Caroline (cmg) - Test Thurs 14 July

taylorjools · Post by **taylorjools** » Wed Jul 13, 2005 7:24 pm

Caroline. wanted to pop in and see how you are, keep brave sweetie. It's not over til the fat lady sings, so do test wont you, even if it's just a confirmation.

It took me a full week for things to sink in after our loss, at the hospital I was resigned and "horribly calm", I guess I just now slowly start to get back on track, nearly 1 month later. Letting the feelings out has been hard as they have shocked me, the good news is through this board we know they are normla which helps letting go.

give dh a big hug

Caro, we are all here for you

{{{{{{{{{hug}}}}}}}}}

BigJ

Sand · Post by **Sand** » Wed Jul 13, 2005 7:54 pm

Caroline - You've not long to wait now until you know for definite ... Try to be strong just a little longer.

Sandra x

hlloyd · Post by **hlloyd** » Wed Jul 13, 2005 11:22 pm

Hi Caroline, I think you are right in saying that the vague hope associated with minor bleeding is far more stressful than knowing that it has not worked when AF really shows up. I felt the same and was semi-grateful for the relief that AF provided. I am glad you are feeling ok and I hope that focussing on your next treatment will take away some of the disappointment.

Best wishes
Heather

cmg · Post by **cmg** » Thu Jul 14, 2005 6:15 am

No miracles to report this morning I'm afraid. I had a lovely really vivid dream that I tested and it was positive. I could see that blue cross shining out at me. And then I woke up and did the test for real and of course it was negative.

At the moment, I think I'm at the stage Big J described as "horribly calm" but I don't think that's going to last. I had taken the precaution of booking an appointment with my counsellor for today - even if it was positive I think I would have needed to talk it through with someone as it would have been such a shock! So I've got somewhere to take it.

And to be honest, Big J, I think your loss was worse. Hard though this is, I think for me this is less painful than thinking you've got there and having it taken away.

Thanks once again for all the support. I don't know how I would have done it without you.

love Caroline

lumi · Post by **lumi** » Thu Jul 14, 2005 9:26 am

Caroline

I am so sorry and you are being so brave. I know you are caught between heatbreak and relief to have tested and it's just awful. I think the grief will come soon and you should just let it all out!

Take care and spoil yourself

Lots of love to you

Lumi xxxx

hlloyd · Post by **hlloyd** » Thu Jul 14, 2005 10:03 am

Caroline, so sorry to hear that your suspicions were confirmed. Take care of yourself and your DH and like Lumi said, try and do something really nice together.

Best wishes
Heather

LittleP · Post by **LittleP** » Thu Jul 14, 2005 10:46 am

Caroline

I am so sorry - do take care of yourself and remember we're all here for you when you feel like talking.

Big hugs and loads of PMA

Little P

DeniseM · Post by **DeniseM** » Thu Jul 14, 2005 11:12 am

Caroline,

So sorry for your confirmed bad news. Good luck with the counsellor today.

Ellie · Post by **Ellie** » Thu Jul 14, 2005 12:12 pm

Caroline
So sorry to find that you got a negative this morning.Good idea to have an appointment with the counseller today,I hope it helps.
Take some time to pamper yourself and DH as you deserve it.

eskavon · Post by **eskavon** » Thu Jul 14, 2005 1:28 pm

Caroline
I'm so sad to hear your news, take care of yourself
Eskavon xx

CC · Post by CC » Thu Jul 14, 2005 3:49 pm

I'm so sorry Caroline - I was really praying for you. Remember not to make any rash decisions and just take time to let things sink in. We're all here for you and understand how you feel,

Hugs, Cherylx

taylorjools · Post by **taylorjools** » Thu Jul 14, 2005 7:26 pm

Oh Caroline, I am so sorry ..

In some ways you are right, in some ways I am being told a +ve gives hope..it is devastating when it doesn't work.

What matters right now is you, and getting the courage to make the right decsion for you guys. As I said, time plays a key role in that.

PM me any time sweetie

Love and hugs

bigJ

michelle_in_scotland · Thu Jul 14, 2005 9:18 pm

Caroline, i'm so sorry to hear your news, i was really hoping your result wouldn't turn out like mine.
Take care and know we are all here when you need us.
Lotsa love

Michelle
xxxx

Alison · Post by **Alison** » Thu Jul 14, 2005 10:06 pm

Dear Caroline - have been watching out for you and was really sorry to see your news. Sorry too to Michelle, Lumi and others who have had negatives and low positives. Glad to hear you feeling OK for now, but do take care of yourself and don't be surprised if the disappointment hits later. I've been surprisingly down the last few days having got my first proper AF since my negative. AF was late, and despite the fact that I can't conceive naturally I started to wonder whether the embie from my low +ve had somehow hung on in there! It was all a bit daft, but our minds and bodies play trciks on us. Anyway, look after yourself and stay strong - I know you will. Love

Alison

Sand · Post by **Sand** » Fri Jul 15, 2005 8:59 am

Caroline - I'm sorry to read your news, and I know just how much you'll be hurting. Make sure you take good care of yourself.

Sandra x

Caroline (cmg) - Test Thurs 14 July

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