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sonu911
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Ok ladies, I am back!! :)
Thanks for being there with during my most difficult times!! I can never really be over it...but you guys really helped me through. I love you all.

Nic - I am so happy for you. Wishing you all the luck in the world for this one.

Kbat - Don't worry, dear---our time is coming soon. :)

Hrobinson - No worries, dear. I am ready to be your co-cycler, so we can share our tits and bits.
keep your fears aside, this has to work this time.

Hope, Mia, Chris...where are you guys???
Mia must be vacationing. :)
Chris - wats up with u, dear?

As for me, all the 'products of conception' are out of my body but I wonder if it ever will be out of my mind. This was my first conception, and I had already woven so many dreams around my little angel.

I am already ready for my next cycle. I need prayers and good wishes from you all.

(((HUGS)))
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Hi Sonu - so glad to see you back on the board - - my thoughts have been with you and DH through this difficult time - time will heal but you will never forget and that is not a bad thing- big hugs((()))

I start down regging tom - am excited and scared at the same time - keep me in your prayers pleae

Much love Carolyn xxx
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Post by Hope644 »

Hello there dear sisters...

I've missed you all very much but I've continued to keep you all in my prayers...

Especially you, Sonu - Sweetie, I am so sorry for your loss. Unfortunately there are many of us who know how devistating it can be. It breaks my heart to see anyone go through this, especially someone I've become close to. My heart really does ache for you... but I'm glad to see you're starting to rejoin us - which is a very good thing!! I know God has given us to one another to be there in good times and bad. Know you are loved and have all our support.

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kbat - thinking of you too sweetie. Even though we know the odds, it doesn't take away the disappointment and pain when AF shows her ugly head. Keep your head up and your eyes on Him. Image

Hrobinson - Congratulations on getting ready to start your estrace for the FET!! Very exciting. You sound so positive. I pray that you will put your trust fully in Him, as you embark on this new portion of your journey and that He will bless you richly. As far as the estrace goes - it may do more, but I know it helps to increase the estrogen level in your body and prepare your uterus for implantation. I had to take it from ER until 10 wks pg. Since I've never had a FET, I'm not sure exactly how it works before the ET. Wishing you all the best!

Nic - I am so glad the bleeding stopped and you have moved on to see a beautiful heart beat in the U/S! That is fanastic news! Keep up that PMA and keep praising Him for his goodness! So happy for you!!! I know what a blessing and huge RELIEF it is to make it past the milestone from the previous pg... I know I nearly bounced off the examination table when we saw that our little one had grown and was going strong at the 8wk u/s. I am SOOOO happy that you have passed your scary date as well!!! Praise God!!

Mia, Chriss, Dean sisters, Indie - how are you ladies??? We must all be busy bees with the spring arriving. Please let us know how you all are doing!!

I want to thank you all for all your prayers for my grandmother. She is the reason I have been away for so long. I went to visit her and help my mother and sisters care for her (though she is in the hospital - we are the type of family who has someone in attendance 24/7 - too many bad experiences with my grandfather, who passed 11 yrs ago). She has had a tough few weeks, but finally moved out of ICU to the step-down unit, where she remains for now. It's been one of those difficult situations where they find something else wrong nearly every day. Finally, after insisting on specialists, we have finally discovered as of today that she has Lymphoma - though we will have to wait until Monday to find out exactly what kind and how much it has spread. She is a tough cookie and has always been an inspiration to me with her strength and courage. She survived breast cancer 10 years ago and of course, we were pleased when we found out that it had not returned. I know she has it in her to survive this too, if it is God's will. Though I know we can't all live forever and when she goes, she will go HOME to be with the Lord... I am still not ready for her to go... I have always imagined she would be one of those on the Smucker's 100 year old birthdays - she's just that kind of trooper. Please continue to keep her in your prayers - along with my family, especially my mother, who insists on staying by her side from sun up til way past sun down (fortunately, we have been able to make her go home for the nights).

As for me, which seems to pale by comparison, everything is fine. I praise God that I'm still having m/s all day and many nights... but it helps me to know my little nugget is hanging on and growing strong. Though I hope that it will start to fade soon... the m/s, that is! I am in my last week of the 1st trimester, so I'm so very grateful to the Lord for allowing me to continue to carry our child. I will call on Monday to schedule my Nuchal Translucency U/S and bloodwork for sometime next week or the following.

I hope you all are having a blessed weekend. Praise be to Him!

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Carolyn -Thanks buddy, for checking on me.
I am so happy for you and sending lots and lots of BFP dust your way. And ..yes...just wanted to remind you and myself..:)
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Hope - Thanks for those wonderful words!! :)
I am praying for your grandmom.

(((hUGS)))
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This thread is very quiet for sometime now.

Indieblue - While looking at other threads, I found out that you started downregging and are waiting for AF...:) and so you need another jig.
I am praying for you, friend and missing you here.

Hope - How is your fighter granny now? Wishing you the best for the nuchal testing. Don't you worry, everything has to be just perfect!!!

Chris - Where are you? Missing you and thinking abt you. Are we going to cycle together?? :)

Kbat - what's going on, dear? this is another month, so another hope for us!!

Nic - How are you. dear?
I am going to meet my doc on Wednesday to discuss another cycle. I don't want to wait. :) When he gave me the news that it is all over, he added that he was happy to see my reproductive system working and that my chances of getting BFP again is increased. This has given me a lot of hope.

Prayers and love to all.
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Post by kbat »

Sorry I haven't been on lately. Took some R&R up in Maine on Moosehead Lake--very beautiful part of the country and really relaxing. Doing the ovulation testing, and I am on day 11 or 12, so I would think toward the end of the week I will be ovulating and then hopefully we'll make a little miracle. Still doing acupuncture.

Going for job interview tomorrow. While I am not giving up hope that I will have a child(ren), I think it's better to kind of move on w/ my life and if God still wants me to have a child He'll make it happen. But in the meantime, I think it would be a good idea to be out there doing something w/ my life instead of dwelling on this issue. If it's meant for me to have a baby, then I trust in God to make it happen.
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Hello all. I just wanted to take a moment to post an apology to you all. I went back and read my original post on home births and epidurals and while I was trying to keep things humorous and trying to find the lighter side of the discussion I may have said some things that hurt feelings. I never intended to do that....but again, sometimes my attempt at humor in these stressful topics only compounds the already touchy subject. So I'm sorry, to you Mia and anyone else who took offense to what I wrote.

I also wanted to thank Heather, Sonu, Hope and the other girls for continuing to pray for me and for asking about my current progress :) I'm glad to know that I was missed....even if it was by my own choice, avoiding a situation I felt I'd contributed to. I see that things have moved on though...and I'm glad :)

Sonu: I am so sad that you are having to face another cycle Sonu....but I am so glad that God has given you the strength to continue to pursue your ultimate dream of becoming a mom.

Hope, glad that your pregnancy is still progressing and that you're finding the silver lining in all that m/s, it's hard but I'm glad you're finding it to be a blessing :)

Nic, I'm glad to hear that your pregnancy has progressed too, and without anymore scares :)

Carolyn: I'll be watching to see how your shots go....it is scary, but the excitement really overtakes that after you start the shots :)

KBat: Will be praying for you, I know this has to be a difficult time.

Heather: Well, we've covered everything I think LOL

Well, again I just wanted to check in and say I was sorry for leaving the group in such a 'hissy' LOL, I really just don't like controversy so I usually walk away when faced with it. I am truly sorry for contributing to it at all though....and causing a slight rift in our wonderful group of Christian ladies.

May God bless you all with BFP's in the near future....I know he will :)

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IndieBlue--
glad to see you back!!! Hope and Sonu and the rest of you ladies--Thanks so much for your prayers. I know that God has sent me all you lovely ladies to go through this with. I am glad that we are all here to support each other. It does help....
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sonu911 wrote: Indieblue - While looking at other threads, I found out that you started downregging and are waiting for AF...:) and so you need another jig.
I am praying for you, friend and missing you here.
Sonu, thanks for the jig...it worked LOL Now I get to have my baseline with AF present....icky LOL Oh well, it's not the first U/S I've had with her there so I guess I'll get through it.

Well, off to walk/run our 3 miles this morning....it'll be the last time (hopefully) that I can run for a while since you can't do anything too jarring or twisty when starting stims :) Here's praying tomorrow I get the go ahead for stims :) Just wanted to stop in and say thanks for the jig LOL
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Indie- So glad to have you back. Wanted you to know that I did call my clinic last night to ask them about my meds. I don't want to sound like I don't trust them, but since I am paying for this, I want them to reassure me that what they are doing is right. They should call me back today to let me know that everything is okay.
I took my last BCP this morning, so AF should be showing her beautiful (only an IVFer could say that) face on Sunday. Then I get to start the estrace. YIPPEEE!!! In three/four short weeks I could possibly be pregnant. Yippeee

Let us know how everything goes for your baseline.
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Heather....I am so excited for you, you have had to be so patient to wait for the school summer break. I couldn't have been as patient as you were. Yep, you'll be pregnant again before you know it! YAY

Indie...you too! So much waiting and -trust me- I know all about waiting, its horrible. Finally your time is here, you must be so excited!

kbat....the break at the lake sounds wonderful. I imagined a lake like the one in the movie "On Golden Pond" when you said that. I love big quiet lakes. Here in CO we have lakes but not many green trees, its too arrid, unless you count the evergreens. Sounds like you're doing OK, must be hard to move forward with some dissapointment. I will pray for you.

I will pray for all you girls.....for those of us who are pregnant, those who are about to become pregnant and those still working through this strange journey.
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nicaliw--it was beautiful and relaxing--although still a little cool. But just what the doctor ordered!

I should be ovulating any day now--today is day #13. In the past it usually happened right around day 14 or 15. I guess the only thing to do is plug away.

I am considering doing some volunteer work at a Children's Hospital. I go for the info session next week.
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Hello all, just a quick update before a nap LOL We got up at 4:00 and headed out at 5:15am. My hubby had rearranged his schedule so he could drive me yet again :) I appreciated it and watched the roads/exits like a hawk so I can do this next week by myself. Traffic is just killer in Atlanta and everyone drives 80mph....plus after 2 hours in the car it's hard to concentrate as it is LOL

Anyhow, the baseline went ??? She said that since I'd started bleeding yesterday that more than likely I was suppressed but that my cyst was still there, measuring 16mm (normally measures 18mm) so they'd have to wait on bloodwork to get back to check and see if I was ready for stims. My lining measured 5.9? She didn't tell me but I read it on the screen....LOL, so I think that's good....again though I'm CD2 right now so it may be a little thin.

Oh well, waiting on the call :) Pray for me and my non-disappearing cyst :) And please think of me as I'm doing all these trips. Gas is getting outrageous and it's really really hard to spend so much on gas for so many trips without really knowing the outcome. I pray it'll all be worth it.
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Indie- I will continue to keep you in my prayers. I understand about the driving in crazy places. I grew up in Denver, so you would think that I could handle anything. Well, 10 years of living in small communities, and I hate big city driving. Stresses me out so much. I am not sure I could get to my appointments without my dh. Now, I will admit that I now have a GPS system so that helps ALOT!!!!!

I am praying that your baseline comes back okay. WE have to remember that no matter what there is nothing more that WE could have or can do. It is all in HIS hands.

I am so proud of your dh for coming through for you once again. Sometimes it is hard to know if we can count on them or not. However, yours gets a gold star today :D

Well, my dr called yesterday. They said I was ONLY going to take the estrace. So, I am going to have faith in them and hope that my cycle goes well.

6 more days of school and I am DONE!!! However, since we are moving into a new school I have to pack up my whole classroom. YUCK!!!

HOpe everyone else is doing well.
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Well, good news first. I get to start stims. Bad news now....she wants me to order 12 more vials of menopur and take 2 a night. That's over 700.00....I don't have 700.00...what should I do?
Me: 34 DH: 37
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Beta #1 6/18 BFN
2nd IVF cycle July 2009
Chemical Pregnancy at 7weeks
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