Cycling In 2012 Board (formerly Fall/Winter 2011-2012)

[jayne321]

Nicole~ yay for transfer. I'm looking forward to your beta.

Ninde~ I'm stimming w you. I'm on day 2 and also taking Menopur. I already look 3 months pregnant. I'm taking 225.

Maria~ Can't believe you're 35 weeks. It feels like it has gone by so quickly (easy for me to say). I would secretly love twin girls. Super happy for you.

[kynlee]

blueeye- Beautiful embies

Wehavehope- Its awesomet hat you made it too 35 weeks I am sure you are getting closer to your delivery date... Glad everything is ready for the twins, get your rest these next few days you will need it

Madame- I am not sure what green means either but I know when I looked up mucous in general it says it could come in white light brown and green.. Did you ask the nurse?

ninde- Sorry your tummy is already feeling heavy, I think its the dose you are on your Ovaries are on overdrive.... Start drinking Gaterade it will help

Dys24- congrats I will be praying for your Numbers to double

Lauren- That totally sucks that you didnt hear from your Drs office on the Donor, that must of made for a long weekend... Hopefully you will get some answers today...

AFM- I so dont know how people eat the right things being pregnant it seems everything I look up is a no no.... Like I had balsamic Vinegar never thought that would be a issue but when reading up on it, its says it could harm fetus... UGH!!!! They should just have a list of DO's so it could be much easier to cook... Anyways I been so emotional lately so not me I am crying at TV shows was crying over a Christian Song I heard while driving in so not use to crying like this lol

[Waitingkay]

Christy - I will not buy anything in big containers nonono! I'm so afraid of being a cow, especially since if everything goes right I'll have to be on bed rest from the end of the first trimester. I guess it's only healthy food for me, and the 6..7 okay more than that olives whenever it doesn't count. 5 times a day. How does it go with your neighbors and their reduced livestock?

Kynlee - Oh yes, emotional...A week ago there was evidence of mice in the house. DH placed some traps. In the middle of the night I woke up to some noises, started crying almost hysterically to DH what if it's a pour mouse stuck there in a trap all scared and squeaky. I would not calm down until he went checking and told me over a hundred times no mouse was trapped yet - I was relieved and could sleep better

Ninde - I know about my signature. It may sound a little strange...when we lost our baby a year ago in July, removing my ticker on which I was counting the days was one of the most painful things I had to do, like sometimes the symbolic things are. I consider putting a ticker and perhaps changing my signature even sooner, but with your understanding ladies - this may either happen or not after a few more milestones...rather many.
How are you feeling? Bloated is hard at work!!!

Hugs

[Pocos]

kynlee - I am tired of all the tests but I am trying to focus on my next cycle, hopefully I can start after my next period.

Nine - Yes, i had an egg reserve test and it came back very good according to the doctor. I am 30 years old, maybe that's why?

WaitingKay - Thanks for explaining about these tests! I hope we dont have any bad news on these tests so I can start my next cycle asap.

Alwaysangel - Looking forward for your u/s!! Aug 16 is my father's birthday too

Nicole - congrats PUPO! Those are beautiful embies!

Cookie - Congrats on being PUPO!!

WeHaveHope - Congrats on the 35 weeks!! I love the twins names! Thank you for the prayers, and please continue to pray for me, I hope I can start another cycle next month.

dys24 - Congrats on your positive BETA!! yay!

LauraN- Awee I know how you feel, this whole infertility road is really emotional for us. Are you feeling better from the allergies?

AFM - We did the karyotype blood test last week and are waiting for he saliva kit to come in the mail. Hopefully we'll have the results asap so I can start another cycle. For now I am trying to focus on my next cycle, I need to go back to the gym and start eating healthy again. Hopefully another ICSI in Sept/Oct!

[kynlee]

Hey Girls I know this is the toughest Journey anyone could imagine and no one can understand our pain more then us, but wanted to share a song that i listen to everyday and I thought it was such a coincidence that someone had inbox me today asking if I ever heard it... I am a true believer in God so he has been my Rock through all of this... Hope you girls dont mind me posting it but wanted to share it Its even prettier to listen to if you have a chance to Youtube it

Its called Ill praise you in this storm by casting crowns...

I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

[Chorus:]
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

[Chorus]

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

[Pocos]

Kynlee,

I listen to this song almost everyday. I reminds me that its very easy to praise God when everything is ok in our lives (we are healthy, we have jobs, etc) but the challenge comes when we are going through difficult times... I know God has a plan for all of us, after the storm comes the sun!

[Tiger04]

Ninde – I am definitely resting. I think I slept the whole weekend away…between sleeping and the nausea. Wow! I hope you don’t have a headache anymore! How are you doing?

Always – fantastic beta my friend!!! Only 3 more days until your U/S!! I have the sickness too…boo…but I can’t complain!

Blueeye – awesome embabies! Look perfect to me! Only 10 more days! I can relate on the inlaws…sending you relaxing vibes.

Wehavehope – how wonderful that you are ready with everything! They will be here soon! Love the names 

Dys – it’s a positive!! Congratulations!!! 71 is a good number! It’s all about the doubling, not the number! Fingers crossed for Tuesday!

LauraN – totally understandable to be emotional…I’m so sorry!

Kay – I’m good! Just thankful each day as I vomit...how are you doing?

AFM: tomorrow is the big day! Can’t wait!!!

[to_have_fun08]

Tiger - Good Luck tomorrow!!!!

[kynlee]

Tiger- Good luck tomorrow

[Ninde]

Hi ladies

Nicole: im definately a bit better today. Still bloated but dizziness not as bad, but now my right side hurts!! I guess that means im responding though? Im really glad your in laws are being nice. And that was such a lovely photo on facebook

Christy: sounds lovely - we dont really do cornbread

Christy: did you write the letter?

Jayne: yay, you are stimming too i dont think I like menopur 450

Tiger: good luck tomorrow

Kynlee: I thought gatorade just was for overstimming? Are there that many foods you cant eat?

Waiting kay: I totally understand and im really sorry that i didnt think of that. How are you feeling? My right side hurts

Pocos: that's great the test came back so good

Maria: good luck tomorrow x

Afm: definately better today. Dizziness not so bad. My tummy is still bloated and my right side hurts but maybe that means im responding? Follicle check tomorrow

Ni de

[blueeyedreamer]

Patricia, thanks. That pic was taken at my Halloween party. My friend's baby was dressed as rapunzel. So cute. They had only had her for a couple of weeks at that time. Now we will be celebrating her first birthday next weekend. I hope they get to be her forever family. Her bio mom is very young and has no support system.

Afm, still trying to take it easy. I still feel good about this cycle and am going to consider myself pg. I'm hoping the mental imagery will keep my embies happy. I'm sad because 3 of the 4 remaining embies are gone. If the 1 remaining looks ok tomorrow then it will freeze.

Do you think the difference in protocols made my embryos not as good? Last year we had 9 of 9 fertilize and 5 go to blast and all great quality. This time we had 6 fertilize (of 10), 2 good ones implanted and 1 holding on. The last 4 were rated marginal.

[Sunshine1576]

Patricia- I hope you are responding well to the meds...I know tomorrow will tell us so much, you must be getting close to retrieval? Yes I wrote the letter and dropped it into their mailbox this morning... Told them we are truly sorry for Blackjack's misbehavior we know how much those chicks mean to them...That we will keep Vegas and Blackjack on leashes from here on out and if there is anything we may do here is my cell phone number. We don't want our dogs being a nuisance because we think alot of our neighbors and really do care. I took some purple liliac flowers with purple ribbon and wrote their names on the envelope and hotglued the bouquet to the front, it turned out cuter then something I could of purchased at Hallmark. Friends who know me know I always handmake cards because I get a kick of creating stuff out of something around the house. But anyway I think we will be ok as long as our labrador retrievers don't disturb anyone else. I ran into Sara and Belles (my old neighbors) today at my boutique and I'm planning on getting together with Belles tomorrow before school starts back.

Nicole- It's hard to analyze the cycle until it's over because as of right now you still have a chance and we want nothing more then to make this work so as far as I'm concerned until anyone says anything more you are pregnant.

Kynlee- What does your clinic recommend, maybe just making sure you are following the food pryamid with good protein sources, vegetables and fruits.... I will definately be looking up that song and playing it from Youtube tonight, thank you for sharing with us too.

TIger- Yay tomorrow is a very big day for you!!!

AFM: AF arrived this morning...told my boss today that I'm trying to keep the faith and patience because it's been over 2 yrs since our last pregnancy and even though that was by miracle. I shared with her my dream I had over the weekend that we went back to my old clinic and they told me I was pregnant it felt so real. Then the next day I figured out why I had that dream was because one my former co-workers (who also dealt with a miscarriage) had her baby over the weekend. I remember reading on facebook that night Isaiah 77.9 : "I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born, said the Lord." I honestly think I cannot wait until November to cycle! As for dh he received his renewal contract in the mail stating this is his last year with the college and it will not be renewed in 2013, It's making the termination more official and even though we knew this was coming it's hard to let go esp- when he's invested so much of his time and dedication at this college. I wish we could move on but it at least it's buying him time to find something else.

[leorira11]

Big day today!

Good luck to Chris and Tiger!

I'm stalking for results already, even though most of you are still asleep!

[Ninde]

Ladies

Just had follicle check. After 6 nights of stimms I only have 5 follicles and they are large at 14mm. Has anyone ever had this and things have been OK?

Ninde

[WeHaveHope]

Chris, Tiger, and Leora-Just popping in to wish you all the best today with your u/s. I'll be praying for each of you. Please keep us posted and post pics if you can.

Ninde-I read your post. I recall having follies between 18-22mm but I don't recall at what point in the stimming process they were that size. Do you recall how many follies and what average size they were around this time with your last two cycles? Also, what did your RE think? I'll be praying off you. I so much want this to work for you. Sending you a great big overseas hug.

AFM-I was reading the first post I posted on this board when I started it on August 8, 2011. I still can't believe it's been that long. I cried when I read my own words. It was such a difficult time in my life. But with the support of everyone on this same journey I was able to make it through that time and several other very difficult and heart wrenching moments in this journey. Friends, miracles do happen and they happen everyday all around us. We just have to believe. Below is a copy of the my first post on this board, the post that started this board a year ago. I pray that this board has been able to provide all of you a place of comfort, support, inspiration, new found friendships, hope, faith, and love. Sending all of you my love and never-ending support.


Posted by WeHaveHope (me) on August 8, 2011
"I have just started this board in order to be able to begin moving on. I just had a MC last week and felt like the world was closing in around. After a failed IUI, a canceled fresh IVF cycle due to OHSS, a BFN, and a BFN with my 1st FET I realy thought this was it. On July 20th we transferred two beautiful looking blasts. And to my surprise, I got a positive with a HPT only 4 days after my transfer. My 1st Beta was 275 and the 2nd Beta 1513. Two days after that Beta I began to bleed heavily and I knew in my heart that I had lost both of my little ones. Since then the Beta has fallen sharply an today it was just 428. I am officially at the end of this road and off of all of my meds.

This may be the end of this road but not the end of my journey. This journey can be very difficult and cruel at times. But I will not give up in my dream. If you are looking for a board where you will receive the love and support of ladies who are on the same emotional rollercoaster than this is the board to join. If you are looking for a board where you can share your stories with others and provide support to others in need then this is the board to join. If the Fall of 2011 is your time for a miracle then join this board."