Hi Michelle38, I don't mean to get into an endless conversation here but truly, if someone is looking for people to change their comments/opinions to what that person wants to hear, then this forum may not be the right place. People here are going to advise you on what they think is the best, not on what they are told. As you can imagine, it's difficult to comment based on everyone's personal preferences.
Having said that, I do feel bad for you. If one has no hope, that does make one feel totally helpless and aweful, so believe me, I am not taking your comments personally. But still wishing it happens for you miraculously somehow, and if not, may God give you the inner peace & strength to deal with the issue.
Regards
Gori