Pain in the Buserelin!

[arizonakiwi]

Hi,

Take it easy your body is doing all sorts of things it doesn't normally do so it is probably reacting a bit. I don't know if it is normal to feel dizzy - have your been eating - maybe your blood sugar is down a little. The drugs sound fun !!!! gee I can't wait to get to that stage ..... You could put a general query on the Feb or march message board - or just give your clinic a quick call for a little reassurance.
Monday is 2nd is going to be a good day !!!! you will get your BFP and that is the day we have our next appointment at the clinic also (and with a bit of luck I would have started the BCP's again so I should be on my way also.

The Job is going ok. I had been doing some contract work for them last year and they asked me to apply for a job they were establishing. The down side is it is a couple of hours away from home - after they offered my the job last month I decided not to take it because if the IFV worked I felt guilty taking a job that I would be leaving 9 months later and I would have to be away from home during the week (I thought the novelty would wear off pretty fast) They came back and suggested 3 days a week so now I get the best of both worlds, Monday - Wednesday away from work and Thursday and Friday at home to work on my own business.

As for me personally, .... sorry vent coming.......I have been feeling really unwell for the last week or so. Sick, tired, dizzy, no energy and hot flushes etc. I think it is just everything getting out of my system but because I felt so good during the treatment I really wasn't expecting to feel so bad once I stopped it all. It is making me a little concerned about starting again in a couple of weeks. Because of my problems with our first try I am also sacred that it is going to be more difficult than I thought and we could be doing this all again and not even get to egg collection.... sorry to complain...... When I was 31 we wanted to go straight to IVF/ISCI and the Doctor advised a reversal instead. I feel because of his advice we didn't have the chance to try this 4 years ago and we would be a lot further down the track than we are now.....
Hey I guess I should look on the up side that doctors know what they are doing and they know how I reacted last time so I should trust them that they know what to do to hopefully make sure I can get to EC this time. Thanks for listening to my rant... If I could just start to feel a little better I think I will feel more positive about it all....

I'm going to head out and help my DH assemble the shed he bought to put all the garden stuff in - take my mind off all this for a while. You have Snow !!!! how exciting (I take it you are in England) We have clear blue sky, a little cool with just a hint of Autumn - it is getting dark by 7.30 pm now, we have fire wood arriving tomorrow and a few Autumn leaves starting to fall.
Isn't it amazing you are heading home from work and off to bed - and working your way to spring and summer and I'm starting my day and heading towards autumn and winter.
Have a good sleep, give your clinic a call tomorrow morning for a little reassurance and look after your two little beanies..... tell them Angela says Hi and they need to snuggle in nice and strongly for their mum.

Take care,
Angela (PS sorry about the long post....)

[MissSunshine]

Hello Angela,
I am sorry your feeling down, I really am..In your letter you wrote about the doctors knowing what they are talking about, and you are so right they do and to be working in a certain field like IVF then i would of thought they will know quite a lot, they have seen all different difficulties for couples the world over, So try not to worry so much, and if you have worries then phone up the doctor or nurse and tell them this, they are used to having mad phycotic woman phoning (not that you are, I am talking personal experience here!) no matter how bizzare you may think it may seem, they have most probably been asked it before 100's of times... you know what its like!
you are right I am in England and I am having my treatment with the NHS, all of the doctors and nurses have so far been great, (apart from the receptionist, who is just a grumpy, miserable old bat and just expects you to know everything! )

about your hot flushes and izzydizzy spots.. this does not sound to good..perhaps it is the stopping of the drugs for you,and your bosy getting back to normal and working on its own again? Always best to check these things out.. our body is our temple and all that..

you know what i did the other day for the first time ever.. yoga. At the time i was doing it I was thinking it was a waste of time and just wanted to sleep, but afterwards and for about 3 days later i felt great, inside i felt strong and confident, I felt energised in a way going to the gym or swimming nver does for me, and i felt fresh as a daisy!
If you are not doing it already, promise me you will try!

About your worries though.. please dont, I really am sending you so many positive vibes through my fingertips here, through my mind and all across the channels, oceans and far away lands to reach you.. I want you to feel special. You are going to get through this and somehow and in some way you are will have a beautiful baby.
Thank you for everything, you truly have been so wonderful, and have been the most caring and sharing person, a treasure to meet.
I hope you are smiling...
x Sarah aka miss sunshine!

[arizonakiwi]

Thank you for your e-mail yesterday - it made a huge difference - and yes I was smiling Thank you.. I had a really good day and felt good all day for the the first time in a few weeks.

I'll look into a yoga class and see if there is one I can do. It sounds like it does good things - I have thought about it every now and then and never got around to it. Have you tried accupunture with the IVF? I didn't do it last time but I am wondering about giving it a go this time.

Well I hope you are having a nice weekend. We spent yesterday stacking firewood for winter and lining our attic with floor boards. In the evening we caught up with friends and went to a movie and dinner.

I hope you are taking it easy and letting DH pamper you a little. Till next time, take care and thank you so much for your e-mail, you have made a big difference to me and I appreciate all your kind and supportive words.

Angela

[arizonakiwi]

Hi Sarah,

I hope you are hanging in there with the 2 week wait (you are over 1/2 way there - just 5 more days to go). I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you !!!

Have a good week at work, don't work too hard.

Take care,

Angela

[MissSunshine]

Hi Angela,
I have been really busy with work recently and when I have got home just fallen asleep! Glad you are feeling better, and I hope you tried the yoga, although i could do with taking some of my own advise and going myself, i think i need to de stress myself!
Monday. Oh my god. and for you aswell, I really hope it all goes well for you, you must be just as excited.
Not sure whats going to happen to me though, got a feeling it hasn't worked. but we shall soon see. positive thoughts.. positive thoughts!

I have to go now, but will let you know for sure what happens.. I will try and be on here again before the weekend.. xx

[MissSunshine]

Hi Angela,
just had to do a communal post, getting really worried actually, I am so dizzy all the time, I just went to get my hair cut and after they had washed my hair I stood up and nearly fell over! I sat in front of the mirror ready to get the 'chop' and my face was as pale as white paper. Its been happening a lot actually, but i am putting it down to these bloomin arse pills i have got! I overheard someone once at the hospital when i was having IUI a couple of years ago talking about how horrible the pesseries are.. they were right!
I think.. i prefer.. dare i say it... THE INJECTIONS!!
how you doing anyway honey? you eggggggsited?!! xxI will power any positive energy over to you xx
I am mixed feelings really, i dont like to think negative things.. it is hard though what with my head on a merry go round.. will let you know what happens.. watch this space!

[arizonakiwi]

Hi Sarah,

I am so sorry you aren't feeling so good at the moment. Your body is going through so much at present - full of medication changing everything that is "normal & natural" and it is working to try to keep everything working. I know how frustrating it is not to feel good (it really got me down last week also). Just think it is probably your 2 little beanies snuggling into their new home
Try to be easy on yourself and as you said yesterday come home from work and go to sleep. Can you finish a few hours early on Friday to take it a little easier and I hope you don't have to work on Saturday and Sunday.

I think during the 2 WW everyone goes through a huge rollercoaster of emotions. I can imagine it has to be the hardest wait in the world but you are almost there and in a few days I really hope you are celebrating a BFP. I think the fact you are feeling really tired and dizzy etc is a good sign !!!!

As for me I'm waiting for AF then I'll start on the BCP for 3 weeks and then the injections again.... I do have mixed emotions I am scared my estergon levels will go way up again and I'll go through all this and they will cancel it just before egg collection or they will understimulate me and we won't get any eggs. But nothing ventured nothing gained so we will keep our fingers crossed that we will get there next time and as we say "the doctors know what they are doing"

Well my dear, take care, sleep well, say hello to your little darlings for me.
Have a good day at work tomorrow - I hope you aren't to busy
Keep those positive thoughs going - you are doing well - I know you can do it !!!!

Angela

[arizonakiwi]

Hi Sarah,

All the best for Monday - I am sending you a ton of best wishes and I really hope you get a BFP with your test toorrow.

Have a good Sunday afternoon, we had a lovely weekend, warm and sunny almost a belated summer day - I hope the sun is shining for you also.

Push any negative thoughts out of your mind and I hope the dizzy spells have passed.

Take care
Angela

[MissSunshine]

Hi Angela, thanks for your mail,
I really hope your appointment goes well at the clinic tomorrow, let me know how it goes!
I will let you know how I go, been getting a lot of period like pains, really bad, had to phone hospital last night DP was acting like a a FD, make your own words up for that one! stayed out two nights in a row, got in at 6am in the morning.. I am not in a good mood!
will let you know about tomorow.. good luck you x

[arizonakiwi]

• I’m sorry DP is being such a *** From talking to others over the last few months on this board it seems at least once during the treatment all DH’s and DP’s turn into complete *** so try not to take it to personally. My rational explanation is I figure this is pretty stressful on them as well and all the focus is on us because we are the ones having the treatment so perhaps they feel a bit out of it or unable to make it better or work for us……the old Mars and Venus thing……

Anyway I hope he has come to his senses and stopped acting like such a prick – remember you are on princess status and anything you want or need is perfectly normally and rational!!! (even if it isn’t to him) He also needs to remember that if he says yes he should have said no and if he said no he should have said yes!!!

PS: I really hope all the discomfort you are feeling is just your little ones snuggling in. Take care and I’m sending you lots of hugs and sticky baby dust through the line.

Angela

[MissSunshine]

well this is it, I am going to be a mummy!
got the news today, I am so over the moon, as you can imagine, I thought i was getting fatter! I have to have a scan in two weeks as baby /ies are too small to see at the moment, my goodness.. I can hardly type! I may have twins!! jeeeeeeezzzzz xx!!
I keep thinking somethings going to go wrong, still having pains, but docs say that is because of the op..so must not worry, panic or become bonkers..
How did it go for you Angela? When do you start your treatment? I hope and pray that this is going to happen to you.. i really do x

[arizonakiwi]

Congratulations !!!!!I am so excited for you!!!!!!!!
I had a feeling you would get a BFP !!!!!!

I have a busy day at work today so I'll drop you a note tonight - but I just had to log on and see what your result is

CONGRATULATIONS !!!!!!!

[arizonakiwi]

Hi Sarah,

I guess I can officially say good morning to the new mummy to be!!!
I am so pleased for you - and I loved your line...."I'm going to be a mummy" are you still smiling with the excitement.

How is your DP - I bet he has snapped out of his mood and is over the moon!! and after 4 IUI’s you deserve it !!!!

Are you counting down to the scan - I can only imagine how good and reassuring it will be to see the heartbeat/s and find out if you are having one or two babies!!!

My appointment went ok - I am a bit of an organiser and went in with a list of 10 questions. The good news is my ovaries didn't get scarred (he was concerned they might have been) the not so good news is one looks polycystic and he also said I may react the same way to the stims again but - he is going to lower the dose so I am keeping my fingers crossed it will all be ok this time.

I'm waiting for AF and will start BCP when it arrives, a couple of weeks later I'll begin Buserelin injections. I really hope I’m following a couple of months behind and we are both celebrating late 2007 early 2008 babies (do you have a due date?)

Well my dear you are in for a huge adventure - I hope you will keep in touch and let me know how things over the months. Take it easy, don't work too hard, come home and put your feet up (it's an order!!!!) be kind to yourself and enjoy all the experiences that will come over the next few months.

Congratulations!!

Angela

[MissSunshine]

Hi Angela,
Sorry been enjoying time off work, we are on our Easter hol's, you must be to huh?
The sun is shining and we are off down to the coast to get some Vitamin D on my belly!
I still cannot believe it, and I have told EVERYONE! well nearly everyone, Ian was worse than me, and because he told certain people who knew my certain people, I have to tell them too.. how can you keep this a secret?
half of work know.. the other half dont have a clue!
silly really i know.. but anyway, whats done is done!
How are you feeling anyway my dear.. looking forward to those injections?!
let me know how you get on when you start , and I am in a rush at the moment as we have to leave now before the bank holiday traffic starts.. but i will write again when i get back, really hope you are well,
xxx

[arizonakiwi]

Hi Sarah,

I hope you enjoyed your time away - isn't it good to get away for a few days. I hope you got some sun on that baby belly of yours. Your 1st scan must be coming up soon. I hope everyone at work is treating you with TLC, does everyone know now ? Do you know your due date yet?

I'm doing ok.... well kind of..... I am getting really scared about starting again. I got my plan the other day and I start the buserelin next Thursday. They have doubbled my dose from 200 units to 400 so I am really worried about how I am going to feel. I am strugling to get my head into a postive place to feel good about this cycle.

On a non IVF note, we had a nice easter. The weather was perfect, on Easter Sunday our town holds an Easter Fair so we had a nice day wandering around - I even got a little sunburt - in April !!!!

We then wandered down to the marina where there were lots of boats coming in from a fishing competition and then down to the beach where the carpark was full and there were 100's of people out enjoying the water and relaxing in the sun - It was busier than December and January (our summer holidays).
On a fun note I have booked a surprise trip away for Dave and I in August. His birthday is at the end of July so I might let him know we are going away for a birthday treat a couple of weeks later and just take him to the airport. Air New Zealand has "grab a seat specials" each day to different locations. I managed to get return tickets for the 2 of us Wellington to Tahiti for just over $300 each (around 100 pounds for each of us!!!) I am looking around for some nice accommodation and some things to do while we are there - I figure if the IVF works it will be a nice time to get away and if it doesn't work we will need something to look forward to.

Well I hope you have a lovely Friday at work. Take care and keep in touch. Make sure your DP is taking good care of you and your little one.

Angela
xxx