The Sisterhood of the Blue Stilettos

[sassynlv]

Ah Meg: ok, so i am sitting in dh office (i only work pt time so had today off). fil is big wig trial attorney and was in dh office having a very serious discussion re: trial strategy (oh yes, fee, married into a family of a bunch of you guys ). I was supposed to be flipping through the power point that i had made for them, but instead, was reading your posts (of course, what else would a self-respecting Sister do if had the chance and could get away w/it ). ANYWAY... was nodding and all like i was paying attn.... then got to your

You know, the more I read of the posts it looks like we all have a cursing problem lately---We should have called the thread the f'ing Sisterhood of the...that would really have gotten us noticed! (And for all the right reasons...)

Yeah, well you know the laugh where it is busting out of you but you are trying not to let it escape, so it is kind of a full-torso stutter with your mouth closed? Yeah, well it started out like that, and no one seemed to notice... but then exploded uncontrollably into a full blown belly laugh . ooooo, how embarassing!!! My cover was blown!!! fil just looked at me strange and moved on (i guess chalking it up to IVF hormones ). Now, one would think that i would have learned my lesson.... one would think that i would have closed the post and gone back to work. But nooooooooo! As i have seriously impaired judgment (pleading IVF defense!) i kept reading. When i got to this... just got up and laughed myself out of the room! heeheehee

I would be the f'ing queen of procrastination!

GL w/the whole fam damily this wkend. See you on the other side.
ooo, ooo, oooo. I was so absorbed w/my story... almost forgot and had to come back to mention... the heartbeat! Woo hooo. Congrats! Hope that settles your mind a bit (i know, i know, we always find something to worry about, no?). No worries on the "not represn'tin" thing... you will have more chances.... we can't be on our top game EVERY us, now can we?

Vicky: Oh, yes, vicky, the church thing would be a good addition! hmmmm will have to revisit the thread. I am hoping BW is back down and that AF arrives so that you can start when planned. And girl, i will put a jiggy on it for you whenever needed...

Fee: i had never thought of the potential inherent in "i shot up in the church bathroom" definitely has "made for tv" potential. hmmmm. yes, yes, i am seeing it now. i especially enjoyed the reference to the family station wagon (ahhh, childhood ). Glad to hear E2 levels are behaving themselves.

Angie: can you tell we have really taken to the IT guy story.. kind of like a dog to a bone... like Patie, i am dying to know if he is a handsome devil. just adds depth to the story .

Thanks for the wishes, all. Just a few more hours now... not that i will be told anything .

[hopeful-in-LV]

hello girls!
really quick post for now. I have to get a few things done around here.

I just wanted to say to sassy, I wish you lot's of luck today! I have everything crossed for you and your little fighter. you may or may not have your news by now. can't wait to hear about it. remember there is always the 'real' beta.

just a quick note about the swearing. it's a pretty good f***ing stress reliever!

[sassynlv]

Hey just got my phone call. Not quite sure what to make of it.... so i am choosing not to "make" anything of it. I think they had me do the same thing w/meds this time as they did when i got my bfn (but to be honest can't really remember... thus the not "making" anything of it). They had me increase my prog pills, but decrease my PIO. Probably not good news. Now, i did a bad, bad thing this am.... know the evil hpt??? yep, i gave in (well, i had a old, old one in the back of the cupboard and it was calling my name... now that i think of it... inanimate objects calling my name... not a good sign ). *slaps own hand*. ANYWAY.... the test is like 18 mo past its expiration date... but it was neg. Know it is early, and HCG could be lower than the test can detect. When this happened last time, i was a total emotional wreck. This time, i feel very calm (what the he!! is wrong w/me? heeheehee). So will probably give in again and hpt this wkend (don't worry... went out and bought brand-spankin' new ones!). And yes, Mia... there is always the "real" beta!!

In summary... not lookin' real good right now, but it is early. Taking it in stride (how out of character!!!:roll:) ... don't know if God is preparing me for a bfn with comfort, or telling me to be patient and this will work out. Either way, it is in his hands, and there is not a d*mn thing i can do about it! (had to fit one more swear word in!

Ciao!

[vicky77]

Sassy, hahahhaa, I couldn't stop laughing when I ready your post about you laughing about Meg's post (too confusing huh??? ), that was hilarious!!!!!!

Well, I got back my results, this is unbelievable, they want the HCG levels less than 5 to consider that I am back to zero, and it turns out I have 5.2, so they want me back next week for a repeat to make sure I go below 5...........WTF, GIVE ME A BREAK (or should I say "give me a f***ing break!!!!!!!!").....and AF should be here by next week, so they better not tell me that I cannot start my next cycle because I am not back to zero because I will have to use my IVF defense for a murder case ...........ok, now I am becoming a bit scary......

Hope you all have a nice weekend....

[vicky77]

Sassy, it looks like we both posted at the same time, just read your post about your results. Well it doesn't seem bad, they are actually increasing your prog pills, so that might be good actually, why would they do that otherwise???
The HPT thing, definitely too early......and 18 months past expiration date????? .......hang in there.....

[meg12]

Sassy- You're on both prog pills and PIO? Jeepers, that's a lot of Progesterone! (I decided instead of cussing I'm going to use words like jeepers...is it as effective?) I'm thinking they just realized they had you on way too much progesterone, and so decided to ease you off of one! And an expired HPT? Are you a glutton for punishment, or what? Anyway, what's with the super early test, anyway? I'm just going to pretend it didn't happen and wait for the "real" test as Mia calls it!

Vicky--Excellent cussing. I mean, really, it was just first rate! I'm so sorry that they're messing with you---that seems ridiculous to me that they're worrying about .2---and I'd say the IVF defense would definitely hold for that scenario, so don't you worry your sweet little head (sorry, Paula Deen is on Oprah right now, so I've got the southern accent in my head!)

Bye, y'all

[wannababyIVF]

I have been so busy at work these past few days so I haven't had a chance to check in and see how everyone is doing. I have a lot of catching up to do. I will go back and read when I get some free time.

But last time I recalled this is where I come to vent or whatever....well here's a vent, a couple of them.

A coworker of mine kept asking me something at work. I told her over 10 times what the problem was. She didn't seem to believe me so she comes to my desk. At this point I'm frustrated because I shouldn't have to tell you anything 20 times. I mean, this is my specialty. This is what I do for a living. I know what I am talking about. But anyway, not sure if it were the hormones or what but as she is at my desk, I have my back turned the entire time while talking to her. I know that wasn't nice but...ah well. Then she goes to get my coworker (who happens to be a MAN) and asks him the same thing she asked me 10 times. I hear her at his desk! He is telling her the same thing I said. SO then they both come back to my desk and his exact words are..." I can't do anything different than Toni is doing. She already told you why it isn’t working. There is nothing we can do about it." Now, I just smiled on the inside. But on the outside, I wanted to slap this woman silly. Did she not trust my judgment? Did she think she needed to hear it from a man! The nerve! I wanted to slap her silly and then use my IVF as my defense.

ok..then A male friend of mine (who knows we are having issues getting pregnant) tells me that he is depressed and upset because his 8 week pregnant wife is having morning, noon and night time sickness! The thought of sex makes her sick to her stomach. He is complaining to me that it's been three weeks (since they had sex) and he's about to go crazy because she doesn't want to have sex. He said it’s so bad that he can’t concentrate at work. I wanted to just explode when he starts to tell me this. I SPECIFICALLY TOLD HIM I am not the best person to come to talk to about her pregnancy. But anyway, I told him, all you do is care about yourself! How do you think she feels? Do you think she can concentrate at work when she has to run to the bathroom to puke every two minutes? Do you think she’s feeling sexy right now? Do you think she can concentrate on anything when she can’t eat anything without getting sick? She is carrying his child (which he helped to make) and she is constantly sick. That doesn't feel good to her and all he can do is think about himself! I told him it's not going to last forever and to have some compassion. Be there for her! It was ironic for me to be telling him all this stuff when deep down inside I wish it were me 8 weeks pregnant and sick to my stomach. But I thought, he has a lot of nerve. Coming to me..OF ALL PEOPLE to complain about his pregnant wife's lack of sex drive. I think that's so hurtful for me and her. First of all I don’t really care to hear anything about her symptoms cause...it's that little bit of green envy that builds up in me. Because I wish it were me. Secondly, I have to stand up for all women in this case. It's not her fault that she doesn't have any sex drive. Get over it. Sometimes it happens, but think of the wonderful reason why...you're going to be a daddy. Does he know how many men would love to be where he is right now…sex or no sex! ARGH!!

Sorry, I just had to get that out. Maybe it's me. Maybe I am over reacting. Maybe it's the hormones.

AF started today and I am very excited (never thought I would be saying that). I go to the doctor tomorrow to check for cysts. If there are no cysts I can start my FSH on Sunday and decrease my Lupron. I didn't have any cysts last time so I am praying I don’t this time. I have a tentative appointment set up for next Friday for my first u/s and bw. I am getting nervous and excited all at the same time. I feel really good about this cycle of IVF.

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend and BFPs!

[hopeful-in-LV]

oh sassy! no you din't! the evil pee stick always will ruin your day! to be honest I found one left over from my last cycle and I am very tempted. but i think today is too early for the pee test to work, don't you? Your hpt is expired, i wouldn't count it to be accurate. hmmmm they decreased your PIO and increased the pills??? but you are still getting your PIO right? doesn't sound too bad to me. must just have to do with your p4 levels and you just need a bit of adjustment.

vicky, i'm sorry you are going through this. is there a chance the numbers wll go up? maybe that's why they are waiting. I hope the numbers do go up. good luck!

wannababy, what a pesty co-worker! I hope she gets it together for her sake. God only knows what she's in for if she doesn't. doesn't she know who she's messing with! Us spikey green ivf monsters are not to be messed with!

meg, your so cute... jeepers. You know I was thinking when i started my cycle that i better clean up my language (DH too). Because you know how they say if you have a calm peaceful happy pregnancy, your baby will be born peaceful and happy. but if you have a irritable miserable preg., your baby will be miserable and cry all the time. I'm afraid that somehow my baby will be born with a mouth like a trucker if i cuss too much.

[sassynlv]

wannababy: oooo, sorry to hear it has been rough. So WHAT is up w/your friend complaining about prego wife???? what the freak? (in the spirit of trying to find more, appropriate language ). It appears the lack of bd has clouded his mental faculties (my polite way of saying he is a stupid a**hole... ooops, there goes the whole appropriate language thing!). I, myself have noticed that without sex, men get strange.... maybe sperm backing up into the brain? (disregard that fact that this is medically impossible... reality can be very limiting...). Testicular-cerebral reflux. How's that? As for your pesty, doubting co-worker... clearly doesn't know that you are a hormonal (whether or not you are ACTUALLY on hormones right now... we still count it ) ivf woman and the ivf defense is on your side? clearly not!

Mia and Meg: i know, a TOTAL masochist, i am. At least i am a conscious masochist... a combo that is hard to find. i knew that even if it came back neg i would be ok... o/w i would have left it alone. Got some First Response ones that are supposed to test at the lowest level, so will probably do one sun (assuming i can abstain tomorrow... there are 3 in the pack... perfect, right... saturday, sun and mon. Why buy 3 and only use 2????? ). If i start feeling like it will upset me to get another neg... i will avoid for sure until mon.

oh mego, i forgot... you have been "aussieized"!!!

ciao!

[sassynlv]

Oh, sorry Vicky! I didn't go all the way back so i missed your posts . so 5.2, huh? i agree, WTF??? It seems a bit cruel to draw this out, or is it just me???

I know, why the h*ll i still have a hpt from 18 months ago is beyond me! but i was desperate this am!!!!

Ciao!

[hopeful-in-LV]

OMG!!! what have i done!!! i am excited but feel bad at the same time. Sassy, I'm so sorry i just could not control myself. after scolding you and all. what kind of sister am I please don't hate me. I had to use the bathroom and saw the HPT sitting there... taunting me. I thought to myself what the heck, why not... so i did. there is a very faint 2nd line!!!:shock: i know it's early and i swear i really was not expecting to see anything at all, but there it was! maybe implantation started early for me trying to keep my feet on the ground. Sunday is my real PG test.

[patie]

Good Morning Ladies.... Hope you are having a nice weekend...mine ended! and i am still suffering from that awful flu...

Well Sassy... try to fight the temptations of hpts....they are evil!!! especially expired ones.... ...

Meg, in Dubai arabic is the main language however english is the second language and since its a cosmo city we mainly speak english... we speak arabic among family and friends and local people... you made me laugh so hard about not prepping yourself for the scan...but i am sure u looked great!!! and super news about the heart...

Vicky...it seems very frustrating what u r going through with the beta levels...i mean u r right!!! enough... but come to think of it the long wait is almost over and its a matter of few days and you'll be back on track... hang in there lady....

Mia... i hope this will turn into a dark and clear second line.... i wish you all the best and i'll be praying for you for the BFP....hugs

Fee...how are you??

Wannababy... If i were you i think i'd have screamed at that ladies' face!!! as for your other friend... how cold of him!! he's so selfish.... i wish he get morning sickness for one day to see how annoying they are (not that i've tried it....but from what i heard...)....men....(at least not all of them.... I bet our DH are super....

take care ladies and enjoy your weekend....

[sassynlv]

Mia: oh, yes, you too are hearing inanimate objects talking to you . Well a big "woooo hoooo!". that is fab! (although slap on the hand just for appearances sake ... but then again, who am i to talk... at least you used one that wasn't expired!). I am so excited for you!!! And no, no hatin' going on here. ooooo, here's to that faint line becoming a dark line becoming a screaming newborn! Brava!

Patie: soo sorry to hear the flu is sticking around. I suppose at this point your wkend is drawing to a close...

Had a great evening tonight... dinner and a movie on the big screen w/bil and sil. Their 4 kids are my "babies" although as the oldest is turning 9, he doesn't like hearing it . 9 mo old girl twins so much fun to play with. Got my niece/nephew fix for a few more days!

Hoping everyone has/had a great wkend!

[vicky77]

First of.....OMG MIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, this is sooooooooo great!!!!!!!. Congratulations!!!!!, I am eager now to read your numbers on Sunday, they must be really strong!!!!!!!

Patie, what do you mean your weekend ended??, what day is it there in Dubai???, I received yesterday an email about Dubai's architectural bloom, I was impressed, it is amazing all the beatiful construction over there, it seems like a paradise!!!!!, that hotel, don't remember the name, one that is in the middel of the water..mmmmm, hope you know which one, it is unbelievable!!!!......

Still no signs of evil AF.......maybe I should stop cursing her and she will show up.......

[sassynlv]

oh, ladies, i have been a bad, bad Sister! Used a fred this am... a "fresh one! (now 8dp6dt) and still no second line. I know, i know, still hope and i am clinging to it. Had a good heart to heart w/dh. Have a baby blessing tomorrow to go to... IF i poas again tomorrow, will do it REALLY early in the am so i have time for a good cry before going. Just HATE being surprised by bad news... would rather know well ahead of time to prepare myself.

Ciao!