Just wanted to add my best wishes to the board. I will be hoping that you all get through xmas and manage to find some hapiness. 2004 will be a better year and we will be able to manage with the help of each other<br>take care<br>a xxx

Hi grace, thanks for thinking of me. You sound as though you are taking one day at a time and thats the most important thing. You need to think carefully about how you want to proceed noe, its really tough isn't it. You sound as though you have got xmas sussed, but don't worry if you find it hard ...

Hi Grace, this time of year is hard for me too. I really stuggle with xmas in regards to the fact that every year we think.. this time next year we will have a child, and year after year nothing. Sorry but I really hate it. Its hard to be jollied along isn't it. however, this year is easier as you ...

Hi grace, like you I am not sure of what to say. These days are really hard and you are right in that this is not the time for decsions, but for getting yourself straight. Life is just not fair and you do never think that this will happen to you and i think IVF is bad in that it offers so much false ...

Grace, I have been logging on looking for news and am so sorry that this is what I find. The next few days are going to be very hard and can only say that I will try to logon every day to talk if you wnat to. Take time to cry, you need to heal.<br>Love alicexxxx

Hi Clare, just to reallt go over what lorraine and beky have said in that this is normal. You do think that you have prepared yourslef for the worst, but you can't really. It is a bereavement when you give up and youhave to treat it as such. There are stages of grieving and you are going through ...

Hi, I just wanted to follow on from what has already been said. Finally giving up is something that each of us comes to at different times and through different ways. Like you, we had 4 ICSI and 8 IUIs. In the end I lost the belief it would ever work fro us and I can see now that IVF was runing my ...

Becky, you sure do sound busy. Do you ever have time to yourself? I imagine running the ranch never lets you stop and be bored.<br><br>Our decision will be made on the panel date and then we just wait to be matched which can take up to a year but not usually longer. Hell, we have waited so long it ...

Hi grace and Becky and everyone, hope you're doing well. Grace, where are you up to in your treatment? I hope its all going well, and remember, this time you NK cells are under control and its goibng to bloody well work for you. It will be lovely to have a long timer have success. Keep strong. Am ...

just to say I tyhink you have started your 6th go and I wish you loads of luck and good vibes. Keep strong<br>alicexx

Hi Becky, just to say that yes, at the moment things are going well. w e have a date for panel- in january, and it makes things seem realt at last. Pleased your baptisms went well, you land sounds wonderful. Do you go riding horses and what dogs do you have? Dogs are a great source of comfort aren't ...

Hi all, Caz just wanted to reply to you. There are babies up for adoption that aren't special needs, but there would be a long wait. We have gone for 2 children under 4, ideally I want a 1 1/2 year old, so hopefully thats what I'll get. adoption cannot be a second best to having your own. It needs ...

Hi Lisa, glad to hear your feeling better. I was with you in 02 when you were doing IVF and I too feel gutted that it didn't happen for us. We had 8 IUIs and 4 IVF ICSI with no result. Although I can accept my infertility and am happy with the adoption process I do still get sad when I hear of other ...

hi all, Lorraine you are sounding much better. Thanks for asking after us all. we are still plodding along with the adoption process. We have 6 more home visits from the social worker before we go to court to see if we 'pass'. The time is going quite quickly really, although they do want to know ...

Hi Becky, I too am fine, and don't think you're mad coming on here all the time. i can never resist a quick check. I am thinking about social workers alot due to our home study. I must admit that I am finiding it harder than I imagined it was going to be. There seem so many pointless questions to be ...