooth and successful transfer.