Pheonixes Rising

NickiMark · Post by **NickiMark** » Mon Apr 17, 2006 10:47 am

Just bringing the list up again

7th April -MLG-Test date!!
15th-22nd April--JULIE- Holidays in Wales.
17th April--Jen's DF away working.
20th April--Gail's ET
23rd April – Lucy start tmt
24th April-- Lola exam
24th April--Lisa's first consultation re: diui
30th April--Lis & dh become godparents!!

2nd May--Lisa Little Britain
17th May--JEN-- Ani
26thMay-- NICKI on holiday
May--JEN---starts tmt

9th June - Gails Wedding ani - weekend away
12th June - Lola exam
17th - 25th June - JULIE - Hols Turkey
28th July - 2nd Aug --LISA hols to Sorrento
July--JULIE-- starting 1st ICSI tmt.
6th Aug--LISA--wedding ani
8th Sept--NICKI--seeing Robbie in concert!
9th Sept--JULIE & PENNY-- seeing our Robbie in concert!
10th Sept NICKI- being god mum at mates christening!
2nd Oct-- NICKI--31st birthday!!!
21st Oct-- LISA--31st birthday!!
25th Oct - MLG - 3rd Wedding Anniv.
26/27 Oct - JULIE - Healthfarm!!
2 Dec - JULIE - Mamma Mia
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luby · Post by **luby** » Mon Apr 17, 2006 5:17 pm

Hi girls

Well my dad's wife's daughter had a baby girl, she started getting pains at 8am yesterday, went into hospital at 10.00am and had the baby by 11.55am. How quick was that....? I hope our labours are quick like that. They came home this morning...! I still feel quite down, I can't help it, I wish I didn't feel like this. I feel I am being funny towards them but I really don't mean to be. My dad phoned yesterday to tell me the news, he was going on and I just said, 'dad I'm sorry but I aren't interested' I could not believe I actually said that, but I wasn't, I didn't want to hear about it. I thought he would understand, but he said, I can't be like this forever. Julie posted in a lovely video of IVF journey, well I sent it to him, I thought maybe if he see's that, he will understand why I aren't the joy of springs..! Pls tell me the truth, am I being silly, should I just put my pain to the back of my mind and be happy for them and put on a front.??

Lis - Hope you've had a nice easter, hows the training going for your 10k..?

Nicki - I am so pleased that you have seen your friends and sorted things out, that is so lovely that she has asked you to be godmother, I became a godmother for the second time in Feb and it was lovely. Anyway I told you that they probably didn't know what to say, that is ususlly the case, but now you'll find that they will be there for you now you've cleared the air.

Julie - I hope your having a good time in Wales..?

Gail - Only

days to go, bet your getting excited aren't you...?

Lola - Hows the studying going for your exam, not long now - hope you've got your head stuck in them books..? Hope you've had a nice easter.?

Jen - Hows you huni, haven't heard from you in ages, your probbaly busy with the move and all. Thinking of you anyway luv.

MLG -

For tomorrow hun - I have everythign crossed for you..!

Hi to anyone I've missed.

Take Care all

Lucy

langton · Post by **langton** » Tue Apr 18, 2006 10:38 am

NickiMark wrote:Just bringing the list up again

7th April -MLG-Test date!!
15th-22nd April--JULIE- Holidays in Wales.
17th April--Jen's DF away working.
20th April--Gail's ET
23rd April – Lucy start tmt
24th April-- Lola exam
24th April--Lisa's first consultation re: diui
30th April--Lis & dh become godparents!!

2nd May--Lisa Little Britain
4th May-Hayley starts injections 4 FET
17th May--JEN-- Ani
26thMay-- NICKI on holiday
May--JEN---starts tmt

9th June - Gails Wedding ani - weekend away
12th June - Lola exam
17th - 25th June - JULIE - Hols Turkey
28th July - 2nd Aug --LISA hols to Sorrento
July--JULIE-- starting 1st ICSI tmt.
6th Aug--LISA--wedding ani
8th Sept--NICKI--seeing Robbie in concert!
9th Sept--JULIE & PENNY-- seeing our Robbie in concert!
10th Sept NICKI- being god mum at mates christening!
2nd Oct-- NICKI--31st birthday!!!
21st Oct-- LISA--31st birthday!!
25th Oct - MLG - 3rd Wedding Anniv.
26/27 Oct - JULIE - Healthfarm!!
2 Dec - JULIE - Mamma Mia
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Lis · Post by **Lis** » Tue Apr 18, 2006 4:37 pm

Hiya all just a quick one. Lucy doll you are not being silly. I know it is so hard. I atually feel relieved you posted what you did because it makes me feel better. I have a very good friend who had a baby 4 weeks ago - the exaxt day dh and I found out he was sterile and no chance of second sperm retrieval. It was soooo hard, I went to visit the hosp the next day and have been round a few times since. Dh and i are trying to support them - the baby has been unsettled and they are quite anxious - we take tea round for them and make soup and stuff for them to have so they don't have to cook. When we are there 95% of the chat from both of them is about the baby. I sit there and be polite and ask all the right questions and try and appear ok and enthusiastic ..... but it is killing me. When I get home I am so exhausted from the pretence that I always cry for ages then I'm down for a few days after. I try to talk about my work, what I've been up to etc but its just like she's not that intersted. I don't think she even realises all this baby chat really upsets me but if I say something., I am scared it will ruin our friendship. Dh even doesn't understand. He said I should be supportive and that its natural they are wrapped up in their own world but I can't help thinking, what about us?? We have been through so much, do our feelings not count?? They have known all about our situation from day 1. I have also thought about sending her that link that Julie gave us - what do you think?

So I am going there in an hour or so. I will prob be on here tomorrow needing cheering up. Also another very good friend had a baby last week and is talking about her sore boobs etc.... wouldn't we all like to have her problem...!

MLG · Post by **MLG** » Tue Apr 18, 2006 7:12 pm

Hi ladies

Can't relax completely just yet.

My Dr. said that my levels were not great, but with her experience she's not going to worry and is going to treat this as a BFP.

I'll be doing the 6 week scan that I'd do if levels were more normal.
Have to wait another week and a half!

So I've decided to do the same (without going crazy with happiness) and do things as if I'd had a definite BFP.

xxxxx

luby · Post by **luby** » Tue Apr 18, 2006 7:56 pm

MLG - arrrggghhh more waiting for you...! Everythign is going to be fine. So now you need to rest as much as possible.

Congrats Hun

Take Care

Lucy

BevT · Post by **BevT** » Tue Apr 18, 2006 8:07 pm

Hey Lucy,

Just noticed that you only have 6 days left before you start your stims. Good luck with it, and I will be keeping my fingers crossed for you for that BFP!

Lol Bev xxx

luby · Post by **luby** » Tue Apr 18, 2006 8:21 pm

Hi Lis

It is so hard isn't it, I totally understand what you must have been going through when DH found out he was sterile and your friend had her baby. When I was told I had lost my baby, DP's friend txted to say his wife had just had a baby girl, honest it was literally 2 seconds after the lady told me. I could not believe it, what a time eh.???? You have been so brave, going to visit your friends and their babies, you were able to go and put your pain to one side for your friend, and also helping her where you can, and your friend will appreciate what you are doing for her. I totally understand what you mean about the baby talk, we do have to be polite don't we, but really we want them to stop. Your DH is right, they are going to be wrapped up in their own little "baby" world, we would be the same if we had just had a baby, but still, if she knows what you are going through then she should understand this is hard for you. You shouldn't be scared of talking to your friend about how you feel, if she's a very good friend and she loves you, then she will be there for you. Maybe she knows you feel upset being there with the baby, but she doesn't want to say anything, her and her husband may say when you've left 'hope she's ok, this can't be easy for her'

I hope it went ok for you tonight and it wasn't too hard. I know how you feel, you are a lot stronger than me Lis, I can't bring myself to go visit my dad's wife’s daughters baby, I just feel it will hurt too much. My dad thinks I should just be strong, even if I can't be enthusiastic, at least show my face. I think I'd better, you've been with your friend, if you can be strong then so can I.

Take Care Lis.

Lucy

p.s - yes I would send the link.

Lis · Post by **Lis** » Tue Apr 18, 2006 9:37 pm

Firstly MLG - great news!!!Yes def treat it as BFP but I'm sorry for all the waiting you are having. Do nice things and be kind to youself over the next week and a half

Lucy thanks for reply. I'm just back from seeing my friend ...... I feel really bad now! Things were a lot better tonight as she has relaxed a lot and has found a routine and baby is more settled. I arrived with reinforcements of chill and rice and cheese and biscuits. When we were just about to leave she handed me a beautiful big bouquet of flowers from Ma & S, gave me a cuddle and said thanks for being a great friend and being so supportive and understanding

Now I feel terrible. There was still loads of baby chat though so I think I will send her that link. This is the first time I have come back from hers and not cried ...(yet!) so result

Lucy don't feel you HAVE to go to hosp. Go when you are good and ready. I haven't even been through tmt yet - I think probably the only reason I've managed so far is that I'm just starting out on this journey. You have shown great courage and strength, bouncing back from all your heartache so remember you are stronger than you think.

Take care you xxxxx

Kate21 · Post by **Kate21** » Tue Apr 18, 2006 9:39 pm

Hi Girls,

Been a while since I posted and am struggling to keep up with whats happening!! I've been trying to think about other things apart from babies and getting pregnant....trying to be a 'normal' person again!!

I went back to Zita West today to see the hypnotherapist. Thought they might be able to sort my head out, seeing as physically there is no reason for me not to get pregnant. Not sure whether I was actually hypnotised but I did feel nice and relaxed afterwards and some of the techniques she used were quite good.

I also went to see a psychic today as well....I'm trying all available options!!! Almost from the moment i walked in she started talking about me wanting children. She was really positive that it would happen and given that she was spot on in describing DH it makes me think that she could be right. She also put her hands around mine, not touching, and I could feel tingling in my hands and down my arms. She said it was positive energy and that I had to be positive and use the energy.

Whether its true or not I came out feeling much more positive so that can't be a bad thing!! Especially as I'm waiting for AF to arrive so I can start my FET, but as per usual she's decided not to show on time!! Why is it when we want her to show on time she never does....sods law I suppose!

Anyway, hope everyone is doing ok?

MLG keep those positive vibes going!
Lucy - I understand how hard it is and I don't think you're being unreasonable. Perhaps they need to take time out and realise how you must feel?

Kate

Jeni Babes · Post by **Jeni Babes** » Wed Apr 19, 2006 11:57 am

Hi all

Sorry i have not posted for a while...still ill.

I am still having problems with my comp and the site...i am unable when posting to read past posts from everyone ( excet those from feb and march) so it's a nightmare to do presonals

A few personals for you though...

MLG good news...i am keeping up the PMA and fingers crossed for your scan...big hugs honey

gail- good luck with ET...PMA PMA PMA and ***BABY DUST***

Lucy- Why do things never run smoothly eh! keep your Spirit up... PMA....I am sure it will all come together at the right time for you. Are you srtill gonna stim in a week? DF has just started working ( this week) 300 miles away. We are gonna make sure he enjoys his job before we decide to move...prob the end of June before we put the house on the market, but we have been clearing out ...MADLY.

Nicki- you have had a hard time with your so called mates...I hope all goes well with the June iui and you can continue to rise above their pettiness

Lis - you are so strong ...wow am I impressed..go girl! Goood luck with your appointment!!!Kate- Zita is certainly putting you through it...good luck.
lola- hugs sweetie!!

Julie- keeper of the PMA..hi to ya!

And hello to everyone else ( sorry i can't do everyone a personal)

Well...here goes...things in the last few weeks have been tough for me. The antibiotics didn't help my inner ear infection, so last week ended up in hosp for 3 days getting tests done. I have various symptons and pain sensations throught my body( esp klegs and hands) over the past year and have known there has been someting not quite right. Especially with being tired all the time and having no energy. Anyway i ended up getting various tests ( mRI and lumber puncture to name a few) to check everything in my brain is ok...It turns out i have lesion ( scaring) on my brain ( not cancer). It's on the left side on the site effecting balanace walking and vision which means i have Multiple sclerosis (mS)...[MS effects the nerves sending messages so if i want to move a muscle (eg leg for walking) sometime the message doesn't get through and my leg doesn't move or i stumble and fall down ] I thought at least it's not cancer... At the moment there is nothing that can be done except monitor it...It is effecting my walking and i can't focus my eyes very well (so writing and reading is a problem)...but apparently it can change at the drop of a hat and go for a while then come back again...so i gotta learn to live with it and any disabilites it brings .

I am in a bit of state of shock.

DF and i have talked it through and we will continue to try the end of May tmt if I am feeling up for it ...the only good thing about this is that MS is put into remission with pregnacy...all the more reason for me to try try try and try agian for a babe.

BFP BFP BFP for June

It's harder this week as DF has gone up (300miles ) north to start new job...so am feeling a bit lonely

But my friend and Mum are poping down later to make my lunch...bless them both!

so bye for now and i will try and catch ya ll on friday....

love jen
xxxxx

15th-22nd April--JULIE- Holidays in Wales.
17th April--Jen's DF away working.
20th April--Gail's ET
23rd April – Lucy start tmt
24th April-- Lola exam
24th April--Lisa's first consultation re: diui
26th April--MLG-- scan?
30th April--Lis & dh become godparents!!

2nd May--Lisa Little Britain
4th May-Hayley starts injections 4 FET
17th May--JEN-- Ani
26thMay-- NICKI on holiday
May--JEN---starts tmt

9th June - Gails Wedding ani - weekend away
12th June - Lola exam
17th - 25th June - JULIE - Hols Turkey
30th June --Jens house on the market

28th July - 2nd Aug --LISA hols to Sorrento
July--JULIE-- starting 1st ICSI tmt.
6th Aug--LISA--wedding ani
8th Sept--NICKI--seeing Robbie in concert!
9th Sept--JULIE & PENNY-- seeing our Robbie in concert!
10th Sept NICKI- being god mum at mates christening!
2nd Oct-- NICKI--31st birthday!!!
21st Oct-- LISA--31st birthday!!
25th Oct - MLG - 3rd Wedding Anniv.
26/27 Oct - JULIE - Healthfarm!!
2 Dec - JULIE - Mamma Mia

lolajones · Post by **lolajones** » Wed Apr 19, 2006 12:47 pm

Jen
I'm so sorry to hear your news sweetheart.
Your doctor has probably been through this with you but there is medication available that can help symptoms and there are loads of support groups and many many things that people have tried and have worked.
Your positivity will win out in the end Jen, psychological factors play a huge part in medical conditions and the course they run, more than anyone knows and so I reckon you've got this licked.
As you say - all the more reason to get that positive!! bfp for our jen!!
Am thinking of you - this will take a while to sink in so make sure you look after yourself
lots of love

Lola
xxxx

gailp · Post by **gailp** » Wed Apr 19, 2006 1:36 pm

Jen I only popped in to have a quick look at this thread. I have just seen your news and just wanted to say im so so sorry. On the positive side thank goodness its not cancer and the doctors have found out what it is. My heart goes out to your. You are so so strong, its so unfair what life can throw at you.

At least when you get that BFP you will better in yourself

lots of love

xx

Macca8 · Post by **Macca8** » Wed Apr 19, 2006 2:50 pm

Jen,

I've just read your sad news. You should be so proud of yourself for looking on the positive side considering what you are going through.

My sister was diagnosed with MS when she was 35. She went on to have twin daughters and then another daughter. Thankfully she has been in remission for a good few years (thanks to a very good doctor and some good drugs/steroids). Life for her has been very good. She always remained positive.

I wish you all the luck and hope you bring home a beautiful baby someday soon.

Lisa XXX

Lis · Post by **Lis** » Wed Apr 19, 2006 4:44 pm

Jen just popped in and was so glad to hear from you. I am so sorry you have been given this news, you brave thing but glad to hear you are so positive .... with every right!! Like Gail said, its good its not cancer. And like Lola said there is a lot than can be done with tmt etc now. My line of work means that I see people with eye related MS problems. If there is anything I might be bale to do for you - answer any questions etc please let me know, I'll do my best to help.

Take care sweetie xxxx

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