August Frozen Transfer

[Melo_P]

Sob sob laugh cry cry. Thanks for the support ladies.

Kizmet - your posts do make me smile (and want to cry at the same time - because this is so bl**dy hard!). You sure went through a lot on your last cycle. Your strength is admirable - I'd think I'd have been throwing up with desperation too! I've a good feeling this is the one for you!!! You know the only time I ever felt any kind of redemption from this whole thing was a small phase during my only successful IVF (FET) where I told myself I'd be okay no matter what - and was blessed with DD. But now the whole drama has been back on on my back for the last few years. And just feel like am never going to reconcile myself. Hold on . . . can't hear myself - I just gotta switch down the volumino on the "whoa oh oh is meeeee violin crescendo" that is screeching outta control. Note to self: Shake it out! Pull yourself together! I am glad I am not the only one with a DH who isn't going to be around at the point of 'being knocked up' as you put it! I've already had him lose it the day before ER and tell me I needed to just "get myself to the clinic and back as quick as I could" if I wanted to be any help to him (!!??)- at which point I remind him - this is the bit where he has to contribute 2 minutes of his life to the whole process and needs to be there. UGHGGGGHHHHHH!

Melmar if this doesn't work - (pending lotto win of course) you'll need to give me the name of your clinic! You can ask your clinic to put back 5!!!! Every cycle I have gone through I've begged to no avail for them to put back 2. They finally relented on my last cycle. When I raised could they put back more than 2 this time - given its "eighth-try-central-and-the-clock-is tickeety-ticking" - clinic told me they'd get closed down before they'd put back 3!

Will probably check in a few hours. Am going crazy.

M

[Melo_P]

. . . maybe its better NOT to ask the expects. Ghosts reponse to my pathetic paranoid question "is my probability of success reduced in light of blah blah blah yada yada yada":

Replies
" . . . yes, it is reduced by a low fertilization rate and also by your history of two failures. Just being honest."

Sob!

[kizmet]

Hey Melo,
Sorry, just a quick one as I've got to go! But chin up! I know it's tough but you're not out of the race yet! It can still work out just fine! Hugs
Kiz

[blairwh58]

melo- stay positive. I really have a feeling that this group is going to have positive results this time around. Im not much help on the advice either since this is my first Frozen Transfer. The first fresh cycle we had 13 of 13 fertlize, then 10 made it to day 3, and after we transferred 2, we ended up with 6 frozen embryos. Just try to keep your head up and dont let it stress you out (hah...i even laughed when I said that knowing thats so much easier said than done). We are all rooting for you and your embies!!

Melmar- Best of Luck!!!

Kizmet- Maybe its good luck that he wont be there at the transfer. I think Jersey had mentioned that the only time her IVF worked it was when her DH wasnt there. I even considered asking my DH to hold off on going just in case thats what made it happen. I got lucky this time and he got off work (1 of only 4 days a month hes off). Dont let it stress you out though. And since your being rewarded Thursday hopefully he will be able to make it up to you.

AFM- Increased the estrogen today...hopefully the positive effects of it will kick in soon.

[melmar]

Blair- you are on your way...increase that estrogen! Transfer day will be upon you in no time.

Melo-I think things are very different in the U.S than New Zealand. My doctor didn't want to transfer 5 willingly, but I had so many negatives that I think he finally threw in the towel because of the quality of egg...mine are obviously scrambled instead of sunnyside up. I am amazed that they let you go to the transfer without your DH. My clinic will only do it if your DH is there. I don't know why, but that is the way it is...besides, they should have to be a part of the whole process!

Kizmet...your time is approaching....so excited!! Two more days-did they give a time yet?

AFM-getting into a shower now to go to my apointment. Excited and nervous all at the same time. I was up all night trying to determine how long I would hold out before I take a HPT....thinking around 10 days will be my max....or maybe 7....but definetly not 5...at least more than 2, right? LOL

[blairwh58]

Melmar- As long as DH signs the paperwork he doesnt have to be present for any of my appointments or the transfer. They said that I have to have someone to drive me but they didnt care who it was. But I agree that they should HAVE to be there even if its just for moral support. Best of luck today!!!!

[melmar]

The 2WW has begun.......August 23rd is the official Beta....so really only 13 days to wait:) There is that number 13 again girls!! Must be our lucky number.

[Melo_P]

Hi Ladies
Goodness the adrenaline and action and nerves with all of us - they could make a movie out of this stuff (okay maybe only we would want to watch it!). Thanks again for the moral support. It makes it less lonely!

Blair - goodho - your getting closer. Whats your next step . . . a US to determine transfer date - or do they know that already. Sorry if it is on the list and I have missed it.

Kizmet - only 24 hours to transfer! Rooting for you!

Good luck Melmar - this means your first in the queue for Beta!!! We know your going to ring in the luck for us! I hope you don't mind me asking - and feel free to ignore - can I ask how many negatives you had - this might give me hope my luck is going to change. I got lucky on my first FET on my first IVF - but I've had five straight fails and a miscarriage on the back of that. You have twins right? Were they success from later or earlier cycle?

. . . my clinic is only concerned that someone drives you in too - actually thats only for the collection. For the transfer you could waltz in alone and go home on the bus!! Should the need grab you.

AFM: Spent a night staring into space. Had my day 2 results just now - all four have made it to day 2 "4 cells". Small hopes that keep us going! Embyologist notes it is early days and its very very typical apparently for most to split on day 2 and it isn't yet a strong enough suggestion of their profile or potential. A lot can happen in the next 24 hours. Think a transfer is likely though. Tomorrow they suggest I go through decision on day 3 or day 5. Just polling - what have you guys all done? Day 5's? I've only ever transferred one blast out of the 8 that have gone back over the 7 transfers. Rest were day 3.

Keep on keeping on ladies!!

M

[kizmet]

I'll put the dates in for everybody in this post and edit it as I get the details from everyone! I can then copy it and put it on each page once so we don't have to go looking for it.

Blairwh58 - Next appt 8/20, Transfer 8/24

Kizmet - Transfer 8/13

Melo - Transfer 8/13 or 8/15

Jersey Jane - Transfer?? 8/19

MelMar - In the 2ww! Beta 8/23

Good Luck everyone! Hope you're all sprinkled with plenty of baby dust!

[kizmet]

Waiting, waiting, waiting.

Going slowly insane.

Waiting, waiting, waiting.

Melmar - congrats on being PUPO! Enjoy it. Do a HPT everyday if ya want! I'm going to! Oh, well, maybe not - that would get kind of expensive.

Melo - Glad to hear your embies have made it safely to day 2! Let us know what you decide - day 3 or day 5 transfer.

Blair - Good luck with the estrogen boost!

AFM - DH will make it to the transfer now. I knew he would. I think he's just busy being grumpy because he hates the whole process and I think in some ways he feels like he has let me down because we can't "do it the normal way". Not that it actually bothers me in the least and I hardly blame him. Transfer is now scheduled for 12.15pm tomorrow! Yay. I feel like a big fat bloated pig today

Hope everything continues to go well for everyone!
Kiz

[Melo_P]

Good luck Kizmet!

Rather than individual posts - I am going to drop a big cheese bomb on all of you!! After a week of grumpsville, my very unemotive kiwi bloke husband sent me a random text message whilst I was at work today - that I'd like to pass onto you all. Kia kaha tatou . . .

"A strong person knows how to keep their life in order.
Even with tears in their eyes, they still manage to say "I'm Okay" with a smile
Change is coming - karma saw your sadness and said hard times are over
If you believe, send this to a strong person. I just did."

(Don't hold the cheeseville against me okay?)

[melmar]

Oh Melo how sweet is that..see-they do pay attention! You will make it through this-even if there are tears-you will make it through...but right now only lotsa lotsa baby dust!! To answer your question, this will be my...I don't even know if I can count it anymore...12th transfer of some sort. I did 3 fresh and a billion frozen (this was after months of IUI's). I usually had around ten make it to day 3 (my clinic doesn't do blasts as often as others-they think 3 day is good enough) with 3 being the best and them slowly dwindling in quality from there. I have beautiful twins from the last FET. So out of all of those only one took...I didn't want to leave my four year old, conceived naturally, an only child, so we kept trying. I know that is not much comfort, but again, just hang in there, miracles do happen. The doctor yesterday just shook his head at me because these last 2 are of such poor quality. I like to think if they were that poor they wouldn't have even made it out of the thaw...so there is always a chance, although to be honest I have to tell ya it is pretty darn low, probably 20% or less this time around.

Kizmet...one more day...so excited for you!!! I think I will test at around day ten. It stinks because I am on summer vacation with nothing to really keep my mind off it...I have the kids to take care of, but I am not allowed to pick them up or anything, and they said no working out....ugh! I am pretty sure I am going to go crazy trying to fill the time. I am going to sound like my four year old-only 11 more sleeps till the beta. But if it can get him through till Christmas, I am sure it will get me through till the 23rd.

Blair and Jane-things are moving along for you! Can't wait till your transfer and you are in the nutty waiting period:)

[Melo_P]

Thanks for sharing melmar - you know it does help. Because with every failure I can't help getting the feeling the writing is on the wall and it gets harder and harder to shake the burden and think there's going to be a late break. So just know it is just card turning maybe and you gotta keep going until your lucky card is up - gives me a bit of strength. Holy - you could end up with five kids!! Which I have to say - my whole life I imagined this huge rambling family and being come with them and having a big rambling house with kids and gardens and dogs - and here I am! Best laid plans hey!

Kizmet - I am really crossing everything for you!!

Blair and Jane - how goes it.

AFM: 13th hour - called with results this morning and calling back in an hour so I can make a call on a transfer today or sunday. Beside myself trying to figure this out from all angles. Hubby at work and nowhere in sight. Didn't want to have the conversation!

To top it off work is imploding and nanny for maia gone pear shaped. I needed a warning sign on my head yesterday that said "what ever you do people - don't cross me in the next 24" - but the sign wasn't working - so I basically really let rip into every single annoying person who sent me silly lecture emails and my crazy nanny who keeps changing terms and rates without telling me!

Anyway - scaredy cat - made call to do day 3 - scared they won't make it to day 5 - I am off to the clinic to transfer!!!!


M

[Melo_P]

. . . 2 x 8 cell embbies now transferred. The 2WW begins. Tick tock! Updated below with Beta. Tailgating you melmar!

Blairwh58 - Next appt 8/20, Transfer 8/24

Kizmet - Transfer 8/13

Jersey Jane - Transfer?? 8/19

MelMar - In the 2ww! Beta 8/23

Melo - 2WW - BETA 8/24

[kizmet]

Congrats Melo on being PUPO. I've joined you,

Thanks everyone for your well wishes.

Appointment was at 12.15 and I was to attend the clinic with a full bladder. Possibly went a little overboard there because I was busting to pee by the time they got around to me! They were running 45 minutes late and I think I was ready to just die from the pressure in my bladder! DH thought it all very funny! The FS doing the transfer is great and was quick and sympathetic to the plight of my bladder. She's not the FS that I've been seeing, but if I have to do another fresh cycle, I'll go through her rather than the guy I'm seeing now. So now I'm PUPO and planning on spending the weekend doing nothing other than watching DVDs.

Beta will be on the 8/24! Can I POAS yet???