WOW LADIES - What can I say?? I have never seen this on a board before EVER. Not this many BFPS!! Congratulatons to you all.
Of course I wouldn't leave without checking in to see how everyone was doing. I am OK and thanks for all your msgs of support. It's been hard loggin on but when you've been doing it every day for 2 and a half months, it's like a drug even though most times I am bawling!
The cloud has lifted a little for me and we are one step closer to accepting that this is a real possibility now that this may never work for us. I kind of always knew it really. 5 years TTC and 2 chemical pregnancies, "unexplained infertility" and all my doc could say was "you have really bad luck"!!! I asked if it was egg quality and he said he was not prepared to make that assumption as I had good amount of eggs and well developed embryos and that we should look ahead to a natural cycle FET. I know from experience that if my best blast didn't take then a frozen one aint gonna do much better and the success rate is just 19%, so we'll go thru the motions and put 2 (yes 2 he said!!) back before the years out and see how we go. In the meantime, I'm still having my moments of deep sadness and anger that we couldn't have just a bit of luck this time, as well as concerns that this is still all put down to "unexplained".
I have filled out the adoption applications and am about to post them off today. It's lengthy and incredibly expensive but I figure if it's meant to be, it will, and nothing we can do will change that.
Hopefully one day I'll be able to log on here and post that BFP but I tell ya, the worry will never end for me. My doc called on Tuesday and wanted me to stay on the progesterone until Friday and then go in for more bloods to check my levels. Apparently there was a case where a lady had a low beta of 9 and went full term! They just have to cover themselves in case. Anyway, I took myself off the progesterone and did another HPT the next day to check it was completely neg, which it was, so I'm not going in for bloods...why prolong the misery hey :-/
Well that's it for me lovely ladies. So proud of you all and look fwd to those last couple of BFPs..Good luck girls
OK, won't bring this exciting board down anymore! Bday cocktails for me tomorrow night and taing a trip to see my Mum for a week next Wednesday. Something to look fwd to
Over & out,
Dex xx