Summer cycle group

[karin1]

Wow....alot going on today! I have been busy all day. My DH and Hannah are going on a father/daughter camping trip with our church. I had to get them packed and ready. I also had an appt for the talk with my RE. Yesterday was so hard. I cried so much last night. I am not usually such an emotional person, but this is really getting to me. We sat down with my RE and he said that we can try a few different things, but he wants us to explore egg donor. We said that we want to try for our own first. He said that the ED process can take some time. First with picking a donor, the legal stuff and getting our cycles to be in sync. We've decided to do another cycle with my own and start the ED process at the same time. He said that he usually doesn't do back to back cycles, but didn't think it would make a difference for me. He will check me for antral follicles when AF comes and if there's more than one, then I will start meds. If not, then we might not. Not sure what protocol we will use. Has anyone done back to back IVF cycles? I am really trying to be open about the whole thing. I think that if I can't have one from me, then I would at least like it to be his. He would be devastated if he didn't have biological kids. I can't believe this is my life. I really can't. I never thought it would even come close to this.

Tiger--I am wondering about you! Did you get a beta this morning?

To_have-fun--Don't give up on your little guys. This could be the one for you. You've had a long road and you haven't given up yet. I really appreciate your advice about ED. It really helped me when I had to have the talk with my RE. You made me realize that I didn't want to have any regret. I think that if I ever get pregnant, donor or my own, that I wouldn't care. It would be ours no matter what. Hang in there! PMA...PMA...PMA!

Amanda--I know how you feel about the sex. I think we all feel the same way. My DH and I have had less sex since ttc than we did before trying. My DH travels alot.... the stress of ttc...plus the 2ww's....and the abstinence a few days before IUI or IVF. Things are definitely different.

Lou--I am with you on the acupuncture. I don't really like it either. I only do it because they say it helps...that's it. Go out and have a beer! You deserve it!

Lauren--Bon Jovi....awesome! I'm jealous! Have fun!

Renee--Your almost there. One more week to go!

Didi- When will you POAS? It's addictive! Once you start, you can't stop. Good luck! Let us know!

Annashope--Your numbers are rising and that's great. You have to have faith. Prove your RE wrong. Stay positive.

Miyaya--Trigger tonight! Your numbers look good. Have some gatorade!

GoGirl--Welcome!

Franny--My heart hurts for you. Maybe it's old blood. Don't get discouraged. I'm praying for you.

[Lauren1171]

Franny - I am praying that it's implantation blood or just random spotting! Sending you lots of PMA!!!

[katie99]

Franny - How much PIO are you on? Have they checked your progesterone (P4) levels since the ET? Are you taking just the injections, or injections plus suppositories? I know you're getting upset at the spotting, but it is brown, right? meaning old blood. I had some spotting (brown) also and it ruined my PMA, plus I was crampy every single day from the ET until maybe 5 weeks. Actually at 6dp5dt I was soooo crampy that I was convinced that AF was coming, at one point I had the sort of cramps that make you want to double over. Please dont let the rest of the wait destroy you. You know as well as I do that all these signs & symptoms can be caused by a few differnt things. I'm sending you as much patience dust as I can - I love ya girl and hate to hear you so upset - please hang on a bit longer - and stay away from those darn sticks! - much love to you my friend - xoxo

Lou - I miss you loads! I'm super excited that you've got the green light to start stimming tomorrow! And whew! for meds at the last minute! i'm praying that you get to wake up all your AFC and have a damn egg frenzy! Stalking you as always - xoxo

Tammy - Yippee for getting your insurance co & your meds all squared away! Think you're starting tom too? I'm crossed for you to get a basket full!

Miyaya - Oh honey you be really careful of OHSS please, if you have trouble breathing, or have trouble passing urine you call your RE ASAP, ok?

Chris & Karin - I second everything that Franny said about donor embies, if it comes down to finances, the difference between DE (20-30K) and donor embies 3-5K, well i know its a personal decision, and a tough one, but if you can get over the not having the same DNA, its another option to think of, I just hate to see women say they're done when they are options like this out there. If I wouldnt have gone with donor embies, I wouldnt be pg right now. If you have questions or just need to vent, PM me. big hugs to you both - xoxo

Hi Lauren1171, Hi Tiger, Hi Ester - I'm wishing you all good luck! - xoxo

[kbillsy]

Hi Ladies! Sorry to jump into this group so late but it is the only IVF cycle I'm seeing for people just getting started - it looks like a few of your are just getting started on your stimulation meds too. I just started my 2nd cycle. Last cycle I did not join any cycle groups, but after realizing how many questions come up along the way, and what highs and lows there are... I thought it would be nice to join one so I can chat with others that are going through the same things.

I'm 33 - my husband and I have no kids and have been TTC for 3 years now. We've had lots of ovulation kits and pregnancy tests, 2 IUI's last year - 1 canceled/1 failed, and 1 IVF back in June that didn't yield any fertilized embryos so there was no transfer So here we go again - just did a few weeks of BCP, then Lupron only for last week and just started Gonal F and Menopur tonight. I'm excited for the fresh start and am really hoping IVF works for us this time around!!!

Good luck to all you cycling now too - I am getting caught up on your posts tonight and look forward to sharing this experience with you all!

[chilipepperrose46]

Hi Karin,
My heart goes out to you. You've been through alot already and to have just another heartache must be so discouraging. I know exactly how you feel. The first thing out of my RE's mouth was "maybe you should consider an egg donor". My DH felt very strongly that he wanted the baby to be both of ours. I had hoped that would be the case. But the more I research, my age seems to be standing in the way. We will try again but things don't look promising with my eggs. I'm trying to convince him that the child will be his and I will love it either way. It's a very tough decision to make. We are very fortunate that the RE clinic has a small bank of egg donors to choose from and it's not as expensive as a private agency. Check with your RE to see if they have a similar program. Explore all your options before you let the process consume you any more than it has. I cried alot too that first night. I just keep looking at the big picture of my life and I keep moving along. Try to keep that PMA going. Good luck to you.
Big hugs for you!
Chili

[karin1]

Chili...thanks for your kind words. They mean so much at a time like this. Especially since you know how I feel. My RE says I have a 10% chance with my eggs and 60-70% with donor. My DH and I have decided that we don't want to wait too long. We want more than one child and the clock is ticking. He is actually okay with DE because he is afraid that if we don't get pg soon that my time will run out. Well...I wouldn't say okay with it...but really wants biological children of his own. I agree with him. If I can't have it, at least he should. I have to admit that it's hard to wrap my brain around the whole thing. I swear that I can't think of anything else. My RE has a small bank of donors too, but it's still about 30k depending on the donor. If they are a proven donor they can charge up to 10k. I don't think that my DH cares how much it costs as long as we get pg. I've already started looking at his selection and only saw one that maybe I would consider...maybe. Now I look at every young girl on the street and think...if she were a donor...would I do it? That's how crazy this is making me. I hope that your RE can come up with something that works for you. If not, maybe you can convince your DH into DE. If it's okay with you, then maybe it will be easier for him to get there. I am praying for you.



Katie99--First of all....Congrats on your pregnancy! That's awesome! I really appreciate your advice about embryo adoption. I am so glad that it worked for you. I don't think that it something that we can do right now. My DH really wants biological children of his own. I'm not saying its out of the question, but I think that embryo adoption would be a last resort for us. I really want one of us to be genetically linked if possible. I think that your story is beautiful. Thanks for sharing.

[klinger13]

kbillsy - Welcome to the thread and hope you have good luck this cycle!!!

Sonya - Hope your u/s yesterday went well! Hope to see you post some good news today!

[DandMe]

No good news for me.. u/s showed a gestational sac measuring 5.5 weeks, but nothing else. I'm not sure what we will do from here. Thank you all for your support. And. good luck

[GoGirl]

Thank you all for your warm welcome.

It may take me awhile to be able to individualize my replies since I still have a lot of catching up to do.

I know a few of you are feeling a bit discouraged right now. Hope its comforting to know that you are in my thoughts.

I started a mind body program through my clinic and have been finding it helpful. I know it won't necessarily help me to conceive but will at least help me cope with all the physical and emotional feelings that this journey brings. I am learning to meditate, be more mindful, and take care of myself. I'm also trying to keep busy. All this waiting around feels like forever. I am eager to start my medication because I at least feel like I am doing something and it gives me a sense of control. I start Lupron on July 29.

Before starting this cycle my RE removed a uterine polyp that was the size of a pea and directly in the spot that the embryo would normally implant. It was the worse procedure by far and rather traumatizing. I love my RE but he isn't very gentle with placing the speculum. Anyway, I am hopeful that now that the polyp has been removed there is a clear spot for my embryo to implant and grow. That keeps me going...

Wishing you all well. I am going to enjoy the sun today and get on the boat my DH and I share with another couple.

[dlk]

Sonya: I am so sorry. ((Hugs))

Kbillsy: Welcome! We seem to have a a run of bad luck lately but I am hopefully that we will get a bunch of great news soon.

Franny: Get out of crazy town!!!!!!! This time is different. It is starting earlier, at the time implantation bleeding should occur. You have 2 great embies! Try to keep ypour PMA.

Karin and Chili: I am glad you are both considering different options and I hope that each of you have success with whatever you decide.

AFM: Well I POAS. Same as yesterday. Negative at first, then faint line an hour later. No more HPT left. I guess I need to go buy more crack sticks. I only need 3 more. Yeah the 2ww is almost over. Luckily, I didn't get too crazy in my 2ww until the end. I have felt light headed and some nausea, but it may likely be nerves. Hoping for the best, but have my backup plan in place of FET with my frostie.

[miyaya]

No good news for me.. u/s showed a gestational sac measuring 5.5 weeks, but nothing else. I'm not sure what we will do from here. Thank you all for your support. And. good luck

Ugh, I am so sorry Sonya! I truly am. I was so hopeful this would be a good outcome for you. Please know we are here for you. Take your time, plan your next course of action. This just is not fair.....

[karin1]

Sonya....I am so sorry. I can't even imagine how your feeling. We're here to listen.

Lots of love and prayers going out for you....

[fitzjr11]

Hi there- anyone else find them selves sitting out of events involving kids? a friend of mine is having her kids 1st bday and i cant find it in myself to go, shes not married to kids father, they are not happily together and the kid was not planned. I think for my well being i will call and say i dont feel well and stay home in ac w/ the dog. DH is wking till 4 i told him he can go if he wants

[klinger13]

Oh Sonya, I'm so very sorry.

[jeandawga]

Hi Sonya,

I am so very sorry to hear your news. My condolences to you and your husband. I hope your RE can give you some insight into why this has happened and what you can do to hopefully get a different outcome next time.