May cycle buddies :)

[kitty_mom]

Hi Ladies

Sophie-My heart is aching for you. Dont be sorry for your "blog being sad" you have every right to feel sad. I'm sad for you I feel that we all joined this group to share in everyone's happy and sad moments. Any time you want to vent I know I'm here to listen.

Rio- I cant beleive the waiting game you are in. But it all sounds like when the wait is over it will be great news!

Lisa32- Hang in there girl. Pamper yourself and rest as much as you can.

My little update is that my E2 is 1405. Got some good follies growing 8 good size ones from 16-22 with multiple on each side catching up. Have to go back in tomorrow for what I hope is the last day of testing. Doc thinks ER will be Tuesday or Wednesday. With my luck it will be Wed since DH has a client coming from out of state late morning that he cant reschedule Oh well my Aunt will have to come with me instead.

Hope you all have a great night.

[purpleFish]

rio - I am so glad you are keeping the PMA! I can't wait until you find out... so I can only imagine how you feel

lisa32 - I am so sorry you have been having a rough time. <hugs> Not knowing and not being able to do anything about it are both so frustrating. Bleeding is especially hard because it could be nothing or it could be something, but there is no real way to know. I think everyone here understands the pain of wanting to have a baby so badly and having to work so hard to make it happen, it is not an easy struggle. Just remember you are strong, you are amazing and and one day you will have a beautiful baby to hold.

EShepard - wonderful new on the follies, you are so close to your ER. Are you nervous? I was freaking out before mine, but it turned out to be not as bad as I though.

kitty - You and EShepard might do ER on the same day. Are you doing a 3 day transfer or 5 day? Your numbers look great!

[PA_FA]

Rio- I am so excited for you to find out. Those silly scatterbrains!

Lisa32- I have been worried about you! Take it very easy and watch some comedies on tv to make you laugh. You are right...we all want the same thing so bad. We DO know how you feel because we have all felt that way. You never have to apologize for a blog being sad. This is such a great way for us to vent and connect.

Sophie- I'm so sorry for what you have gone through and are going through. I truly believe God has a plan for us all. It may not always be evident at first but it's there. (I am not a super religious person but I truly believe this) I hope that you can find happiness and peace.

On a funny note...I went to a friend's bridal shower today. I walk in a 2 of the 3 girls there so far are pregnant. LIKE....about to pop pregnant. I was like...WOAH! What's in the water here???? Can I have some? Have a wonderful weekend all. I'm off to work tomorrow for the last time stress free. I will freak out every time I have to go to work after the ET. UGH.

[pep23]

Hi everybody-
I never thought I would be so anxious for a weekend to be over but my beta is on Tuesday and I am going crazy!! I feel really crampy and my stomach keeps getting upset so I am scared these are PMS symptoms. But when I had my last BFN I don't really remember feelin like this so hopefully that is good news?? It's so hard not to over analyze. I just want to know already!

Rio - What a waiting game they put you through! I can't believe that! But it sounds like BFP so hang in there and hopefully you will get official word soon enough!

Kitty- It sounds like you have some great follies!! I hope your DH can go with you to the ER but as long as someone is there to take you home and wait on you that's all that matters! Does your RE but you under for the procedure? Mine does so I was pretty much out of it right after then just went home and slept most of the day.

Lisa- I'm so sorry you are down but we all understand how you feel. It's so nice to find a group of women that are all going through the same thing. People who get pregnant without any problems can't really know what it feels like to want it so bad and the stress it causes. I hope you can keep the PMA. It sounds like maybe this runs in your family so that is reassuring.

EShephard- Great news on the follies! Good luck this week with ER and ET! Can't wait for an update!

Sophie- Your post made me teary eyed. I know exactly how you feel. I have a a daughter from a previous IVF cycle and we have been trying now for a while (this is our third attempt) to give her a sibling. Sometimes I feel like maybe I"m being too greedy to want another one when I was so blessed with a beautiful baby already. But I also feel like I want so badly for her to have a sibling and someone to grow up with and be best friends with. It sounds like you and DH have had some really good talks and I am sure you will be ok. It's hard right now but you are so strong after everything you have been through and such an inspiration for all of us! ((HUGS))

bei - Thanks so much for the updates and keeping track of all us! How are your stims coming? Are you doing ok with the meds?

Rypell- I can't believe your clinic expects AF to start on a specific day! Fingers crossed that it all works to the plan and you can move along with this cycle!

PA- I am so glad that you ended up getting the stroy straight! I am hoping those eggs mature!! Hopefully those girls at the bridal shower rubbed off some baby dust on you!

Well ladies I am going to go try to stay busy on this sunny HOT Sunday!

Pep

[lisa32]

Hi Everyone,

Thanks so much for the positive fed back but PA_FA you are sweet there is no need to worry ill be ok just gotta go with it hey there is nothing i can do about the bleeding which is still ongoing but who knows what will happen maybe it is in the family jeans and ill be the same or it will be a BFN nothing I can do to change it. Yes today feeling ok im out to a 1yr old b-day and will be sitting down the whole time so that should be fun. I think ill have to go back to work tomorrow if im still bleeding then thats the way it is untill thurs morning when I do the test. At least I know if I am on a high or low I can speak to you guys. Love ya loads thanks lots and lots ill keep you posted. xxxx

[kitty_mom]

Hi Ladies
Pep- to answer your question yes I will be under during my ER. It's a "twilight anestisia" so I don’t feel groggy at all afterwards. My ER will be Wednesday was so hoping that it was going to be Tuesday but what can you do. So my DH cant be there with me but my Aunt will so all is good. Of course I would have liked him there but what can you do.
I was so sure that RE was going to tell me to stop stimming today. I have a 25, 24 and 22 and then 19 follies between 16-19. I just hope that the 3 lead follies make it and if they don’t I hope the others catch up by Wednesday.
Has anyone used Vivelle patches before? Anything I should anticipate? After ER I will be using the Vivelle and Progesterone Suppositories.
Sorry to sound whiny. How’s everyone else doing today?

[riogirl71]

I had an hour of bliss just to get slapped in the face. When I got there she said she did forget to call me on Friday because she thought it was my 1st beta not second. So she said my first beta was 33 and second was 57 so they congratulated me and we were happy with our BFP. An hour later she called and said that the test we did today, our numbers did not increase at all. So we are quite devastated that this is likely a chemical pregnancy. We have no frosties and I don't know how we can afford another fresh cycle. So I know it is not over until the fat lady sings but I am pretty devastated. To have our blessing only to get it taken away.

I will do personals later, I just feel like crying my eyes out right now.

[lisadcb]

Rio - My heart goes out to you. I was really thought that it would work out for you. Are you going to have another beta, just to make sure? I hope you find the financial resources to try again. I know this will be our last cycle because we took out a loan to pay for it, and it would be nearly impossible to take out another one! I wish this process wasn't so expensive, or else many of us would be willing to do as many cycles at it took to fulfill our dreams. This board doesn't seem to have too much good news and I am really glad that we have each other to lean on.

AFM - with all the heartache and disappointment that this thread has been having, it makes me feel more anxious about the results of my cycle. We just got our stimming meds in the mail yesterday and I keep think that it is going to end up being a waste of ALOT of money (since we are self-paid and insurance covers nothing for ivf). But as nervous as I am about it failing, I know that I must do this, because I don't want to have any regrets ten years from now wondering if it might have worked. I think paying back the loan for the next ten years will be better than a lifetime of "what ifs."

[riogirl71]

He didn't say to stop meds or anything and I have another beta on Tuesday, so I still have a sliver of hope that either they screwed up again or that somehow another one implanted and didn't take but we still have one. Strange things have happened and I have seen all kinds of things on this board so, who knows right? On my last cycle one girl had a 7 beta, doc said to stop meds, she did and then later found out she was preggers with twins! So I will wait until Tuesday but I am of course sobbing. Thank you again for all of your support!

[rypell1985]

Rio, I am so, so sorry. I hope your sliver of hope pulls through for you on Tuesday.

AF came today!!! I will call the office tomorrow morning and PRAY that I can star stims Thursday...any of you start stims on day 4 of AF? Otherwise they will put me on BCP and probably hold me over until the following Thursday. Wish me luck!!

[purpleFish]

rio - I am so sorry, what a rough day. <hugs> I am hoping so much that your next beta is higher.

lisadcb - keep up a PMA, good things can happen through IVF! I also decided to do a cycle because I knew if I didn't I would have regretted it.

kitty - everything looks great for you. I was nervous about the twilight anesthesia, but it turned out to be no big deal. They also gave me a valium that day... which was super awesome As long as you have someone you like with you it will be great. The progesterone suppositories are okay. There are a few different kinds, I like the soft compounded on over the capsules, they seem to irritate me less. I would also suggest having some panty liners, they have a tendency to leak a bit.

rypell - I am crossing my fingers for you!


I started progesterone suppositories in addition the the oil, I feel like it is a lot of progesterone, but it is standard for our clinic and my numbers weren't high.

[bei]

quick update

Hi ladies hope u all doing great im so sick right now i m throwing up like 3 times a day the minite i take metforming it make me to thru up i cant handle it i m gonna talk to my re tomorrow i was fine when i was taking twice a day now i m taling 3 times a day it does help i will talk to u later i m getting sick more bye talk to u soon whenever i feel litel batter

[TammyS]

He didn't say to stop meds or anything and I have another beta on Tuesday, so I still have a sliver of hope that either they screwed up again or that somehow another one implanted and didn't take but we still have one. Strange things have happened and I have seen all kinds of things on this board so, who knows right? On my last cycle one girl had a 7 beta, doc said to stop meds, she did and then later found out she was preggers with twins! So I will wait until Tuesday but I am of course sobbing. Thank you again for all of your support!

Rio..I left you some info on your other post...which I really dont think you will even need. You are most likely right...it was probably twins and you still have one strong healthy one growing. Keep the PMA honey. Like you said, Corny is not the only one I have read about on these boards...it has happened to several girls...I am praying for you. Please dont give up yet and dont stop the meds! PM me if you want to talk...I am on vacation, but checking in here and there. Please keep me posted. Big Hugs.

[pep23]

Well I just wrote a nice long post and then when I tried to submit it there was a Network error. Annoying!

Rio- I am still hopeful that everythign will turn out ok for you! I am sorry you have had to go through all this waiting and wondering. When do you get your third beta results? Tomorrow?

bei- I can't believe how sick you are. ((HUGS)) I really hope you can talk to your RE and get an alternative or something to make you feel better soon!

rypell- Who ever thought you'd be so happy to see AF?! I was not able to start my stims that early but every clinic has different protocol. Hopefully you can get the green light this week and then full steam ahead!

lisacb- I know exactly how you feel about being frustrated with all the money and stress we go through and there is no guarantee. We are in the same boat with insurance covering nothing and we spent around $20k to get our DD but ever since I got that BFP I never thought about it again. I keep reminding myself of that this time around because we have already had two failed attempts. Like you said it's better to keep trying and have no regrets and some day it will all be worth it!

kitty- Those are great follies! I've never been on Vivelle. I'm on the progesterone suppositories 3x a day right now. They are messy but not too bad.

AFM- Well I am feeling really emotional and stressed. I keep cramping and have a lower back ache and I feel exactly like I do before AF comes. I just keep trying to stay positive and hopeful. I can't decide if I should POAS tomorrow AM before I go into the clinic so I can be prepared. I get the news at work tomorrow afternoon and I am worried since I am having all these symptoms that it may be a BFN and I don't want to cry at my desk if it is. But part of me is scared to death and just wants to believe I am pregnant for as long as possible. I don't know what to do!!! I'm going crazy over here girls

[riogirl71]

bei - I hope you feel better!
pep23 - thank you sweetie! I hope you get a BFP tomorrow!!! As hard as it is, wait for the clinic, too many false results sometimes... but if you take it with a grain of salt then by all means POAS!!!
Tammy - I will send you a PM - you are such a sweetheart!