FEB / MARCH 2011 Cycle Buddies!! can't wait!

[BlissfulCS]

Ugh!!!!! IVF was so much easier when I was completely ignorant of the process and transferring Day 3 embies!!!

Tohavefun- I am completely with you on pins and needles and barely slept at all last night. I really want to go get a mani pedi but am not leaving this house until I get a day three report! My phone is in the pocket of my bathrobe and I have already meditated twice this morning to calm my nerves. I am so excited for you though, you have been through so much and I pray this is your time. Can't wait to hear you are PUPO!!! You have lots of good embies, and will be pregnant soon!

SD- thanks for checking in on us. Its funny how even when we get good solid BFPs we IVF ladies obsess about every symptom or lack thereof. Don't worry lady, you are so very pregnant! I appreciate the encouragement as well.

All- thanks to the many of you who reported on the communication process of your clinic. It helped!

AFM-PROGESTERONE IS THE DEVIL. I was up until midnight after picking a progesterone fueled argument with DH. The argument was over the fact that he hasn't done his share of the taxes (I did my part weeks ago just so I wouldn't have to worry about it now). Something so simple ended with me in uncontrollable and unconsolable tears, just sure that my marriage was in shambles and I was going to end up a single Mom. Or worse...CONFESSION...there was even a moment where I thought maybe the IVF shouldn't work and that we shouldn't be parents... Egads!!! I hope God, The Universe, Karma, you name it all understand that I DID NOT MEAN IT. I want a baby now more than ever and am so ready for it.

Lol...keep in mind my marriage is WONDERFUL. We love each other deeply and are going to grow old together. Progesterone just makes me a raging lunatic (which is why I choose not to work this week, given that I manage people for a living ).

Thank you God for my wonderful, patient, loving husband. Its crazy though, you think by now I would understand this about myself and could recognize it in the moment and control it. Nope...my mind turns to mush and I am completely controlled by pure emotion.

Anyone else been there or am I the only evil witch torturing her loving (albeit lacking in financial urgency) DH?

[blairwh58]

to_have_fun- Cannot wait to hear how the transfer went!!! Hopefully tonight you will be able to rest easier.

bliss- Dont they know we are anxiously awaiting the call on the embryo status update??? Geez. Hopefully you wont have to wait too much longer.

SD- hope youre enjoying yourself in lovely Hawaii!!!!

[BlissfulCS]

Ladies...all six embies are still growing strong and are GREAT quality. I almost broke down crying at the grocery store when they called (decided to leave the house after all). My babies come home at 8:30 Saturday morning.

[blairwh58]

Bliss- what great news!!! I guess it was ok that they made you wait so long for it. Did you ask if you will get another update tomorrow or will they just let you know when you get there sat morning? So exciting! This is definitely going to be your time!

[riogirl71]

Crashing

Blair - super baby dust on you starting Lupron soon, this will be your cycle!

Blissful - great news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[WeHaveHope]

So, as everyone remembers I had my ER just last Wednesday. I was misserable after gaining 9 pounds of fluid, nausea, constipation, severe abdominal pain, etc... My RE said that I would get my period two weeks after my ER and then we would begin the process to prepare for my ET. I was just starting to feel better today after my ordeal and the mother of all migraines for 2 days. As has been the usual with me, the unexpected happened today, I got my period. So disappointing! I was looking forward to feeling somewhat myself for another week befor the visit from my "friend". Well nothing has worked out a planned for me. More disspointing is that my RE says that since the visit came so early and I am just getting over the OHSS, we should wait one more cycle before ET. 

[blairwh58]

Rio- thanks for crashing! I hope you are right and the 4th times a charm for us. I have a very good feeling about this one and think we will be bringing home a little one in december. Congrats on finding out about your little girl!!

Wehavehope- I know you are mad, angry, upset...etc but just keep telling yourself that for it to work the conditions need to be perfect. I know you weren't expecting AF so soon but when you do finally get to transfer it'll be your time! I had to keep telling myself that since the miscarriage in dec because things have pretty much been on hold since then. Just stay positive and know this is your cycle. Keep your head up.

[BlissfulCS]

Rio- thanks for the support and congrats on your little girl!

Blair- no more updates until Saturday morning. They will leave them alone and let them continue to grow, but I feel pretty good given that all 6 made it this far that we will have beautiful blasts to transfer on Saturday. I went for that mani pedi to try and relax my nerves and even in that environment I was a nervous wreck, so I called the clinic while I was drying. The RN was like "we were just talking about you and wondered if you had called yet, and sure enough I checked and we had a message from you." Ha ha! They know me well...I have a great relationship with a couple of the nurses and they were both there together to tell me the news. I could tell they were excited too. Sometimes I think they try not to get attached/invested for the obvious reasons but they are on "Team little Winslow" so they MUST be fully invested as far as I am concerned! I love my clinic. I also think this is fun for them because they don't usually go to blast.

We- Blair said it well. Your baby (babies) will come to you when he/she are ready. Your time will be your time and sometimes your body knows better than you do. Hang in there.

[WeHaveHope]

Thanks gays, I know. Just a bit disapointed. My hubby, the kids, and I went to have some pizza tonight. I was dying to have some since I really had not been able to eat much in the last week. I was really tired of all that Gatorade. The pizza sure hit the spot. It was my comfort food for the evening. I will make sure to keep everyone posted. Thanks again for all of your support.

[MamaBoo]

Oh ladies I have had such a stressful evening. Long story (stories). My hubby is stressed, but when he's stressed, he just shuts down, and I'm left alone with my worries. I could just sit and cry all evening. Some of the issues have nothing to do with this cycle the rest is only indirectly related worries. FET still on track. I have lining check tomorrow. Hopefully, better day tomorrow.

Sorry to rant especially when so many have had their dreams dashed for this cycle. I am truly sorry for you. Please, do not think because I do not do personals very much that I do not care. I do care and hope each one achieves their dream of motherhood.

[to_have_fun08]

Hey ladies. I had transfer today. YEY!! We transferred 2 CGH normal blasts. one was already hatching. I chose to transfer a boy and a girl. that way if it is twins we have one of each. if it is a singleton then we still have the fun of waiting to get the gender in the 20th week. i hope and pray that at least one snuggles in. We are freezing one so we do have 1 more shot but i am hoping that will be used for a 2nd child. My beta's are on the 9th and 11th. they won't tell me the results of the first until we have the 2nd test. so officially i have 1 week to go. I'm just going to think positive thoughts. We have never transferred blasts before so after 3 yrs of IVF we are in different territory which is absolutely awesome.

[BlissfulCS]

Hey mamaboo- its not easy to keep up with life AND this forum. You don't need to do personals to get support, and we know you are giving it right back in your own way and when you can.

The only reason I have been able to drive everyone nuts with crazy long posts is that I have this week off from work and I am stuck in an IVF obsessive state. Its really not healthy. But it feels like it helps me.

Sorry you are feeling down. This process directly or indirectly creates strain for everyone. You saw my post earlier...the hormones don't help either! The stress of the process, the financial burden, the fear, all of it is so tough. And we can't even drink when we go through it. Torture!

We are here for each other, because nobody else really can understand.

Good luck with your appointment. Try to get excited, and enjoy. Easier said than done...but you are on your way to being pregnant! Breathe deep, relax, and think positive thoughts.

Good luck and keep us posted

Bliss (AKA the "expert" who picked a progesterone argument with her DH just last night )

[BlissfulCS]

tohavefun- that is SOOOOOOOO exciting that you know you transferred one boy and one girl! I am a little jealous over that. It is really exciting to go to blast because of the higher percentages. I know I keep telling you this but I really do feel that this is your time. Congrats on being PUPO with twins! I am right behind you. Here's to both of us having BFPs!

[WeHaveHope]

Oh ladies I have had such a stressful evening. Long story (stories). My hubby is stressed, but when he's stressed, he just shuts down, and I'm left alone with my worries. I could just sit and cry all evening. Some of the issues have nothing to do with this cycle the rest is only indirectly related worries. FET still on track. I have lining check tomorrow. Hopefully, better day tomorrow.

Sorry to rant especially when so many have had their dreams dashed for this cycle. I am truly sorry for you. Please, do not think because I do not do personals very much that I do not care. I do care and hope each one achieves their dream of motherhood.

No need to appologize here. We all know and understand what you are going through. This was my 1st IVF cycle after going through IUI unsuccessfully. I never though in a million years it would be so physically and emotionaly draining. Please continue to vent your feelings. It is healthy. Please know we are always here for you.
Sending you a great BIG hug.

[crissylove]

Cheers all!

SD-Great to hear from you. So excited for your U/S this week.

BLISS-OMG!!! I'm jumping for joy for you. That's awesome. Your cycle is almost completely mirroring mine. 6 blasties! You must have balled. I know i did. Did I hear you correctly before. You're putting back 3 also right? I'm just going to congratulate you on ur BFP ahead of time.

WE-You hang in there girl. Nothing about my cycle aligned with my calender either, but everything happens in God's time and anything worth having is worth waiting for. I was suppose to start IVF last July but then had the fibroids and couldn't schedule surgery til Oct. Was told I had to wait 3 mos, then in Jan I still couldn't start. I kept telling myself God is trying to let me know he's in control of when and how this happens not me and certainly not science. I decided to be still and let him do his thing.

FUN-...A hatching blasts you must be so thrilled that little sweet pea is on it's way. Won't be surprised if you feel implantation pain tmrw. Congrats on being PB4BFP. (just made that up-PREG BEFORE BFP )