August Frozen Transfer

[kizmet]

JerseyJane - thanks, I do feel better. I am absolutely exhausted today though, can hardly keep my eyes open at work. I've spent more time this morning checking to see if anyone had posted any news than actually doing any work! I think I may be addicted to you guys! There's somethings I prefer talking to all you ladies about rather than DH. As supportive as he is, he doesn't quite get it from my end and even the details on the drugs, BTs, and ultrasounds, he doesn't really know what's going on, I just tell him and he says "oh, ok". How are you feeling now, you've got your BFP?

[Jerseyjane]

Kizmet - Hey there, I do feel great that I got by BFP and even dare I say confident about this one. The embroyos came from the same batch my daughter was conceived from although she was a fresh cycle but from that batch I got 6 frosties so I always felt that my eggs must have been pretty healthy that round, plus I was 32. With the pregnancy in April I was never totally confident because of 22 eggs none made it to freeze (they did a day 3 transfer) so for some reason I was always uneasy about it. My husband and I were talking last night and we both agree that we will feel much better once we see the ultrasound and god willing a heartbeat. There was never a heartbeat in the pregnancy in April. I guess one day at a time so today is beta #2, fingers crossed. I will post once I get home from work probably around 4:00 EST.

[blairwh58]

kizmet- Knowing that you didnt test positive at home until 10dp5dt makes me feel a little better. Even though our clinic told us we had to wait 1 wk to have sex I have just been too nervous, not to mention not in the mood. I guess if I actually get a positive I will feel a little better but until then I may stear clear. I agree with you, I think I may be addicted to checking this blog too. It makes it worse that as soon as someone posts I get an email on my phone so I immediately check to see the update. Pathetic I know....but I need something to pull me through and you ladies have been very supportive over the past month.

Jersey- I cannot wait to hear the results from your second beta. I am sure that things are great and your numbers have more than doubled. 4 oclock cannot come soon enough. And of course I will still be checking this blog all day long.

AFM- Well I caved in and tested this morning at 9dp5dt and got a BFN as I expected. As much as I wanted to cry and throw a fit I am wishing and hoping that its just still early for me and I will end up with a BFP in the next few days. I didnt even tell DH I tested because he would say that I shouldnt have tested anyway. So frustrating though. Trying not to get depressed about the negative but I cant really help it this time. Kizmet- did you get a slight positive before 10dp or just a negative? Trying to stay hopeful but its not working very well.

[itsmyturn79]

Blair, stay positive!!! it s not over till they prove it is!! a fet takes longer to implant, so we have to expect late BFP! when is your beta scheduled? kizmet and jerseyjane been there also, and now look at them. So chin up!! you are so close to get an accurate result!! i send u millions of babydust.big hug xxxx

AFM, i don t know how to kill the time anymore, the weather is so hot and i am staying in my house with the airco, watching television!!!so boring!!!! the thing is with the progesterone suppositories i can t go for a swim! and it s summer here in spain, and everybody is asking for me to go to the beach, or to go out, and i am pretending i am sick. Just don t want to tell anyone before the 1st u/s!!! my nauseas are on and off today, and my face is a wreck, feel like i am a teen again. I have no pain in my breast, don t know if it s normal?how is everbody?

[Jerseyjane]

Well wouldn't you believe that the clinic called and their blood machine broke, they have the blood, it was tested but they can't get the results on the print out until it is fixed. Then the nurse tells me they will call tomorrow morning with the results and not to forget about my appointment on the 12th. I said "I don't have one" and she said "oh yeah I forgot to tell you, your ultrasound is scheduled for Sunday, September 12th at 8:45 a.m." So I am happy that I have an appointment but still nervous about today's results.

Blair- I am so sorry about the test, but you never know. Maybe you could have one that implanted late, or your levels are still a little low to pick up. I read from someone that her beta was 332 and she went home and took an HPT and it was the faintest line ever, so you just never know. Try to stay positive and if you feel like testing wait another 2 days. I am keeping my fingers crossed.

Itsmyturn - The suppositories are so friggen messy, it's gross. It must stink that you have to keep making excuses to your friends. When is the first ultrasound? Is it this weekend?

Kizmet - How do you feel? I have been crampy all day. Do you think the endometrin makes us more crampy? I feel like maybe it does.

[itsmyturn79]

jerseyjane, my first ultrasound is next monday!!! the 6 of september! so not long to go. i am so nervous!!!well yours it s coming up pretty fast too. How are you feeling? i bet you was very disappointed not getting your results!!!one day more always feel like an eternity. Have you got any nausea? are you feeling any different? so when is your due date exactly?

[Jerseyjane]

Itsmyturn - I was pretty disappointed when I couldn't get the results today. Now I'll be nervous all night. As far as how I am feeling I have never had any nausea with any of pregnancies ( my daughter nor the 2 miscarriages), now watch I probably just jinxed myself. Pretty much I just have this heavy feeling in my abdomen kind of like when you have your period. Oh, and I get tired alot earlier in the evening now and my boobs kind of get achy sometimes and look a little fuller. My doctor will tell me my due date at the first ultrasound but I checked online with one of those IVF due date calculators and it came out to May 7, 2011 so I am sure it is somewhere around there. I can't believe your ultrasound is so close. Will you be in your 6th or 7th week?

[kizmet]

JerseyJane - WOW, I thought I had to wait a long time for the first US but April 12? LOL. That wait will just kill ya! Glad to hear you are feeling positive about this one. I've got a good feeling about it for you too! Is endometrin the progesterone pessaries? If so, yep, I think they may be the cause of the cramping because the only time I get it is just after putting them in.

Itsmyturn - I didn't know you were in Spain! Maybe I'll have to come visit one day! We're planning on Christmas in Nice, France in 2013 (well, DH hasn't actually agreed yet, but I've made arrangements with our friends whose holiday house it is...DH will give in eventually!). Don't worry about a lack of breast pain...I've seriously got nothing other than some really mild cramping mostly at night or first thing in the morning. A friend of mine who is about 3 weeks in front of me and got pregnant naturally (and accidently...sort of) also says she has no symptoms at all, so nothing to panic about there.

Blair - At 9dp5dt I POAS and dismissed it as negative at the time. When I POAS the next day and it was positive, I pulled the other one out of the bin and there was the faintest of faint lines there if you looked at it in the right light. Try and stay positive for your little bean! I KNOW how tough that is considering the absolute meltdown that I had, but it doesn't help.

AFM - having a rough day today because we have to put down Mike's kids' first pony. Will be a very sad night tonight. Other than that, feeling fit and healthy and tired! Bored senseless at work and wishing it was 2011 already!

[Jerseyjane]

Kizmet - Hahaha, I'm an idiot! Thanks for catching my mistake I didn't even catch on to your joke right away til I went back and reread what I wrote. I meant to say my first ultrasound in Sunday, September 12th at 6 weeks. Endomentrin looks like these white oval tablets and yes they melt. I think they are the same. What do yours look like? So sorry to hear about the pony, I am sure they become like one of your family.

[itsmyturn79]

kizmet, yes i am living in south of spain, but i am french."Nice"t s a beautiful city to go.(can t beleive you got holiday 2013 already planned!) you are very welcome to visit me anytime! just make sure you bring baby 2011 with you!!lol!
i am so sorry about the pony!!this is so sad!!!

jersey, you are so lucky to get very smooth pregnancies. This morning when i wake up got so sick, had to through up(sorry tmi)feeling miserable today!!! i am exactly 6weeks today, my due date is april the 29. (so we are a week apart).Hope it will not get anyworse, don t know what i am supposed to tell people around me. I will be looking foward to see your beta result today.

Blair, how are you today?

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[blairwh58]

itsmyturn- Still feeling overly depressed about yesterdays test. I really have a bad feeling about testing tomorrow.

jersey- Im trying to stay positive...its just not working out so well. Hope all is going well with you.

kizmet- So sorry to hear about the pony. I am sure it is very tough any time you are in these circumstances, even more so when there is so much emotional attachment. Glad you are feeling good though.

AFM- I believe I am close to having a breakdown. I honestly thought that this cycle was our time. We used 3 of our 6 embryos, and everything led us to believe that the stars were aligned and things would work out. Just not feeling any of that any more. I know DH will be crushed if it doesnt work, and just thinking about next steps makes me want to cry. We cant really afford to do another cycle, especially since we are still trying to pay off the past 2 cycles. Just very frustrated with life right now.

[yarnista]

Blair: Know that you are not alone in how you feel at all. I've never felt this down in my life before this week and am really struggling to get up go to work and go on with my days. I'm trying to get my mind around positive things and remember how much I have to be thankful for. I'm going to go see a naturopathic doctor to have her help me balance my hormones and everything back. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers this week

[blairwh58]

yarnista- Thanks for the support. I guess at this point I am just frustrated and upset on top of all the hormones. I feel like everyone around me who just got married has already had a baby and I cant even pay to have 1. Of course I know its because Im more aware but everyone around me is either pregnant or recently had a baby. Some of who didnt even "try"...makes me jealous I guess. We really wanted to be parents and at this point its just not working out for us. I know there is still the slightest chance that tomorrow could suddenly be positive...but since I know its not likely Im just depressed. DH doesnt know Ive tested, and tomorrow he is on call at the hospital so I dont even know that I should tell him yet. If its a positive I will, but giving him bad news will make his long day even longer.

[Jerseyjane]

Well I finally got the call and it's not what I hoped to hear. So my beta went from 166 on Tuesday to only 216 on Thursday. The nurse told me they want me to come in again tomorrow for a third beta. She told me it is not uncommon they have seen this before with frozen because she said you never know when frozen embroyos implant and even totally defrost for that matter. She said keep taking my meds and we'll see tomorrow. I asked again if it is out of the ordinary to improve and she said no. However there is another scenario with betas that rise like this and she said that it could be ectopic and they could not do anything about it til my ultrasound on the 12th. I just feel so defeated already, I mean I just had a miscarriage in May and now I have to go through this again. I have 3 pregnancies, well now 4 under my belt and 1 child to show for it. I honestly think this is my last time. I don't think I have it in me anymore. I just don't have the fight left. So now I'll go tomorrow morning and have to wait all damn day for the results. Of course now I am wondering if the cramping I am having is because it is ectopic. I just want to go to sleep and wake up tomorrow and this be better.

[itsmyturn79]

jersey, it s not uncommon to have slow riser at early stage, i mean aren t they supposed to double between 48 and 72 hours?
i complete understand your concern, it s so frustrating this whole process! i would pray for you that you get a good beta tomorow. I send you a big hug xxx

Blair, when is your beta exactly? are you going to retest tomorow? i think it s very important to think beforehand on your next step if it is negative, that way you don t feel that lost and empty. I absolutely understand what you going through, i am also the only one from all my friends whithout kids. Just keep in mind that your dream is getting closer, and don t hesitate to ask financial support to family and friends. This way you would take a bit of the pression off! you have some frosties left if i remember good? anyway i am wishing you the best of luck with your test. Really hope you can bring fantastic news tomorow!!! big hug xxxxxxxx

I wish all the girls beautiful week end.

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