The Over 40 Crowd

[Jeni Babes]

Sand...good luck with your test on the 15th and
Randa...good luck with your test on the 17th...I will be keeping fingers and toes crossed for both of you.... Randa is so good to hear you sounding so excited Sending Baby dust and embedding dust to both of you...

Gail- hi and welcome...hope you enjoy this lively bunch as much as i do!!!

Tammy - Good luck on your SIS tomorrow, how long will it take for the results to come through? will they be able to tell your there and then if there are any polyps? hope it's all painless for you thinking of you.x x

Kat- hows the job doing? are you very busy ( ie doing O/T) or are you managing to get out of work on time? I am missing your daily posts

Lara- you have written a beautiful response for Caroline...thanks it touched my heart

And meWhat AF i had has decided to B***er off!!! SO i guess i have to leave it in Mother Natures hands and await next months visit! Can the drugs from Nov tmt ( tested 5th DEc) still effect this months AF? I went to the homeopath and have been given some remedies so we will see what that brings on next month. I am still awaiting the fetility acupuncture-ist ( my spelling is awful i know) getting back to me...i have been on the list since the end of Dec , so hope it wont be too long now. She must be a very busy lady

Anyway...loving hugs to everyone i have missed off the personals...catch ya all later

love jen
xxxx


BigJ (Jules) - BFP 9/12/05 praying every day, Nuchal scan looked good official stats 15/02 + 14 week scan
Randa - 2ww, test date 17th Feb
Anna - Waiting for AF to start short protocol
Kat - Going to Spain 2nd March for testicular biopsy & then hope to start DE tmt again soon
Jen - Taking time out then, next IVF in May...
Lisa - BFP Feb but sadly lost at 5 weeks
Lara - planning IVF in Feb/March
Tammy- SIS 9th Feb, IVF 2 March
Caroline - natural FET, ET Thurs 8th Feb
Robyn - 2nd IVF cycle in March
Bev- waiting for egg donor, considering abroad
Amfy - FET March/April
Jane- visit to Spain 24th Jan to decide next step
Gail-

[BevT]

Hi girls,

Just dropped in for a quick catch up!

Caroline, my heart goes out to you and DH. I feel like I know you so well from our brief "friendship" on this board, and to read your news just now when I logged on brought tears to my eyes. I want to send you the biggest hug to wrap you and DH in. I am sure you have your reasons for having decided that this was your last go, you and DH have been through so much already. I guess that my turn will come soon to decide when to say enough is enough although I can't bring myself to face it just yet. Take care of each other honey. If and when you are ready, let us know how you're both doing.

LOL Bev xxx

[gailbunny]

Thankyou for your kind welcome

I have just been trying to catch up with some of the postings as with work I dont have much time to read up.

Caroline my heart really goes out to you, I wish you well and send my deepest wishes.

Best of Luck to the ladies testing now and in the next few weeks hope you will be smiling very soon.

I am tentively waiting for AF at end of this month. I go on Friday for my check up and program of drugs.

Apprehensive & excited that I can finally get on the rollercoaster.

Regards
Gail

[Sand]

Jen - We were told it takes 3 clear months to make sure all the medi is out of your system. It just takes forever when you're sat waiting ... It will turn up soon, at the most inopportune moment, no doubt ..

Sandra x

[cmg]

Hi, I'm still here - couldn't keep away for long. Thank you all for your kind words and good wishes. Lara, I appreciate what you mean about "playing my roll of the dice", that really struck a chord. I'm trying to convince myself that I played the best possible game and did everything that I could. I can't help wishing that I'd sought help earlier and tried IVF sooner, though I didn't at the time because I said I'd never do it and then I changed my mind. But we make our decisions on the information we've got and our feelings about it at the time and we can't turn the clock back.

I've been through some horrible experiences, including almost dying on my first attempt, but I still realise that it could have been worse. When I read about those of you who have lost babies, sometimes over and over again, I cannot imagine the pain you must feel and the legacy it leaves. I have the pain of "never having had" (the ectopic was over before I had a chance to get used to the idea of being pregnant) rather than the pain of loss. I suspect that it is slightly easier, though it still hurts like hell.

I can't begin to tell you how much this over-40s thread means to me. The board in general is great, but there is something particularly special about this group and I feel very close to people here. There is less unblinkered positivity and "one day it WILL be our turn" stuff and more realisim about the precarious nature of what we are doing. Maybe it's just because the clock ticks so loudly for us or maybe wisdom really does come with age (hell there have to be some advantages!). But I do know that people here always know exactly the right thing to say and it really helps.

Today I am feeling a bit better, a little less likely to cry constantly, but I think I have a long way to go yet. This is about re-imagining the rest of my life which might mean anything from Lara's well digging in Peru to deciding to live in a commune to carrying on pretty much as I am but taking up tango. Who knows, it's way too soon. DH and I are going to go out for lunch to a lovely country house hotel and then walk in the grounds as it is a crisp sunny day here.

I will come back - I need to know how Sand and Randa have done for starters (signs look good to me so far, girls) but bye bye for now

love Caroline

[lara]

Hi everyone,

Caroline, great to see you were brave enough to post again - that is a very good sign in my book - well done, the country walk and lunch sounds really rejuvenating and refreshing - bon courage. x.

Thanks for what you said, Jeni; sorry to hear this month's AF wasn't a winner - I suppose the only bonus might be that you get another month of recovery time and distance from your last treatment. You're doing all the alternative health stuff already, - are you doing supplements/been to a nutritionist? I expect so.

Well, I got a surprise, AF came 3 days early so I was rushed into making a decision about going this month or next - I thought I had til Saturday. I'm absolutely knackered, still, it's just not going away - and I thought, I'm not going to be any less tired, probably, in a month's time, so I've gone for it, legged it up to the Lister, got squeezed in for a scan, got a different drug for the first time ever - menopur instead of gonal F - on the max dose of course as always! I've got to try and drum up some PMA, but I'm really not a naturally positive person (depressed even as a child!) so that'll be going against nature! There were women in there with their babies in buggies, mewling and puking and all that, it was quite funny really - I wasn't upset for once! Well, seat belt on, back on the rollercoaster of ivf, oh god oh god (the most expensive fair ground ride I've ever been on!)

Luck and love to all,

Lara x

[randa2006]

Lara,
I love to read your posts. You have a way with words. Glad you are on board again!
Also, I agree that what you wrote for Caroline was very sensible. Gee, we are so lucky to have each other aren't we?

Caroline,
You sound like your head is in a good place, at least as good as it can be under the circumstances. I always say I hate it when bad things happen to good people, but maybe you can find a way to make this bad thing into something good. Glad you are sticking around for a little while here. We need you.

[Jeni Babes]

Caroline- I admire your strength Honey...take a day by day step and post us when you can...sending you big hugs and love to you and DH....

Lara- Fast and Furious HUH! are you going for a short cycle or are you going for down reg at day 21 then stimms next month? Good luck to you sweetie...i LOVED the analogy "Well, seat belt on, back on the rollercoaster of ivf, oh god oh god (the most expensive fair ground ride I've ever been on!) " Soooooooooo true...

Randa and Sand...PMA and ***Baby dust*** on your 2ww...any more signs ladies

I am doing okay today! It's amazing when you just surrender into the arms of Mother Nature that the Mind/emotions stuff just drift away!!! Why can't i be like this all of the time? Is it something to do with Hormones ? or is it just i am a bIG worry Wart? I am actually not worrying about AF now and going with the flow...saw the homeopath on tuesday and now 3 days on and full of remidies i and feel top of the world! I see the health Kinesiologist on Monday who will test me for nutrient/vit/ mineral deficiancies ( spelling? ) and will take it all from there. I am happy to have 3 months before next cycle to get my body, mind, emotions and Spirit back in shape...IN the words of James Brown "I feel good...knew that i would...." Long may this good feeling last hope you all caught the VIBES

LOve to ya all
jen
xxxxx

[DebraP]

I've been lurking and hovering around but it's time I came clean and showed my face on here as a participant vs. an observer.

Will catch up on the news and update the who's doing what list.

Lara, good luck with getting psyched and ready.
Jeni, it's lovely to read that you're on top of the world. We all need to feel like that too!

Debra

[meandmine]

Hi Debra P - I have been hovering too lately - anxiously waiting for news from our friends from the Over 40 board. Hope you are in good health and that life is treating you and your family well.

Randa, I can't believe you are actually in your 2ww - it's been a long time coming - but seriously I will be thinking of you and keeping everything crossed for you both.

Sand, good luck to you too during your 2ww - come on girls do your thing and POST US HAPPY

Love and best wishes to you all
Sharon x

[Sand]

Thanks Jen and Sharon for your well wishes ... I'm fine thanks. Not going too potty yet.

Randa .... How are you at the moment ? Hope you're feeling a little more confident.

Well, who'd have guessed it Debra !!!!!! Lovely to see you here cycling again !! Glad you've decided to come clean ..

Sandra x

[randa2006]

Hey Debra!
So glad you can join us! This is just too exciting, isn't it? When is your test date? And, please add yourself to the over-40 list we have going.
Come on FEBRUARY!

Sharon,
Yes, it has been a long time, my friend. I still can't really believe I'm on my first 2ww. I see my name on the Feb 2ww list and my heart skips a beat. Thanks for your support. I need all I can get with these old 44-year eggs.

Hello everyone else! Any news? Lots of PMA to our wise crowd.

[teachertam]

Hello All:

Caroline: I'm glad to see that you posted. I'm sorry to spring the adoption issue on you. It is just that i'm so excited about it. You are in my prayers.

Lisa: We hope to hear from you soon, when you feel like talking.

Randa/Sandra: Good luck. My fingers are crossed!

Lara: Welcome back to the IVF rollercoaster.

Jen: When will you be cycling? I will be cycling at the end of Feb. Maybe we will jump back on the rollercoaster at the same time.

Kat: Where have you been? We miss you.

The SIS test went well today. There were no polyps or visible fibroids. DH and I talked and decided to go one more round of IVF I should be back on the rollercoaster the beginning of March. I'll have to get my "panties with the holes" back out. I am still going to proceed with the adoption in parallel to the IVF. I do not think that I could take another BFN without a backup plan. I really want to me a mother.

Regards,
Tammy

[randa2006]

Tammy,
I told my nurses about your panties and they had a good laugh! (hope you don't mind)

My butt is sooooo sore from these injections. We do left hip on odd days and right hip on even days - it's the only way we can keep it straight because they are both sore all the time now, I can't remember which one was stuck last.

I complained about having to do it for 10 weeks while the doc was finishing up at ET and he "gently" reminded me that that would be a good problem to have.

Work was okay today. First day back. Really helps keep my mind off things. I have to confess, I went to Babies R Us the other day and browsed around for about half an hour. I am looking for a "pregnant after 40" type of book (at least that was my excuse).

Hope everyone else is having a good evening.

All My Best,
Randa

[teachertam]

Randa:

Eventhough the panty story sounds ridiculous, it really works .
I never had to worry about DH giving the injection in the wrong spot. I used to alternate hips too, but it seemed that right hip worked out the best. After I quit getting the shots, my butt broke out in little red hives
(where the shots were given). The rash did not itch and finally went away.

I will be doing the injection routine starting the beginning of March.
Hopefully, the new year will bring me luck. March is a good time for me, since I think EC and ET will take place around my spring break week.

Regards,
Tammy