Hi girls,
well, finally we have some closure - not the way we wanted, but the way we've been expecting. This morning my betas have fallen - from 440 on Saturday to 110 today, and an ultrasound didn't find anything. I'm stopping the pessaries tonight (one blessing!), and my dr. expects me to get my period in the next few days - apparently it'll be pretty messy and could be quite painful. At this stage, I'm not even sad so much as just happy it's finished. I'll take a break and see how I feel in a few months. Tonight I'm having a few VERY large glasses of red wine, and we might even go visit some friends in Indonesia for a few weeks - take advantage of the break. I'll still be around to see how the rest of you go of course! Thanks everyone for your support.
Take care, and good luck everyone.
Jaye.
so sorry to hear you bad news....it is heart wrenching.
What an absolute pain in the a*se! This whole thing is so traumatic, you are just right to take a break............as well as a few massive glasses of vino!!
Loads of love and hugs babe and hope you come back from your break refreshed and ready for the future!
Hi Jaye
well thats pants news good on you for getting a few drinks down your neck and taking time out , it has been a very long drawn out ordeal for you and it has probably knocked the stuffing right out of you . we will of course be here for you again when you feel ready for stress and torture along the IVF game !!!
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You take care buddy
Trace x
1st cycle own eggs Neg
2nd cycle own eggs Neg
3rd cycle cousins eggs Neg
4th cycle unknown donor eggs Neg
Going to have sisters eggs Feb 06
NEVER GIVE UP!
I'm very sorry about the bad news. I was really rooting for thing to work for you. What an ordeal you've been through. I think taking some time off and going away is a great idea (as is a few huge glasses of wine).
Staci - I'm so sorry that you are having such a lot of pain. keep drinking the water and hopefully it will subside soon. You must be about to have your ET soon - it seems ages since your EC. I'm with Caz and JenF re no exercise in 2WW. Plenty of time to catch up after the result but worth a rest if it helps get a BFP.
Zeena - You hads a lovely bumper crop of eggs from your EC and lots of embies as well. I'm sorry you are in pain as well but agin hope it goes soon. How are your other embies getting on going to blastocycst stage?
Dagny - Good luck with your cycle next month. I hope Katelyns anniversary isnt too painful for you and I hope that you have more success this time. I sympathaise about the christening - I think I would have punched her!
Caz/JenF - Good luck on the 2WW.
Jaye - I'm so sorry your test/scan results were not what you wanted. I think your idea of a few glasses of vino tonight and a trip to Indonesia sound fantastic. Try to have a lovely time and come back refreshed for maybe another go.
Gem - Best wishes to you on your pg. Hope it is all going well.
Traci - How did ET go? I hope you are OK.
DH and I are off to Chester for a few days away leading up to the donors EC early next week so I probably wont post again until I know how many eggs I haev allocated to me. best wishes to all of you.
Allison
ET went the best ever as the first time I had to have my cervix clamped Not very nice I can tell you , then the 2nd go I had a diletation a week before so was sore after that also a cyst removed and then EC didnt really want ET after all that , the 3rd was ok but didnt drink enough water to see the embies going in and this time all went smoothly and no pain I had a really full bladder which helped emencly but I always think that strait after I need the loo and always think I hope I didnt flush them down the toilet!!! Im sure they wouldnt let you go to the toilet if they thought that would happen!!!!!! anyway having a donor is by far much better as there is no ec and no pain!!! YOUR NEXT , Have a great time in chester and best of luck for EC will be thinking of you .
So glad it went well!!!!! Been dying to hear from you!!!
I know what you mean about the loo afterwards, each time I have been dying for a pee and had to run like an olympic athelite to the loo........as well as worrying about flushing everything that has just happened away!
Well, after driving myself (and DH) crazy all night, I went into the transfer this morning convinced that transferring one was probably the best thing to do.
The Dr. came in to discuss things with us and told us that there was actually a strange, unexpected turn of events (wish he hadn't started off that way because of course I thought all our embies died overnight or something). He said that we had 10 total which fertilized. One didn't make it after Day 3. 4 were only at the "morula" stage (which I had never heard of before) and 5 were still about 24 hours behind becoming blastocysts. The ones at the morula stage were 12 hours away from becoming blastocysts so they wouldn't be until around 10:30 PM tonight (and obviously they won't do my transfer then). He said they can't grade a morula so it was impossible for them to know which of the 4 were best. He said that our options were to go with the transfer as planned or give it another day in which case we'd be taking the risk that the blastocysts would hatch by morning, be very fragile and potentially not make it before the transfer.
He came into the room actually recommending that we go with 3. We ended up deciding to go with 2. He seemed to think that going with 1 was playing it much too safe in this case since we wouldn't even know for sure if were were transferring Grade A embies or not. As far as waiting overnight, I didn't want to risk it. I figure they can continue to let the remaining ones develop then, hopefully, freeze some. If you can believe this, the Dr. told us that he didn't know who had made the decision to go with 5 days in our case because he actually strongly prefers 3 day transfers! Wonderful.
Has anyone ever heard of transferring morulas? I thought I had researched every possible scenario before going in there but I certainly didn't know anything about this one.
At any rate, the transfer itself went very smoothly. I guess I should go lie down for a bit.
Regarding my earlier comment about exercise after 5 days, I've already changed my mind so I am with the rest of you. The nurse was saying how important it is not to do anything which raises the body temperature too much. After going through all of this, I guess it won't kill me to hold off an extra week on exercise. I don't want to take any risks!
Hi Staci - my friend (who I think I mentioned before to someone )- had very similar thing -except on day 3 they actually told her that they had all arrested.
They put 2 back in anyway and now she has a beautiful baby boy. I think you cant really read too much into it. I have never actually seen any studies of pregnancy rates with different types/ quality of embie. So I would just be thrilled you got a couple safely in - take it VERY easy for a few days....have to say I havent missed the exercise at all....one way or another I will try to be back at it I guess this week though!
Welldone!!!!
Trace - SO SO pleased for you - its VERY amazing seeing the et while its happening isnt it -very weird too! Have everything crossed for you!
Hi to everyone else - I am officially VERY scared now....PLEASE just pray that I dont get my AF tomorrow - I just want to get to the test stage now - at least it would be one step further than I got to last time.
I will definitely be praying you don't get your AF tomorrow (or anytime soon for that matter)!. You test on Thurs.?
Thanks for letting me know that about your friend. Anything positive is helpful! I am driving myself crazy now doing research on morulas and found one article indicating that, since they were slow developers, they probably have a lower implantation rate.
I really should have asked the Dr. more questions but my very full bladder kind of prevented that. My husband seemed to think it was a negative thing also but when he questioned it, the the Dr. said "morulas are good"....but if they are so good why did he want us to go with 3?! I just hope they are able to freeze a good bunch. If the rest don't make it then I'm obviously going to think the ones inside me aren't going to make it either.
I know, I know. I had better start thinking positive like I tell everyone else to.
Zeena,
How are you feeling today? I'm actually doing much better so I'm hoping you are as well!
Just wanted to say bye.......AF has arrived. Very depressed............hate everything to do with fertility with a passion.
Going back to gym tomorrow and I am never stopping at any stage as it obviously makes no difference, if we can't make an embryo implant then we won't be able to stop it if it wants to either!
Jen F
You poor love , I feel the pain in your thread , wish I could hug you properly Take time out and give yourself a damn good run on that treadmill dont know what to say as I thought we were going to the other side together gutted or you and the rain says it all outside.
Take care
Trace x
1st cycle own eggs Neg
2nd cycle own eggs Neg
3rd cycle cousins eggs Neg
4th cycle unknown donor eggs Neg
Going to have sisters eggs Feb 06
NEVER GIVE UP!
I posted on the other thread but thought I would post here too. I really am sorry your AF has tured up - what a witch This whole IVF thing is so bloody hard and I don't blame you for hating everything to do with it all.
Take care and have a good workout.
Love Dagny xkx
Me 38 DH 40
1st 2nd & 4th IVF/ICSI -ve
3rd +ve DD Katelyn born @ 24wks & sadly died
5th +ve m/c 9wks
6th +ve Twins Sadly DD Leah stillborn @20wks and DS Kieran born @22wks but sadly died too
7th +ve - DD Chloë Mae born @38wks our precious miracle