Pheonixes Rising

[Lis]

Hi Girls

A quicker one than normal as doing a sneaky one at work.

Feelin like my pma is faultering. I got a phonecall from the ivf nurse this afternoon to try and answer some of my concerns before the big day next Thursday (dh's biopsy). Have just learned that if they don't find sperm from dh next Thursday and we have to resort to donor, we will have to travel to Glasgow (100 miles round trip!!) to have IUI with donor. Becuse of the lift in the anonymity clause and the subsequent shortage of sperm donors, they only offer donor in combination with ivf now.

I know I need to stay strong but can't help but think ... what if dh doesn't have sperm? After all the chances are only 30%. what if we have to travel to Glasgow for several IUI's?? 1) i don't know how I'll cope if dh doesn't get the chance to father a child for us as this means so much to him as well as me and we really don't know how we feel about donor and 2) if he can't and we decide on donor I can't comprehend 100 mile trip for every single appointment!! ( time off work, stress etc etc).Having read up I know we could go for between 3 - 6 IUI's before either getting a result or going onto IVF.

I'm really starting to panic about all of this now.........

Feel like crying every time I think of it but I know I have to be strong for dh.

Catch you all later. Sorry for very negative post.

[Jeni Babes]

Hi all

I am sorry i can't give you all personal posts

LIsa...keep the PMA honey...we are not that far away in Glasgow it only takes 45mins on the train...Lots of people travel for tmt ..Sally went from Germany to London for her tmt and jules went from germany to Keiv...I think you are probably more worried about Dh's swimmers? it's a nightmare playing the waiting game know!!! But by next week i hope you w3ill have all the answers. remember the clinics can be MEGA pessamistic to keep themselves in the right. they told me at one point that i was in menopause because i didn't respond to drugs then 3 months later got all the way to ET....sending you mega PMA to keep your chin up in the next 10 days.

Everyone enjoy valentines day tomorrow...give DH's big kisses..

I am off to hospital...my Dad went to the g.P.'s today and is now in getting test done...It is now thought he has had some mini strokes and has cognitive imaprment and walking difficulties. saw him last night at home and Mum was really worried about him, so i made an appointment at the GP...thank goodness he went. all this only happened
yesterday so i hope it's not serious ...i will be in touch....

For the list Lisa and everyone else...copy and paste it onto a post , highlight in size/ colour...and paste...
Give it a go Lisa and add in your christening ...

catch ya all later Buddies...sorry not time to talk. I m going to hosp now.
love jen
xxxx

[Jeni Babes]

Hi all
the update is DAD did have a series of mini strokes...but is coping better now in hosp...It was a worry but after seeing him last night I felt better...he was in the greatest of Spirits and the best i had seen him for weeks...

other good news...
SMITA...has had a baby GIRL... CONGRATULATIONS...both are doing fine...l
ittle P posted it today... won't be long until it's little P's turn

Hi to everyone hope you are all doing well...
Love jen
xxxx

[Lis]

Hi Girls,

Just a quickie as still at work and trying to get out of here and get home!! but not sure if I'll be able to post later.

Jen - sorry to here about your Dad having had stroke problems but glad to hear he's in good spirits. Its just great to find out what was wrong isn't it? Dh's dad has had major stroke problems over the last 5 years so know what it feels like. Its tough to see them suffer but glad he's a bit better.

That's great about Smita - do you know the name yet??

I'm feeling ok - you're right Jen my main worry is dh not having any swimmers and then having to choose plan B. I was sitting in the car on Monday night after my post and started crying and sobbing uncontrollably:( . Dh was fantastic reminding me to stay positive and try keep smiling. He's so strong.

Did all phoenixes have a good Valentine's??

Dh sent me a dozen red roses to work then cooked me a lovely dinner. AAWWHH !! really cheered me up.

[luby]

Hi everyone

Hope everyone had a good valentines day, Smita and DH got a lovely pressie didn't they? A beautiful baby girl....

Today has been quite a hard day for me, my colleague went for some 3D scans doing and when she got back was showing them off (can't blame her) then another girl who use to work with us brought her baby in to show us, we got a temp in today as well and guess what? Yes she's pregnant, so it was baby talk all day. I felt really sad, didn't let it show though, put on such a brave face but inside I was hurting so much, I did join in the conversation as I didn't want them thinking I was ignorant. A friend of mine who I work with must of known I'd be feeling a bit shitty and just looked at me and whispered 'it will be your turn one day' it was nice of her but I felt worse then, I could of burst into tears, but I didn't, I did have a little cry though when I got home.

I have been thinking about my precious baby all day, I never stop actually, but today "flump" has been with me all day..

I suppose we all have these crappy days don't we????

Also I wanted to mention, someone who knows I've been through IVF, said something quite insensative to me yesterday, they said, I can't believe you have had 2 positives through IVF, sadly they ended in miscarriages but the success rate is so low, you've had 2, wonder why you didn't get a NEG, then they said, I aren't been awful, but I can't see you getting a pos next time, 3 in a row????????????????? I couldn't believe it, I didn't have chance to say anything back as I was gobsmacked.
What do you ladies think???

Lucy

[Lis]

Lucy oh my god!! What an insensitive @~$%&*))!"£?:@@!!!Who said that? was she old? young?just plain stupid???? I surprised you didn't belt her one - I'd have been as shocked as you. No wonder you couldn't react at the time cos you were so shocked. That's the most insensitive thing I've heard to date. It never ceases to amaze me the thing people say. The only thing I can say is rise above it, don't let her get to you honey and do your moaning here

Also you did so well at work. You should be really proud of yourself. Well done. A colleague of mine came to work a fortnight ago and showed me her scan pictures. I too didn't want her to think I was ignorant so kept chatting and enquiring. Like you when I got home I had a little cry. But well done hun, you did good!

[MLG]

Unbelievable!!!!! How could they be soOOoo insensitive?!
Even thogh I'm sure they didn't mean it to hurt you, I just can't understand how they could say it to your face!

Keep up the PMA, we're here for you.

[luby]

Hi Lis and MLG

It was a women who said it and she was in her forties, the thing is she has been through IVF herself, so you would think her of all people would understand a little bit. Then I thought because it has never worked for her, she may of been a bit resentful becuase I had had 2 positives, but I then I thought, no way, she must know what its been like for me, this is not an easy road to go down. Oh Well I am going to prove her wrong and get a BFP.
Yes Lis, work has been quite hard again today, some of the girls were looking on this website that predicts the sex of your baby, well they were all coming out correct, they were checking children that had already been born. A girl who is preg at min did hers and it said she'd have a boy (she is) a girl who has just come off maternity leave did hers for her 2 sons, it said they were boys, anyway they just kept coming out correct. I got a bit upset but thought I wanted to do it, so a bit later I went on and it showed my baby was a boy. I know I shouldn't believe silly things like that, and I usually don't, but it was kinda wierd. I also did it for my niece and nephew, it was correct and other babies I know were correct.
Oh I know all that sounds silly but I couldn't help going on it.

Anyway girlies hope everyone is doing OK?

Take Care

Lucy

[Jeni Babes]

Hi all

Lucy- what a nightmare..i would have smacked the B**ch UP! ( not that i am usually prone to violence )
More a sort of GOOD against evil sort of thing ....was she Darth Vader? Then we can all light saber her HEAD OFF!!!!!
hope you are doing better Honey!!! Keep up the PMA! you are gioing to get another .... It's good to cry it all out and I still think of my 10wk old little Jelly Baby (now 2 yrs on)

Lisa glad you had a lovely valentines...try and keep the PMA for Dh's swimmers...talk to them and send them some love....sounds weird i know but if people can talk to plants you can talk to DH's B***s
hope i made you laugh anyway!

MLG- How ya doing? hugs to you Honey.

I am doing okay...tired and still stressed by the negligance of the Consultant from dad's last op. If he had re-prescribed his meds after the op dad would never have had a stroke. Dad has waited 6wks since his op to see the consultant ( he didn't even see him in hosp after the op to hear if the op was okay!!!!) Anyway luckily dad has only had a minor stoke and sgould be okay to get out of hosp next week. On a happy note AF has fully arrived a full month after the dibs abd draps started!!! So my hormones are obviously back on track!!!! here we come tmt in MAY!!!

have a good weekend all

love jen
xxxx

[Jeni Babes]

NEXT WEEK IS A BUSY ONE!!!!
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE...Keep us all,posted on news...

20th Feb--LISA- Ben Elton
21st Feb--LOLA ?? start de-reg for FET??
22nd Feb--LUCY- meeting with consultant.
23rd Feb--LISA- Dh's biopsy
25th Feb--JEN--Friends birthday Party
26th Feb--JEN-Dinner Dance

3rd March--NICKI-Consultation with Clinic .
14th March--JULIE & DH- wedding Ani
15th March--RACHEL- Meeting with consultant.
24th March--NICKI and DH wedding Anniv.
March--GAIL on hols in Egypt.
March--MLG- starting tmt.
March/April--LUCY- starting tmt.
March/April--GAIL- starting tmt.

3rd April-LISA--Mamma Mia
6th April--LISA--Nursing consultation
15th-22nd April--JULIE- Holidays in Wales.
April/May--GAIL-- FET.
April- - JEN-- on hols in France.

17th May--JEN-- Ani
26thMay-- NICKI on hols in Ireland
May--JEN---starts tmt.
May--LISA- going to see Little Britain.
July--LISA--starting tmt.
July--JULIE-- starting 1st ICSI tmt.
8th Aug--LISA--wedding ani
8th Sept--NICKI--seeing Robbie in concert!
9th Sept--JULIE & PENNY-- seeing our Robbie in concert!
2nd Oct-- NICKI--31st birthday!!!

love jen
xxxxx

[Julie2039]

Hi girls

Just a quick one today. THANK GOD ITS WEEKEND!!! Had a mare of a week (I hear me saying this regularly lately?!) but off out tonight and have a christening tomorrow to round it all off. Got Monday off too so YIPPEEE.

Jen glad your AF is back on track and hope you feel ok about your dad. Hospitals can be rubbish but now thet have his meds sorted he will be fit and well in no time.


Lisa, Lola, Lucy - Best of luck this week. Let us know how you get on x

Hope everyone else is ok and that Nicki is settled in her new home. Have a fabulous positive weekend girls. Speak next week.

[luby]

Hi Ladies

Hope everyones OK.? Just a quick message to wish everyone a very nice weekend.!

I'm not up to much, me and DP are just going shopping now, then food shopping, then chilling tonight, I think I will just chill tomorrow as well.

I have been full of cold since Thurs, feel a bit better today but still got a bunged up nose (tmi)

Lisa and Lola - good luck for next week, can't believe how fast out appt's have come round. I'm quite nervous but excited at same time.

Jeni - MLG - Lis - Julie- Hope you ladies are OK? Have a brill weekend what ever you do.

To anyone else I've missed - A BIG HELLO TO YOU..!

Lucy

[Jeni Babes]

Hi all

Wow what a lovely Sunny Saturday..thank goodness it's the weekend... I am just having a chilling day like you Lucy... hi julie good to hear from you
Hope everyone enjoys their weekend too....catch ya ll later

love and hugs
jen
xxxx

[luby]

Just got back from shopping in Leeds and wow what a lovely day it has been, it still looks nice out now.....!

Lets hope it lasts

[MLG]

Guess you have the good weather for a change
It's cloudy and really windy over here!

Done some shopping (nothing "nice", just food and stuff for home). Then had lunch at my parents.
Going to the moovies later.
Guess it'll be a "normal" calm weekend.

Going for my pre-tmt scan on Tuesday. Things are starting to roll

xxxxx


Don't think my ticker is working properly!?!