This totally sucks but you don't need me to tell you that.......... I am so sorry - really thought this was your time - especially with that HCG. Loads of love and lager and ciggies.
Let's hope they do the chromosome tests as clearly there is a problem and get it sorted so you can join the other side and have your dream. Thinking of you
Love
Tracey
xxx
ttc 9 years. 38 yrs old, dh 8 hrs younger!First IVF in Aug 2002 and had ectopic.2nd IVF neg.3rd FET and negative.4th FET and positive but sadly lost our little boy at 20 weeks.5th FET and Alice Isobel and Emily Charlotte born 5th Aug 2004!
There is not a lot I can say to console you, but as the girls say.........make sure they do every conceivable test to find out what the problem is!!
Once they find out why this is happening they will give you/do whats necessary to sort the problem.........you know you can definately get pregnant.......so you will definately have your baby sweets!
I am so sorry and so bloody angry for you. This should not be happeneing to you my fellow JCB what a load of crap!!!!!
You will need some time to come to terms with this 'again' and we will all be here for you when you feel like having a chat or a moan or even a cry. I am so sad and feel like screaming.
You and your DH are in my thoughts and I hope you get some answers as to why this happens each time.
Take care and come back when you are ready.
All my love Dagny xkx
Me 38 DH 40
1st 2nd & 4th IVF/ICSI -ve
3rd +ve DD Katelyn born @ 24wks & sadly died
5th +ve m/c 9wks
6th +ve Twins Sadly DD Leah stillborn @20wks and DS Kieran born @22wks but sadly died too
7th +ve - DD Chloë Mae born @38wks our precious miracle
BORROCKS - (sorry web officiator I just had to get that off my chest
Enjoy your fags and lager ........... I'm dying for both!
Get sorted with the tests that you will be having and then I look forward to seeing you back here for your big fat POSITIVE!
Lots of love, thinking of you,
Nickie
1st Cycle ICSI - Cancelled before E/R due to poor response
2nd Cycle ICSI - April 2004 Negative
3rd Cycle FET - July 2004 - Negative
4th Cycle ICSI - Nov 2004 - BFP (Oh my GOD)
This is not what I was hoping for, so sorry for you, you were a real inspiration to me.
Words aren't enough to express what I want to say to you, but please know that I am thinking of you and hope that you can take the strain and will not give up. After my +ive and then bleed, I really didn't think I wanted to go through it all again, but I am going to and expect tmt to be in Sept all being well. Originally we had said only 1 go, but we have made some tough choices and somehow we will find the money and will go again, it really will be the last time.
Get some tests, ask some questions and take comfort from all the support your on-line buddies can give you, life is unfair and takes some real working out at times, but we must stay positive and believe that if you want something badly enough you will get it in the end.
Take some time to lick your wounds, and keep in touch
Hey Loopy,
This sucks the big one.
Go with the lager and the smokes, and also eat lots of completely crappy food..I'm thinking chocolate and chips and more chocolate and McDonalds (go the McFlurry's girl!!)..
I did the chromosome testing after my m/c, nothing showed up, just normal female tissue, I think I would have been sad either way, if a problem showed up then at least we would know, but then if it didn't (as was the case) it felt like it didn't really answer my questions..My consultant said that three m/c's are considered "normal" (yeah right), and they don't usually test after one or even two. I found it really helped our grieving though to at least know that we hadn't left a stone unturned.
Do what's right for you and for your partner, cry, drink, smoke, laugh and cry..When you're ready you'll try again..It will be your turn.
Thinking of you
Belinda
Dear Loopy,
So sorry you are going through this torture. I made it to 6 weeks on my 3rd and 4th cycle ( frozen) and then mcd. My hcg levels too where fine and in fact stayed up for a while after the mc. After the first one I got myself into such a head spin that my dh begged for a counselling session for me( and despite saying how counselling was available / recommended in the ivf pamphlet, begging was what we had to do) This was the sort of helping you to sort out whats occurred/ plan for the future type counselling not the "tell me about your feelings "stuff with a trained subfertility counselling nurse. I only had one sesh but it really helped me get my head straight and stop panicing.
I begged the ivf docs for recurrant mc testing after the first mc on the principle that although id only mcd once Id already had one overstimm followed by 2 straight negs and that us ivf types deserved to be investigated sooner than "normals" since it was so hard to get to the +ve int he first place. Naturally they gave me a big fat no, as did my GP when I tried him! So we had to go through an almost identical torture onb the next cycle before they relented. All the chromosomal testing and infections type stuff came back ok but I showed a weak/ borderline response on one of the immunological tests and the same with a clotting factor. Both result were only just outside the norm but I was recommended low dose aspirin just incase.
This time round Ive made it to week 19(last tuesday) , although its been touch and go with 4 bleeds including one biggie. Maybe it s the aspirin , maybe its the fact its a fresh cycle or maybe I just needed those false starts to get there in the end. I probably havent said anything you havent heard of/ thought of already but I hope it helps to hear sucess ( so far !!) following similar crappy events. Sorry for the length of this ramble , I hardly ever post and then cant stop when Ive started. Dont forget those hormones stick around for a wee while and are devils at making an already hard time feel even bleaker.
love to both of you Annie