Hello everyone,
Jen – thinking of you as you go into the 2nd week, the hardest time. Hope you had a relaxing weekend away. Have you got something good planned for this week too? I’ve got everything crossed for you. xxx
My film tip for the 2ww is “The Jungle Book”. It’s available on DVD everywhere at the moment because it’s the 40th film anniversary year and is great for relaxing. That bear, Baloo is just sooooo laid-back.
Hope I’ll be able to enjoy watching that film with a child of my own one day…
How are you LuAnne? Hope you are well and managing to relax a little more. Do keep up the PMA and keep us posted.
Love – hope you are OK and seeing light again. xxx
Amy, Andrea, Chriss, hope I haven’t missed anyone – looking forward to us being cycle buddies…
Catharine – good luck with your appointment. Maybe you’ll be cycling with us soon too.
Hi Amy – your schedule reads a bit like mine and you must be about 2 weeks ahead. Are you officially on your preparation cycle now? Good luck xxx
Chriss – Glad you have got some guidance from your doc quite quickly. If you have faith in your doc and certainly sounds like you do, I’d try again with your own eggs. It’s good to have the options of DE and adoption though. DE is definitely a decision with needs time especially as you and DH need to be on the same level before you start. It seems adoption in the US is easier than here. I researched a bit here and got the impression that at our age it’s quite rare to get approval to adopt a baby. It seems to get difficult from about 35 yrs upwards. For me, going through the whole procedure months on end and have your private life being scrutinized by a panel only to be told at the end that you can’t adopt a baby, only maybe a child of 8 or 9 years upwards, would be devastating. I’ve also heard that the authorities here also don’t like to see you trying for adoption when you are still going through treatment.
I hope the nightmare situation at work is finally over. Sounds like you mastered it really well. It’s not easy to have to suppress feelings all the time and it does take it’s toll on you. When a colleague of mine broke the news this week that his wife is expecting twins I was genuinely thrilled for him and had a big smile on my face but later I realised how such news always makes me feel very sad too – deep down inside. You just can’t show it. Leading this double life is for me one of the toughest parts of our situation. Having to perform at work and elsewhere in life, juggling all those appointments without anyone noticing how often you are missing, hiding emotions and at the same time pretending everything is OK.
On the other hand I’m lucky that I’ve had very few experiences of people being insensitive or asking if we don’t want children. Not sure if they are just too disinterested to ask, or suspect we’re having problems and are scared of saying the wrong thing, or maybe I just look infertile.
I’m expecting AF to turn up around 3rd November so that I can start again with the tests, scans and hopefully start the meds on cycle day 21. One step at a time. If all goes well, transfer could be anytime from mid December to mid January. I suddenly panicked whether the clinic would close for the Christmas season. After emailing the clinic I found out that they don’t take another break until end January. Apparently transfers have in the past taken place on New Year’s Eve! Of course I’m much more nervous this time because of having to cancel last time. I couldn’t bear it to happen again. I’ve heard of a few pregnancies at the clinic just recently so that’s encouraging…
Love to Anna, Bev, Tammy, BigJ and Yasmina - I’m always pleased when you get time to update us about your little ones - …and all the other wonderful ladies here I haven’t mentioned
Hope all is OK with everyone!
Sonia
xxx
Me 41, DH 42; ttc 6 yrs.
3x IUI & 5 IVF cycles (incl. 3 abandoned IVF cycles)
from end 2005 to begin. 2007
started DE treatment abroad
Baby dust baby dust 
hoping it's just the meds and not AF on her way...it is day 8 after fertilisation today so would have thought implantaion was day 5-7 so cramps could mean AF!!! trying to keep postive tho!!! so watched the 20th anniversay dvd of dirty dancing and that made me smile 
4 days to test day ...