Never Give up!

Tracey S · Post by **Tracey S** » Tue Dec 09, 2003 7:51 am

Many of you do not know me and many do! I am completely off my trolley as Traci and JulY Ann will tell you. Just wanted to pop over and say to you all - never give up. I have a long road ahead but have been trying for 8 years and have two young step-children which can add salt to deep wounds I can tell you! I have 2 completely knackered tubes and last August had my first IVF - it was ectopic - two weeks before my wedding! Had to go in to surgery and they could not get the other tube out - it was stuck to my bowel - not good as I have ulcerative colitis - they clipped it and took the tube with the baby in it out! 2nd IVF - not successful - I got 9 frosties tho! - I am 37 by the way. 3rd was Fet - all natural and no go. 4th was FET and just pessaries - Bingo - pg!!! we got happily to our 20 week scan only to be told our precious baby had just died! I had to go in to labour and have had to wait 12 weeks for a post mortem the results of which are Friday this week. He was a baby boy and we called him Oliver and his cremation is 19th december. I have not been back to work since and have no money. Decided that we needed to move forward and 3 months was long time to wait so did another FET - each time 2 out of 2 have thawed so had 6 thawed and 6 worked! Anyway yesterday I got the result I was looking for PG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had an HCG of over 100 on day 16 post transfer so it is high enough for me - have no sore boobs like normal and am basically wetting myself with fear as you can all imagine - shitty things seem to follow me. What I am trying to say if follow your dreams - things can get tough after a negative and some of you have had more than one. I believe we have had a fair amount of doggy doo doo on this process - far more than we deserve but I am not going to let someone kick me when I am down! Most people can get sorted these days - it takes money (yikes!) and guts and determination. I know you have it in you and just wanted to say whilst I have a milestone ahead I will always try and will always be around if anyone needs a kick. Good luck to all those on the 2ww - sorry for those who have had a negative and good luck to all those about to start. Take a deep breath and follow your dreams - I am still chasing mine Love tracey xxx

SJ BROWN · Post by **SJ BROWN** » Tue Dec 09, 2003 8:53 am

Hi Tracey Have been following your threads and you have been through so much so I am really over the moon that you are PREGNANT, you really deserve it and I really hope everything goes smoothly for you this time. Wow, what a wonderful early xmas pressy for you and your dh... You have given me hope as I am doing a 2nd FET in about feb and its really nice to read that FETs work too as the success rate is so much lower...... Can I be cheeky and ask a quick question-was it a natural cycle with pessaries? our clinic do not offer this and i have to downreg with superfact, take Oestrodial tablets and then pessaries.... Anyway, Relax(if you can) and enjoy the next 8 months...... Sarah xx

Traci · Post by **Traci** » Tue Dec 09, 2003 8:55 am

Thank god I dont have to keep it a secret anymore!!!!!! Im so pleased for you you know that already. Loves ya Trace x

michelle_in_scotland · Tue Dec 09, 2003 9:07 am

Hiya Tracey, Reading your story really touched me, you have been through so much and have still managed to carry on and get your dream. Many congratulations on your positive result. I really wish you all the best. I've not acutally started treatment yet, been told it will probably be around summer time but i hope i have the strength and courage you have to finally achieve my dream. Take care Lots of love Michelle xxx

july ann · Post by **july ann** » Tue Dec 09, 2003 9:59 am

oh my god...... what great new's, well done to you both. I often think about you when things do not go my way and even though i do not know you face to face. The way you have got on with your tmt has given me the strengh to keep going.After reading this I will not give up. As you know i'm on the 2wk and it would be great to be on the otherside with you.... it is such good new's, what a xmas present. all my love july ann

jen · Post by **jen** » Tue Dec 09, 2003 10:26 am

Oh Tracey That has really brightened up my day - such fantastic news and so well deserved. I'm thrilled for you both and hope to God that this will be a smooth sailing pregnancy for you. Enjoy Love Jen xx

ANGELA · Post by **ANGELA** » Tue Dec 09, 2003 10:37 am

Hi tracey, CONGRATULATIONS hun your story has given me great hope i have not started treatment yet hopefully starting i.v.f sometime next year but you have given me a lot of strength reading your story. i hope everything goes nice and smoothly for you well done to you and dh am sooooooooo happy for you both, Love Ang

Alison · Post by **Alison** » Tue Dec 09, 2003 12:27 pm

OH MY GOD TRACEY! How could you have been so mean keeping that one to yourself?! I guess no brandy and cokes for you then! I can't begin to tell you just how, how pleased I am for you. Good things come to those who wait, and you've waited long enough. Sending you so much love and luck Alison x

sharoninsomerset · Post by **sharoninsomerset** » Tue Dec 09, 2003 12:43 pm

Tracey, Sending you lots of love and hope that you can finally grab that dream this time!. I'm choking back tears whilst writing this at work. So happy for you both. Take care SXX

Nick · Post by **Nick** » Tue Dec 09, 2003 7:04 pm

That's b*******************y f*****************y Marvellous - WWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! Fingers crossed/clamped??! Now Traci +++++++++ - it's your turn xxxx Nicky

caz1 · Post by **caz1** » Tue Dec 09, 2003 7:12 pm

wow wow wow wow thats amazing news - SOOO glad for you - you are an inspiration - what an amazing message to write - I am just calling my dh up to have a read! Cazxx

Helen Reid · Post by **Helen Reid** » Tue Dec 09, 2003 7:31 pm

Hi Tracey I don't know but i have been reading your messages. Congratulations on your +ve result after all you have been through you deserve it. Take it easy. Helen Reid

Di · Post by Di » Tue Dec 09, 2003 7:49 pm

Hi TRACEY, I'm so happy for you and DH - although I'm sure it can't take away all the pain of your loss I'm sure your brilliant news must make the next few weeks a little more bearable. I am just so plaesed for you both. I too have had a rocky road - 8 years of tmt including tubal surgery and then 10 tmts ( 6th tmt miscarriage at 10 weeks) and am now 16 weeks. So like you I say 'don't give up - you have the strengh to carry on to follow your dream'. Di

Kat · Post by **Kat** » Tue Dec 09, 2003 10:02 pm

Tracey, I am so pleased for you, if anyone deserves this it's you for keeping everyone else going even through your worst times. Take care Lots of love Kat xx

Nicky Dean · Post by **Nicky Dean** » Tue Dec 09, 2003 11:59 pm

I just wanted to say what a strong brave person you are and no one deserves this much more than you. Good luck and i will be following you as i start my very 1st go at IVF on 27th dec at last after waiting nearly 4yrs, i have had a kidney transplant so have probs following that (which was 20yrs ago) i'm 36 and i just hope that it work's but if not then we will adopt, if i can....... Look after yourself and enjoy christmas if you can, thank you for giving us hope Love Nickyxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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