baby sitting babies

ogr1 · Post by **ogr1** » Sun Aug 31, 2003 11:08 pm

my in-laws where here for a couple of days. it was great to have them. they have 2 boys. one 7 and one who just turned 17 months. it is great having the baby here. but it is also so damn hard. it was great to be able to rock him.. it about broke my heart when my dh and him where dancing together with the music to shrek. it was so cute. but i just thought to myself how sad that he will never beable to do that with his own son. so many things that we want to teach and do with a baby of our own. but we will never baable to do that. i guess i am just feeling sorry for my self and that can be a very bad thing.. how do you guys deal with all of those feelings. i get such a storng urge or yearning to breast feed.i dont know.. i think so many things are way srewerd up.

alice · Post by **alice** » Mon Sep 01, 2003 4:22 pm

Hi Becky, just wanted to say well done for being strong really. That was an amazing thing you did in looking after the babies. It took me a long time to be able to do that. I think our feelings of sadness in never being able to do these things with our own birth children will maybe never go. You have been so brave and can't expect not to be sad after the babies have gone. Not sure what else to say really. Lose affects us all in different ways and we all have different triggers that make us sad. keep being strong for you. I'm sure that your husband and your family help you, so keep drawing on their strength. Just wanted to say that I', thinking of you and hoping that sharing your feelings of lose help to ease them in the tiniest way. Alicexxxxxx

Grace · Post by **Grace** » Mon Sep 01, 2003 4:38 pm

Dear Becky I just wanted to say how what a wonderfully kind and brave person you are. You have been through so much over the past few months and it is still such early days. It must all feel so painful and raw. I can really only imagine how you must be feeling having lost your little son so recently. I know that when I see my nephews I experience alot of emotions. It is lovely to spend time with them and cuddle them etc but it does feel very empty when they are gone. I just wanted you to know I am thinking of you. I wish we could understand why life can be so cruel at times. Sending you lots of love. GraceXX

ogr1 · Post by **ogr1** » Mon Sep 01, 2003 6:20 pm

thanks guys. i am alright , it just all hurts. there are just so many different emotions. its hard to know what to do with it all. but i have read and my mother in law. who passed away 3 years ago used to tell me to have faitn in heavenly father and he will make sure that we are ok.. she was such a wonderful women. she had 2 birth sons and then adopted there daughter and then adopted my husband. she had been threw alot. i sure wish that she was here today.. will i better get going. thabks a gain for everything, how are you 2 doing? love beckyt