Winter 2010-2011 Cycle Board

[greekchick]

hiya ladies just got off the phone from my doctor and i have 9-10 fertilized 1's a bit behind..!!!he said he was really pleased he wants to to put them back in on thursday (not al ov them)!!!i thought it was the 5th day they put them bk in?wat u think ladies???xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[nwquiz]

Okay the board has been quiet hope good things are cooking causing all this silence
Katie- Congratulations dear and so happy for you. now go get that beta and let us know. strong beta. way to go girl.
Greekchick- Well it depends on your clinic. some clinics only do 3day transfers other do 5 day and again it depends on how the embroys look. so just be happy and keep the pma you have 9 beautiful embies waiting on you.
Margi-- bring that strong beta today. i think its over 7k by now
CjinNC- where are you girl. hope you did not get sick over the weekend with ohss?
Leoriria- your silence is getting scary to. Hope those babies are snuggling in tight and you and david are okay/ Or should i just say vacationing where there is no internet?
Anton- okay are you going to give in to the poas addicts? come on now you can do it.
All the ladies i left out on personals you are not forgotten. have a blessed day.
AFm nothing new to report. Just here to cheer others or lend a shoulder to cry on.

[CJinNC]

Sorry if I have missed anyones posts, but I did read Katieb's - CONGRATS!

AFM... these last few days have sucked. It was a beautiful weekend, but having been sick the last three I decided to do some yard work despite my incessant headache. My blood pressure was through the roof - 200/120 at times but never lower than 180/100. I was taking my meds perfectly but they weren't helping. Finally yesterday morning, as I sat trying to work at my computer on a busy Monday, I began to feel dizzy and short of breath. I ended up driving myself to my doctor who then referred me to the hospital. It was redicuously packed with hours of wait time, but they took me back pretty quickly with my chest pain and high blood pressure. After telling doc my cycle of meds they drew bloodwork and were convinced I had a clot in my lungs. My d-dimer was through the roof indicating some sort of blockage in my blood... and with the hormones I was on it was likely. So I went for a CT scan with iodine contrast. Being only 9 dpo I couldn't exactly say I was pregnant, but I didn't want to do anything to harm what might be going on in there. The CT scan came back negative for a clot in my lungs or heart, but they gave me some meds to get my blood pressure down and came home last night. They also had to rule out aortic dissection which killed my sister many years ago when she was only 30. My BP is finally creeping down, and I have strict instructions to take it easy and be careful. Now, the worst part.. I woke up this morning, went to the bathroom and noticed I was bleeding. I am barely 10 dpo, why is this happening? I have never had an LP this short before? The cramping is just now coming in, so I had no warning. I thought I had at least a couple of more days of guessing before this would happen. WTH?

But, my journey is over. I am devastated, but also in shock that this happened so quickly. I told my husband I was bleeding and he was surprised also, but said he was more worried about me. I know it will hit soon, if it hasn't already on his way to work, that our chances of having a baby together are gone. If I can produce 6-8 mature follicles and have everything look so good, only to fail, nature is trying to tell me to quit. We discussed it and IVF just isn't an option financially. It would be years before we could even consider it and I'm not doing it at 50...its time for us to move on, without a baby. Its just so hard because DH is young and is fine, there is no reason he can't have a child, so if we stay together its my fault he won't be a father. I need to just push him away so he can find someone his own age and have a normal life, marriage, babies, etc. I can't be responsible for taking that away from him. I'm sorry for unloading all of this on you ladies, but I am so alone. I literally have not one single female friend where I live. No one to talk to face to face, no one to hug or cry with. No one that can understand. Sorry.

[leorira11]

So.... I believe in the Northern Hemisphere (where most, if not all, of us live), the first day of SPRING was March 20. I think it's time to start a new thread! Who wants to be listmistress? (It's easy, just 'quote' my list and copy the blinkies. Then you have to keep track when people update)

GreekChick - 9-10 still growing is great! Are you going to try for a 5 day transfer? GL with the 2ww!

Kynlee - sounds awesome! Congrats on being PUPO! Did any of the others make it to freezing?

Katie - CONGRATS on the BFP! Wooohoooo! This is why I love when people POAS. Did you take a pic of the HPT? Want to post it? Thanks for the movie suggestions. I've seen 127 hours - quite intense. I've heard a lot of good things about Morning Glory - maybe I'll watch that next. I have "What to Expect when You're Expecting" on my nightstand (for the last few years now....) and I'm perusing!

Tess - I really hope you get your appt before you need your 21 day checkup. Can I ask where you live? Your IVF is covered by the national insurance? Mine is completely covered - I *LOVE* my national health care. I grew up in the USA without insurance. Now I live in Israel - where we have the best national health care system in world. Amazing difference. As for adopting, we are really interested in adopting, but it's really hard here. There are almost no domestic adoptions (no babies available) and international adoption is super expensive. We were told that the absolute best way to adopt was if you found out about someone who didn't want their baby. If you were/are ever interested in adopting, I would say go for it! Best of luck.

Sunshine 1576 - I'm so glad you could enjoy your nephew. I think that one of the things that has made this a teeny tiny bit easier on DH and I is that none of our siblings are having kids (I'm the oldest and my siblings are still really young, DH has one brother who isn't married nor dating). At least we don't have that 'competition'.

Anton - My doctor suggested Clexane/Lovenox too - just because of my history of losses. I'm going to ask my new high-risk OB when I meet him on Thursday. Just a few more days until your BFP! I'm so excited for you!

kbillsy - congrats on DH's new job! That's so exciting! I hope your mini-vacation is to celebrate you BFP. Less than a week until your beta!

nwquiz - I've been MIA, just because like you, I have nothing new to report. I'm on bed rest - just trying to pass the next week until my next u/s. Hoping these babies are growing and growing....

Carol - Wow. First of all - feel better. Second of all - could the bleeding be implantation bleeding? or just spotting? Or do you think it's really AF? Can you get a blood test to tell you for sure? Have you guys considered donor eggs/embryos or adopting? I know that it's not the same as having your own - but at least you and DH could raise your babies together. Don't try to chase him away. My DH tries to tell me all the time that I should just find someone new, since most of our infertility is his. I try to tell him that *I* don't want to have a baby - I want *us* to have a baby. I'm so sorry you are feeling down. Have a good cry - lean on John - cry together - and then look for what the next step is....

AFM - well - I think that I've ended my tenure as list mistress --- It's definitely SPRING! Someone should start the new list! I'll be mostly on the 'other side' (hopefully), but I'll come back to check in often! Lots of baby dust to everyone!

I'm still on bed rest and going a little crazy from boredom. I really hope this isn't my life for the next 6-7 months. I've kinda given up looking for work. Even if the official bed rest ends, I'm not sure I want to be starting a new job right now.

Next u/s is on Sunday. I'm trying to wait until then, instead of going early on Thursday. We'll have the best results if we wait longer... hopefully both babies are growing nice and big and healthy.

Best wishes to everyone - it's been a great ride!





THE LIST:




-swaters2815 (Stephanie) - starting mid-January
-jmbella (Jenn) - waiting to start late-Jan/early-Feb
-Sunshine1576 - PLAN: Lap surgery, 2 rounds of IUI and then IVF in June (if not already pregnant!)
-Penny100 (Darlene) - next cycle in April - good luck!
-TammyS – waiting for next AF, approx 3.22
-jkulab – AF is here! waiting to start stims
-qita71 (Mairi Anne) - started stims 2.17 - CANCELED!
-amanda1979 - new cycle in July with ET in October - best of luck!
-Sweetpea614 (Kat) - AF is here! SnS and start Lupron on March 25
-Sunshine 12 - lap surgery - all clear! RE consultation late March.
-lauren1171 - waiting for insurance approval...grr...



-Krisnjer - AF is here! on OCP, Suppression check on 1.19, ER/ET early Feb
-Tiger04 - trying IVF! Approx start stims 4.8 and ER 4.13



- andrea3821 - COME ON, AF!
-Tess69 - waiting for AF



-NancyB - FET delayed to April
-luv2bamom (Subha) - FET on 1.25
-ConnieC - FET 2.17
-hotgreentea (Sherry) - waiting for FET (blood work on 3.23)







-greekchick - ER 3.21



- nat&alex - FET 2.9 - beta 2.17
-CjofNC (Carol) – IUI 3.12
-andahsa (Pauleen) - ET 3.3 beta 3.16
-kbillsy – started stims 2.28, ER 3.14 ET 3.17 - beta 3.28
-anton - ER on Monday 3.14, beta on 3.30
-Katie1231 - FET on 3.16
-Kynlee - AF started 1.18 - start Lupron Feb 6th - ER March 15 - beta 3.30




-anacris (Nov) – FET 11.29, Beta 12.11 = 444, u/s on 12.28 - one happy, healthy baby!
-rypell1985 (Ryann) – start Lupron 10.11, lining check 11.29, FET 12.3, Beta 12.15 = 275, beta #2 = 824 - u/s = twins!
-annashope – natural IUI 12.2, Beta = 247, Beta#2 = 725 - one happy, healthy baby!
-kildean23 – FET 12.14, beta 12.27 = 565!, 2nd beta = 1315!, u/s on 1.6 - 2 sacs! next u/s 1.31
-taxcplforivf (Ginger) – start stims 12.4, ER 12.15, ET 12.20, beta 12.29 = 68!, beta #2 - 1466!, u/s 1.17
-BakersBaby (Kelly) – start stims 12/3, ER 1.13, ET 12.16, beta 12.30 = 365!, beta #2 1.7 = 3300, u/s one happy, healthy baby! OB visit on 2.2
- Karian - SURPRISE SPONTANEOUS BFP! beta = 101!, beta #2 - 566, u/s 1.18 - one happy, healthy baby!
-krcaja (Kristin) - ER 1.11, ET 1.16, beta 1.28 = 364! next beta 1.31 = 1565! u/s 2.15 = YAY! One healthy, happy baby and one angel in heaven watching over you.
- lou71 (Lou) - beta 2.4 = 290! next beta 2.7 = 780! U/s on 2.22 - one happy, healthy baby!
-HopeIsAllIHave (Ashley) - ER 1.28 - ET 2.3 - beta 2.11 = BFP! 133, beta2 = 125, beta3 = 236, beta4 = 667!.... waiting in beta hell..... but things are looking better! beta 5= 3754! u/s on Friday 2.25 - one happy, healthy baby!
-SDtrying#2 - beta 2.22 - BFP on HPT at 10dpo! beta = 18 at 10dpo, beta2= 67!, beta3 =497! u/s at 6 weeks
-leorira11 (Leora, aka listmistress!) - ER 2.15 - ET 2.20, beta 3.3 = 200! u/s 3.10 - two sacs! Next u/s 3.16- twins!
-JustSoLost (Shell)- ER 2.16, ET 2.19 - beta 3.3 = 203! beta2 3.7
- margi26 – beta at 13dpo = 240! beta at 15dpo = 653! next beta 3.22, u/s 3.29


-Krys – started estrogen 11.11, FET 11.30, Beta 12.14- BFN
-Cshell717 (Mishell) – start stims 11.22, ER 12.3 w/ ET 12.6, beta 12.20 -BFN
-x0Heather0x – FET, b/w 12.3, u/s 12.10, FET 12.16, beta 12.28 - BFN
-Riya - beta on 1.7 BFN
-Jamiep03 - ET 12.27, beta 1.9 = 21.8, chemical
-kariberri517 - 3dt on 12.10, beta on 12.27 = 392, 12.29 = 472, 12.30 = 576...
-lynniecat - started stims 1.4 - ER 1.16 - no eggs at ER
-Trusting (Amanda) - started stims 1.10, ER 1/24 - beta 2.4 BFN
-Kimber Baby - ER 1.28 , ET 2.3 - beta 2.14 BFN
-Kerri_789 - started stims 1.26 - ER 2.7 ET 2.9 - beta 2.21 BFN
- HopeThisWorksM ER 2.5, ET 2.10 - chemical
-longtimerivf - started stims - ER 2.20 ET 2.23 BFN
-nwquiz - stimming for IUI - Monday morning 2.21 - beta BFN
-wannabeamum (Samantha) - started stimming 1.31, ER 2.16 - ET 2.19 - beta 3.7 (at 3pm) BFN
-deftonesmo -started stims 2.14, ER 2.24 - ET 2.27 BFN
-LYD10 -beta 2.24 = 20.... beta 2 2.28 = 54, beta 3 = 274 (one week later) - u/s 3.18 - no hb

[klinger13]

Carol - Just crashing to send you a virtual hug. Like Leora said, it may be implementation spotting or spotting from the progesterone. Don't give up just yet. And whatever you do, don't chase your DH away. I know I've told you this before on the other board over the last few years but I'm going to say it again - your DH married YOU. He knew when you got married that your tubes were tied so he knew having children may not be a possibility. And yet he still chose you...don't ever forget that. I know you want to give him this gift, but realize that you are the gift he's wanted all along. ((HUGS)) my friend.

Amanda

[katieb1231]

Carol - Oh honey my heart is just breaking for you right now with your words.....please, please, please don't push your husband away he is the one person who is in this journey with you and he choose to be in this journey with you....he didn't marry you because you could or couldn't have babies he married you because he loved you and couldn't imagine spending his life without you so please don't take that away from him or from yourself...true love is rare and when you have it hold on to it.....are you sure your bleeding enough to constitute a period?? It may just be your bodies last hurrah and getting rid of some stuff so don't give up hope yet....I beat myself up too with each loss or near miss it is so hard to not do it but we need to try to love our bodies no matter how mad they make us...I wish I was there to give you a hug and tell you it would be alright and that you do have a friend in me and all the ladies here. ((HUGS)) my dear Carol.

[amanda1979]

Hello Ladies
Katieb- CONGRATS!!!
Marg- So Darn excited for you.
Leiora- Congrats again on the twins. I am so happy you & your babies are doing good after the scare.

AFM: I don't much since I am in limbo, but I do read every day and say a prayer for everyone on their journey. Yesterday we found out my mom has cervical cancer. Her Obgyn said it was the worst case he has seen in his 17 yrs. I can't even put into words the despair I am feeling. She is only 50!!! It is like God said okay lets see what you can handle. Here is some lupus, lets watch your aunt die from colon cancer( who was the strongest woman I have ever known) well your will still isn't broken well then lets throw Infertility in there and now here your mom has cervical cancer. Now lets see your will is still strong & I must admit it feels broken. DH said God was not doing this, but man right now it seems like he is picking on our family. I know this has nothing to do with infertility but I am so lost. I can't lose her. When I was growing up she had a drinking problem as did my dad. Our relationship has always been strain but over the last 5 yrs we have have gotten closer. She drinks her a beer but nothing like she use to. I can't watch her wither away & die. They are setting her up with a specialist but she doesn't have insurance so I don't know what will mean. All I can do is cry My heart is so heavy.

[katieb1231]

Amanda - Oh my dear....god I am so sorry...this is just not the news you want to hear...can your Mom apply for some sort of medicaid or something? I am just so sorry....my relationship with my Mom was rocky in my youth too but now I count her as one of my BFF's when she was diagnosed with Breast Cancer 5 years ago my world completely fell apart I couldn't eat, sleep, work or function really...the doctors said it was one of the worst cases they had seen something like 4 or 5 different strains of cancer in each breast it was devastating. But she picked herself up & fought & she fought hard and after a double masectomy, a shear pharmacy of drugs three times a day for three years, chemo, radiation etc.... she can finally say she is cancer free...I know her story is one in a million but I pray for you, your Mom and your family that she (and you all) too can share in the relief that someday she will be cancer free & holding her grand baby in her arms...I am so sorry sweet heart please keep strong for her your Mom needs you now more than ever to be her warrior daughter to be there to help her navigate this road.....I will actually be in Alabama (Huntsville) this summer visiting my in laws (DH grew up there) where are you?

Please keep the faith my sweet Amanda....there is nothing you can't handle even when you feel like you can't you can...we are some of the strongest women I know to go through this battle called life...

[amanda1979]

Amanda - Oh my dear....god I am so sorry...this is just not the news you want to hear...can your Mom apply for some sort of medicaid or something? I am just so sorry....my relationship with my Mom was rocky in my youth too but now I count her as one of my BFF's when she was diagnosed with Breast Cancer 5 years ago my world completely fell apart I couldn't eat, sleep, work or function really...the doctors said it was one of the worst cases they had seen something like 4 or 5 different strains of cancer in each breast it was devastating. But she picked herself up & fought & she fought hard and after a double masectomy, a shear pharmacy of drugs three times a day for three years, chemo, radiation etc.... she can finally say she is cancer free...I know her story is one in a million but I pray for you, your Mom and your family that she (and you all) too can share in the relief that someday she will be cancer free & holding her grand baby in her arms...I am so sorry sweet heart please keep strong for her your Mom needs you now more than ever to be her warrior daughter to be there to help her navigate this road.....I will actually be in Alabama (Huntsville) this summer visiting my in laws (DH grew up there) where are you?

Please keep the faith my sweet Amanda....there is nothing you can't handle even when you feel like you can't you can...we are some of the strongest women I know to go through this battle called life...

Kaiteb- Thank you Your mom story is inspiring! We live in Ardmore,AL which is 15 mins from Huntsville. My DH & I both work at Huntsville Hospital. That is great you are coming to Huntsville.

[kynlee]

Greekchick- Awesome fert report... everyone has different transfers depending on the embies , Ihad a 3 day transfer with a 7 cell and 8 cell... Good luck at ET You are almost PUPO

Tessa- i totally agree, I just started watching that show since i have been home during the day but it keeps me hopeful I just hope I get as lucky this cycle This is a tough journey but I have to stay hopeful or I will fall apart...

Carol- so sorry that you have been going through so much, and having to go to the hospital... As for you and your Husband I wouldnt walk away, he loves you and you are the one he wants to be with... Having a child is a blessing but there are other options too... At the end of it all you have eachother and you are what makes him happy Huge hugs

Leora- unfortunately no frosties for me...

Amanda-So sorry to her about your Mom, life is so unfair sometimes... Sometimes you get it all at once, but stay strong I know how hard it is.. I had a rough patch in my life and some days its not easier but i look to God to give me faith everyday through all my difficulties, ivf being one of them.... You and your Mom will be in my prayers ... (hugs)

AFM- Just relaxing Couple more days off from work..

[nwquiz]

Gosh this day has mixed emotions. Caro am so sorry what is happening to you. Please call me i will listen at least or escape for a minute to my neck of the woods.Please hold DH this is when you both need each other most. And it could be implantation bleeding or some irritation. Will keep my fingers crossed. and please dont feel like you are alone. we are all here cyber friends to listen and try to assist.
Amanda- Am sorry dear for your mother. Maybe she can get some SS to assist. You just have to try and apply. and they cannot deny her treatment when she really needs it. Try taking her to a teaching hospital they can do something for her at least. I will keep you and family in prayer. Please remember the lord gives us all challenges and sees how we handle them. The answer is not always what we want to hear but he does not forget about us. ANd again he does not give us more than we can handle. so be strong and be there for her.

[lou71]

Kynlee -- I'm glad you have such hope this time. With two great embies, you certainly should! Your chances are great.

Katieb-- Woo hoo! A BFP!!!! Congrats! Friday is waaaay tooo long to wait for a beta though, can you go in earlier?

Tess -- Wow, an adoption option just landed in your lap? I think it's worth looking into. Sometimes things happen for a reason and opportunities arise that we are meant to act on.

Sunshine1576 -- Yikes on the spider bite! Are you OK? Do you know what kind of spider it was? Happy 90th Birthday to your grandma as well! Mine is turning 86 this year.

Anton -- How's my PUPO girl? I am filled with PMA for you.

nwquiz -- Your package should arrive soon! Went out today filled with luck and baby dust.

greekchick-- 9-10 fertilized is great! ICSI typically has a 80-90% fert rate. You definitely have some great embies to work with. With both my pregnancies, I got pregnant on day 3 transfers! I also had 3 blast transfers on day 5 that did NOT work. Go figure.

kbillsy -- Prayin' for your BFP next week. Tell DH congrats on the job! I read "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo" and now am almost finished with "The Girl who Played with Fire". It's the sequel I guess. It's quite good as well and you will like it if you liked the first one.

Carol -- Oh hun... please don't push your DH away! He loves you. Pushing him away would hurt him even more. Have you two considered embryo adoption of donated embryos? If you both were open to it, it would be a good option for you to be pregnant and have a baby together. It only costs the price of a FET in most cases and your chances would be fantastic. I have a dear friend I met on a previous board to had tried IVF several times without success. Her RE actually had a couple donate embryos to the clinic for a couple of his choosing. He choose her and her DH and they had a beautiful little boy last November. It is their baby 100%. I don't want to see you give up Carol.

Amanda1979 -- I'm soooo sorry to hear about your mom's cancer. Shame on the doctor who said it's "the worst case he's seen in 17 years". He has no idea how she will respond to treatment and a comment like that can affect her will to fight. She needs you now more than ever. I know. I lost my mom after a long illness 9 years ago. She died shortly after her 54th birthday. I think you should also see if you can get her on Medicaid. She cannot be denied treatment due to not having insurance. Good luck to you and your mom. I'll be praying for you both.

AFM -- I'm still here and doing OK. I did have another u/s yesterday and my baby was moving all over the place and even flipped around a couple of times. I either have a dancer or a gymnast in there! It's hilarious but I can't feel a thing yet as the baby is still under 2 inches. But we saw fingers and toes and s/he even appeared to be a thumb sucker! I have one more weekly u/s with RE next week Monday and then I'm officially released to my OB. I still pray every day for this child to grow healthy. So far it seems God has answered. I hope all your prayers are answered too.

[HopeIsAllIHave]

Just chiming in.. Carol, my dear, I am sooo sorry about everything that you're going through. My heart just aches and hurts for you. Your words almost had me on the verge of tears. Please, please do not push your husband away. You are each other's support system and it's only going to hurt you and him even more if you acted up on that thought. Lean on each other, hold each other, and think of other options out there. This is not the end of the road for you. Please keep your chin up and hope you feel better! We are all here for you. {BIG HUGS}

Amanda - Oh dear, I am so so sorry to hear about your mother. Don't show her any weakness and be there for her with a smile on your face and encourage her to fight through this. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during these difficult times.

[riogirl71]

Katie - huge congratulations! DD will have a sibling! How incredible!

Carol - please don't push DH away, there might be other options, anyway to get a new insurance, move to where there is insurance? Or like Lou said adopted embryos... huge hugs and I hope that it was implantation bleeding. Please don't give up!

Kynlee - 3 sets of twins, wow! That's a lot of kids!!!!

amanda - I am so sorry about your mom and I will pray she makes a full recovery.

[TammyS]

Hi everyone. I hope everyone is doing well. I'm sorry that I havent been around. I just really needed a break. I've been keeping busy with fun family activites and I think it really helped. Thank you to all of you who asked about me, left messages, etc. It meant alot.

I'm still angry that I may have lost 4 babies because no one checked my E2 after retrieval...but I need to move forward and put it behind me now. AF is due today, but it doesnt feel like it is anywhere to be found. At this point, I am guessing that my next ER should be around April 9th, if AF shows on Thursday. I think DHEA delays AF. The only other time it was delayed was back in Jan when I was on DHEA. They will be monitoring my E2 levels this time and putting me on vaginal estrace pills. I'm praying sooo hard that we have finally figured it out.

I decided to join in on the April/May board...since it looks like most of my past cycle buddies are there already...and no one seems to really want to start a Spring group. It's hard to believe that it has been a year since we started trying for a sibling. I was on the April/May board last year.

As I mentioned on the April/May board...Bill and I got our genetic testing done and everything that has come back so far...is perfect. We're waiting on a few more test results...but so far so good. I have been taking DHEA and CoQ10...so hopefully, things will look better this cycle. We plan to try again in April and if it is a negative...then we will try once more in May (results will likely be on my 43rd bday) and then we are done. I had a dream last night that I got a very very dark hpt line at 11dpo...so maybe it'll come true. lol

Margi...I am sooo happy for you!!! You have been an inspiration to me and you give me hope!

Amanda...I'm sooo sorry that you are going through sooo much right now. Hang in there. I am praying for you and your mom.

Carol...Hang in there sweety. I am praying sooo hard for you. Like the girls said...hold on to your DH more now than ever. You need each other right now.

Leora...I'm sooo sorry that this pregnancy has already got you on bedrest. I am praying for your little ones. Hopefully, this will all pass soon...and the rest of your pregnancy will be complication free. Thank you for being listmaster...I know it is a tough job...and you were great!

To all...you are always on my mind, in my thoughts, and in my prayers. You will all be mommy's one day in one way or another...just keep holding on to your hopes and dreams...and never give up.