Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[WeHaveHope]

I see that the board has been moving really fast today. I feel kind of responsible for starting the downer vibes last night. Sorry about that. All the hormones are making me crazy I dropped in quickly because work is super busy today. I will post personals late tonight because my DS has a late football game tonight. Please lift your spirits. Don't loose hope. Hope is all we have and we need to hold on to it tightly. For those feeling down in the dumps know that I am with you and I am praying the this day gets better and brighter I will check back in later, sorry have to ge back to work. Sending you all a great BIG hug and a wishes for a wonderful relaxing weekend.

[blessed143]

Thank you ladies for the lovely welcome. I am still trying to learn the abbreviations here on the board I am so blessed to be able to take the route of IVF to try to get pregnant. We are doing a frozen transfer. Two years ago I had ER and ET. I had a baby boy We have 10 frozen embryos and are going to try again.

LYD10- So sorry to hear about the D&C but what I am so glad to hear that its done and over and that you can look forward to what is to come!!!

leorira11- I am praying for you! I am so sorry that you are having a hard time. I know that God has a plan for everything and you just need to keep having faith I do know that it is so easy to say. Going through this is hard on us emotionally and physically. I am glad that you have a good support system, people to talk to in person are hard to find!!! I will keep you in my prayers and I hope that things will continue to improve!!! Pulling for you!

anton- I am so sorry to hear about your DH. I know that it is hard on us and sometimes I even forget what its like for them.... I know the feeling of hearing and seeing people announcing their pregnancy. I have always wanted to have many kids hehe but been blessed with what I have but the urge to have another one has been on my mind so much. My husband wont adopt and if we use all that we have in storage-because it is not for sure that the snow babies will survive the thaw-we wont be going through the process again. I know that it is all in Gods hands and have faith. He might just need some time to think about it. Men act differently when they are hurting inside, after all they just want to make us happy.... I will pray for you both!

Indigo- I am praying for you today!!! I hope that they will take. I know that you have a hard decision to make and I understand how you feel. We felt the same way about having them transfer 2. We had two and one took. But I am thinking of you! Sticky dust to you!!

Sunshine- Keep your head up!! What you said is true. We are so blessed to have the option of talking to doctors and trying different ways of getting pregnant! Things do seem rough but just need to keep having faith and praying it to work!!!

akdelp- Sounds awesome!!! Hoping all works out for you!!!! Sticky dust!

Still so new to all this and I hope that I get a chance to meet you all... Baby dust for you all!!!!!

[Kamina]

Lyd10 - You went back to work. You are one strong lady. I'm sure I would have needed to take a week off to wallow. Keep strong.

Anton - From what I hear print and media are having a hard time in this recession. This is the free generation. Everyone is online and they want the content for free. The job sounds fabulously fun but the pay. sigh. I'm glad you got your appointment in. Yes, babies seem to pop up especially when you don't have one of your own. 2012 will mean that we have been trying for 10 years. To get through it, I tell myself, life must go on for others. Just because I have this problem time will not stop for me. But I tell you, if one of my friends has a grandchild I'm gonna flip. Since the sperm is one of the issues are you doing ICSC? Love is kind and patient. You have been through a lot. Sounds like he is going through a change of heart. He sounds frustrated. Him even thinking about giving up sounds like he might consider adoption or donor sperm just for your piece of mind. Moving on from your dreams is a hard decision. Hmmm does he have any brothers? Maybe that will complicate things. Well at any rate sounds like after 8 IVF's he is coming to some sort of conclusion regarding what he is putting you through. We will all have to see what his conculsion is. At anyrate his frustration sounds like he is reaching a tipping point on some subjects.

indigofire- my pcos sister in waiting - I hope the ET goes well. Sorry you did not get more eggs. But your news is still exciting!!! Personally, I would take the twins unless you have a medical condition where it would be more of a risk. Instant family and you are done.

AFM - Heading to the doctor for an intralipid transfusion at the wonderful cost of 700. I think I will ask to watch Sex in the City while doing the procedure. I can not wait to get this thing over with. I need to get my life back on track one way or the other. 10 years Good god! Even in the bible slaves were released after 7 years. I need to break free!

Baby dust to you lovely lovely ladies in waiting.

[indigofire]

Hi all,

Well the decision was made for us. Only one made it. I'm devastated. Yeah I know all it takes is one blah blah blah. Yeah it was 8 cell grade A. Blah blah. This is our last chance. The tears just won't stop rolling. The doctor was so condescending. He was trying to make it all ok. He was so fake. I know and he knows the fact that the other eggs didn't make it doesn't bode well for this one.

I don't know what to do. Trying to stay positive but it's not working. A very close friend gave us the $ for this cycle and I feel like we've wasted all of her money. I have no idea how to tell her.

Not sure what else to say.
Indigo

[blessed143]

Indigo- I know that there are no words that I can say that would make you feel any better... I am so sorry! It is such a hard thing to go through and i am sorry that your doctor acted that way. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

[LYD10]

Hi all,

Well the decision was made for us. Only one made it. I'm devastated. Yeah I know all it takes is one blah blah blah. Yeah it was 8 cell grade A. Blah blah. This is our last chance. The tears just won't stop rolling. The doctor was so condescending. He was trying to make it all ok. He was so fake. I know and he knows the fact that the other eggs didn't make it doesn't bode well for this one.

I don't know what to do. Trying to stay positive but it's not working. A very close friend gave us the $ for this cycle and I feel like we've wasted all of her money. I have no idea how to tell her.

Not sure what else to say.
Indigo

Indigo - i am so sorry! i know its really disappointing. but you could get a wonderful surprise! what sperm did you use? you DHs? there is Lou on PAT boards - she transferred only one and is now preggers with a girl! and if the other embryos didnt make it doesn impact the chances of this one - its all independent odds.
when is your beta?

[Sunshine1576]

Indigo,
It's reasonable to be disappointed but you cannot give up on this because as long as you're here we won't let you! I hope it's ok that keep pulling for you and to let you know we have to give this all we've got. I will be sending out some prayers tonight for you that God will restore your faith and give you renewed positive energy to get you through this because we have seen miracles happen, and I want that miracle so bad to happen to you!

[Kamina]

indigofire - I'm so sorry. I know you are devastated. Go ahead and cry. Feel your feelings and have your moment. I know about last chances because this is our last chance too. When there are no words, crying will do. It slowly washes the sorrow from our hearts.

I would not worry about the doctor. He will need to work on his bedside manner. He sounds disconnected. Maybe a shot of Lupron can help him find his compassion.

What a good friend to have. I am sure she will support you and does not feel that way at all.

I pray that your are renewed and refreshed. I pray for a miracle.

AFM - The intralipid infusion went well. I watched SITC. It broke my heart when Big bailed on the wedding. Of course my loopy Lupron self started bawling when Karrie confronted him and started hitting him with the flowers. The nurse was all concerned that I was in pain. I shot my blood pressure to 140... I had to calm the Hell down. My goodness I never knew hormones like this before. Thankfully, my husband is safe in New York and will not have to face Loopy Lupron Lucy. On the way home I actually honked my car horn at someone.... Previous to that I did not even know if it worked.

Well off to bed I have to work tomorrow. I already feel irritated about that too. Wow! This stuff is amazing.

[Sunshine1576]

Kamina, you are too funny, no more soup for you!

Anton, My doctor said I have an underactive thyroid since the labwork showed my TPO antibodies were way too high and these antibodies which are normally used to fight off infections (when you are sick) can be destructive in normal developed cells/tissue effecting my thyroid and hormone levels. She explained it to me like a car almost out of gas, the engine will keep running but some days it will not be efficient in doing what it's suppose to do. I'm hoping our next labwork will give us more inclusive information. Btw, we watched Weeds last Fall so deranged, if you want one even more twisted watch "Breaking Bad", has a rating on imdb of 9.3 out of 10.

AFM: Prepping the Fall garden with dh today, it's going to be a gorgeous afternoon in Florida around 75 degrees.

[WeHaveHope]

UPDATED 09-19-11 @ 7:33am EST. Please let me know if I have missed anyone or if I'm missing any updates. Sending you lots of xoxoxo.







UPDATE NEEDED
Melinda72-ER 9-12-11


Fvrogers-FET 9-22-11
Akdelp-On Estrace for FET on 9-22-11
WeHaveHope-On Lupron & Estrogen patches for FET on 9-30-11
Jen8675309-FET 10-13-11


Becca-Fall/2011
Tamera-11/2011
Kiminsh-Fall/2011
Alwaysangel-Fall/2011
Sunshine1576-Fall/2011
Lyd10-Fall/2011
Anton-Fall/2011
Fruit-Fall/2011
Krrice28-RE appointment moved up to 9-14 for IVF 10/2011
Jasmin-Fall/2011
Rosie84-IVF Late Oct/2011
Cheri76-Day 3 blood work on 9-9-11 for Fall IVF
LauraN-Nov/2011
Blessed143-Fall/2011
Neffi211-ET scheduled for 10-28-11


Sky7371-waiting for AF to start BCP for 1st IVF attempt 10-28-11


Blueeyedreamer-on BCP for cycle 10/2011
Kerpupples-on BCP for cycle Fall/2011
JenMink55-Start BCP on 9-14-11 for Fall IVF
Leorira-On BCP for FET 11/2011.



Kendra_n_Michael-on Lupron, estimated ER 9-20-11
Toniaa-Started Gonal F for IVF Fall/2011
Kamina-On Bravelle & Menspur for Fall IVF



K8ielovett-ER 9-14-11, ET 9-19-11



Sunshine and stars-PUPO on 9-12-11
Indigofire-PUPO on 9-16-11

RESULTS

[WeHaveHope]

Hi dear friends,
I am sorry I was MIA yesterday. I got home quite late from DS's football game. I am sorry to day they lost 14-12 but they definantely would have win if it was not for some really bad calls that the referee made. Did I mention that the game started 45 minute late because the referee was late to the park. Oh, and at the end of the game he was giving the other teams coach high fives and buddy hugs. Urg, he was so in te pocket of the opposing team. Oh well, hopefully thy will get a good win next week.

Fvrogers-your FET is right around the corner. I am praying for you everyday day that your embabies stick and grow for the next nine months. I can't wait to hear that you are PUPO.

Kamina-how is everything going with your injections. I hope you doing well. Do you have an estimates date fo your ER?

Lyd-how are you doing after your D&C? I hope your feeling better. You were so brave to go back to work right away. When I had my D&C a few years ago I didn't have a whole lot of pain but I felt quite loopy afterwards.

Sunshineandstars-how are you doing. I am praying that those two embassies snuggle in for the next nine months. When is your Beta?

Anton-I am so sorry you are going through this. I can totally relate to how you feel about your DH. But give it s little time. Men a quite emotional and can be quite impulsive at times. They will also say things without really thinking about it. I will be praying for both of you.

JenMink-how are the BCP's treating you. BCP's always make me so grumpy. But then again so do all the other meds. It will all be worth it though when you get that BFP.

Leora-I hope your feeling better. I am always praying for you. I want so much for this Fall to bring you that baby you want so much and deserve. Please remember that I am always here for you.

Sunshine-your flower garden sounds beautiful. I wish I had a green thumb but everything I touch dies. I did have an orchid once that survived my black thumb a few months but that's about it. I know that waiting on your thyroid levels must be very difficult but it will get there. Promise! I'll keep praying that it does sooner than later.

Indigo-oh, honey I know this must be so difficult for you right now but like others have said, it only takes one. I am praying so hard for you so that this embabie is that one. Keep you chin up. Sending you a big hug.

Going to take a shower. I will write more personals when I get out.

More personals.

Blessed143-wow, 10 frosties. That's wonderful. What a blessing. Wishing you all the best on your appointment next week.

Alwaysangel-how are you doing? Did you have your Beta repeated? Have you spoken to your RE about a D&C? Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Akdelp-I am praying that all goes well for your FET on Thursday. I can't wait to hear all about it. I can't wait to hear that your PUPO. How exciting.

Tamera-I am so happy that your job is going to allow you to go on leave. That it such a blessing.

K8ielovett-Best of luck on your ET on Monday. Keeping my fingers crossed. Your going to be PUPO real soon!!!

Kendra_n_Michael-praying that all goes well on your ER on the 20th. You'll be PUPO real soon. How exciting!!!

Fruit-how are you doing my friend? I hope your doing well.

Cheri-how are you doing my friend? Hope your having a relaxing weekend with DH.

LauraN-how are you doing my friend? Hope your having a good weekend.

Neffi & Sky-still doing the AF Dance for both of you. Hope she cones soon.

I know I missed some friends in my personals but believe it or not I have done this entire post on my iPhone. Not easy. Please know that I am keeping each and everyone of you in my prayers. This Fall is going to bring lots of miracles.

AFM-AF is officially gone. I am now watching closely fir any bloody discharge or spitting if any kind. I am praying that I dint experience any. If all goes well and there is no more bleeding then we are good to go for FET on 9-30. I am starting to get a little nervous about the FET. I am blessed to have my RE do the FET this time. Also, it will be on a Friday plus I am taking the following Monday off so I will h
have four days to rest. My next appointment is on 9-25 fir u/s and b/w. If everything is ok on the 25th then I will begging the PIO injections. I am not looking forward to those injections but this was my choice and I am sticking to it. It was one of the few things that wad in my control to change for this cycle. After the miscarriage I really felt I needed to change sone things. The other appointment I have before the FET will be on 9-26 fir my PAP. It's been a year and so my RE needs to have an updated PAP in my medical chart before my FET. They are very strict with protocols so I'll have to get this done. All else is well. Spending alot if time with DH this weekend. I love spending time with him.

Sending you all PMA, baby dust, and hugs.

[fvrogers]

Hi Ladies, I hope that you are all having a fabulous weekend!!

WeHaveHope - So sorry that your DS lost his game. It sucks that the other team had the ref wrapped around their fingers. It is a shame what lengths they go to win at that age. Enjoy the rest of your weekend!

Kamina - The hormones are no joke!! Last cycle I had a meltdown at work. Broke into tears over God know what. The had to send me somewhere to lie down for 30mins to get myself together. I was not taking Lupron then, but I was stimming and was just a big hormonal mess!! Hoping there is an end to your slavery - LOL - You are too funny! When will your husband be back??

Indigo - I know that there is nothing that I can say that will make you feel better. I will stay positive for you. You are so blessed to have a close friend to help you out like that! Feel free to lean on us. I have faith that this will work - you did have one great embie! Ignore the idiot doctor, he clearly has no bedside manner. Technically you are PUPO!!

Blessed143 - That is awesome that you have the 10 frozen!! Goodluck this cycle. What date is your appointment next week?

Anton - Thanks for the well wishes. How was your doctor's appointment? Did he have any suggestions. I am so sorry your DH is having a hard time. It is difficult on men because they often feel like their hands are tied, the IVF process is all about the woman for the most part so in some instances men have a hard time because there is nothing they can do to "fix" things. I hope he does not loose faith. Hopefully he has changed his mind? Have you guys done any counseling or looked into a support group for you both? The only reason I mention it is because when we first started my DH had a hard time after out first failure. He just felt that things were out of his control. My DH started to see a therapist just to help him cope and it really made a BIG difference. Just to have someone to listen to him who could help him understand why he was feeling the way he was and help him stay positive. He still calls the therapist occasionally. I never have been to the sessions, but I did decide that if this FET did not work I would make an appointment because the emotional ups and downs are hard. I know what you mean about DH being more important than anything!! Hopefully he is doing better today. I will keep you guys in my prayers.

Akdelp - We are cycle buddies!!! Goodluck on Thursay!!

Alwaysangel - Was your bloodwork any better today? Like WeHaveHope suggested, what are your RE's thoughts on a D&C. It might save the pain of the torment of waiting on the Beta.

Leora - How are you hun? Hoping that your spirits are back up. Thanks for input regarding sex post transfer. That makes me feel better!! You make a good point about people who conceive naturally. I hadn't thought of it from that perspective!!

Tamera - That is awesome that you are able to have your job hold your position for you! That is a big relief. Hopefully everything will go as planned.

Fruit - I know my docs have always said no sex, but I have been holding out hope. I mentioned the article to my RE and he did not give me a clear yes or no. I will revisit the issue on the day of transfer.

AFM - Spoke to my RE today. We are all set for a ET on the 22nd! I start my Crinone tonight (woohoo!!). My doc kinda skirted around giving me a direct answer about sex 1 wk post ET. DH and I are still discussing it - who knows . We will probably be too scared to try. Unfortunately DH will not be able to get here until Oct 2nd, I would hope to have my 1st Beta by then anyways so maybe the [sex] is a non issue. Someone had asked what DH was doing in Kuwait - he is a contract engineer that works as a project manager. He is based out of DC, but goes to the Middle East several times a year to check on project progress and such. I was hoping that he would be back for part of the TWW, but maybe my Beta will not be until the 3rd or 4th - who knows. We did decide to go to Charlottesville, VA for a few days when he gets back. There is a really nice resort (Boar's Head) out there that we always wanted to try so although we really cannot afford it we are going to just hang out there and just relax for a few non-IVF days. It's only 1.5 hours away - but it just gets us in a more relaxing atmosphere!

I hope I did not miss anyone. You are all in my prayers!

Felicia

[blessed143]

fvrogers- I go on Friday to have my pretesting done. I am so excited even though I still have to wait-which is killing me! DH said not to wish time away which I completely agree with but..... Im so excited.

AFM- I am currently on BC because I have had such bad cycles over the past months-not sure why.... I guess that I take care of that part already. I am finishing up my cycle now so I guess next month when AF comes around I guess thats when everything is going to start. SO..... 28 days.... I am glad though because I will know when to expect AF but I just am having a hard time with patience. I keep praying for some.... I have noticed that I have been way more emotional since starting the BC a few months ago.... makes me nervous about when the hormones come into play..... I went online and googled FETs. I read an article that they are not as successful as fresh transfers. Does anyone know if that is true? I know that I should not get so worked up but the baby clock keeps ticking in my ear and I guess I just pray that i will have a BFP whenever that may be.

Baby dust to all and thinking of you all....

[LYD10]

Hi guys, I am feeling great after my d&c. So nice to get it behind us. I feel now I am moving ahead. Hopefully my af will come in 2 weeks. WE, how long did it take you to get AF after it? Or anyone who had experience with d&c please share how long till AF?
I am typing on an iPad so lots of mistakes. But I love this thing. This is our friend's that we are trying out. But I am getting one for my birthday from my parents. So nice of them. That and a BFP . I am definitely getting aBFP. Inam turning 40 in mid December and by my calculations it's when my transfer or 2ww is likely to be. So I told my parents no party. We ll have to be flexible on celebrating - either a week before or after.
I am going back and forth on how aggressive I want to be with number of embies to transfer. In think as time goes on I am getting conservative again. It's just that if it is twins I don't know how I can do bedrest and it looks like most people with twins on this board are on bed rest. My DH is 1.5 how can I possibly do any extended bedrest. So I am thinking maybe we ll transfer per quid lines for my age group and freeze the rest.

Hope everyone else is fee,ing good!

[WeHaveHope]

Lyd-if I remember correctly it was about 2weeks. Same with the MC, AF came about 2weeks later. I am glad your feeling better and have put this chapter behind you.