For your wonderful wishes and support during this x x x
I still can't quite believe it My beta of 13 dp fertilisation was a low 20 so bloods have been taken again this morning...I now have another 2-3 day wait until i find out if beta is doubling...
I have been here at this stage twice before ( tho not in the womb) but have so much HOPE and FAITH in this fighter embie...we are gonna make it x x x
You guys are truley fantastic thank you ...
love and tearful hugs of joy to ya all
jen B
xxxxxx
[b]2 natural preg,both ectopics.
3 IVF's 2005/6 all BFNs
4th Nov07- BFP! lost @ 5wks 6d
5th FET-Feb08 BFN
In my dreams...May 2010 DE Athens[/b]
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sorry that i have some heart breaking news, my beta has dropped...Its sad that its all over for this little embie....little one Loved and lost...
the next step is to stop the meds( already done) and Af should arrive in 3-4 days .If not will need a scan then D&C. The clinic said that i should bleed ok as only 5 wks gone, they also said we have been unlucky...
yeah I know that script already. As we have been through this twice before....The only consolation ( spelling???) is that this has been lost at 5 wks and not later on where i know it can be more heart breaking ( as those who have had m/c know only to well x x x)
we have decided to wait until DH's busy schedule at work is over ( Nov-dec) and go for FET in Jan.
the only good thing to come out of this is to say at least i did get preg and I gotta hold onto that...
but as you all know Grief hurts like hell...and time is the only way to mend my & Dh's broken hearts. We have each other and that is a Blessing.
unfortunaltely ,my Parents in law are due up tomorrow for 4 days. Nightmare to have to be so vulnerable to them but Will need to tell them as i will be in floods of tears for a few days...
will catch up with you all soon...
much love to you my buddies my friends my support network . thanks for being there for me
much love to you all as always
love jen
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[b]2 natural preg,both ectopics.
3 IVF's 2005/6 all BFNs
4th Nov07- BFP! lost @ 5wks 6d
5th FET-Feb08 BFN
In my dreams...May 2010 DE Athens[/b]
[img]http://tickers.TickerFactory.com/ezt/d/2;54;101/st/20081012/n/Puppy+Dara+/dt/6/k/fda0/age.png[/img]
As i said before via tx, i am gutted for you and cant stop thinking about how much you must be hurting. Take time with dh and have lots of hugs.
Am so sad for you, this is just so unfair. Makes me mad as we all had so many hopes and dreams about IM. I will keep praying that they come true, maybe its just going to take some time.
Am here for you anytime you need a cry, vent or chat
Love Jen x
me 38 dh 38, ttc for 6yrs,
HSG - Tubes Damaged
Bilateral Salpingectomy, 16th Aug 06,
Hysteroscopy - 30th Oct 07
4 IVF - BFN, 3 ED - BFN
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JenB - I am so crushed for you. Why does this process have to be so cruel? It is good that you'll take a bit of time to grieve and then come back to your FET with renewed hope. Chemical pregnancies are so hard but as you said, easier now than in 5-7 weeks - not that it makes it easier to deal with now.
It will happen for you and DH - it is just a matter of time!
Take care and big hugs to you!
7 IVF cycles - 2 chemicals, 5 BFN
1 FET cycle - BFN
9th IVF cycle - BFP!! Twins born Sept 18/08
Trying again May 2010!!!
started bleed on saturday and it was heartbreaking to go thorugh so much pain ( physical and emotional)...as many of you know all too well.
just grieving and taking everyday, 1 day at a time. Acu has helped and all of you buddies have been wondefull..
hoping and praying our FET brings us much needed 9 months of joy in 2008...
BFP's for us all
love jen xxx
[b]2 natural preg,both ectopics.
3 IVF's 2005/6 all BFNs
4th Nov07- BFP! lost @ 5wks 6d
5th FET-Feb08 BFN
In my dreams...May 2010 DE Athens[/b]
[img]http://tickers.TickerFactory.com/ezt/d/2;54;101/st/20081012/n/Puppy+Dara+/dt/6/k/fda0/age.png[/img]
My beta of 13 dp fertilisation was a low 20 so bloods have been taken again this morning...I now have another 2-3 day wait until i find out if beta is doubling...
