Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

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Helll--oooo! To my fab-u-lo-so October-o-so's.

How I missed my loopy loveys whilst I was away!
Could not wait to get back to check in on Jen and Walshy......

Jen, my sweets, so sorry for the BFN.. But, you will have grand company with us as we all try again and kick a little infertility booty as we do it! I can see the testing list now- all the Octoberoo's with our pretty little smiley's..... Tell those people who say it's not meant to be, that apparently it's not meant to be that they have a smart and sensitive reply either.......... Scrap em'. who needs em'?

Walshy- oh, how put a big old smile on my face! You gave me hope that my 2 snow bunnies will survive the thaw just smashingly too. I can just see them now with their little sweaters and mittens- Ralphie, I can't get up! .......then changing to lovely swimwear for the FET portion of the competition. Let the 2 week jaunt begin- it's a marathon, not a sprint.

Lola Love Bug- you cwazy wabbit! Can't wait to hear about appt with consultant- tell me, consultant? Is this when they look everything over and tell you how to best do your taxes? What happened to the doc? Does this have anything to do with your double agent life with the FBI- just call you Sydney Bristow? I think you are coveting a life as a slayer! Sexy Angel fantasies heh? Or are you a Spike kinda girl? ....... Whatever happened to Sex in the City?

Stephanie- Best-est news! Lovely little heartbeat. Congrats. Let the tears flow- you've earned it.

OK, now about me........ My very lovable DH stole me away from the everyday life and took me to Inner Harbor, MD. Our beautiful hotel had an amazing view of the harbor, complete with chocolate covered strawberries and champagne! We shopped, dined, took in a comedy club, and got take-out cheesecake for our hotel room, which I enjoyed while having more champagne and watched Will & Grace reruns- the good ones! Then, get this, we actually had sex for fun! No baby making on the mind. Just a good ol fashioned romp for two. Lovely It was so relaxing, for the body and the mind to get away and have fun. I recommend for all you chic-quita bananas! Lovely anniversary. Nice just to be us again, rather than this baby-makin-minded machine.

Little R- I will catch you up on the Christmas party with all the kiddos later- gotta run my sweet!

Toodles, you Noodles!
Steph

[little R]

Hey Octobuddies.....

Wow....so many posts since my last... I am beginning to feel I can't cope

Jen - Thinking about you sweetie....you and Dh can feel sorry for yourself...there is reason too. I think the whole thing is really unfair! BLAST'EM... those who say "it was not meant to be"... string'em up just like those who claim that you need to be patient!
I have heard it all and think it's so insensitive. I try and put it down to complete and utter ignorance and inability to find anything better to say! Hmmm... smash away ...I have been on folic acid for the past 5 years ! Anyway, enough venting. You will feel better.... Remember, one step at a time. Try and enjoy the end of the year (I know, a tough one that) and put it out of your mind (an impossible one). I completely understand how you feel... I wanted my Xmas present THIS year...well, actually for the past 5 years now!
You take care and hang in there, my friend. I'll be around when you next cycle unless I go travelling on my world tour I won't be beginning the whole thing again until April/May, but am right there with you.... I have to try and put on weight rather lose it.... but it's a struggle for me. I burn it all off

Lola - Girl, you are something else! I'm off to Switzerland on the 24th, should be at the in-laws the same evening, ready with full body armour. Sometimes I wish I had Potter's invisibility cloak. As DH is never around.... I am in charge of the Xmas shopping/card writing.....we don't go back "home" every Xmas so luckily don't have to shop for the in-laws every year. I am hoping for a white blanketed Xmas.... otherwise I don't see the point in putting up with the cold weather. I have become very very sensitive to the cold since living out here in sunny Dubai...
Now onto you.... you poor thing... still in pain....sending you heaps of healing sunshine , enjoy the time off work.....take care and keep me up-to-date on the Buffy status. Ultimately intrigued, so may have to go online and check out the end of the series. ARGH... my friend with Season 2 of The OC may not be lending it to me any time soon.... she hasn't finished with it yet....how frustrating....

Angela - well done....happy everything went so smoothly. Trust that you are now clocking up on the "feet-up" hours. Do not do too much partying...heaps of rest and relaxation. Sorry when is your test date? Remember to avoid the evil pee stick...instead of peeing on it...simply flush it ! You can do it.. we are right here with you. Thinking of you and hoping for a great end to the year!

Anna - Welcome back..... long time no hear... how's it going?

Camilla - glad everything is going smoothly. Yes, I have the Zita West book... thank you for asking. I have not tried acupuncture though.... may try that next time. I believe that the visualisation is more important.... think that works for me...
How was the ABBA tribute? I am so jealous....I am such an ABBA fan...grew up in Africa and only had 2 tapes of which ABBA. By the age of 5 I knew the lyrics to "Voulez-Vous" Anyway, enjoy the partying...but take care of yourself.

Steph - my friend.... sounds like you are pretty upbeat . How are you really doing? Wow... your anniversary sounded like a peace of heaven... you deserve it. Hihihihiihi, can't remember the sex for fun concept....what's that all about? Sounded memorable, my friend! Hugs to you.


Love to all of you,

Little R

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Hail, Hail the Lovely Ladies of October!

Well, today is play day at work- It is our Christmas party.. Hoo-rah!
We shall do nothing but pretend to work, goof off and eat. Atleast that is my plan. I knew I should have brought my flask.

Little R- You are sounding very high on the PMA chart! Love it. Has the miscarriage emotion roller coaster stopped for you? Although sometimes mine was more like bumper cars- being blindsided at every turn. It was no trip to Disneyland sista. I believe mine has cooled a bit. I have not had a bad day in quite a while actually. I still get sad occasionally, but I have also been able to let it go. Not dwell, ready to move on. No more ugly cries- you know the kind- uncontrollable, snot running from the nose, shoulders bobbing about, jaw quivering... He, he. Done with those! I feel ready. So, as soon as the docs say OK, I am going to do it, the FET. My fiesty little embies are going to whoop a little *ss. I think I will name them Chuck Norris and Arnold Schwarzenegger. Little Chuckie and Arnie. Maybe I should pick a girls name too- a tough girl?? Zena? Laura Croft? Hmmmm... I know- this is for you and Lola- Buffy!! Arnie and Buffy! Perfect.

So, the dinner- the kidsfest. All of my closest girlfriends, all with kids 1 and under were there. It was lovely to see everyone, but overwhelming is the only thing I can say about being the only ones there without gorgeous little ones to cuddle and fuss over. Left behind is truly how I feel. Everyone is starting their families and we are left behind. My friends are fabulous though and very sensitive of our feelings. Thank God! There are some real crappers out there. So, the party was 85% fun and the other 15% was tough- I had moments of poor me..... but that, as you know does nothing for you. So, focusing on the positive......

So, to the rest of you Girls Gone Wild,
where are ya today? Remember I have all day to play at work. Entertain me.....

Steph

[lolajones]

Ahoy and haloidus

Buffy and Arnie, locked in the frozen tundra, waiting for liberation and a homecoming of weighty proportions...... 2006 - An FET Odyssey. I can't wait! Other Things I Can't Wait For by Lola Jones age 21 and a half ( )
Holidays
Sex
AF
Glad you enjoyed your wee holiday - sounded just wonderful and just what you needed. You also conquered kid fest - a mighty challenge for our heroine but yet again, she sails over the hurdle and makes a solid landing. Bravo!!! Another 9.8 from our judges!!! Hmm I am both an Angel and Spike girl - its unamerican to limit ones choices, yes? Sydney Bristow is my role model. If I look in the mirror and really squint and stand on tip toes and dim the lights I really look like her.....
Well, I saw my specialist today (health not taxes). He didn't hit the jackpot on Buzz Word Challenge but I stripped off anyway
The Good News: I have 14 good 'uns in the refrigerino. My HCG is crashing.
Inbetweener: Can cycle again 3 months at earliest, will need an HSG prior to check my defective (child of evil) right tube and may need WHITE NOISE WHITE NOISE didn't listen to that part, la la la, not listening, fingers in ears.
Bad News: pain n swelling combo I have now at one of wounds could be a hernia! HOO. RAH! See, not just for old men to carry around their scrotums in a wheelbarrow, you too can have a hernia! Indeed, Christmas has come early for doctor jones.
Also went to see the counsellor - mano a mano. It was exhausting. She did have some good stuff to say about grieving etc. I am very much a sweep it under the carpet and lets watch a movie woman. Roll on 2006 when our happy flotilla of ivf survivors hits the fertility seas once again!!
Little R if you want me to give you some sweet CIA moves for "liberating" the second series of the OC from your "friend" - let me know I could also help you put weight on - 2 weeks with my mum and suddenly you are Kirsty Ally. Let me know and I'll book you in to The Hotel "Have a bit more, are you sure?" for a spa break.
How are the other buddies? Was thinking of starting another home thread for us, a sort of limbo zone of hope while we await more treatment? Maybe wait until El Walsh has her positive

Anyhosens, big love to all

la la la lola
xxxx

[little R]

Hey there Octoberries!

Steph - thank you for the lengthy update. Yes, I am definitely much better and am no longer riding the emotional rollercoaster. Although my ticket to the ride is no longer valid, I do have a bad day from time to time and feel empty/sad, but I must say the uncontrollable sobs are over. I am not sure whether I have let go just yet, but I am certainly getting there.
In fact, my DH and I are going to say "goodbye" this week....hadn't felt up to it until now and with his travels it has been difficult to spend some real time together. I have an idea of how I want to let go of our Little Angel: a rose, the turquoise water of the Gulf, and some sweet goodbyes. This may be the final step in the grieving process. Sorry, if I sound really nuts!
WOW, you are ready to take on the world...Arnie and Buffy here she comes I'll be here when you start your FET...just gimme dates
I totally know what you mean about being left behind... my friends are nearly all having their 2nd child...so unless I have triplets , the competition is over for us!
Without sounding patronising, I am so very proud that you even went to that party....
Anyway, it seems that I don't have to worry about your state of mind, Steph... you are doing fabulously! Virtual hugs for you my friend!

Lola - sweetie....you are in the wars. I am so sorry..... hang on to the great news... your 14 frosties. I know it certainly doesn't feel this way now as you have gone through so much physically and emotionally.... but you're so lucky to have frosties. I'm envious.
Hmm...may take you up on the spa break.... does the Hotel also carry the latest Dvd releases of those much-loved series ....can you hear....... sounds of me dumping the Xmas pressies from my suitcase to add all the finest finger food to accompany my late-night viewing ?

Jen - how are you doing? Sending you sunshine, luv!

Angela - Keep those feet up and think positive and warm thoughts.....watch it.... heaps of PMA coming your way.

As for the rest of our team..... hope you are all doing well.

Love, hugs & kisses,

Little R

[camilla]

Dear buddies

Lola - I don't know how you manage to sound so cheerful. You poor soldier, I hope you recover from your wounds soon. Excuse my ignorance but how do you get rid of your hernia? Also what's an HSG? I'm glad you've got your frosties at the back of your mind, so many of them! No doubt you'll be thinking of names too.

Steph - If Arnie and Buffy are anything like their mum (translation - mom) they'll be little fighters. Seeing ther people's children can really hurt, well done. You'll be hosting your own little party one day.

Little R - I think you and your DH saying goodbye in that way will really help. It's something to remember. I have no idea what OC is! Am I missing out on some good viewing?

Jen - Thinking of you. Was going to say hope you're OK but obviously that's not the right word. The book I mentioned is Fertility and Conception by Zita West. V. good advice on all aspects of getting pregnant. I didn't follow her diet as eat healthily anyway. I used it a lot for reassurance really. Can you think of the New Year as a new beginning.

Angela - Keep your pecker up. Hope you're resting and not reading this!

Well we went to the ABBA concert. Was a group called Bjorn Again! They spoke with terrible Swedish accents but were good. There were rather a lot of women in spangly 70's gear, oh dear!

Hope you all have a good day.

Lots of love to you all.

Camilla xxx

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Octopoos!

Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, Baby it's cold outside! A sunny 3 degrees according to my car.
Sidebar singing: I really can't stay But, baby it's cold outside. .........
I know, I know- I am sure that one of you has negative 12 degrees, right?

So let me begin by saying (with hands cupped beside mouth for added affect and volume)- Where- is- our- Jen? Come back to us..... (us, us, us echo)

Jen- if you want to whine and complain about how life is like a garbage bag full of garlic peels and coffee grinds-- please do. We would love to listen and agree. Eventually, we will pounce on you with our PMA sticks, but we can rant with the best of em if that's what you need!

Camilla- you are doing swimmingly in the sea of 3 month ultrasound waiting torture- well done! you do Octoberoos proud. When do you hit your 12 week mark? should be soon right? Or did you have it already? I hope we didn't miss it! You need a celebration.

Walshy- how is it going trying to stay busy, yet not allowed to do to much activity at the same time? Like Chinese water torture heh?

Little R- Standing, cheering, hands waving about for both of us!!! It seems we are on the upside of down.. Cheers! We have survived. Warning sappiness ahead: I think it is lovely idea to say goodbye. DH put up a very beautiful bird feeder off of our porch to remember the baby. We can see it from our living room sofa. I love seeing the birds at it, it reminds me that life does continue.
Anyhoos-in-whatzit,- we are very fabulous the two of us!

Lola, Lola, Lola- Ding, Ding, Ding! Congratulations! You are the 1 millionth customer to come to the "I will put up with the most and continue on" store of life. Hernia now? ( I hate to bring it up again, but I think the breathing through the anus could have prevented that) Jeez Louise. Next you will be heading for brain surgery for a life threatening tumor/alien that has taken over and if not stopped will explode and destroy the entire country.... Dun, Dun, Dun! Enough is enough my friend. I am putting my foot down. I will need to e-mail your DH and tell him to prepare the life supporting bubble. We will wave from the outside. No worries.
Steady, slow, concentrate- 14 embies, 14 embies, 14 embies! Your new mantra.
Spike and Angel heh? A little threesome action. you dirty, dirty! Freaks (and vampires) come out at night!
That little personality trait you have of "I'll think about it later". I share that with you- you, me and Scarlet O'Hara. "I won't think about it today, I'll think about it tommorrow. Afterall, tommorrow is another day" Fiddle-dee-dee! I hope you try to process everything though, otherwise one day you will be a puddle on the floor like I was. Let it in for sanity sake!


I had bloodwork this morning- HCG check. I think it will be zero. Then I wait for AF....... Buffy and Arnie are starting to do their stretches, warmin up...

May the force be with you!
Steph

[lolajones]

Ok I give in.
I am fed up and feeling mightily sorry for myself. I mean who gets a hernia???? Hasn't my body gone through enough? I know its only a small thing but I think it equates to The Final Straw. I feel physically used up and beaten. I hate feeling like this. I should be 8 weeks pg by now and moaning about how tired and hungry I am not shuffling about the flat with a groin bulge. I'm too thin to have a hernia! Boo hoo hooo
Camilla, a hsg is a hysterosalpingogram used to check tubal patency. Treatment of hernia is surgical repair. I'm going to leave mine, y'know, handy to keep spare change for the parking meter.
I need a mood elevator, stat!
Hope all the buddies are bueno and I agree, WHERE IS JEMLA???
Sorry for the pma black spot but its on the fritz.

LOVE
Lola
xx

[Jen1d]

hi girls

Well i'm back, things must be looking up as i haven't cried today---so far. Still feel delicate and have to go back to work on Fri so will have everyone feeling sorry for me. I know they mean well but it will be hard. Then have our Chrimbo party on Sat. Will sample a few Morgans but will have to go easy as i haven't been drinking in months. Wish i could have been on the coke.

Anyway have decided there are loads of you girls who have gone through much worse things than me so i have to just get on with it and stop moaning.

After being quite upset with the hospital two days again. Finally an angel must be looking over us, or our little embies, as the secretary rang today.
Sorted - We can see the dr next Wed. It's amazing, they can find appointments when it suits them eh?
Anyway we are hoping she will say we can start our next cycle in Feb as my GP said that would be no probs so hopefully they will say the same.

Lola - Jemla is back and looking to find a chemist with the biggest stash, ready for needles ahoy in 2006.
I promise i'm not laughing but i though only boys got hernias?
Have you had a HGC before? I had one done but will only go into detail if you want me too, let me know. You seem to be having such a hard time of it. Roll on 2006 so we can have some good news.

Camilla & Stephanie - Wow, you are such lucky girls. Take care of yourself and good luck for the next scan. Hope we will be writing about our scans next year.

Little R - Sound lovely. So glad you are starting to feel stronger. Big hug to you.

Steph - AF i have never hated it so much as i did last week when i felt it then saw it. men have it easy------but i dont hate them, not yet.

Anna - How you holding up? Relax and be pampered.

What do we do girls when we start a new cycle. Do we stay as the Octoberies or all move to a new thread. We CANT be separated.

Huge hugs to you all

Love Jen x

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To my Lola Loveliness, The roller coaster ride is terrible.

AMEN sista love!! Right now you are being kicked while you are down. I am sure as you start to get up it feels as if you are being sucker punched again, chased by rabid, mad dogs and left to die in the cold..... with no wooly mittens!

BUT, it could be worse... (not listed in order of severity)

You could have hemmorroids
You could be buried alive
You could be attacked by vampire bats or hyenas
You could have to talk to your in-laws
You could be training for an ironman event
You could be floating on a tiny life raft in the middle of the ocean with worlds fattest man as your companion


BUT, there is a positive...

bedrest and plenty of tv time
the right to tell people who annoy you, to leave you alone because you don't feel good
Dh feeling so helpless with you that he decides to help in other areas like cleaning and cooking
wearing a hospital gown and mooning everyone (subtly telling everyone to kiss your *ss)..........

and lastly and most importantly- 14 beautiful, strong, amazing snow babies awaiting their mum to bring them home when her body is healed, strong and ready to carry them.

The principle part of faith is patience. You will get through and be amazing and strong for it.

Steph

[Walshy]

Hi Ladies,
Sorry I am only on the computer for 5 mins before I have to go out so I can't message each of you personally....
Can you answer me something though (gee i am so demanding) Did you all get pain in the uterus area after the embies got put back in??? I feel things moving down there is that normal or has my subconsious kicked in and making me think that I can feel it.
Feeling positive at the moment but that changes between each hour.
Ok lovelies until i have more time to write a long one take care of yourselves.....I am hating this 2WW it sucks...and it is so bloody hot around 35 degrees bring on winter i say
from Angela...

[camilla]

Dear Octobuddies (forever)

Angela - Yeah, it's normal to feel a little uncomfortable, bloated etc. Nothing to worry about. It's easy for me to say as I've already done the 2ww but relax and try not to stress about anything.

Lola - Oh I wish I could come along and fix you up. Being told to wait is horrible I know, you want stats and dates. The only thing I can say is that although you may have feelings of a vengeful kind towards your consultant at the moment, he does have your best interests at heart. Your body will start to heal itself soon, I'm sure. Zita W says Spring/Summer months are good for IVF'ing. So leave that positive thought floating above your head. I'll be checking to see if it's still there later.

Steph - Your bird feeder sounds a fab idea. It's not as cold here, sorry, but this country grinds to a halt at the tiniest sliver of snow so we're praying it stays mild. I'm not that far yet, I'm 5wks (since conception), or 7wks (when they add on a pretend 2wks!) depending on your viewpoint.

Jen - Good luck with your hospital appt. Let's hope the doc gives you the answer you want, or else!

Little R - Who luvs ya baby.

Love and hugs to my wonderful friends.

Camilla xxx

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Oh where are all the octopoos?

It is a snowy afternoon here. However, I work for the state, so it literally takes an act of the governor to let us leave work early. AHH, shucks ma'am.

Lola Lewy, Ohhh, ohhhh, ... we gotta go,
So, why'd the chicken cross the road? Answer: To give the bird to the doc who told her she would have to wait three months to cycle again.
- please check in my sweets. I would love to hear that the black cloud of doom looming over you has passed, however, if still being tailed by that pesky puff ball, then I would gladly listen to more ranting. Let me have it! Smack that *ss. That is what we are here for.

Camilla- I guess I thought you were further because I am nearing what would have been my 12 week magic mark...... Oh well. Post the date and we shall cheer you on. Picture us along the sidelines in little skirts and bloomers with pom-poms, spirit fingers waving about.

Jen- welcome home!! Glad your back. Feel free to moan till hearts content...... You've earned it. But, we shall remind you to keep looking forward.

Walshy- yep, had the pains. felt like sharp shooters to me. everyone says not to analyze every twitch. I say analyze away- it will help pass the time, atleast for a couple of seconds- and every second counts. In fact, I think we should keep a journal- for example:
Day 6, 2:07pm, slight twinge in right ovary area, lasted 3 seconds and passed to left side ovary.
Day 6, 2:08 pm went to bathroom after feeling slight twinge in ovaries, everything clear, no sign of AF.
It would be great fun!

Little R- you big bowl of bubble bath- hows it?

Sweet goodbyes boo-boos!
Steph

[lolajones]

Aloha from Londres

Jemla about time my girl! Glad you got an appointment with doc as then at least you have a plan in place for the new year and its a hope giver. Glad also that the tears are stopping. Ish. There'll always be the odd escapee moment of bottom lippage and thats healthy. man if you bottle it up, well, its just plain physics, right? Right. Pressure rises in an enclosed rigid space..... KaBOOM! Somethings Gotta Give. 2006 is going to be our year. The welsh voodoo toe, previously with a few tuning problems, is not to be mistrusted. As for the H word (shhh, do not awaken the beast), women can also get them (hello!) as its just a weakness in the muscle wall that can allow outpouching of, erm, things. Mine is an incisional one and its quite small.
Steph and her bag o magic powder, thank you for being around you nut box. We should graph out our falling HCG levels. Or make a pie chart! I'm very science minded today. I also think we should try and ban sentences that begin with the phrase "I would be ____ weeks by now". I don't think I'll be able to kick thinking it but will try not saying the words. What you think buddy? I got all visual with your list of worse scenarios especially the life raft fat man combo. I have named him Demetrio. Steph are you going to do a medicated FET cycle?
Little R - donde estas sweet cheeks? So, (more CIA interrogation) are you swiss then? See how I just slipped that in there? Years of training that. When you cycle next, you're doing a full fresh ivf, right? I reckon I'll be cycling around the same time as you. So long as my errant right fallop behaves its bad self...
Walshy - please don't moan about the weather my love I dream of Sydney. The pains etc are all normal. How are you feeling otherwise? the 2ww is a beatch.
Camilla you are very sweet and I too wish you could just turn out to be a White Witch who waved a magic wand, turned back time to 3 weeks ago and shoved Embie Uno out of the broom cupboard and into the bedroom and make this a wonderful happy christmas. If you are indeed the white witch, pm me if you're shy Glad all is going well with you and the little growing one indoors.
Stephanie we miss you lovely girl. Hope everything continues to go well for you and sending you lots of love.

So. Less fed up today 3 or 4 months to wait isn't so bad. Ok it is but Tough Luck Lola Positive note - bleeding has stopped
Anyhoossssseeeee. Heres to the Octobuds!!! We have (almost) survived the year!!!

Amor!

Lola
xxx

[little R]

Hey there my buddies....

Sorry...was away in the desert for a while....

Great news...Jen's back, Jen's back --- it's a Jen jig for all!

Lola - you poor darling...you have been dealt a crap hand if I may say so! Crappier than most. I think that you are doing fabulously and should be given a medal for what you are going through. Try and cling to your 14 frosties...they'll be coming home soon . I would be SO excited if we cycled together as you're the best for making us smile ...I'm selfish and I need you to help me get through the whole of the cycle again. I can't really count on my DH because he travels all the time and so was hoping to count on you buddies and my Ma
Okay...only because it's you, Lola.... yes to that, Swiss and British citizenship, but don't consider myself that "neutral" , that's the DH's department ... want to know more, use your well-honed technics, Bristow... you'll have to beat it out of me...or use the truth serum....entirely your choice. Whilst we are on the topic...even Bristow is pregnant...now HOW depressing is that! Even my favourite TV series has to be contaminated

Camilla - hmmm... to answer your question: the OC stands for Orange County, CA, USA. It's a Californian teenage drama series...sun, sea, surfing, spoilt kids, and general silliness....featuring for the most part 17 year-old brats trapped in an angst-ridden world, sounding so mature and grown-up, it's barely believable. It's a great anaesthetic . I say you don't need it now because you have better things to do with your precious time...but for those of us surviving the emotional rollercoaster or in the 2ww, I would definitely recommend watching this drivel...helps with that numbing feeling as there is NO mention of babies - so highly refreshing! I would definitely stick to the good stuff like ABBA revivals....lucky wench! So all ready to take on the Big C? All that wrapping finished ?

Steph - my dearest... yes, we have survived ...I hear Gloria Gaynor in the background! I am getting ready mentally and physically for Round 2 (I have a lot of time ahead of me!) and it certainly sounds like you are there too. How exciting! Tell us all.... when, where..you tell us, we will be there! Love your bird feeder idea.... we live in a skycraper, I'd be lucky if I see a bird at this level of loftiness! I'll be thinking about you tomorrow when I say my goodbyes.....
I envy your snow.....I was out in the desert yesterday... it's still nice and warm... I just want snow now though...a white Xmas!

Angela - get ready for all sorts of weirdness it's all normal! I am sure you're doing brilliantly... try and enjoy it rather than question it. I know...easier said than done. Truckloads of PMA coming your way to help with those negative clouds!

Stephanie - hope all is well....

Jen - last but not least ! Thinking about you lots...so HAPPY to have you back... moan, complain and cry ALL you want..it's normal and will help you survive it all in the end. You're entitled to the sadness.... congrats on getting an appointment! Keep us posted with the details...hope you get what you deserve. Good luck with the partying..lending you what's left of my strength to get through the tough times.... I'll ned it back on the 24th though as I have the in-laws to contend with

Okay, my lovelies...must let DH back on the computer... he only lets me have it if I say I am posting on the site


I AGREE with you lovely Jen....we cannot be separated.... we MUST stick together at least until next October...can we all shake on that?

Love to you all,

Little R