Fall 2010 Cycle Group

[CJinNC]

Hi Ladies. I am new - but I was refered here from Amanda. Congrats again on that BFP and sticky bean! Here's my info:

Me (44)
DH (31)
DS (23, 20, 17, 15)
Tubal Reversal: 4/14/08
BFP: 8/27/09 ~ D&C at 9 weeks 10/4/09
HSG & Lap - Great - both tubes open
FSH: 6.5 ~ AMH: 1.7

My husband has no children of his own and I am desperate to give him at least one child before my eggs dry up and wither away Its great to see ladies of all ages on here. I never had an issue with fertility before, but now I am pretty sure my age is affecting my egg quality, even though my RE says my hormones are great for someone my age.... boy do I get tired of hearing "for my age". Anyway, I have tried clomid, femara and injectables, and even attempted IUI one cycle - but he "missed" my ovulation - so it was a no-go. I would love to go straight to IVF, but money is a big issue and we can't do anytime soon - unless I win the lottery. So we are hoping to go for IUI next cycle, as long as I can save up for the meds. I respond pretty well to the clomid. I have been on dhea and royal jelly for the last few months and last cycle I had 5 or 6 follies growing well, but I couldn't do injectables or IUI - so BFN. Have any of you had success with IVF using your own eggs over 40? My RE says most clinics discourage using them over 42.

[klinger13]

Mishell - YAY for being PUPO x 4!! Woo-hoo!!! Now you take it nice and easy the next couple of days and let them snuggle in all nice!

Rio - I'm sooooo glad you've made it out of crazytown! You're right - your embie is doing great in there and Thursday it's going to show you just how great it is! Thanks for giving us the time of your u/s so we know when to start stalking you!!

Ryann - You're so funny POAS!! But hey, why the heck not? I love POAS, even though it's terrifying. Now as soon as you get one with that 2nd line, I hope you'll have the camera ready to post it for us! You'll be joining us on the Pregnant after Treatment board really soon, I just know it! And yes, while wrapping my naked body in wet oatmeal soaked paper towels didn't work to stop the itching it did give DH one heck of a laugh!

CJ - Thanks & YAY for joining us over here!! The ladies on this board has given me so much information and support since I joined, I just love it here. I'm sure some ladies on the thread will chime in on your question about IVF success with their own eggs over 40 and if not, you can post a topic in main IVF forum. I know we had one lady on our thread who tried a couple cycles with her own eggs (at age 45 or 46) but was going to look into donor eggs or donor embryos for future cycles.

Margi - Awesome news for starting stims tonight! This IUI is going to work! You're going to sneak in that 2010 BFP, I know it!

Lauren - I hope the 2nd opinion sheds some more light on what may help to improve future cycles! p.s. Did you get to see the doc you liked? My last RE appointment before I got released to the OB was with Dr V. (who saved my ovary in August's surgery) and I got all mushy and cried when I had to say goodbye. I'm such a sap! I couldn't remember who you were seeing today...all I knew is it was NOT the one we both can't stand.

[leorira11]

okay - I'm freaking myself out.... It's 2am and I can't sleep. I just keep thinking about how awful it will be if this cycle doesn't work. Since we lost our twins last year, we have done back-to-back-to-back cycles.... I just can't do it anymore. But what are my other options? We have looked into adoption, and it's really not for us (so expensive, so long wait-time, only older children).

I know I should take a break - but that kills me. What do I do when I'm 'on a break'? Not think about TTC? Not wish that I was pregnant or had my babies with me?

and what drives me even crazier is my fear of another loss. In some ways, a BFN would be 'easier' to deal with.... a BFP means that I am opening myself up to a loss again. Losing my twins was by far the worst thing I've ever been through, and probably will always be. How can I risk that again?

When I got pregnant in July/August, I was SOOOOO sure that this would be the one that worked out. It had to be. Hadn't I been through enough? And then we lost that baby, in the worst dragged out way possible. Couldn't I just have miscarried like s many other women? No. Damned missed miscarriage. 2 weeks of carrying around a baby I knew was dead until I asked for a D&C.

How can this FET really work? I truly cannot believe that it's possible for me to have a healthy baby this summer. I feel like I'm always waiting for the other shoe to drop.

[kynlee]

Krys- Hope you are staying out of Crazytown

Sonya- Dont worry about not being able to do personals as much as you were we all understand.... Just keep posting all your happy news for us

Tamy- Stay hopeful... Im praying this cycle works for you ) As for snow you can keep it there, Im am not looking forward to any in RI And Tammy you having me cracking up over here about your smelly pee lol I am saying prayers for your Friends son, keep us posted

Margi- yay for starting Stims...

Rio- Cant wait to hear about your bean Thursday... Glad you are doing much better with OHSS...

lauren- Keep thinking positive... I know how you are feeling MY DH is low too... I actually went to the health store today and they are getting a list of things that can maybe help his counts and everything go up

Ryan- you are to funny, already poas... Cant wait to hear your good news

Cshell- Awesome embies, PUPO

AFM- I am just running around for the holidays but cant get off my mind that I will be starting back up soon... Jan 2011 is right around the corner I went to the health store today and the lady there is going to call a few specialist in the fertility field to see what kind of info she can find me, My DH only has one Kidney so he has to be careful what he goes on... So once I get the list we are going to go see his Dr to see what we can use... The Health store did mention Vit E for both of us I am trying to get him on something before next cycle... Say some prayers for me Ladies

[klinger13]

Leora - When I saw your post I said to myself, what the heck is she doing online? It must be the middle of the night in Israel. Then I read your post and saw that it was the middle of the night and I'm so sorry you're awake and so stressed out. You have every reason in the world to worry, it would be crazy if you weren't worried. I wish I could give you words of wisdom, but I can't even begin to imagine the pain you've gone through losing your twins and then recently having the missed miscarriage that took forever to remedy. All I can tell you is that we're all pulling for you. We're all hoping this FET works and that by summer time you'll be welcoming a beautiful healthy baby or two into your family. Sending you lots of hugs and hope and postive thoughts and wishing you some sleep tonight.

[Krys]

Hello everybody,

thanks to everyone who has been checking on me during this
2ww. I have been keeping busy with Christmas parties, baking,
and shopping. I know were suppose to take it easy but it's such
a crazy time of year to do so and I might loose my mind if I try
to lay on the couch with my feet up any longer.

TammyS- not sure how to figure out my dpo with an fet. Do I count
the fact that it was a three day transfer and then count how many
days it's been since my transfer?!? If so I think I'm 9dpo I had my fet
last Tuesday and they were three day embies. Sorry I'm a little slow
sometimes. I also have smelly pee... I thought I was going crazy. The good
thing is that I had the same thing last fet and I was pregnant so maybe it's
for real. But it is a very strange symptom lol.

Ryann- you're funny, already giving into the sticks.. I shouldn't talk I always
use the sticks too I just can't afford them anymore. Maybe I should ask for some
as stocking stuffers or an early Christmas gift?!? I'm not sure when I will try
this time. I seem to always have lower beta levels then everyone else on here
so it took awhile for me to get tro lines on my test. But I'm praying for extra HIGH
numbers this time.

I will post more when I can get to a computer..
Hugs!

[margi26]

Mishell: congratulations!! You are PUPO!! Rest up and let those embibabies snuggle in tight. 

Ryann:  My bad. Leaving out the true reigning queen of the POAS Divas! Congrats...at 6dpo you win! Lol.  

CJ: welcome! I'm with you on being sick of "at your age" thing too.  We did 3 rounds of IVF but due to financial concerns we are now doing IUI with injectibles.  I have responded fairly well, but just haven't gotten "the" egg yet.  I am hoping that this cycle that we are doing now will be the one for us.  We are being a little more aggressive and since I am also battling the fact that I only have one tube thanks to ectopic with IVF, I am hoping that does the trick.  Welcome and feel free to ask any and all questions.

Kynlee: thanks for checking in and rooting me on.  I will definitely send some prayers your way.  Get to those vitamins! 

Krys: glad to hear you are keeping busy and keeping up the PMA! This certainly is a very busy time of year and that can be an advantage during the dreaded 2ww.  Not too much longer for you...hang in there...this will be your turn!!

Leora:  I am sorry you got hit with the downward turn on the roller coaster this evening.  Especially now when you need your rest and your PMA...I think I may just need to come over there and perk you up! I could use a trip to the Mediterranean. Lol. And a trip to the opera..and some warmth...sounding great to me! Really, though. There are no guarantees in this difficult journey, but that is why we are all here for one another.  To support, hug, cheer, celebrate, and cry together as we move through this journey at similar, but different paths.   You have been through the absolute worse of it...and at such a young age.  There is no changing what you have been through, it is now sown into the thread of your being--but that is what makes you you.  So, take your time to let yourself be sad and worry for the moment, but then remember that tomorrow is another day--you are so very strong and healthy and you and DH will have your blessing.  Concentrate on what brings you peace and tranquility.  For me-the acupuncture really helps. Maybe you can get another session in?  Or sing...or do whatever feeds your soul.  You can get through this.  And we are right here with you all the way.

[Dahlias]

Leora~
I know how hard it is to stay positive when you've experienced so many hard times, so much bad news. The thought of another loss must be so terrifying for you... and I consider a BFN to be a loss. I'm thinking about you and hoping you can find at least some moments of peace of mind in the coming days. Try to take things one day at a time and be good to yourself.
~Dahlia

P.S. Leora is my mother's name.

[leorira11]

thanks ladies - I'm feeling quite a bit better today.

Trying to focus on the PMA - this WILL work for me one day - so why not this time?

2dp5dt - 7 dpo today --- trying so hard to hold out until Sunday (realistically, Friday!) to POAS. I need to know already!

Ryann - hey 2ww buddy - did you really POAS? This is a bit early, even for me! (we are the same 'dpo') I'm sure it was negative! oh well, once you start you just can't stop, right?

Krys - I buy cheap HPTs online, so that I can POAS with abandon. If you look closely, you can find on eBay really cheap ones that are just as sensitive as the expensive ones (10iu/ml and 8GBP for 25 tests!)


AFM - back at work - and almost no sleep! oh well. Trying to catch up on everything I left behind on Sunday and Monday. and not lift anything heavy!

[leorira11]

I feel like Schrodinger's cat.... either I'm pregnant or I'm not and there is no way to know. Once I "open the box", I'll know whether I was pregnant the whole time, or never pregnant at all... but for now there is no way to know. Knowing or not knowing does not affect what is.

What an awful place to be!

[klinger13]

Leora - glad you're feeling a bit better today!

Michelle & Ginger - How goes the stimming!

rio & Karin - not much longer till your see your little ones! Rio is yours on Wednesday? For some reason that's sticking in my head but I don't have it on the list.

PUPO ladies - How are you all doing? We know Ryann has started her POAS-fest - anyone else joining her as a POAS Diva?

Hope everyone has a great day! I'm rejoicing in the fact that next Tuesday is my last workday of the year. So now next Tuesday just has to hurry up and get here!


-x0Heather0x – FET, b/w 12.3, u/s 12.10, FET 12.16
CJofNC – Waiting to do IUI w/ injectables or IVF






-jkulab – start Lupron 12.2


-ChelleDe (Michelle) – start stims 11.29
-taxcplforivf (Ginger) – start stims 12.4, ER approx 12.15 w/ ET 12.18 or 12.20
-margi26 – IUI start stims 12.6




-TammyS – start Lupron 11.18, start stims 11.19, ER 11.29 w/ ET 12.2, Beta 12.16 (may go early on 12.13)
-Krys – started estrogen 11.11, FET 11.30, Beta 12.14
-rypell1985 (Ryann) – start Lupron 10.11, lining check 11.29, FET 12.3, Beta 12.15
-annashope – natural IUI 12.2, Beta TBD
-kbillsy – start stims 11.22, convert to IUI 12.4, Beta TBD
-leorira11 (Leora) – started estrogen 11.16, FET 12.5, Beta 12.16
-lauren1171 – ER cancelled, BD’d instead
-Cshell717 (Mishell) – start stims 11.22, ER 12.3 w/ ET 12.6


-hopeforbabies (Teresa) – ER 9.7, ET 9.10, Beta 9.22 = 276, 9.24 = 534, u/s 10.1 – Twins, Next u/s 10.11 – Singleton
-Tess69 – FET 9.22, Beta 10.1 = 150, 10.6=1066, 10.13 = 15000, u/s 10.26 - Singleton
-macfamily – ER 10.5 w/ ET 10.8, Beta 10.19 = 143, 10.21 = 393, u/s 11.2
-FrecklesDC (Kaylie) – ER 10.12, ET 10.15, Beta 10.26 = 123, 10.28 = 256, u/s 11.4 – Singleton, u/s 11.11 – saw HB
-baby_blu73 (Stephanie) – ER 10.13, ET 10.17, Beta 10.26 = 273, 10.28 = 660, u/s 11.4 – Twins, next u/s 11.22
-DandMe (Sonya) – ER 10.12 w/ ET 10.17, Beta 10.26 = 137.8, 10.28 = 351, 11.2 = 2826, 11.4 = 6060, 11.8 = 19840, u/s 11.17 - Singleton
-Cassmaster – ER 10.14 w/ ET 10.19, Beta 10.28 = 32, 10.30 = 78, 11.1 = 248, 11.4 = 2120, 11.6 = 5498, u/s 11.12 – Singleton
-klinger13 (Amanda) – ER 10.21 w/ ET 10.24, Beta 11.4 = 266, 11.8 = 1126, 11.11 = 3066, 11.15 = 11603, u/s 11.18 – Twins, next u/s 11.24 - Singleton
-amesy – ET 10.22, BFP 11.5, b/w & u/s 11.25
-crystal335 – ER 10.28 w/ ET 11.2, Beta 11.11 = 355, Beta 11.13 = 926, u/s 11.29 - Twins
-riogirl71 – ER 11.6 w/ ET 11.9, Beta 11.19 = 107, 11.22 = 387, u/s 12.2 - Singleton
-karenthescorpio – ER 11.9 w/ ET 11.15, Beta 11.23 = 111, 11.25 = 256, u/s 12.2 - Singleton
-karin1 – ER for ED 11.14 w/ ET 11.19, Beta 11.29 = 690, Beta 12.2 = 3509, u/s 12.9

on your journey
-DCRunningMama
-Tiger04
-dvcantu7378 (Victoria)
-turtle0619 (Franny)
-chilipepperrose46
-lauren319
-lou71
-BLang4d (Brandy)
-starwishes
-Anniegirl
-Meinemo
-NancyB
-eyes230
-Osi
-Lauren
-kynlee
-moorebaby (Ester)
-Karian
-jennieswa
-Cheri76
-ladybugg1999

Waiting for an update
-dawgs1257 – ER 9.3 w/ ET 9.6, Beta 9.20 - ??
-jla018 – stimming away - ??
-shahney (Alicia) – started stims 9.16 - ??
-coop2010 – start Lupron 9.17, Follistim 10.1, ER approx 10.9, ET approx 10.14 - ??
-carebear77 (Carrie) – ER 10.11, ET ??
-andrea4 – ER 10.10 w/ ET 10.13, Beta TBD ??
-LisaB75 – start Lupron 10.6, start stims 10.23??
-hopefullintime (Dee) – Sept/Oct
-yingz - FET Sept
-Sher – FET Sept/Oct
-babidreamz – starting IVM early Oct
-anacris (Nov)
-Wondercat – in our thoughts
-amanda1979 – Waiting until January
-jenna81078 – BCPs, baseline 11.8
-zen_scrapper – start Lupron 11.10, approx ER 12.7
-BakersBaby (Kelly) – start BCPs 11.1, start Lupron 11.18, start stims approx 12/1-12/3
-ttg1219 (Tiff) – hysteroscopy 11.19, start Lupron 11.21

[CJinNC]

Leora, I cannot imagine what it must be like to be in your shoes, and I am sorry for your losses. I have been blessed with children at a young age, but with a father that didn't appreciate them. After many years of pain, I finally moved on and met a wonderful man - although 13 years younger than me - and want so desperately to give him a child that I know he deserves and would love and appreciate. I want to bond our families together. It feels as if I am "starting from scratch" TTC all over again. When we got pregnant last year after a year and a half of trying and being told it wouldn't happen, I was so elated and felt a joy I had never experienced in my life before. But, like you earlier this year, I found out my baby was not viable but carried him/her until 9 weeks before I could have the d&c. I just couldn't bring myself to do it, eventhough deep down I knew something was wrong - I just wish my body had "taken care of it" so I didn't have to. You are so young and beautiful, and it looks like you and your husband are so happy in love. You have been through so much that I truly believe a precious miracle is right around the corner for you.... and unlike so many other young women that take for granted their fertility, you will appreciate beyond measure the life or lives you have been given. I hope its soon!

[rypell1985]

Leora...I'm sorry you had such an awful night! I can't even imagine. PLEASE try to find some glimmer of hope for this cycle...your embies need you!!! And yes, I know it's early and I don't expect a second line yet, it just gives me something to do. I have waited so long to POAS and now I just can't help it!

Yep...POAS again. Of course there's still nothing, but it's still fun! I promise there will be pics as soon as that second line appears. I have to stop at the store tonight and get a few more because I only have enought o get me to Thursday since I really did not intend on starting this early. It's a disease!

[leorira11]

Windy & Ryann - thanks for the kind words. It's sometimes nice to hear that YES I have been through hell and just because I get down sometimes doesn't mean that I'm overreacting or being pessamistic. People in my 'real life' are so tired of hearing about all this stuff - I keep trying to explain that I'm so tired of LIVING it.

Ryann - I want to see those 2 lines too! You have really tempted me.... Ireally want to POAS now too... I keep 'googling' HPTs at 8dpo... maybe I'll get up the courage to do it tomorrow morning, although I *know* it's too early! And next time (in a long time from now!), but some internet cheapie tests. Much cheaper and just as good!

[ChelleDe]

Ryann - I absolutely love the pictures of your Embies!! Adorable and gorgeous! Congrats on being PUPO. and lol @ your POS crazies!

Karin - I would have beat that lady on the phone. I am proud of you for holding your tongue. I dont think I could have lol. Its so neat to see the reality sit in. I am so excited for you.

Heather - I tell you. My husbands ex is 52, never had a job for more than a year, used to have a drug problem, had her kids taken away from her, we were paying $1500 in child support a month and she was on food stamps and the kids were indigent. She is a compulsive liar, she has been to jail for check fraud. She had 4 abortions and an adoption all by the age of 20. And the other day she had the audacity to say she felt sorry for my child with me being there momma. She is a piece of work. I told her I could go based on the facts and go toe to toe with her any day. And I am raising her youngest to be happy, healthy, and successful. Anyways.. yeah.. we could write a book or a series lol.

Nancy - sweetheart, it only takes one! Keep that PMA good !!

Amanda - I think a Winter Thread needs to be created. Maybe I'll do that later today. I think the seasons threads do better because it's 4 months and people build better relationships. Too many monthlys can have people spread all over the place.

Leora - I like hearing the stories from children of divorced parents. That really teaches me how to handle things to make it easier on the kids. I have to learned that no matter what that my SD needs to have a fantastic relationship with her mom. No matter how I feel. I dont bad mouth her mom to her. But then again I dont hide and pretend that we are best friends either. When her mom starts on their email tyrants I tell Jessie that its up to her to read them or not. I always advise her against it, but I am not going to hide anything. And I think it really varies also from family to family. If you read up top what I posted to heather, it shows I can just base things on facts and not put any other personal influence on it. I have seen where the mom is the most amazing person and the step mom is soooo horrible. So I really think it depends on the person. ..... Happy Birthday to your friend's baby! and Congratulations on your FET and being PUPO !! And cool you do Opera !!! .. oh and Leoro.. glad you're feeling better today!! Keep the good PMA!!


Margi - thanks for the grow follie graphic. Made me smile ! I am so glad everything turned out okay!! Welcome to the Stim list !!!!

Kbilsy - I hope the IUI goes well !! Only takes 1 of those little guys!

Rio - Guys are so different. They are so loving and just want the problem to be resolved. They dont know how to go through the process. and lol @ crazitown. Again, I am so excited for you!

TX - Congrats on starting stimms!! I am day 8 into mine! Where in Texas are you? I'm in a suburb of Houston.

Tammy - PMA PMA PMA !!!

Lauren - I am confused, I thought I saw you BDd but you dont think it worked because your eggs wont release? Am I with you on this? or am I out in left field. .. sorry if I'm in the field LOL

Krys - hang in there!!!

Jkulab - you are definitely not alone. There are hundred of thousands if not millions of people going through this.

DandMe - That's good you're taking it easy. I can only imagine how busy and embroidery shop is in the Mall. Dont worry about personals, just take it easy!!! Hugs!

Mishell - Congrats on being PUPO!! Glad the ET went well!! Take it easy and eat that pineapple core!!

CJ - it's funny how certain phrases just can urk you like "For my age". I dont have any experience but all of us can be there for you and to support you!!

Kynlee - Wohoo only a few more weeks until January 1st !!!! New year! I'm excited for you!


AFM - Thanks for everyone who told me to call me RE. I called Sunday and got this lady who acted like I was bothering her. I am sorry she was on call but I had to find out if the bleeding was normal. She said it was. Well yesterday I went to my RE and the nurse told me as well it's normal since its spotting and nothing major. Saturday I started my Ganirelix. After reading things on the Internet I was prepared for that medication to give me problems, but it was a breeze. No side effects.

Friday when I had my SnS my mom asked if she could get a picture of my ovary with all the follicles.. Really? Seriously? I laughed and told her I'd try. She told me that not many people get a picture of their grandbaby(ies) before fertilization. .. I swear she is a hoot! So yesterday when I was going for my US I asked the nurse to take a picture. She told me I wasn't the first. She told me that one husband carried around a picture of his wifes ovaries. I think that's all so special.

My follies are stimming nicely. I am between 9mm and 11mm and it looks like ER might be Friday. I will know tomorrow morning. If I go in Friday that puts ET on my SD's birthday. I told her that last night and she is just thrilled. I told her I'd be on bed rest but she said she didnt care. Cute huh! Nice to have a soon to be 17 year old excited about this!

Only side effects I'm getting is a rollercoaster of energy. I went to two stores on Saturday and was completely exhausted from a simple outing. Almost to the point I couldn't do anything but rest. Then Sunday I had a high amount of energy. weird! Oh and dont know if any of you experience this, but my mood is to much better when my estrogen is higher. When it's low I am so grouchy and now that its 1034 I am calm, focused, and I am really enjoying this. Weird huh? I wonder if I should have been taken estrogen pills.

Anyways that's what's happening with me!! HUGS TO ALL!!!!