For Becky

becky · Post by **becky** » Sat Nov 16, 2002 5:38 pm

Hi..girls..back home now..had enough of a London Hotel room! Had the et this morning..3 embies still ok..one above average and one average put back and then we donated the 3rd below average to clinical research to the clinic to better their skill at 'hatching' as they were so good to us..and we were advised not to freeze the one because of the poor quality after thawing.. Can't beleive that the 2 embies are now in my belly...suffering like mad with constipation pains and trapped wind from the pessaries tho! So pleased to be on the 2 ww and enjoy giving the 2 little embies all of the love in the world for as long as they want to stay..(hopefully for ever and ever!) Not going to get stressed in the 2ww..just going to sit back and enjoy being pampered and being'pg' for as long as I can.. Good luck to everyone what ever stage they are at.. Bibby my testing date is the 30th November..altho' telling people it is the 5th Dec.. Love becky B

caz · Post by **caz** » Sat Nov 16, 2002 5:44 pm

good luck becky - how exciting . Fingers crossed for you.

bibby · Post by **bibby** » Mon Nov 18, 2002 7:59 pm

Hiya Becky I'm out Tues/Weds so I thought I'd post today to see how you are feeling. I don't read every posting anymore just in case I rattle myself but I did read your other posting! I see you are no longer constipated!!!! It's amazing what indignities we have to describe on this board isn't it. I hope you are OK and getting utterly pampered. I'm feeling very normal. Due to test on Friday but I think in my heart of hearts that a/f will arrive before then. DH is sooooo optimistic that if it doesn't work, my heart will break for him. After 5 years of trying you kinda get used to af arriving every month but this is different isn't it - after all the injections, prodding, poking, etc. Anyway, keep your fingers crossed just in case. I'm thinking of you as time does seem to drag when you first start the 2WW. Are you going back to work soon? That did me good to be honest, less time to worry! I've booked Friday off though. I may get time to post again before that so look after yourself and let me know how you are getting on. Sending +ve vibes to you and your embies. lots of love Bibby

suzannemorris · Post by **suzannemorris** » Mon Nov 18, 2002 8:50 pm

Hi Bibby, we haven't spoken before, but I just wanted to say I've got everything crossed for you for a positive result on Friday. Sending lots of luck and best wishes your way, for you and your dh.

becky · Post by **becky** » Mon Nov 18, 2002 9:05 pm

Hi Bibby I am still off work..and I know that I said that I wasn't going to sign on and check the posts..but have already checked at least 6 times today..mainly to see if you had replied tho'. My testing date has been changed now to the Monday the 2nd December..to be honest I am not that bothered..2 more days is nothing after such a longer stress of ttc and injectiong etc. I have decided that I am definately not going to do hpt as I will be too nervous and would rather know that the result was 100% correct not just 99.9%..sad I know! If you think that AF is on it's way then it may be a good sign..have you had cramps and stuff? I have been so tired..fell asleep again this afternoon for an hour but I think that it is after all of the stress of the cycle perhaps being cancelled, lacked of sleep whilst in London and post operation. Boobs are getting bigger and very sore..bound to be the pessaries and to be honest it is hard for them not to get bigger as I am only a 34A! Only 2 more antibiotic pills to take and another million or so pessaries! I must say that I am not finding the 2 ww wait bad yet..I think that I was so wobbled when we almost didn'y get to ec I am still bewildered that I am there now. I am looking forward to going back to work on Thursday..bit scared of being tired and not being able to say no to things if they are too much..or rather forgetting a lifting boxes..etc.. What kind of job do you have? It seems as all the invites for Xmas dos and birthday dos are going to come now ..just when we don't have a clue what is happening.. Have you been having baths during 2ww..my clinic said it is ok but I have stuck to showers..starting to crave a nice bubble bath now though. I will be thinking of you on Friday when you test..please log on as soon as you feel up to it..I have a good vibe about you.. It would be wonderful if we are both lucky ..we can keep contact throughout everything..and meet up some day..babies and all!!! Lots of love Becky b

becky · Post by **becky** » Wed Nov 20, 2002 11:16 am

Hi Bibby Time is now starting to move very...s..l..o..w..l..y.. Keep confusing myself with what day of 2 ww I am on. My boobs have shrunk back and nipples no longer hurting as much..no longer tired and back to my food...I hope that it is not a bad sign..also had loads of AF type pains in the night and early this morning..still positive thoughts and visulization..I may even dig out my crystals and read up on which ones help with pregnancy... Still in my dressing gown ..jsut love the potting around the house..tomorrow will be horrid getting up early and having to put on make up and do my hair..not something I have really bothered about for the last 3 weeks..and my skin is almost perfect now! Not long for you now ..bet you have sweaty palms at the thought of unwrapping the hpt..must say the chance to do the hpt 2 days earlier then the blood test is now starting to appeal..why do our intentions always start off so well? Dh and I also agreed that if we were not so lucky this time then we would end the road to IVF and start looking at adoption...now I am thinking...maybe???.....will make the decision after the 2nd Dec... Take care..any signs yet? Af pains gone ? Love Becky B

bibby · Post by **bibby** » Wed Nov 20, 2002 6:48 pm

Hellooo Didn't go out tonight after all. Tuesday was spent seeing a friend who I haven't seen in years and seeing her 18 month old son for the first time. I coped admirably and didn't even begin to cry. Can't say I'll be that good if my test is negative though! I haven't had any cramps at all recently. I read that many postings before my 2WW I don't know if that's a good or bad sign! I think everyone is different. I had some cramping after my e/t like you seem to be having. Also, my boobs were reaaaallllly sore after e/t but that went away too. Everything you're saying happened to me. Boobs have gone sore again though - isn't it mad that that's a sign of impending AF and being pregnant. How the heck are you supposed to know if it's good news or bad - AAAARRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!! I've been tired, going to bed early every night, around 9pm. I usually go around midnight. Like you say, it's probably stress. Good luck for your first day back at work. It will do you good, it did me! I've been superstitious and not taken a bath but I have had showers so I'm not too stinky!!! ha! I keep dreaming of a hot bubble bath along with a glass of red wine.... lovely but just not for me at the moment. I work as a PA, I've forgotten what you do (how rude of me!). Refresh my memory please. I've not been doing my usual darting all around the country though (Glasgow, Wales, Gatwick, Stanstead, Northern Ireland, usually) as my boss knows about my treatment and doesn't want to stress me out - bless.... I've got to fly to Stanstead next week whether I'm pregnant or not though so he's not that much of a saint. I don't have to do a hpt, I have to go to the hospital and have a blood test. I can't believe I've got this far without raiding the nearest chemist for a "Clearblue!". Willpower, amazing. I think I get the results Fri afternoon so I'll try to log in. I hope AF doesn't arrive tomorrow.... Anyway, this is a mammoth reply to keep us both happy. I'm thinking of you and hope you feel OK for the rest of your 2WW and nasty AF doesn't visit. Take care love Bibby PS - thanks to suzanne & Alison for your kind thoughts. Good luck to us all.... [Edited by bibby on 20-Nov-02 18:49]

Alison · Post by **Alison** » Wed Nov 20, 2002 8:05 pm

Hi everyone, not sure why but I've been feeling anxious today and have started knicker checking in earnest - really shouldn't as am not testing til Tuesday so even if a/f does arrive shouldn't be before the weekend. Bibby, I'll be thinking of you on Friday - nearly there now! Much love Alison

bibby · Post by **bibby** » Fri Nov 22, 2002 8:05 am

Becky Totally & completely stressed this morning before my test. Can't sleep at all. Spent 2 hours staring at the ceiling last night. On the one hand I'm quite positive it will be good news, on the other hand I tell myself off for getting my hopes up and imagine the hospital telling me it's negative. It's driving me barmy. I know I haven't got long to wait but I really don't know how I'll cope if it's bad news.... I know I will though as we all do and I've got you to look after me. I'm sorry for rambling. I hope you are feeling OK, have you decided whether you will do a HPT? I've not done one as I thought if it was negative, it would have taken my "hope" away. Anyway, I'm going to go now as I'm getting waffly and saying useless things. Look after yourself. CU Later love Bibby

bibby · Post by **bibby** » Fri Nov 22, 2002 12:32 pm

Hello again I bet you've already seen my news on the other posting but I wanted to add to our "mega" posting too to say thanks for being my mate through this. I will certainly be around for you, checking on your progress and sending you positive vibes!!!! Hope you get chance to post later. lots of love Bibby

becky · Post by **becky** » Fri Nov 22, 2002 7:31 pm

EXCELLENT..........SO HAPPY FOR YOU AND DH..SENDING A MASSIVE LOAD OF CONGRATS HUGS ..RIGHT NOW!! 0000000000000000 What else can I say?..I just hope that I am as lucky as you.. I am still having niggling cramps..they are moving around..milder then AF like ones..no knicker checking yet..and just making lots and lots of wishes. Work does in a way make the time go faster..but the days seem longer - I wish that I didnt have to wait another week or so until I find out..keeping busy tho'. Dh has gone out and got us a curry from Sainsburys for tonight as a treat..promise to have extra veggies tomorrow..have had my milk and folic acid!! Poor hubby has got to have some fun..as sex is not on the menu! Like you I am trying to avoid the site as much as possible - not doing too well at the moment and have logged on everyday. I find that it makes you think too much about the results when you come on here and time starts standing still.. I am so pleased for you..hey if it is girl you'll have to call it Becky !! Love becky b

becky · Post by **becky** » Sat Nov 23, 2002 9:57 am

Good morning Bibby Had to post..as I am really excited... Had a letter from the clinic this morning to say that I can now test on Friday the 29th..YIPPEE 3 whole days less of waiting!! Went from really calm as I opened the letter to a bag of nerves by the end of it when it sunk in that it is now LESS than a week.. Must say that I did have really bad AF pains all night..and tossed and turned (just like the advert where the man falls on the floor!) so I am worried that AF could turn up...NO NO NO....not going to have horrid thoughts like that enter my head...no space in my life for AF!!! Sorry the inn is full!! Sorry to sound like a mad cow..but this 2ww does silly things to you. Love Becky B

bibby · Post by **bibby** » Sat Nov 23, 2002 3:51 pm

Hiya I'm a bit calmer today so you'll get more sense out of me!!! Good news about your testing date - not long at all although i bet time will drag for you as it did for me. I'll be "on pins" for you, waiting for your date to come. I am sending you lots and lots of ++++ve vibes and telling AF to stay away. How are you feeling now? Let me know. I've been to bingo with my mum this afternoon and for the first time EVER, she brought a sandwich she had made for me "to make sure I was eating"!!! Bizarre. She's also telling me not to get too carried away as it's early days - nothing like a Mum to bring you bang down to earth is there. Anyway, fingers crossed for both of us but for different reasons. Take care of yourself lots of love Bibby

suzannemorris · Post by **suzannemorris** » Sat Nov 23, 2002 5:32 pm

Bibby, had to respond to the Mom thing....mine keeps saying to me in that helpful way that Mom's do "Look Bab (I'm 32 but you have to understand we're from the Midlands)some women are just more fertile than others".....Aaahhh!!!.....If she wasn't my Mother!?$%! What she doesn't realise is that that statement just makes me feel like a big, useless, infertile failure! Not rational I know, but you know how it is. A friend of mine who started to lose blood in the first few weeks of her pregnancy was told by her Mom...."Oooohhhhh (Bab?), it doesn't look good does it!!" Voice of doom or what? Mothers eh? Absolutely priceless!! Take it easy, and enjoy those sandwiches! Suzanne.x

bibby · Post by **bibby** » Mon Nov 25, 2002 6:51 pm

Suzanne, you are right - mothers are priceless!!!! Becky - just wanted you to know I'm still here for you. I've posted under your other "thread" but I've got everything crossed for you. Take care. lots of love bibby

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