Cycle buddies in March/April anyone?

nicaliw · Post by **nicaliw** » Fri Apr 04, 2008 7:25 pm

Hi everyone,

ann d......I can completely relate to the agony of just waiting to see if you're still pregnant. I'm thinking of you and I truly hope your numbers start climbing....fast.

suzhan.....so sorry about your news, too. You're in such a tough place right now, too and my thouhts are with you.

neffi.....still thinking of you, too. Hang in there, it can only get better.

I don't have great news either....sorry to add to the gloom. My lining is not co-operating for my FET. On saturday my lining wasn't quite thick enough so they added more estrogen and delayed the FET date by 10 days. Then today my lining had actually gotten thinner instead of thicker! And, to make things worse, there is a cyst or something in my lining!?!? No-one could really tell me what is was and no-ine has told me yet was the plan is. So, I'm assuming they'll cancel this cycle. I'm so dissappointed, I couldn't wait to leave the office so I could cry.

ann d. · Post by **ann d.** » Fri Apr 04, 2008 8:57 pm

Nicaliw... I'm so sorry to hear about the lining. It's okay to cry... even if it is for a few days. I can relate to the wanting to get out of the office so you could start crying. I did the same thing this morning before I got my results. I was on my way out and this other patient was leaving as well and was singing and whistling as happy as can be. I started tearing up because I thought, "I want to be as happy as she is, but I don't think I can." It was a horrible experience. On the way to my car I started letting my tears really come out. I quickly jumped in and drove away crying horribly on the way home. It felt good afterwards. Do you know how hard it is to cry and drive at the same time?? I'm not saying I'm done with the tears, but I feel a little better about letting it out. I hope you can start healing soon Nicaliw. If my numbers are not what they should be, I think we're trying again in the summer, depending what my RE recommends. When you start feeling a little better, let us know how you're doing and what your future plans are.

Hugs,
Ann

Neffi211 · Post by **Neffi211** » Fri Apr 04, 2008 9:36 pm

Suzhan-- My heart is breaking for you! I am so sorry to hear your news! Take time to heal! We are here for you!

Ann d-- what were the numbers? They sa y 60% so you should be at 102. I am so happy they went up! But the waiting must be torture! Monday will be here soon....I so hope this works out for you!!!

Well I did okay today, a couple tears this morning, but overall okay. I am always the worst in the morning. Im a little pissed today, I was figuring a timeline for my next cycle, and its going to screw up my vacation at the beach for memorial day weekend!

angram · Post by **angram** » Fri Apr 04, 2008 10:01 pm

Suzhan - I'm so sorry to hear your news, this is such a horrible thing to have to deal with. We're all here for you.

ann d. - Well your number is still climbing, so I'm praying for a much higher number again on Monday!

nicaliw - I'll keep my fingers crossed that they do not have to cancel your cycle. Good luck!

I think crying really helps us heal and allows us to let out the pain that we seem to trap inside. We've all been through so much and have each traveled such a long road, I'm praying that every one of us are blessed with beautiful babies in the end, it's well deserved.

angram · Post by **angram** » Fri Apr 04, 2008 10:04 pm

Neffi - Isn't that always the case, we've had to schedule more trips and family time around our damn fertility schedule for the past 2 years! Other than normal stress fertility treatment causes, putting our lives on hold has been very difficult as well. My DH is so ready to have a baby and I keep telling him he only thinks things are difficult now

J&C · Post by **J&C** » Sat Apr 05, 2008 3:32 am

ann - I'm so sorry that your #'s aren't doubling. I am praying for a miracle for you come Monday. I have a 9 year old fur-baby too...Maggie. She's my pride and joy.

angram - I can't wait to hear your BFP on Monday!

suzhan - I am so sorry. I can't imagine having to wait for a m/c.

neffi - I'm still thinking about you. ((HUGS))

nicaliw - Man, that lining sure isn't cooperating. Any idea on what your RE will do next? Surely they can do something to kick it in gear. It's definitely a good thing to cry. I've cried approaching the RE's office, leaving the RE's office. Cried the minute I got in my car at work (I SOOOOOO hate dealing with this at work!!!!) Ugh!

Everyone try to enjoy the weekend ahead!

Neffi211 · Post by **Neffi211** » Sat Apr 05, 2008 2:44 pm

Hey Ladies

Happy Saturday. Nicaliw-- what is up? Im sooo sorry to hear about your lining! I cant believe they cant do anything to help it along. When will you know for sure?

Ann d-- I hope you keep yourself busy this weekend. I cant imagine the torture you are going through with more waiting! Stay strong.

Suzhan-- how are you doing? We are here for you!

J&C-- how are you feeling mama?

Ang-- beta is soon!

As for me....well Im still sad, but time is doing what it should I guess. It just depends on the day. I started spotting this morning. So AF should be here soon. I am kinda surprised it is here already, my RE said it may be awhile becasue of the chemical pregnancy. But I think my HCG had been dropping for awhile before I had my beta since I got my positive 6 days before I ever went. Im avoiding people this weekend, I dont have it in me to hang out with my best freind who is 21 weeks today. She found out she was having a girl this week. I also got an invitation to a baby shower for DH's cousins wife.....I dont think I'll be able to make it

Have a good day...talk to you soon

nicaliw · Post by **nicaliw** » Sat Apr 05, 2008 4:43 pm

Hi ladies!

neffi, I'm sorry this happened to you. When do you think you'll move onto your next attempt?

Well, a little update on me. After stressing and crying all day my nurse finally called back at about 5.30 and said the doctor doesn't want to give up on this cycle just yet. He wants to add more estrogen (my E2 level was plenty high enough, but I guess my body needs more) and recheck the lining in one more week. I'm feeling quite happy with this. I feel like the accupuncture and the extra hormones should make all the difference. So fingers crossed that my lining does what it needs to do over the next few days. Oh, on the subject of accupuncture......it was soooooo relaxing. If you've not tried it, I highly recommend it, I still feel relaxed and I'm normally quite an anxious person.

I better get back to work. Have a good weekend everyone. Do what you need to do to stay sane!

nikki

Neffi211 · Post by **Neffi211** » Sun Apr 06, 2008 11:18 pm

Hey Ladies--

I was going crazy with the website being down. How is everyone doing? AF arrived today, and she is horrible! My cramps are soooo bad, and its really heavy. Mine is usually pretty easy, but RE said this could happen. I am happy that it came because they said it may take another week, so now I possibly wont miss my vacation for memorial day weekend. I start BCP tonight. On top of that, I am sick AGAIN! sore throat and cough....Im popping mucinex like crazy.

Ann d-- Im praying for your numbers to sky rocket!

Nicaliw-- hope your lining looks better, when are you going back?

J&C-- isnt your ultrasound this week??

Irish hope-- where are you? Hope your doing okay!

Ang-- when is your beta?

Suzhan-- how are you holding up?/
I am really mad that its Sunday night~ I really dont want to work this week. Plus I work Saturday also so 6 days! Yuck! I hope I fell better tomorrow. I slept alot today!

angram · Post by **angram** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 2:22 am

Hi ladies...well AF arrived this morning, which was incredibly surprising and dissapointing. My cramps have been really bad (they're usually bad, but meds aren't helping), and it's overall a very light AF. I go in tomorrow morning for my beta, so unless there's a miracle, it's a BFN this time around. I'll keep you all posted, but needless to say I cried most of the day today and am just overall sad.

I hope everyone else had a great weekend and I'll talk to you all soon.

J&C · Post by **J&C** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 12:03 pm

Hey Everyone - Man, the website has been down forever!!! I'll be out for a couple of days. I'm leaving today for a 1 day business trip to Oklahoma City. DH took off work and is going with me, so he can give me the PIO shot. Good grief.

My u/s is on Wednesday, so we're just praying that everything is in the right place and doing well. I'm actually feeling pretty good. I've had a few moments of feeling nauseous, but nothing major, and I'm in the bathroom every hour. Other than that, I don't feel pregnant, so we're just hoping for good news come Wednesday.

I won't post again until after the u/s on Wednesday (we'll get back really late Tuesday night), so hugs and baby dust to everyone.....wherever you are at in the process.

IrishHope · Post by **IrishHope** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 2:31 pm

Hi All - I was on line Saturday but the site was down!

ANGRAM - sorry to hear AF arrived...cry all you want - it is so heartbreaking after going thru all we do...we are hear to listen.

Neffi211 - I'm around haha! AF for me right after my BFN was very very painful - RE said it's normal after a cycle...

Hope everyone else is doing well - I've lost track where everyone is at.

Today is day 30 so AF should arrive but may be 31 or 32 days...ughh Really all that means is I call my nurse to schedule Cycle Day 21 bloodwork to start Lupron if all is ok from the bloodwork - Puerto Rico in 5 days! We cannot wait...but we have to leave our pooch for the first time in a kennel

Neffi211 · Post by **Neffi211** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 8:02 pm

hello all!

I cant wait for this day to be over! It is forever! RE called today, they are switching my meds again for next cycle in May. I started BCP last night. I will have a calendar this week.

Ann d-- I hope you got great news today!!! Cant wait to hear from you!

Irish hope-- You are going to have so much fun on your trip. Hope AF comes soon so you dont have it to long while you're there!

Ang-- So sorry to hear about AF arriving! Stinks that you still have to go in for your beta! Cry! Let it out! Its so much better afterwards!

J&C--have fun in Oklahoma city!!!! Thats so cute that DH is goig withyou!

rlk1 · Post by **rlk1** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 9:25 pm

Hi all-

Wow, I've missed so much this past week.

Neffi: My heart broke when I read your posts. How are you doing this week? I want you to know that I think you are such a strong and courageous woman. I'm so impressed with your spirit. So you started BCPs last night? Does that mean you won't (or don't want to) do an FET? Keep us posted. You deserve all the best and will forever be my cycle buddy!

Suzhan: I'm so so so sorry. I know that you were "prepared" for the news, but I can't imagine that it made things any easier. I am thinking of you.

Angram: How are you holding up? I'm hoping that you got that BFP despite AF (they say that can happen). Keep us posted (if you want).

Ann D.: How are things going for you? Was your last beta today or is it tomorrow? I really hope the numbers continue to rise!!

Nicaliw: Wow, what a pain. First they tell you it's on, then they tell you it's off, then they tell you it's on again. I'm liking their last opinion of your cycle and hoping that your FET comes as "scheduled" next week!!!

J&C: I'll be thinking of you all day on Wednesday. I can't wait to hear the good news (Lord knows we could all use a little)!

IrishHope: I'm so excited for you about your trip. It sounds heavenly!! When you start Lupron, how long do you have to be on it? I forgot--are you doing an FET or a fresh cycle?

To all that I missed, I hope all is well!

Things for me have also been up and down. I had to get liquid aspirated from my abdomen twice more since I last spoke to you (once on Monday, again on Wednesday, and also on Saturday). I had to stay overnight at the hospital again after Wednesday's aspiration because of how my heart reacted to the aspiration on Monday. Luckily, they didn't have to do anymore scary CT scans again. They think I might need to be aspirated once more but if this continues then they have to put a permanent "drain" in (GROSS!!!). My beta numbers have continued to rise throughout this whole ordeal, but they haven't doubled (169 on 9dr5dt, 289 on 11dp5dt, and 533 on 13dp5dt). So...I'm not sure what to make of all of that. I'm worried that the fact that the numbers didn't double doesn't bode well for me. Or...the fact that I've had anesthesia three times this week will put this early pregnancy at risk (not to mention the CT scan). I guess I can only take it one day at a time---as we all do on this board.

Sorry for the long saga about me. I just wanted to explain my absence and to thank you all for your kind words and encouragement.

Talk to you soon.

Neffi211 · Post by **Neffi211** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 9:38 pm

Rlk1-- wow! what an ordeal! Its so worth it though because YOU'RE PREGNANT!!!! THose numbers are fine. Technically it only has to rise 60% every other day which yours did more than both times! Congrats! You should relax and enjoy it! I am feeling okay this week. I am sad all the time, and Im tired of pretending to be happy. I feel the best when I cry. I havent cried today, but I think its coming soon! I did talk to RE today....yes I did start BCP last night. We are doing another fresh cycle in May. We have 6 fresh cycle with our shared risk. My meds are changing and I will have a calendar soon.

Ann d-- where are you? Im dying to hear your news! I just know your numbers tripled!!!