Winter Cycle Friends 2009/2010 - Everyone Welcome!

[Franca]

Karen xx

[Arabsrcool]

Steph,
Thanks for asking about me. I am very conflicted right now about doing another IVF cycle. I cancelled my dh's urologist appt that was 11/30. Depends on what moment I am in, if I want to do another cycle or not. Part of me longs to try again, another more rational part says I would be pushing my luck (I have been blessed with two wonderful girls). I think what if we try again and get lucky enough to have a baby again, what if I have embies left (I know putting the cart before the horse) what happens to them? It is also financial.....I know you girls understand that. We will have some insurance coverage, but out of pocket will still be over $7500, which is much better than 100% self pay, but still alot of $ to gamble on a maybe. I also would have to double check, our insurance may be managed by a company that we maxed out our lifetime coverage on a couple years ago trying to have a second child.....so if that is the case, no coverage for us at all. So I am just getting through the holidays, then dh and I will talk again. He is like me, he wavers back and forth over trying again. I wish there was just a clear cut answer. The rational part keeps thinking, I don't want to take away time/money/attention from my two girls, but the less rational part knows that if we don't move forward soon, my biological clock is tick tick ticking. I have struggled the last week and this one. My EDD was 11/15 and this week I keep thinking I should be home with my baby, not putting up with the BS that is going on at work.

Sounds like you are very very busy with the twins. I cannot even imagine how tired you are!

Karen,
I remember that you did PGD. If you don't mind me asking, did you do it because of you or dh being a carrier of something or just piece of mind?

gi,
I keep checking back on you, baby Kayla needs to come out and meet momma!

to all the girls I missed, sorry, I am thinking of all of you.....just hard to be here much.

Ronda

[natasha10]

hi ladies!!!
I hope you all are doing well. its so cold out today burrr..

claudia- congrats your doing so well. your almost done thats so exciting.

karen- congrats on the BFP thats awesome.

Gi- HAPPY BELATED BDAY MOMMA!

AFM-I have four weeks left of school for the semester yay!! I have a 3d u/s for sunday scheduled so im excited. take care ladies i'll try and get on this week since im not so busy since the holiday.

[karenthescorpio]

Beta was 111!!!!!

[gi]

hi,

Thanks Natasha so 4 wks then are you just on school break or will you be finished till after the baby is born???

Angela sounds like things are progressing I too feel like i have been pregnant for over a yr!! Well i was pg April 09, Aug 09 then Feb 10 so hmmm was more pregnant than not ha ha.

Karen Oh i am so thrilled with your beta!!! Congrats now sending you doubling dust xxx

Ronda this is a tough time for you at the moment your hormones are still all over the place as your due date has come and gone. I think you should enjoy the hols then talk things thro. with dh dont rule out any options at the moment just give yourself time to make a decision you can live with as you dont want to have regrets in the future.

Oh i am soooooo nervous now!! Have fetal heart rate monitoring in hosp. tomorrow at 9am then will get def. induction time for friday, cant believe this is finally happening, say a prayer for me girls that me little one arrives safely.

gi xxx

[gi]

Ha just copped my stork on my ticker the little bugger should have fallen over the edge by now not hovering around the 40 wk mark

[katie99]

Gi - Oh, Kayla - where are you honey? Your Mam & Da are very eager to meet you, I know you're all cozy, cozy in there but its pretty freat out here, dont you want to come see for yourself? please? Ah, Gi I know the feeling well, hey " my time is up now wheres that baby"? You're so close at worst case you'll just have 2 more days until its baby time! Yay! I know at this point you cant wait to get this going already and I'll bet Jason is jumping every time the phone rings so just hang on for 2 more little days, ok? glad that you're feeling pretty good - and ugh, my ticker was making me nuts too when it said 41wks 4days - have you picked your new one yet? may as well do it now while you still are able to sleep - haha - much love - xoxo

Steph - Oh no, so the zantac was making little Angelina feel worse? What is it with these Peds Drs, I mean are they guessing at what to tell us? it seems like our maternal instincts are more on in than their advice sometimes. How has she been doing these past few days? Is there any improvement? Poor little girl
Have you been getting any rest? I think what they want Andrew to wear is a Holter monitor, it will record all cardiac activity and send it to the Drs machine to interpret. Dont stress it, it can be used to confirm that NOTHING is wrong,and rule out cardiac abnorms. Has he every had any cardiac issues before? hey, it would be difficult to wear at work, maybe he can have some time off? What? it could happen, right? I'm with you twin mama, the snacking has taken over the daytime - its sort of out of control, Ryan has no patterns, sometimes he'll take 4oz and sleep for 3-4 hours and sometimes he'll take 2 1/2oz and will be screaming for food after only an hour - or 90 min. The only good part is that this just seems to be a daytime thing (whew) he sleeps pretty good at night since we started keeping music going quietly for him at night, he'll either learn to love country music or hate it I guess lol. But its been working so far, that and keeping him swaddled, even though he can escape a swaddle faster than we can rewrap him. what I dont like is in the morning, he's in a different spot than where we put him at night, he wiggles his way lower down off the wedge and I'm getting concerned about using the positioner any more. I'll bet Ethan is as strong as an ox too. Have you noticed him moving around alot? umm, no i dont think the OB would have yelled at you for not keeping to the 6 wk rule, did he? I mean you were at like 5 wks when you did right? I'm still swollen and spotting, but at least now I dont need to wear those damn liners - ugh, I hate those things. And besides you both really needed the stress relief, I mean you had to wait a looong time while you were pregnant! but energy for playtime, umm no hey, I made it into the shower today and had time to wash, blow dry my hair - so yay for that lol. Hope that you're getting some rest, at least as much as you can - much love - xoxoxo

Sonya - Yippeeee! I'm so happy for you! I've kept up with your blog too. Its hard to let it sink in that you're pregnant after hearing the wrong answers for so long, but believe it! it took me awhile to finally let myself relax and enjoy it, I think until the 13 weeks scanand I could see with my own eyes limbs, organs and kicking all over legs. relax and love every moment - xoxo

Angela - 50% effaced is wonderful! When I heard that I was effaced I got all excited and was on labor watch for days, even my OB said IF I see you next week, and I waited and waited, and Ryan was surely in there laughing at me Thanks for posting the sleep tips - I knew I was going to be exhausted with a newborn but didnt think that I'd be ready to sleep standing up lol. OK, so how many appts do you have left this week? it cant be easy on a holiday weekend to keep all those appts and your work schedule too - try to get whatever rest you can - it sounds like Gabriella is planning her entrance right now as we speak - xoxo

Sara Oh honey, i'm sorry, I fixed our list as soon as I saw your post. umm, yes, i did see both names in different posts - wow this hardly any sleep thing is fun, yes? How are they doing? And have I told you how much i LOVE the name Delaney? its beautiful and uncommon. How is Jake doing? Do you see a difference between boys and girls? I'm curious since they were close in weights. I hope that you're getting some rest (as much as you can) yes, I know thats pretty funny with 2 babies to care for isnt it? try anyway, ok? xoxo

Claudia - Argh! These singleton babies just dont like to keep to a schedule, do they? lol. I sure hope that your sister gets to meet little Flick though! You sure did drop so I dont think you'll be waiting too much longer now. How you managed to look so great for being 9 months pregnant I dont know, but good job honey! You must be getting so excited now - ugh I'm DYING to know which gender you've got in there! We'll all know soon enough wont we? And 2 cm dilated is a great sign of Flick getting ready to meet you both! Congrats on your DH's new job, but sorry that it will make things harder on you - whew! good news for having family close by to help out. Dont I wish I had that! rest up honey - it wont be long now - xoxo

Ronda - aw honey, I know that your EDD was rough to get through, I'm sorry. I hear you on the indecision of another cycle, what this costs us is astronomical and so unfair! You've got the right idea, just get through the holidays and regroup with your DH afterwards to fully decide what you both want to do. You both have to be on board for the roller coaster. I'll stay quiet, but stay crossed that you do have some ins coverage though Go with your heart - xoxoxo

Karen - HOORAY!!!!!! I knew it!! I'm so happy for you honey! and 111? what a great beta!!! you did the right thing by getting that TAC so please dont stress your cervix - its practically bionic now! When is your EDD? - xoxo

AFM - Ryan took pity on us last night and let us get some sleep! Actually he was up and alert for hours last night and I figured bedtime wouldnt go so well, but he went to sleep at 12:30 and didnt wake up until 7am! I heard him fussing and looked at the clock and got nervous to see that he slept all night long, ran into the nursery and there he was just cooing away. Of course he was in a differnt spot, he seems to wiggle during the night and thats got me stressing too, I mean he's only almost 3 weeks old, but he's really strong, he holds his head pretty well, but you never know if he wants to turn himself over (or try to) so yippee, another reason to not sleep, right? We've been doing tummy time for 10 minutes each day and it also counts when you have them up on your shoulder which is a favorite spot for him to hang out, so I'm just hoping that his neck will keep getting stronger so I dont have a heart attack about him moving around at night - sigh. I cut his nails finally, and it wasnt as scary as I thought. I just ambushed him when he was in a dead sleep And yay, his cord is now hanging by a thread so I'm guessing that will fall off by the weekend - I cant wait to give him a real bath! This boy will love it, since his happy time is naked time. You've never seen such a change in temperment as when he's naked on the changing table, no matter what his mood was as soon as he's naked? he's cooing and smiling and kicking his legs everywhere! I think I've got a future nudist on my hands here Ok I miss all you guys so much, but I've got to go start dinner now - ugh who has time for regular chores when theres a new baby to play with? lol. - hugs & prayers to us all - xoxoxo

[angelaezra]

Hello Ladies

I had a complete u/s today and it made me so very nervous. The tech was having a hard time with the blood flow from the placenta so I immediately started crying. She also said that her stomach is measuring even smaller than two weeks ago. Now her stomach is measuring in the 8th percentile, which is down from 10th percentile from two weeks ago. So they are putting me on modified bed rest from now until my delivery. Ladies I am so scared right now that something will go wrong between now and the time that she arrives. I just wish that they would induce me and take her early. I am so upset now that I can’t even post personals, so I will return later to catch up.

Angela

[karenthescorpio]

Angela-I'm so sorry you are worried. I can bet that if your doc was worried he would take her. If you feel that worried it might be worth a call to him to ask about this. They can give you the steroid shot for the lungs. Try not to stress too much. I understand the worry my friend. Xoxoxo

[rayofsunshine]

I have a crying baby but I had to post to you Angela:
Please don't worry, though I know it is easier said than done Every baby is different and every case is different but I'm positive everything will be okay. Your docs have watched you so closely and they will do what is best. I had similar issues (both Jake and Delaney were measuring in 8th percentile for tummies) and Delaney had a two cord vessel with less blood flow. They are both super healthy-and the hospital bedrest just helped the babies have more time. Though you want her out, you are the best incubator for Gabriella. Don't stress- you'll see in a few weeks that she is fine and all this is worth it. You just needed to be done with work-here's your excuse

Take care! I'm thinking of you.
Sara

[Stephanieford78]

Gi - You and Kayla are definately in my thoughts. Nothing but good juju headed your way. I can't wait to see if by then, she will decide to surprise us all and come on her own or wait and be forced out. lol It will be a good day to see your mam posting because that means you are meeting Kayla!!

Karen - YAY for a great beta! I assume you have another one coming up soon? How does that work with the holidays? Do you have to wait till next week? Oh and what an awesome picture you have up! You can actually see your gorgeous face! LOVE IT! What a smile! Was that taken after the beta call? Love you sweetums!

Natasha - Hope the 3D goes well! We need some good shots already! lol Haven't seen one 3D pic yet posted.

Ronda - I am sure it is tough to want something but have another part of you just want to move on at the same time. You definately have it in you to do both. One of these days, you and DH will both see eye to eye at the same time and know exactly what to do or not do. I can't even imagine what it is like to go through what you have been through. I do know how the failed IVF's effected me though and that (to me) felt like losses and made me want so badly to keep trying. I am all about looking for signs on what to do. For me, it was the RE offering to credit a lot of my FET. If it wasn't for that, I just couldn't have done it again even though it was cheaper. I had just exhausted all of our money, taken out all the loans we could and sold everything worth any value to pay for two full cycles. I was even thinking about selling my wedding ring. How crazy is that? I just hope that you follow your heart, no matter what common sense tells you. If it is meant to be, you will see your window and take it.

Angela - Oh honey, try not to worry yourself too much. I know it is scarey, but you are being well taken care of and Gabriella is being watched like a hawk! They will be sure to take her early if that is safer. I am sure at the moment, they bleieve she is better off to stay at least another week. You have done a great job at getting her this far, she is just around the corner now. There is nothing that will stop her from making it to your arms!

Katie - We just got a package in the mail today, I haven't opened it but I am sure it is that heart monitor thing. He has never had issues with his heart before and they say he is perfect now. So why monitor it at all? I am thinking that they are just looking for something to med board him out. They are sending him all over the place looking for stuff that might be wrong with him. He has an MRI at 7 tonight even. An Army doc a while ago said he has tendonitis, this one says no, it's tendonosis. Well, that is worse. As nice as being out of the Army would be, we have no back up plan at the moment. He needs his job! He needs his pention! He is just one year shy of getting a small pertentage of his pention. UGH Ok enough about that shit. On to babies! I am glad Ryan let you get some sleep last night. If the twins would have gone to sleep right after they ate, I would have gotten decent sleep. That is so cute how he likes being nakie. I have Ethan and Angelina in just diapers half of today just because it has been so hot. I did a bad thing... I slept in through my doctor's appt yesterday. The babies were just not cooperating with us Sunday night, Monday morning. Now I have to reschedule. I have started bleeding again already. I didn't think my lining could have come back that fast. Maybe something is wrong? I don't know. I wish I would remember more about this kind of stuff from 11 years ago. lol It would be helpful right now.

AFM - The twins are becoming more alert every day. Ethan is holding his head up well. I just love the look on his little face when he is looking around. Angelina does a good job too, but she doesn't stay calm enough to enjoy tummy time or time on my shoulder. They both like being held upright in front of me. They are following more and more with their eyes too. The swings we have have lights on the top and a mobile. They like looking up at them and following them around, especially Angelina. She will start complaining if it is on the cycle that will stop it. So now I just leave it on the cycle that keeps it on. I am sure I will need to replace the bulbs soon! lol I started bleeding again. I guess it's my period? Though I am surprised I have built up a lining already after bleeding so much before, but I guess it was a different kind of bleed and while I was bleeding from that, I was building up a lining? I know I have been through this before, but it was over a decade ago. lol Ok, off the subject but I have to vent a little. Alex texts me this morning asking if she can ride another bus because people at the bus stop are being verbally abusive. I send Alex over to tell the one boy that if the drama doesn't stop, there will be chaperone at the stop every morning. The mother answers the door and Alex begins to tell her. She is quickly interupted and told... I am not that kind of mother, I don't care unless he hits a girl. Seriously? Did you just tell my child that it is ok to be verbally abusive? This is just lazy fucking parenting! Teaching your kid not to hit a girl, but calling her "fucking ugly" (among other things) is ok? I know I am an Army wife myself, but I swear I see this more in Army wives. Most have too many kids that they can't handle it so they just ignore them. I see too often small kids running around unsupervised. Parents looking for their kids because they have been gone for an hour or more and didn't know it. I have had kids come to my house asking to stay or stay the night because their parents left or are leaving them alone at their house. One girl was being left alone all weekend!! OMG!!! Kids are swearing like truckers, talking about sex, smoking, etc all before they even hit puberty. This is so not right! All because parents rather let them learn from tv and peers rather than taking time out of their busy schedule (computers and gossip) to educate their children. These people really do need shock collars or some kind of sign that says, "Smack me please... hard!"

[karenthescorpio]

Thanks everyone for the good wished. I'm soooooooo happy and excited! Eight months to go! .

Steph- that pic was actually taken the day I switched to decaf when we started ttc. One of my best friends said I probably kicked a kitten or two about an hour later when I realized no caffeine was coming! Hehehe. I've been decaf since. Only getting small amounts of caffeine.

Next beta is Thanksgiving day. We are having a low key Tgiving so its no biggie to go give blood anytime between 6-10am! I feel confident the beta will be great! Jut so you know thi beta today was higher than my first one with the twins!

[karenthescorpio]

Thanks everyone for the good wishes. I'm soooooooo happy and excited! Eight months to go! .

Steph- that pic was actually taken the day I switched to decaf when we started ttc. One of my best friends said I probably kicked a kitten or two about an hour later when I realized no caffeine was coming! Hehehe. I've been decaf since. Only getting small amounts of caffeine.

Next beta is Thanksgiving day. We are having a low key Tgiving so its no biggie to go give blood anytime between 6-10am! I feel confident the beta will be great! Just so you know this beta today was higher than my first one with the twins!

[Stephanieford78]

Karen - OMG... higher than with the twins? Could that embie have split? lol Maybe it's just a really healthy fast attaching embie? I guess only the u/s will tell. Whatever happens, it was meant to be. I know betas can be all over the place. Mine was 826 14dp5dt and that was a FET cycle where they say they are slower growing? What day is the u/s scheduled for anyway? If you said already I apologize. I am not getting much sleep these days so my brain is basically mush. Funny, I was just telling a friend of mine about to go through IVF for the first time... how funny it is that people like us are so happy and overjoyed to be in pain/discomfort and suffer sleepless nights. I am so happy you get to experience all of that! I will be waiting to see what your results are on turkey day.

[angelaezra]

Natasha – Yeah, only four weeks left! That sounds great and then you can relax a little. Have fun w/ your 3D u/s this weekend!

Karen – Oh, I am just thrilled for you … 111 is just perfect. Congratulations! Thank you so much for the words of encouragement.

GI – I am definitely saying a prayer for you but you will not need it because you will be just fine!

Katie – After today’s news, I wish she made her entrance already. There are so many things that can go wrong with her still being in the womb and we wouldn’t even know until it is too late. There is a woman who I work with that is only fours days ahead of me and has been on bed rest since we were both 28 weeks … well she went into early labor today and gave birth to a 6 pound 6 ounce girl today. Her baby was just fine but her baby is so much bigger than mine even though we are only four days apart.

Sara – Thank you so much for taking the time to post to me. I told me DH what you said about your twins and it made him feel much better or so he said. I am not sure if he is saying that just so I will feel better but I am trying. Thanks again!

Stephanie – Thank you too for the words of encouragement! It is just so hard to remain positive when I have had so much heartache surrounding so many losses and miscarriages over the years. I just don’t think I could stand losing yet another child especially after making it this far!

I don’t blame you for feeling upset with that crazy mother! So she shouldn’t complain when you handle the situation the way that you want to then. Maybe, this rude boy actually likes Alex. Remember, boys show their crazy feelings in rude ways sometimes at that age. But, please be sure to tell Alex that she is far from ugly; we all agree that she is a very pretty girl.

AFM – Well, I am trying my best ladies to stay positive but I have to admit that I am still in tears because I know all too well what can happen if things go wrong at the end of a pregnancy. I forgot to tell you ladies that she only weighs 4 pounds 13 ounces but she only weighed 4 pounds 3 ounces two weeks ago. So she hasn’t hardly grown at all in two weeks!!! What happens if the blood flow is interrupted even more and we don’t catch it time? I keep asking myself these questions over and over … that is why I said if she was out they could keep a 24 hour watch on her. Well, I guess I will finally turn in for the night and try to get some sleep.

Angela