Calling any August Cycle buddies

[wendy30]

Hi everyone,

Sorry I disapeared of the face of the earth and I am sorry that some of you are having delays to your treatment. I know how frustrating that is.

I was away for a scan yeasterday and suprisingly I am on track for ET on Tuesday 3rd August as was planned all along. We have 8 frosties, split 5 and 3 so the 5 will be thawed and the best 2 put back. I'm hoping 5th time lucky for us.

I have to say though I feel really positive this time and haven't been obsessing as much as normal. It helps though that my best friend is getting married in March so because shes in London and I'm in Edinburgh she sends me about 40 emails a day about the wedding so thats whats been keeping me occupied. I still think that as I'm bridesmaid fate is bound to make sure I'm fat for the dress so if this works I'd be 8 months pregnant.

Jane M & Mia hope you are ok on your 2ww I will be joining you in a couple of days.

Hope everyone is doing ok

Speak to you all soon

Wendy

[Ellie]

Hi Everyone
Welcome to all the new buddies it is nice to see the numbers increasing.
I have had a busy few days with 2 blood tests and a scan on both friday and saturday so I have been rushing up and down to London like crazy. yesterday was particularly difficult as we were supposed to be at a big family party and I had to make excuses to keep leaving!!! The up shot of it all is I had my trigger finally yesterday and so have a day off today!!!! and EC tommorrow.

Caroline good to hear you are on track, they increased my doseas well I went from 225 to 300 then down again towards the end. I know what you mean about the cost I was on them for 10 days.

Sorry haven't had time to read all posts in detail but good luck to everyone esp those on the 2ww.Keep thinking positive thoughts and drinking water like crazy.

Ellie

[AMITHIS]

Ellie,

Just want to wish you good luck for EC tomorrow!

Staci

[Jeanie]

Hi! Ok to join your group? Started on the injections a few weeks ago and egg collection due 9th August. Scary stuff this isn't it? Have been waiting for so long and now it's all happening it seems a bit overwhelming. Does anyone else feel like they are going mad with the anticipation? Any experiences anyone can relate to their behaviour? I've been feeling really down sometimes, crazy at others and generally very anxious. Please can somebody let me know if this is normal or am I really a freak? love Jeanie

[cmg]

Hi all

Welcome Jeanie, I don't think you're going crazy at all - it's a huge thing we're doing and it's bound to make us a little mad. And that's before you even think about what the hormones are doing! I should think that whatever you're feeling there's someone on this board who's felt the same at some point. I had a couple of really churned up, weepy days last week which I'm really glad to have got past. I'm kind of expecting to feel worse again as it becomes more real though, like as EC approachs, which will be soon for me too. Have you got some way of relaxing which might help the anxiety? I find a bit of yoga helps or even a long walk, just helps me feel a bit more grounded. Also, as Wendy said if you've got something else to be obsessed about, like in her case her friend's wedding, it does take your mind off things. I'm finding work quite distracting at times, because I have to fit it around long train trips to the clinic (I'm freelance, in case someone thought I had the world's most lenient boss!). Had to finish a report this evening and nearly forgot to do my injection!

Ellie, really good luck for EC tomorrow and same to Wendy for the frosties on Tuesday. Staci, I really hope your record breaking cycle finally comes to an end and you can get on with it. Jane M and Mia, hope you're staying sane on your 2ww.

BTW, Jane M I noticed on another thread that you had IVF/ICSI mix at the ARGC (if I've got the wrong person, sorry!) - what's that? I thought they were two different things. Just curious about why the mix - is it like hedging your bets or something?

Anyhow, best get off this pc and get more water. Take care all

Caroline

[alicia]

Hello all,

Have spent the last half hour trying to catch up.

Ellie, Good luck for EC tommorrow! Hope all goes well - no pain, many eggs, good maturity and good fertilization rates!

Jaye, Candy and Mia, welcome to the group. It's great to have so many of us! Good luck for this cycle to be the one!

Jeanie, No. You're not crazy or else all of us must be, too. Lately I've gotten the bizarre idea that maybe I don't want kids after all. I'm going ahead with the cycle - of course I know it could just be some wierd fleeting thought. Also, we're planning a potential retail therapy trip in the US, maybe NY in Oct. Check out the other tread if you'd like to join us.

Staci, Wow, a 5 bedroom home! In Silicon Valley, where I live, you would have to be a multi-millionaire! Here's hoping it will soon be filled with the patter of tiny feet!

Here is the list of ACBs so far:

Dolly
Staci (AMITHIS)
Caroline (cmg)
Alicia
Jane (Chubbs)
Jane (JaneR)
Wendy
Ellie
Angela
Sandra
Janem
Jaye
Candy
Mia
Jeanie

I will start a separate thread for results. Best of luck to all!

Alicia

[AMITHIS]

Alicia,

I actually had the "maybe I don't really want kids" thoughts as well. I'm relieved to find this happened to someone else as I was worried I had some serious mental problems going on! I mean how many people put themselves through this when they aren't sure if they even want children?
I didn't even dare mention these thoughts to DH because I was afraid he'd have me committed to the nearest asylum! The real test for me was trying to think ahead to when I'm too old to have them (even with the help of modern science) and wondering if I'd regret not having had them. The answer was a definite yes. I think the doubts creeping in are just a defense mechanism.....it makes it easier to deal with things not working if you've convinced yourself it's not what you really want anyway.

As far as our house, I know what you mean about the cost of living where you are. We actually lived in Westchester NY prior to this and real estate there was astronomical....probably not quite as bad as Silicon Valley but close. If you can believe it we sold our small 2 bedroom condo there and that gave us enough to buy a 5 bedroom house here. I love FL

Hope everyone else is having a good night. I started this off with the intention of individually writing to everyone but have started to feel tired (downregging med has been causing major insomnia) so will finish up tomorrow!

Staci

[alicia]

Staci,

Thanks - I'm glad I'm not the only one with occasional reservations about children. The truth is, we've been TTC for so long now that I think I'm calming down about it a little. The couples I know in their forties without kids actually have lives anyone would envy. Travel, relaxing weekends, good food, exciting jobs, intimate friendships...

But that is not to say I wouldn't be THRILLED to get a BFP ! I have persued it because I too would hate to look back years from now and wish I had given it a better try. That's why I quit my stressful job, too. I didn't want to wonder what would have happened if I wasn't travelling 70% of the time while trying to go through IVF. So I'm super relaxed and truly believe that if it doesn't happen in the next couple of trys for me, it never will.

Alicia

[jaye]

Hi, nice to meet you all! Thanks Alicia for the roll call, it is really useful, especially when there are so many of us! I know what you and Staci mean about wondering if you even want kids... I've also been through that - seems like I've also come to the same conclusion, that I would regret it later if I hadn't done everything I could to give it a go. More than anything, though, I hope I don't end up bitter if it doesn't work - I know a few couples like that, who are so bitter about IVF not working and never having kids. I know others who haven't been able to have kids and just accept it and get on with it. I really hope I could find that kind of closure if it turns out that it isn't meant to happen for us. But enough of that - need PMA right now! Although just downregging is kinda dull, doesn't even seem like we've started a new cycle yet.
Jaye.

[Dolly]

Hi Gang, hope you all had a great weekend.

Ellie, Good luck for the EC today. Hope it all goes well for you. Looking forward to hearing how you got on.

Angela, I had my last ectopic operation at Kings (Guy's sent me there for a second opinion when they couldn't find anything on the u/s) - I thought it was a v. nice hospital (I was in the new wing) and apparently the scanning equipment they have there is better than at Guys.

Welcome to all the new girls - there really is a good few of us now. Alicia, thanks for doing the roll call - it is a great help.

Love

Dolly

[Jeanie]

Thanks for the encouraging responses. Great advice to find a distraction like yoga. Have been trying to motivate myself to do something relaxing, just gotta give myself a kick up the posterior and do it! Great to hear so many of you going through the same thing. A couple of you said you were having doubts about actually wanting kids - what a relief to hear that! I think we get so involved in the process that it does make you wonder sometimes why are we doing it? Remember, we must want the patter of tiny feet much much more than most to weigh up all the pros and cons and to basically plan to such a degree. Hope that makes sense?!! Praying for us all...love Jeanie x

[Ellie]

Hi everyone
I had Ec yesterday and I got 10 which I was a bit dissapointed with but never mind. Had the call today to say 6 had fertalized so not too bad just waiting now to see how many more we loose along the way and whether they will do a day 3 or 5 transfer.

Hope everyone is doing well the thread is getting so big now it is hard to keep up with what is going on.

Who is next for Ec? and anyone due ET? still thinking positive thoughts foe those of you on the 2ww and hoping to join you soon.Hopefully I wont loose my mind during that time but I do usually get very down and depressed as soon as those little embies go back and I am convinced it is all over almost before it began.

[Dolly]

Well done Ellie, don't be disappointed - it is quality rather than quantity that counts. Fingers crossed they will all grow into good grade embies and you will get a few frosties as well.

Let us know when you hear when ET will be.

Take care

Dolly

[AMITHIS]

Wendy,

I believe you are having ET today? Hope it is going well!

Ellie,

Glad to hear EC went ok. How are you feeling? Dolly is right. Quality is much more important than quantity. It only takes one!

Hope everyone else is having a good day.

Staci

[ANGELA]

hi girls

well done ellie glad your ec went well i will repeat what everyone else has said it only takes one hun

there are quite a few of us here now not much happening with me really iv just finished my course of norethiterone so now have to wait to see if i bleed hopefully i will and all will be fine think my body has started to get used to these d/reg drugs not having nearly as many side effects tiredness is the worst i have no energy oh and also i have the sorest boobs going i think, they have got big to hehe
anyway thinking of u all always ellie let us know when et is and whos next for ec ??

love ya's Ang xxx