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were are you off to? big sigh... It's so difficult when your body doesn't respond like everyone elses...i can't understand it as i got preg twice naturally...just both were ecotpic...anyway I AM FULL OF TRUST and FAITH that we will get there!!!! PMA PMA PMA...hope you like the 
) What a hard day you had Friday, I think you were incredible to hold your self together until you got to your car. Life is unfair but it has certainly made all of us stronger people. I think its good to have something to focus on even if it is big brother!! That’s my excuse for watching it. My AF has always been worse after a BFN, I don’t know if there is a reason for it but it always feels like another kick in the teeth. 
Good for you booking flights to see your Mum, its hard not having your Mum around isn’t it, mine lives in Cyprus and I am really pleased she is so happy over there but at times I just want a big hug from her.
and as you say what a wimp Nicki is, her whiney voice drives me mad. I wonder if they will have an eviction before Friday and when does the Kit Kat winner go in? Its not quite un-medicated because I take clomid from Day 2 to day 6. Our thawing odds aren’t great so we could get to ET and the embryo doesn’t survive but it’s the chance we take and also they don’t do ET for FET’s on a Saturday or Sunday so if I ovulate at the wrong time we would have to miss that month. 
So I am getting straight back on the rollercoaster and will be having an attempt at FET when my next AF arrives in approx 2 weeks. God its scary. 
So sorry it wasn't your cycle. Good for you, being positive and looking forward, but please give yourself time (and permission) to grieve, it's needed to heal better.
Was a bit quick and the little thing was a bit hidden beneath my bladder, but all seems to be fine (normal-looking and heart beating!) and Dr. said baby was big! 
I hate this sinking feeling of not knowing. i have beeen doing so good and today i am so scared and low...I have EC tomorrow ( thursday) at 9.30 am so at least it is early. I am trying hard to keep the faith and work that PMA...slowly but surley i will get there. keep telling myself i have done all i can so i just gotta sit ( or lie as it's EC )it out...On a pos note ADAM is due home tonight for 5 days until monday night...so i will be giving and getting hugs galore... So after that all that is left is to find out if we are being funded. Should hear next month about that so you never know all it not lost yet for start date at end June for 1st diui 
All our prayers are with you. 