AUG/SEPT BUDDIES!

[AmandaM]

Hi All

Thanks for the encouraging words and welcoming me to your group It's great being able to talk with people going through the same thing at the same time. My husband and I originally went to the fertility doctor to do PGDPre-Implantation Genetic diagonsis to prevent passing on a known genetic disorder. Doing this brings to chance down from 50% to 3%. That is when we fould out that there is an egg quality issue with me. So this is probably our last chance for a child. Due to the cose we cant keep doing IVF and do to the risk of the condition we won't try natually.

I will be starting my shots tomorrow. That means only one more month to the transfer.

Babyloves - I meant uneven cells like some are big some are real small and some are medium. They aren't dividing evenly. This and the fragmentation is what is causing the embies to stop growing. My first to cycles I had 25 and 28 eggs. I am keeping my fingers crossed for you BFP

JDC- I hope everything went ok with the ultrasound and embies today. Keep us posted and lots of well wishes.

Valerie68 - Thanks for the encouraging words. You're right we will both be in the lucky 30-35%

Hoping and Jharris- Fingers crossed on your 2ww.

To anyone else I missed I hope everything is going well.

[Rosario]

Went to my appt today. I did have a very rought day. To make everything short, i no longer have coverage for my IVF meds. I still need to be on them for the next 3-5 days and its costing me $240 for each 300iu my total for 3 days is $1440. I thank god my father is helping me out as much as he can. With god watching over me i hope he helps us out until the very end and bless us with a wonderful baby. My largest follicles are measuring 12 and 10. I dont know much about sizes but i hope its good. He did say he has me on an aggresive dosage due to the small amount of ovaries i have left. I am a slow responder but its getting me somewhere. Sometime next week i assume will be ER?!?! My e2 levels went from 115 sat to 376 yesterday. I dont know about those numbers but praying its good as well. Oh yea by the way I will be starting Ganirelix tomorrow night.

Questions since now i am paying my meds how much will the hcg, and the progesterone be? How much do you guys pay on average?

[valerie68]

Hello, hello...how is everybody doing?

Bell-02~ I'm so sorry but I had totally missed your post this morning. I was in a bit of a hurry.
Keep your PMA going, shut out all the bad thoughts that enter your mind because they don't do you any good. We are here to help you and make you feel better during this journey. It is so tough what we are doing, we are strong women and even stronger because of all the support we provide each other. So keep talking to us and we'll listen and offer support, encouragement and a shoulder to cry on.

Amanda~I'm sorry you have so many issues to consider and I really hope this is your time. Lots of good follies is what you need! Congrats on starting your stims, that's always exciting!

SueQiwi~ It says in your signature that you have high FSH. Can I ask you what your number is. I'm at 10 on this last test. Not good, not bad as I only have one ovary. Last cycle it was 9.6, so it's about the same and I've been told that it fluctuates.

Kate~ That's great that you got to babysit a 4 month old. They are so cute. It's funny, but I get jealous of pregnant women but put me in front of a baby or a kid and I have to talk to them, smile, play with them. I've been trying to adopt a friend's little girl (I'm kidding, not for real but if she needed a Mommy, I'd be the first one to volunteer). I adore her and since she was a baby, we have been drawn to each other. She was always stuck to me whenever we saw each other. She is now 9 and we still love each other.
You will get your own too soon!!

MzTia~ AF can sometimes show up a little later after an IVF cycle. Don't worry, it will come. Your body is just regulating itself.
PMA for you too, it will work out. Not as fast as we would like but in its own time it will.

JJJake~ How are you feeling emotionally? I know it's hard to swallow. The little cyst is getting smaller and smaller as we speak. Better to have found it now than while doing your stims!

Rosario~ How are your E2 numbers doing. I know you have lots of follies and should be close to triggering. Let us know how you're progressing. ( Checked the thread in the meantime and saw your post. Meds are expensive. I used Novarel as a trigger and cost me $50.00. The Ganirelix cost $85.00. I hope it all works out for you!!!)

Babycrazy~ Hope the stims are going well and looking forward to your first report.

to_have_fun~ How have you been? Starting stims with me real soon!

Karen~ Hoping that you're having a wonderful and relaxing mini vacation! We miss you though!

As for me, I did not feel very good at all today. My stomach did not feel good, lots of bloating and burping. Don't know where it's coming from. I'm hungry and yet eating just hurts afterwards. I will call my nurse and see if I might be allergic to my pills. Something is not quite right. Already bloating and I'm not even on the stims yet!!!

The heat won't let up. I try to ignore it and enjoy the free sauna I get every day. It takes me about a month every year to get adjusted to the heat, it's like my body slows down to be able to cope with it.
Well, more of the same tomorrow and get some more done before I get pregnant!

Have a good night or a good day depending on where you are!!!

Much love ...

Val

[bell-02]

Hello,
JDC, I'm so glad that your still in the game! I bet you'll end up with 4!!

Rosario, so sorry to hear about your insurance. I did a lot of shopping around for our drugs and found that HCG costs ranged from $21-80 and the progesterone oil ranged $27-80 per vial. I hope that helps.

I forgot to tell you guys that I've been giving myself my Lupron shots this time around. DH gave me all of my shots last time. But I'm going out of town this next weekend for a long girl's weekend so, while some of them were kind enough to offer to give me my shots, I really wanted to try to do it on my own. And so far so good

[hoping4amiracle]

Thanks for all the welcomes everyone! And those of you in the process, you are in my thoughts, it's exciting to hear your progress. I was supposed to start meds last Sunday, but they didn't arrive in time, but AF came early even on birth control. So the RE said to push meds back a week, so this week I am doing another week of straight pills, then starting the Lupron/pill combo on 8/3. The box of meds came yesterday, all the meds in one box, it's a big box, a little overwhelming, trying to remember all the instructions! But I'll ask lots of questions so I don't mess anything up! DH and I went looking at new cars yesterday, mine is getting high in miles, but vehicles are so expensive, I think instead of being exciting it was stressful. As much as I like to stay busy, maybe starting meds and buying a new car at the same time is not a good idea mentally!

Hang in there everyone who is waiting! Sending happy thoughts your way!

[JDC]

You guys were right! I went for u/s this morning and I have 4 follies ALL in range! Yeah! So I will have my ER on friday and ET monday. We are doing icsi this time so I'm hoping my embryos are normal this time. Last time my eggs let in too many sperms. It all actually works out perfect because I'm already scheduled for AP monday and wednesday evenings. Thank you so much for all the encouragement because I was really feeling beaten, but you guys helped me keep my hope alive......BFP here I come.

[valerie68]

JDC~ Wonderful, fantastic news!! 4 follies is very good and I know you can get a BFP! ICSI works really well especially if you have a good embryologist! You're going to make beautiful embies...
I'm so happy for you that it's all working out! I'm starting next week and soon will be joining all of you!

I've been having like visions, feelings more and more that I'm going to be pregnant. They are like flashes that last 3 seconds but they are vivid. I hope I'm right. My cousin also had a flash and saw both of us in an airport ( Miami or Brussels...didn't talk to the people and could not determine if it was French or English ) with or babies in our arms. Made me cry when I read that. Do you girls get flashes like that too?

Off to work I go...Hope all of you are doing well and will catch you later.

Have a marvelous day!!

Val

[to_have_fun08]

JCD – YEAH!!!! I am so happy that you will make it to ER. I noticed that your last cycle was canceled. Was it canceled due to you not having an adequate amount of follies?

MzTia – I will jump around and do the AF dance for you so she will come and visit.

Amber – Welcome to the group. I should be having ER around the same time as you are. It all depends on when AF comes after I stop BCP’s next week.

Valerie – Hope you are staying cool. I love being outside but when it is really hot I am glad I can be in the AC for my job. I live in the Midwest so we get into the 90’s most of the days and we have so much humidity. Yesterday was really bad. I am also going to try and take your advice for kicking out all the bad thoughts. My husband the other day even said I had a bad attitude. I guess I do sometimes. It is hard to think positive thoughts all the time.
I am also having visions of having twins. The DH and I talked about it and decided that twins would be all right. Get all this stuff done in one shot. Don’t think I will be that lucky but heck I am thinking positive so Twins it is.

Rosario – Sorry your meds are not covered under your insurance. I have two insurance plans, one is under my employer the other is under my husbands. With that I am lucky that his plan covers 50% of the drugs. My plan doesn’t cover any. I still have spent plenty of $$$ on drugs.


Hopinginpa - I forgot when is your Beta? Have you POAS yet?

Jharris - Don’t worry you will get your BFP. Of course you have to seeing that your Beta is on my B-day. It will be 8-8-08 so it has to be a lucky day. So are you going to POAS? I am a POAS aholic.

bell-02 – Congrats on taking your own shots. I have always done mine on my own, even the PIO. It isn’t that I don’t trust DH but I just don’t want to have to depend on him to give me them. It just makes everything a little easier for me. Plus, he was acting like a wimp and didn’t really want to give me the shots anyway.


hoping4amiracle - What is your schedule? You start lupron/pill on 8/3, when will they have you starting stims? Buying a new car is really stressful. I got a Diesel Jetta a couple of months ago. I was driving a Jeep Liberty but I only got like 17 MPG and I was spending all my money on gas. The Jetta gets 45 MPG. I knew I needed another car because I drive 70 miles a day for work, but I had the Liberty almost paid for so I didn’t want to go more in debt. Plus this whole IVF process is also taxing my bank account. Finally, I just decided to suck it up and get the Jetta. It was really weird because this was the first time I wasn’t excited about the new car. Now I have 5 more years of payments.

Karen and JJake – how are you doing?

I know I missed some folks. Good luck to everyone. Hope everyone has a Happy Hump Day. I can’t wait till it is Friday.

I was just thinking this morning that next Wednesday will be my last day of BCP. By this time in 2 weeks I should be stimming pretty good and on my way to ER. YEAH!!!

Chris

[JDC]

to_have_fun08 Last cycle we did go to ER w/ only 3 follies and we did get 3 mature eggies, 2 fertilized, but they were abnormal and could not be used. So I was actually cancelled after ER if that makes sense.

Val So glad to hear you will be starting next week! I forget what protocol you will be on...will it be antagonist? As far as the visions....I think there is something to them. I've not had any recently or about a pregnancy, but I have had them in my life for things that did actually come true for me.

I wll catch up with everyone else later!

[JDC]

Just realized that in my last post I said I was cancelled before ER but I MEANT ET!!!! Sorry for my confusion.

[karenvancouverisland]

hi all! i'm back from part 1 of my holidays..

JDC- i'm so so happy for you (kinda crying right now). i relate your experience. as i heard your earlier posts i felt the sadness and fear i experienced before, and imagined that's how you were doing...then jubilation!!! miracles happen everyday- so why not now and why not you. just keep reminding yourself- 'stranger things have happened'. go follies go!

to hoping in PA, baby loves, jharris- all on the 2WW.- praying tons for you. take it easy and fill yourself with love.

kas and amanda and hoping for miracle- welcome to the group

babycrazy, kate, rosario..good luck with your stims. rosario- i'm a slow responder also, and sorry to hear about your no med coverage, ours is quickly running out also. not sure what we'll do if it doesn't work this time. babycrazy- wow 18! that's amazing (i'm like the polar opposite of you and i have 2 ovaries unlike some others).

bell. good for you for taking on your own injections- i did that last time also and even though it was scary at first..it was fine and i was glad to not have to rely an someone else and have to coordinate schedules. sorry to hear about your yucky experience with your past coworker. i've ran into lots of situations like that the last couple years and it SUCKS. it hurts like hell.

jake- wtf is right@#!! stupid cyst! doesn't the universe test our patience at times. i'm not sure what to make of that- sometimes i want to think there's some 'deeper' lesson to be learned...but w/e.. let's all hope for it to shrink lightning quick and to believe that god has a plan for you to stim a little later as it will work so much better that way.

val- i'm jealous of your dreaded heat..as soon as our holidays started on saturday, the weather turned to shit. i know a balance is best but i'd take some heat wave for a while instead of this cloudy crap here. i seriously need some sun therapy.

well mztia, and sue- we're the september crowd hey? it's been 8 weeks since my m/c and still no AF. and like you sue, i'll need to have 2 AF's before stimming. i'll start on day 3 after the 2nd AF (no suppression, straight to gonal-F 225 ui 2xday). i was supposed to get my AF 4-6weeks after my m/c so at times, i'm either worried i'm going into early menopause and will never have AF again, or i think 'maybe i'm pregnant'..out of this wishfulness that my issues have magically gone away. so i took a home preg test this am, and negative (but you never know!) i guess i should call my dr. (i said that about 10 days ago too).

hi to muggsey and anyone else i missed.

holidays so far are going ok...weather is disappointing as i find the sun so rejuvenating and it's covered with clouds. didn't have the best time at our friends lake cabin. home for a couple days, then off again and hopeful the rest will be much more fun (and sunny). i'm having a birthday in a few days and feel slightly miserable about it. i don't need to get older!!! didn't god get my memo?!

anyways, all the best to you ladies. hugs karen

[Rosario]

valerie68 Hey my e2 levels went from 115 on sat to 376 on monday. I dont have my lab results in front of me but i think it is somewhere in those numbers. I dont know what they were yesterday. All i know they more than doubled which is a good thing. I find them a little on the low side though oh wells just wishing for the best.

[MzTia]

Hello Ladies,

I hope everyone is doing well. We made it halfay through the week almost the weekend YAY.

JDC- OMG! I just knew there would be 4 and with ICSI that will be 4 beautiful embies. I just can't wait to see how many you get to put back.

Hoping4- I hear ya on the overwhelming med box. It is big isn't it. When I pulled out the PIO needles I started crying. then I realized it was only the prep needle. Well the shots really are a breeze so don't let them scare you. Believe it or not you will look forward to doing them cause then you are doing something.

bell-02- Congrats on doing your shots. I have to do my own for some reason I just can't let my hubby get near me I feel better doing them myself..Well except the PIO that is all him.

Valerie- Uhg I am sorry you aren't feeling well. I do hope hope you get to feeling better fast. Next week how exciting you get to start.

Rosario- I don't have any insurance overage for anything. But my insurance did cover some of my PIO shots because they aren't considered an infertility only med. Maybe you can can get a little help that way. They didn't cover any of my stim drugs though.

HopininPa and Jharris- How goes the wwait? Are you gonna POAS? I am a POAS addict myself. Let us know if you do.

Karen- That is terrible about the weather? Where are you vacationing? DH and I are thinking about a weekend trip taking the Victoria ferry from Seattle. Hoping the weather up there is ok. I just turned 37 myself this month so I think you and I will make for great 37 yr old pregnant women. Summer b-day presents for both of us.

Sue and Karen we are gonna end this thread with big BFP's I just know it.

Well I went to AP last night ans she said she would help with AF and low and behold there she was when I woke up this morning. I think a combination of the AP and to-have-fun's AF dancing brought it along finally. So less then 30 days for me to start stims. I just can't wait. DH has me worried now. Last night he said he was wondering if we were being selfish having a baby now at our age(he is 43) and worries that the kid will have to deal us be a burden when the kid is too young. I just don't know what to say to him it is what it is and we are not too old. I am happy we are the age we are and can provide the life for children that we can now. So I asked him if was gonna withhold his swimmers next month and he said no thank goodness.

Well back to work
Have a great day!!

[karenvancouverisland]

hi mztia.. the weather high here is around 19/20' celcius. it's going to rain friday, and then get better saturday, and go back up to 25' by sun/mon. i'm about 1 1/2 hrs from victoria.

so how i look at what your DH said is that providing he's not seriously roadblocked by those kinds of thoughts- it's great that he says it to you. i find that's what i do here and with my close friends.. say all my crazy thoughts, reservations, and just get it out so that it doesn't rent further space in my head. fear takes our heads to dark places..

well it's noon here and i'm still in my pj's!! i love holidays. ttys. karen

[valerie68]

Good evening!

Rosario~ I must say that your numbers are a bit on the low side. How many follies do you have? What has the RE said? Did you have to increase your meds? What are you taking now? Lots of questions but they all tie together. Keep your PMA going, those numbers can jump real quick and the fact that they tripled is a great sign! Let me know how it goes and I've got my fingers and toes crossed for you!

MzTia~ Glad your AP could help you bring on your AF! One more hurdle you've crossed. This month will go by fast and it will give you time for AP to get you ready for your BFP!

Bell-02~ I always admire people who can give themselves shots! I just graduated from NOT being a needle phobicand I still can't watch when DH does it but I must say that with all the probing and poking, it becomes easier each time. I used to totally freak out at the thought of needles, drawing blood....You have no idea...and when that box of meds arrived the first time....OMG, I started to cry when I saw the needles and finally realized that the biggest ones were for drawing the meds. PHHHH...what a relief that was!
Anyway, I think you're a trooper for doing that!

hoping4a miracle~ You are brave to even look at buying a new car. My head is in baby making mode right now and don't seem to have the room in there to figure out which car to buy. You might also change your mind once you find out you're pregnant.

Karen~ Sorry the weather is not cooperating right now! I tell you what, why don't we switch and you come take care of my job, it's beautiful, relaxing, exhausting and physically demanding while I come and refresh myself in Canada. I would love it. I understand though what it's like to have bad weather!!! Why do you think I escaped from Belgium??? They're having the same kind of weather over there and my Mom is not very happy about it either!
Enjoy your vacation, make the best of what you get and find enjoyment in the days to come!

Muggsey~ So girl, are you about ready to start your stims? It's coming soon! Would love to hear from you!

Babycrazy and Kate~ How are the stims going? Any US performed already? Can't wait to hear your good news!

jharris, hoping and babyloves~ Our 2ww girls...how is it going? I can see those little embie's hands hanging on tight in their new little home. Hoping you are feeling great and not going too crazy during this time.

jenolina~ Are you ok? You are by yourself and wondering how you're holding up!

I'm doing much better than yesterday, didn't take my prenatal this morning and maybe that's what was causing me problems. Been on them for the past 6 months or more! I will take another one in the morning and see what happens.
I'm feeling great, full of energy, very optimistic and ready for stims and a BFP!!
AP is coming again in the morning and I'm so looking forward to that!

JDC~ YEAH!!!! again, I'm really happy for you, and I think I'll join you as far as the number of follies. We could form the 'one functioning ovary support group'

Have a lovely night and will post tomorrow night!

Much love to all

Val