Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[blueeyedreamer]

Christy- I feel your pain. The other day I was in the middle of typing and my iPod crashed. Totally sucked!

Patricia- I hate dominating people. I hope your partner works out. Congrats on the 2 lbs!

[leorira11]

I forgot to set my alarm clock for earlier so I could do blood tests before work on Thursday! Darn!

In any case, I'll do the RPL additional blood tests on Sunday morning and a SnS on Monday to decide if we are going ahead with the hysteroscopy on Wednesday.

After some "fun" last night, I started bleeding - bright red. I went to sleep and this morning it's just brown spotting. But hopefullly this is the miscarriage ending and I won't need the hysteroscopy!

2 weeks from today until vacation!

[Alwaysangel]

Thanks Ladies for the support!! Im having a really hard time. I think that doing lovenox and pgd i thought my chances were higher! The bad news started 3 days after the er when the numbers tanked! This is when the stress began, it was down hill ever since! I dont know what else to do to increase my odds. Well hopefully monday will tell if i need a d&c or not. Ugh!

[WeHaveHope]

Alwaysangel-oh hon I am so sorry. I wish there was something I could do to take away you pain. I know it's hard to look ahead Noe so take your time. Please don't loose hope, miracles do happen.

Ladies, more personals later. I am on my way to work.

Unfortunately, I had some bleeding yesterday but I didn't panic. I also have a sinus infection and was put in antibiotics yesterday. The antibiotics really dis a number on my stomach last night. I went today for my last u/s with my RE. We have officially graduated to OB. First official OB appt in 2 weeks. I'm so sad though because I love everyone there. Well, both LO's are measuring right on track. Here are some pics. You can actualy see the blood between thetwo sacs in the pics below.

[Sunshine1576]

We,
What a great ultrasound pix of the twins! I cannot wait to find out if you're having girls or boys OR maybe one flavor of each! You could throw a gender revealing party like we've seen our former cycle buddies do over on the PAT board...Keep up the good work, Mama Maria!

Gina,
I wish your husband the best with his first retirement, lol you could throw him a party! (ok we REALLY need a party, I keep bringing up someone please throw one and bake some cupcakes I do have a terrible sweet-tooth right now. )

Leora,
I oversleep to, woke up at 10 I'm so bad. Next week with all morning shifts is going to kick my butt! I hope AF does come this weekend so you don't have to worry about the laproscopic surgery. I would never want to go through again, the laxative they make you drink, ugh and the night before my surgery dh got us a nice hotel, but all I remember was the bathroom.

Alwaysangel,
Yes, I'm keeping you in my prayers too, I really don't want you to have to go through surgery either. I remember it being a painless procedure but it's so emotional isn't it? Within some time I hope you'll be able to put everything behind us and start trying again and when you do I'll be one of your biggest cheerleaders here! I still believe in our miracle happpening when we least expect it. x

blueeyedreamer,
I hope you're feeling better soon girl, new running shoes will certainly cheer anyone up, keep up the good workout girl! I wish I could answer your question... Have you tried seeing what your RE thinks about the calorie intake? It does energize us and uplifts our spirit. Working out also helps circulate blood throughout the uterus. I personally love yoga and found it helps me sleep better at night. Beth Riley, who wrote "Your Personal Path to Pregnancy" sent out her readers a link to download free relaxation music! I'll post it here, but let me know if it doesn't come up on your browser. http://www.meditationoasis.com/podcast/listen-topodcast.

Ninde,
So what happened with the personal fitness trainer? I hope you have a more catered workout program and the hip injury is heeling up. You asked if I think I might be pg? I have been so stressed this month with my cycle, testing negative and falling back to sleep to dream the test turned positive. I want this so much that I think my body has delayed aunt flow... I remember 2 years ago in Feb 2010 we were pregannt and lost the baby a short time later. Ironically last night dh reminded me I was also late last year in Feb 2011 as we drove up to Georgia for a wedding. Hmmm, I never put the two consequences together until now. Who knows but then there's the stress of knowing we only have two natural cycles until IVF treatment starts. Maybe, we're being skeptical after all we've been through, but at least not blinded. I feel IVF this time will be a breeze compared to the first fun episode of fear when the baby box first arrived and all the meds seemed overwhelming. Nope this one will be a breeze and there is no turning back!

adkelp,
Sounds frustrating, they really should have a clause in the contract that if the eggs are compromised in the lab, the patient can decide. Maybe I'm not undertanding that whole situation but wouldn't they examine the embryo quality to check it's grade before ET. Still I think the patient should have the right to decide on starting over. How many frozen embryos do you have right now and remind me when is your transfer for FET scheduled? I wishing you the very best outcome!

AFM:
Going to clean house and then meet dh out for dinner tonight. He won a gift card from a drawing at work to one of our fav seafood spots called Uncle Ernie's. Next weekend is the the Jerry Seinfield Concert down here and then the weekend after that is Mardi Gras and Mich wants to attend a screenplay "The Goodbye" written by Michael Lister- a local here in Panama City.

Here is a brief outline of the story...keep in mind Panama City is a military-based town with so much history...
Someone is following Lauren Lewis. She ducks into the office of PI Jimmy "Soldier" Riley, not to hire him, but to find out if he's the one following her. Back when they were lovers he told her if he ever decided to, she'd never know he was there. It's 1940s Panama City, Florida. The world is at war, and the growing panhandle paradise is doing its part. Tyndall Field is training pilots. Wainwright Shipyard is building battleships. The Naval Section Base is protecting vessels in the Gulf. The Dixie Sherman Hotel is hosting celebrities such as Clark Gable. Harry Lewis, a wealthy banker, is running for mayor, unaware his wife is running for her life. With a secret to hide and a husband running for mayor in a city exploding and expanding like no other time in history, Lauren doesn't want trouble, but she's about to get a double-barrel full of it. Only one man can help her, and though it might destroy him, he doesn't mind. Better to die than be the walking wounded. The story of a guy, a girl, and a gun, The Big Goodbye is Florida Noir at its finest. "A seductive mix of sudden violence and raw emotion, Michael Lister's THE BIG GOODBYE is a much-welcome contribution to the hardboiled, P.I. tradition. Cool stuff." Victor Gischler, author of GUN MONKEYS and SHOTGUN OPERA "Stylish, retro, and highly entertaining. Michael Lister's PI Jimmy "Soldier" Riley is a compelling new noir hero."

[Gina1976]

Maria- Love the pictures! Adorable!!

Christy- Thank you. We really hope it's approved. Hopefully we'll find out by mid/late March. I'll throw a party anytime I can get a cake or something sweet! Dh and I are always tempted to buy a ready made birthday cake just because lol. He's been making me choc milk shakes lately. They are soo good! Hope you enjoy your dinner! Gift certificates are always nice! I won 10 free movie passes last week and each ticket you get a free med popcorn and drink! Can't beat that!! That screenplay sounds nice! I know you both will enjoy it!

[Ninde]

Evening ladies

Blue: what height are you? Im not sure about the grams of protein you need. Your fat loss is brilliant. And unfortunately not, dh doesn't workout other than taking Bailey out.

Leora: I really hope af has come, it would be great if it has, no surgery, yay

Always: im sorry, after all your pgd and lovenox I can understand your sense of bewilderment. Have you got good support around you?

Maria: amazing photos how are you doing?

Christy: I see my trainer again tomorrow. I tramoolined on wed night and apart from some twinges the hip was quite good im sure the stress of all of this has been very tough on you and I know the body can be so strange at times. Isnt that quite something that these past two februaries you have been late? Im remembering your little one in my thoughts this evening x

Gina: having a sweet tooth is both a blessing and a curse isnt it?!

Lyd: how are you?

Adkelp: any update?

Afm: went to see the musical version of dirth dancing this evening. Noone will ever replace Patrick swayze but the music was great

Ninde

[Gina1976]

Ninde- Yes it is! Dirty Dancing is one of my favorite movies! I'm sure the musical was nice but I agree no one can replace Patrick.

[Sunshine1576]

Gina,
It's so special when something is free. Even popcorn and a drink together would cost us more then the movie tickets, so you take advantage of the theater! Dh is so funny, you remember me saying my mom gave us a Macy's gift card for Christmas? Well since our vacumn cleaner broke I mentioned to dh we could go online and order one and he said nope WalMart would be cheaper and besides do you really want to use the balance of your gift card for a vacumn cleaner? I guess he had a point, but we had already upgraded the George Foreman grill and ordered the carpet steamer so I guess I was thinking economically. Deep down I whether hang onto to for something better like baby stuff! Thankfully the card doesn't expire.

Ninde,
How fun, I LOVE Patrick Swayze! It's so good to get a break away from a stressful job, I hope you have a better upcoming week and I'm glad to hear your hip is doing better. Trampolining sounds like a fun workout, have you ever tried zumba? Keep us posted on how the training session goes tomorrow.

AFM: Throughly enjoyed last night, I got to the restaurant earlier then dh (since he was meeting me there after work). Since it was a beautiful night he called and said why don't we eat outside outside, so I got us a table for two out near the marina/boats. I felt lucky since eachtime before the best tables there were usually taken. Tonight a guitarist was playing so as gazed out at the rocks along the shore of the water and listened to the tunes, dh and I talked about our day. He asked what was in my hair and I said an orchard from the silk flowers you gave me on our 8th anniversary, he really like that. I ordered the mahi-mahi displayed with strawberries and mango. He had the grilled grouper with a bud light, he said normally it's water but tonight with the gift card I'm treating myself, I must of smiled so big. When the waitness came back to ask if we would like dessert. I said tell me more...and when dh heard keylime pie, he was like oh my! He turned to me to make the final call and I said well we have ice-cream at home and I was planning on making cupcakes this weekend. He was like but you are going to hurt this waitresses feelings, she probably spent all day in the kitchen working on keylime pie. We all laughed and he said ok do you mind if we come back for the check after we get back from a walk on the pier, she said no problem. AS we were walking along the marina, he said I wonder how many customers jump in with the sharks to avoid paying the bill...I just laughed and said how would they ever survive the sharks though. lol Well when we got back to our table our waitress had a piece of keylime pie all wrapped up for us. I smiled and said welll here's your pie honey.

So after we left the restaurant I mentioned we needed to run by Sam's for a case of bottled water and then GNC for my CoQ10 since I'm liable to start my cycle any day. Dh commented teasingly is tonight a date or are we out running errands? So when we got to GNC I purchased two bottles (4 months worth) of COQ10 since they were running a special and my thought was $10 a month for CoQ10 is not bad when it's all broken down. When we got to Sam's nobody was hardly there, I got my case of water and we checked out the big screen TVs (our usual routine every time we go). This morning Dh put the case of water in my trunk so I can always have water "to go" as I'm trying to do better with drinking more water... Well I'm rambling alot and better get my tale ready for work, a little jealous since dh is off today and it's 73 degrees so he's going to get the garden cleaned out to start planting season. He loves playing out in the dirt but gardening is a such a good hobby for him. I call it therapy and we'll go out there together to check on the crops where it feels gratifying and rewarding to watch the seeds grow into something more.

[Gina1976]

Christy- Yep I'd def save it for baby clothes! You can have a shopping spree Your night with DH sounded so wonderful!! I could picture it all just reading it. I'm glad you both had a great night and enjoyed yourselves! Key Lime pie sounds so good right now lol. I love my date nights with DH and we try at least twice a month to do that. Your weather sounds really nice! I'm so ready for just some Spring weather! It's 4 degrees right now. Too cold!

[Sunshine1576]

Gina,
I know you cannot wait to get back in the states, and I hope everything gets approved soon with his retirement and you can surprise him with that cake! It's unusually warm weather for us, even the Canadians (our snowbirds) are commenting on it! Tonight was truly a heartwarming evening at work. One of our customers kept putting things back and another lady commented but you looked so beautiful in that fur coat, why are you putting it back, you need it, she really wanted her to really have this coat so as she was leaving my customer slipped me a $20 bill to give her. It melted my heart and I'll never forget her kindness. Then another customer came in and we commented on how cute her 7 yr old daughter was and how she favored her mom so much. "Briana" was really into fashion and helping her mom pick out clothes and she would run back and forth from the dressing room to the salesfloor to bring he mom sizes she need, she was so cute! Well as her mom got ready to checkout, she told us Briana is her angel, her foster child and she's in the process of adopting her. She said I always to tell others though when Briana isn't around, and right there my heart melted. As we were getting ready to close the store down, one of my favorite customers callled to stop in "for last minute" items she needed for her cruise. She had cleaned out her wallet so much that she said she left most of her credit cards at home, so one of my coworkers offered to pay the difference for her. Well as she looked back into her purse she found another other credit card and a single check. I have never seen or heard so many kind things happening in one day in my whole life, good people do exist in this world!

[leorira11]

I'm feeling sick about my SnS tomorrow. Nerves are making me feel physically ill.

More bleeding after sex last night... I'm really really hoping this is it.

Weekend was fun - but being around a couple and their 15 month old daughter and another couple with their 4 month old daughter (same age as the boys should be) was really hard. I smiled all weekend, and cried the whole way home. Why does this have to be so hard?

[leorira11]

btw - I found Coq10 (or whatever it's called) in the drugstore on 50% sale -- 60 pills for 60nis (~$18 USA) -- worth it? How long do I have to take it to make a difference? Should I be taking it, or my husband, or both? If we assume my egg quality is fine, is it worth it?

[Alwaysangel]

We- congrats!! Im so happy for you !!! What did u do differently this time???

Leor- i was thinging about the same thing. I am going to ask my re when we meet. Good luck tomorrow!

Afm- thanks everyone for the support!!! My dh has been great! Not feeling so hot this morning. With my beta so low will i still actually pass everything like i did last time with the help of the not so nice cytotec!! Bw tomorrow to check beta to see what the plan is to end this round!!! I will be scheduling consult with re to discuss:

- coq10 will it help?
- has egg quality been the barrier??
-massages during tx?
-what else is there to try???? Running out of option!
-is it likely me, the eggs, or the sperm that is the barrier?
Any other thoughts????

[WeHaveHope]

Leora-I'm sp sorry things have been so difficult for you. This journey is Rarely an easy in but you have had it really tough. I am praying for you so hard that your Beta finally gets to zero and that you can start trying again. I ray that this time you are able to have your dream fulfilled.

Sunshine-your date with DH sounds fantastic. Thank you for sharing. How is everything else going?

Gina-I am praying that your DH is approved for his retirement. How much longer do you need to wait to know if he was approved?

Blue-how are you doing?

Alwaysangel-I am keeping you in my prayers. Hopefuly your Beta will drop quickly and you can put this cycle behind. In thinking back about what was dine differently, it's really hard to tell. each cycle has been do different and when I think about it, we got pregnant with twins with the lowest quality embies we had. All of our other cycles were with higher quality embies so it's really hard to tell. I can tell you that after my last MC DH and I decided that we wanted a D&C. We had read some studies that showed that starting off with a fresh lining helps with implantation. I was also pit on the Lovenox which I know you were a's well this time. The only difference is that I began using the Lovenox when I got my first positive HPT. During the D&C I insisted on my RE doing an endometrial biopsy. I had also read that this promotes implantation. I also just wanted to make sure that there wasn't anything going on with my uterus like endometriosis. Last cycle and this cycle I was also taking higher doses of folic acid. The suggested dose is 400mcg to 800mcg but I've been taking 1000mcg with is the equivalent to 1mg. This cycle and last cycle I also did the progesterone in oil injections instead of the vaginal suppositories. I know that all of the research shows that they both work effectively however you can't measure the amount of progesterone that is being absorbed when using the suppositories. For example, with the last two cycles when I went for my Beta they also did a progesterone level because I was on the injections. Both times my RE found that my progesterone level was on the low side and increased the amount of progesterone I needed to inject. I wish I could tell you that one or all of these things contributed to my embies implanting and growing but I really don't know. IDE like to think so but only God knows why this time and not all the other times. I will continue to pray for you.

Ninde-how are you feeling?

More personals later. AFM-I have been feeling very nauseous. It has gotten slightly better in the past two days so hopefuly I am in my easy to feeling better and being able to actually enjoy this pregnancy. We ended up changing our June cruise to March. My RE says it's perfectly fine and to go enjoy myself. He said the nausea shoul be better by then so hopefuly I will be able to have a good time with DH and the kids. We have told everyone about the pregnancy except I've chosen to not tell people at work just yet. Maybe this coming week. DH is sobexcited. He talks to the babies everyday. He wake up in the morning gives me a kiss and says let me talk to the babies. Then he pulls up my shirt and talks to them and tells then how much he loves them and that he can't wait to hold them. I love him soooooooo much. Well more personals a little later I need to put something in my stomach before the nausea starts again. Sending you all much love.